by kimberly
I didn’t mean to hurt her, just wanted to get off that subject. But that was all anyone wanted to talk about. I blinked back the tears. It was a wonder I had any tears left to shed. “Sorry. I want to be left alone.” I stood.
She looked like she wanted to say something, anything, to make me feel better.
I walked out the door.
It was too late for comfort.
I was on a sinking ship.
And I hoped it went down soon.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
RICK
January 15
Anchorage, Alaska
7:14 p.m.
Quiet ruled his enormous house. He’d long since sent Margaret, his housekeeper, home. Sometimes he preferred being alone.
The sky had been dark for hours. That’s what happened in winter in Alaska. Dark late into the morning. Dark early in the afternoon. But he didn’t mind. Gotten used to it after all these years.
Winter did hold something on him, though. It always made him think. A little too much.
Walking through the living room, he pondered the situation with Zoya. He’d never been there for her. And in that, he’d failed his brother. But hadn’t he kept watch from afar? That had to count for something.
He flicked a switch for one of the gas fireplaces. Flames flickered to life and warmth began to fill the area around the hearth.
His grandfather had been an elder for his tribe. And very superstitious. The man lived to the ripe old age of 102 and had groused at him every minute of those last years. Warned him of the great spirits of his ancestors and what they would do to him if he didn’t protect his family. Rick gave those superstitions no weight, but still . . . what if they were true?
His grandfather had been livid with him most of his life. For ignoring his heritage. Ignoring his instruction. Ignoring his family.
As he gripped the photo of Zoya, he contemplated the outcome of his actions. Could it be his fault? She never should have been there. Never should have seen that murder. And now . . .
Now they were after her.
His gaze rested on the fire licking at the permanent logs behind the glass. Shapes took form in the flames, and his grandfather’s voice echoed through him . . .
“You will burn . . .”
* * *
COLE
January 15
Fort Greely, Alaska
7:34 p.m.
The frigid air froze Cole’s lungs as he drew a long breath in through his nose. But he didn’t care. At least he was finally out of the secure facility. Days like this made him long to leave military service behind. Days of no windows. No fresh air. And too many problems.
Problems that risked national security.
What had he missed? Marc’s notes spelled out everything to the letter. No detail hidden. So how could he figure out the encryption? Obviously Marc added it as an extra security measure against Viper, but wouldn’t Marc have left Cole a clue? Somewhere? Or maybe Marc would rather his invention be destroyed. So no one could use it.
The numbing cold forced him to move forward and pull on his gloves. He yanked keys out of his pocket and headed to his truck. The drive home would be long enough. Maybe he’d come up with something after he talked it over with Jenna.
But there was no mistaking the frustration in AMI ops. They needed answers. And soon.
A shadow moved by his truck, and he tensed—then recognition eased the rigid set of his jaw. “Grant?”
“Major Maddox.” They shook hands. “Good to see you.”
Cole nodded. “So, Agent Philips”—Grant arched a brow at the formal address—“seeing as it’s thirty below, I’m assuming you’re not here on a social call.”
The FBI agent crossed his arms over his chest. “Correct. Let’s talk in the truck.”
Cole pressed the automatic starter on his key chain and unlocked the doors. His lungs burned from inhaling the arctic air, so he took short breaths through his mouth.
Grant locked the doors and checked behind the seats. “We’ve got a problem.”
“Oh?”
“Involving AMI.”
Not good. The FBI had handed control of AMI back over to the military once their investigation finished. “All right. I’m listening.”
“It’s being stolen.”
“That’s impossible.”
“Actually, no it’s not. And there’s more. We’ve had a guy on the case for weeks . . .” Grant rubbed his head. Lack of sleep showed around his eyes. In that moment he looked ten years Cole’s senior. And they were the same age.
“The goal was . . . is to bring down an arms dealer ring we’ve had on our radar for years. The opportunity finally presented itself. An opportunity involving AMI.”
“Why wasn’t I told about this? Don’t you think I needed to know this kind of information?”
Grant held up a hand. “Sorry, Cole. My hands were tied.”
Cole banged his fist on the steering wheel. “Great. Just great.” He turned to his friend. His expression went blank. Something was off. “What aren’t you telling me?”
“We need someone on the inside.”
“What about your guy?”
“Missing.”
Cole closed his eyes. It was much worse. His gut told him. “And?”
Grant hesitated. “You know—better than anyone—the security measures surrounding AMI’s programming. No more than eight megabytes of any given file can be copied at one time in that facility. The program is more than three thousand gigabytes. We thought we had plenty of time to find out the top guy’s identity.”
“Cut to the chase, Grant!” Cole slammed his hand on the dashboard. Couldn’t believe his ears.
“Our guy . . . we’re pretty certain he’s dead.” Grant pulled in a deep breath. “But the buyers needed proof that they were getting the real thing . . . we allowed part of AMI’s programming to be stolen. Eight megabytes at a time. On macrochips. But only part of it. Our man assured us that the rest of it was dummy files.”
“What?”
“It was the one way to reel them in. But now we’ve lost all contact. We don’t know how much they have, or where they have it.” He leveled a grim look at Cole. “Basically, we don’t know much of anything.”
* * *
ZOYA
January 16
Naltsiine Kennels
2:37 a.m.
My body shuddered. Sickening clashes of lightning flashed across the sky. Bolts jumped from cloud to cloud with unimaginable speed.
Everything went pitch black.
Something like icy fingers crept up my back. Then down again.
The mountains trembled and rumbled. Trees shook, snow fell. The wind whipped across my face, crashing thick slates of ice against my cold skin.
I took a weak step forward. Then another. My hands stayed out in front of me, feeling for something. Anything. My calves burned, my cheeks stung. The bare skin on my arms tingled, then lost all feeling.
Someone called out my name.
No, I couldn’t answer.
“Zoya!” Andie stood in front of me. “Why won’t you talk to me?”
Over and over again those words repeated. Like malicious vultures they encircled my mind, grabbing it. They wouldn’t let go. Or was it the anger that wouldn’t let go?
I wouldn’t let her stop me. I needed to do this . . .
“Zoya, please. You’re worrying me.”
Agitated screams tore out from the depths of my soul.
What had God done to me?
“Zoya, look out!”
Tears that froze on my cheeks seemed to disappear as I looked up. The sun shone through as the clouds parted . . .
A click.
A scream.
Andie’s body