Apocalypse
Next
Tuesday
David Safier
Translated
by Hilary Parnfors
For Marion, Ben and Daniel
… I love you
Contents
Title Page
Dedication
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Chapter Twenty-Four
Chapter Twenty-Five
Chapter Twenty-Six
Chapter Twenty-Seven
Chapter Twenty-Eight
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Chapter Thirty
Chapter Thirty-One
Chapter Thirty-Two
Chapter Thirty-Three
Chapter Thirty-Four
Chapter Thirty-Five
Chapter Thirty-Six
Chapter Thirty-Seven
Chapter Thirty-Eight
Chapter Thirty-Nine
Chapter Forty
Chapter Forty-One
Chapter Forty-Two
Chapter Forty-Three
Chapter Forty-Four
Chapter Forty-Five
Biographical Note
About the Publisher
Copyright
Chapter One
There’s no way that Jesus can have looked like that, I thought to myself as I sat in the parish office staring at the painting of the Last Supper. He was a Levantine Jew, wasn’t he? So why did he look like a Bee Gee in most of the pictures?
Before I could get any further in my thoughts, the Reverend Gabriel stepped into the room. He was an elderly gentleman with a beard, piercing eyes and deep frown lines. But then most people would probably get wrinkles like that after more than thirty years of shepherding.
Without any form of greeting, he asked me: ‘Do you love him, Marie?’
‘Yes… erm… of course I love Jesus… great guy…’ I replied.
‘I mean the man whom you want to marry in my church.’
‘Oh.’
The Reverend Gabriel always asked very indiscreet questions. Most people who lived in our little town of Malente tended to think that it was because he had a genuine interest in his congregation. I, on the other hand, thought that he was just incredibly nosy.
‘Yes.’ I replied. ‘Of course I love him.’
My Sven was indeed a very lovable man. A gentle man. A man who made me feel safe. He was a man who did not mind in the slightest that he was with a woman whose BMI called for plaintive prayers. And most important of all, I could be sure that Sven would not cheat on me with an air hostess – unlike my ex Marc, who I can only hope will end up burning in hell under the watchful eye of particularly creative demons.
‘Sit down, Marie,’ Gabriel said, pulling an armchair to his desk. I sunk down into the dark leather, as he sat down opposite me, at his desk. I had to look up at him and realised immediately that this was the angel he was aiming for.
‘So, you want to get married in church?’ Gabriel asked.
‘No, in a chicken run,’ is what would have loved to have answered. Instead I did my best to sound pleasant. ‘Yes, that’s what I wanted to talk to you about.’
‘I just have one question for you, Marie.’
‘And what would that be?’
‘Why do you want to get married in church?’
The real answer was that there is nothing more unromantic than a wedding at a registry office. And because I had dreamt of a big white wedding as a child and still did, even though I knew in my head that it was seriously naff. But you don’t pay any attention to your head when you’re getting married, do you?
Yet to admit this would not have been particularly helpful to my cause. So I smiled as sweetly as I could and stammered: ‘I… I have a great need to… in the church… in front of God…’
He interrupted me abruptly. ‘Marie: I have basically never ever seen you at any of our services.’
‘I… I… I have a very busy job.’
‘You’re supposed to rest on the seventh day.’
I did rest on the seventh day. And on the sixth day. Sometimes I even pulled a sickie, to rest on one of the first five days too. But I doubt that was what Gabriel meant.
‘You were already doubting God during confirmation class twenty years ago,’ he quipped.
That man certainly had quite a memory. How could he remember that? I was thirteen then and I was going out with a very cool guy called Kevin. It felt like I was in heaven in his arms, and he was the first person I ever snogged. Unfortunately that’s not all he wanted to do: he was also very eager to put his hands under my jumper. I didn’t let him as I felt there was plenty of time for that sort of thing. He didn’t share my view, and that’s why he made sure to get his hands under someone else’s jumper at confirmation camp, right in front of my eyes. The world, as I knew it, ended at that very moment.
And it came as no consolation that he had felt those breasts with the same sensitivity that bakers demonstrate when kneading dough. Nor was my sister Kata, who’s two years older than me, able to cheer me up, even though she said nice things like ‘He didn’t deserve you’, ‘He’s a stupid fool’ or ‘He should be shot’.
So I ran to Gabriel and, with tears in my eyes, I asked him: ‘How can there be a God if there are awful things like heartache?
‘And do you remember what I answered?’ asked Gabriel.
‘God allows heartache, because he gave people free will,’ I droned.
I also remember thinking at the time that it would have been good if God had denied Kevin this power of free will.
‘I also have a free will,’ Gabriel explained. ‘I am retiring soon and no longer need to believe everyone whose godliness I do not feel is genuine. Wait for my successor. He’ll be here in six months.’
‘But we want to get married now!’
‘And that’s my problem, because…?’ he asked provocatively.
I didn’t say anything, just wondered whether it was ever OK to hit a vicar.
‘I don’t like my church being used as an events venue,’ Gabriel explained, looking at me with his piercing eyes. I was almost beginning to feel bad. My anger gave way to a diffuse sense of guilt.
‘There is another protestant church in this town, you know,’ he said.
‘But… I don’t want to get married in that one.’
‘And why not?’
‘Because… because…’ I didn’t know whether I should say why. But it actually didn’t make any difference, because Gabriel clearly didn’t have a very good impression of me anyway. So I sheepishly told him. ‘Because my parents got married in that church.’
Amazingly, Gabriel now became more gentle. ‘You’re in your mid-thirties. Shouldn’t you be over your parents’ divorce by now?’
‘Of course I am… it would be ridiculous if I wasn’t,’ I replied. I had actually had a couple of hours of therapy, until it got too expensive. Parents really should be forced to open a savings account as soon as their children are born so that they can pay for psychologists later on.
‘But you’re still
afraid that it might be unlucky to get married in the same church as your parents?’ Gabriel asked.
After a moment’s hesitation I nodded. ‘Well, I’m superstitious.’
He gave me a surprisingly sympathetic look. It seemed that his Christian love was kicking in.
‘All right then,’ he said. ‘You can get married here.’
I could hardly believe my ears. ‘You… you’re an angel, Rev!’
‘I know,’ he replied, smiling in a strangely melancholy way.
When Gabriel realised that I’d seen the expression on his face, he ordered me to leave right away. ‘Quick, before I change my mind.’
Full of relief, I jumped up and hurried towards the door. Another painting caught my eye. This one was a depiction of the Resurrection of Christ. And I thought to myself that it really did look like Jesus might start singing Stayin’ Alive.
Chapter Two
‘I told you the Reverend was a nice man,’ said Sven, as he sat next to me on the sofa, massaging my feet in our cute little rooftop apartment. Unlike all other men, he actually liked doing it, which I felt could only be explained by a rare genetic defect. My ex-boyfriends had basically only ever massaged me for about ten minutes and then demanded sex afterwards as a thank you for their great efforts. This was particularly true of Marc, the air hostess-lover.
Before I met Sven in my mid-thirties, I was single and my sex life was non-existent. Every time I saw women with babies, I realised that my biological clock was ticking. And every time those completely exhausted mothers smiled at me pityingly, telling me that having children was the only way to find peace, my exceedingly fragile self-confidence took a hit. In such moments I could only calm myself down with a song that I had specifically composed for these occasions: ‘I don’t have no stretch marks, Doo-da, Doo-da! I don’t have no stretch marks, Oh, de doo-da day, hey!’
I was already trying to come to terms with the fact that I would probably end up like one of those women whose decayed corpse is found by chance in her one-bedroom apartment by a house clearance company seven months after her death. And then I met Sven.
I had sung my stretch mark song a little too loudly at a café in Malente whilst walking past an exceedingly annoying new yummy mummy. This happy, fulfilled mother then showed me just how at peace with herself she was by throwing a cup of coffee in my face. I tripped, fell and hit my head on the edge of a table. With a gash across my forehead, I took a taxi straight to the hospital and was greeted by Sven. He was working there as a nurse. I can’t say that he was particularly attractive – that’s why we were very well-suited. When I cried as the wound was stitched, he gave me his handkerchief. When I moaned about the stains on my shirt, he comforted me. And when I thanked him for everything, he invited me out for a pizza. Fifteen pizzas later, I moved in and was overjoyed never to have to see my one-bedroom apartment ever again.
Another eighty-four dinners later, Sven proposed in the most perfect way imaginable – down on one knee, with a wonderful ring that must have cost him at least a month’s wages. And he even got the kids’ football team he trained in his spare time to make a giant heart out of roses and sing ‘You Are My Heart’s Delight’.
‘Will you marry me?’ he asked.
For a moment I thought, ‘If I say no now, those kids will be traumatised for life.’
Then I answered, deeply moved. ‘Of course!’
Sven was rubbing my feet when my eyes were drawn to the Malente Post. He had circled one of the property ads.
‘You’ve… circled something there?’
‘There’s a new development area that’s in our price range.’
‘And why would we want to look at that?’ I asked in an alarmed tone.
‘Well, it wouldn’t be bad with something bigger if we want to have children.’
Children? Had he just said ‘children’? During my single days, I had admittedly gazed with envy at mothers, but since getting together with Sven I felt there was still some time before I became a zombie with dark circles under my eyes telling everyone how fulfilled I now was.
‘I… think we should enjoy our life as a couple a bit longer,’ I said.
‘I am thirty-nine and you are thirty-four. With every year that we wait, the chance of us having difficulty conceiving increases,’ Sven declared.
‘You have a lovely way of trying to convince a woman to have a child,’ I said, trying to smile.
‘Sorry.’ Sven was always quick to say sorry.
‘It’s all right.’
‘But… you do want kids, don’t you?’ he asked.
I didn’t know what to say. Did I really want to have children? My pause was turning into silence.
‘Don’t you Marie?’
As I couldn’t bear to watch this man suffer, I joked: ‘Of course, fifteen of them.’
‘A football team with subs,’ he smiled happily. Then he kissed my neck. That was his preferred way of initiating sex. But it took rather longer than usual to get me in the mood this time.
Chapter Three
‘Sewage plant turns thirty.’
I typed the headline of my new cover story without an ounce of enthusiasm. When I left journalism school, I had still had high hopes of getting a job at a magazine like Der Spiegel, but I would probably have needed better grades for that. So for my first job, I ended up in Munich at Anna, the magazine for the modern woman with an attention span of no more than half a page. It was not my dream job, but on good days I almost felt like Carrie in Sex and the City. All I needed was a five-figure budget for designer clothes and some liposuction.
I might have stayed at Anna forever. But sadly Marc was made editor-in-chief. Sadly he was über-charming. Sadly we became a couple. Sadly he cheated on me with that skinny air hostess, and sadly I didn’t take it quite as brilliantly as I should have. I tried to run him over.
Well, not properly.
But he did have to jump out of the way a little bit.
After this performance I resigned. Between my sub-optimal CV and the dried-up journalism market the only job I could find was at the Malente Post. And that’s only because my father knew the publisher. Returning to my hometown at the age of thirty-one was like running around with a sign that said: ‘Hello. My life is a complete and utter failure.’
The only advantage of working at such a dull place was that I had plenty of time to think about the table plan for the wedding, which people say is a science unto itself. I was particularly concerned about where to position my divorced parents. Just as I was racking my brains about what to do, my father came waltzing into the office and made the whole thing even more complicated. Migraine-inducingly complicated.
‘I really need to tell you something,’ was how he greeted me. I was surprised. He normally looked so pale, but now he almost seemed to be glowing with happiness. He had put on plenty of aftershave and for once the little hair he did have was neatly combed.
‘Dad, can’t this wait?’ I asked. ‘I really don’t have time. I need to write an article about all the things I never wanted to know about disposal of human excrement.’
‘I have a girlfriend,’ he blurted out.
‘Well… that’s… that’s wonderful news!’ I stammered, forgetting all about the excrement.
Dad had a girlfriend. That certainly was a surprise. I tried to imagine who this woman might be. Perhaps an elderly lady from the church choir? Or a patient from his urology clinic (although I didn’t actually want to envisage their first encounter in too much detail).
‘Her name is Svetlana,’ Dad beamed.
‘Svetlana?’ I repeated, and tried to clear my mind of all the prejudices I had against Slavic-sounding female names. ‘Sounds… nice…’
‘She’s not only nice. She’s great,’ he beamed even more.
Oh my God, he was in love! For the first time in more than twenty years. Although I’d always hoped that he would find love, I wasn’t quite sure what I was supposed to think about it.
‘I’m sure you
’ll get on really well with Svetlana,’ Dad said.
‘Oh yeah?’
‘You’re the same age.’
‘What?’
‘Well, almost.’
‘What’s that supposed to mean? Is she forty?’ I asked.
‘No, she’s twenty-five.’
‘She’s what?’
‘Twenty-five.’
‘She’s what?’
‘Twenty-five.’
‘She’s whaaat?’
‘Why do you keep asking that?’
Because my brain was about to go into meltdown at the thought of my father having a twenty-five-year-old girlfriend.
‘So, so where exactly is she from then?’ I asked, trying to keep my cool.
‘Minsk.’
‘Russia?’
‘Belarus,’ he corrected me.
Impatiently, I looked around to see if there were any hidden cameras.
‘I know what you’re thinking,’ Dad said.
‘That there must be a hidden camera around here somewhere?’
‘OK, I don’t know what you’re thinking.’
‘So what did you think I was thinking,’ I asked.
‘That Svetlana is only interested in my money, because I met her via an online dating agency…’
‘You met here where?’ I interrupted.
‘On www.amore-easterneurope.com.’
‘Oh, www.amore-easterneurope.com. Well, that sounds very reputable.’
‘You’re being sarcastic, aren’t you?’
‘And you are being naive,’ I replied.
‘It has the best ratings on www.onlinedatingagencytest.com,’ he insisted.
‘Well, if www.onlinedatingagency-test.com says so, then Svetlana must be a highly respectable woman, who is neither interested in your money nor German citizenship,’ I quipped.
‘You don’t even know Svetlana!’ Dad was very offended now.
‘And you do?’
‘I was in Minsk last month…’
‘Stop, stop, stop – stop right there!’ I jumped up from my chair and sized up to him. ‘You told me that you went to Jerusalem with the church choir. You were so looking forward to the Church of the Holy Sepulchre.’
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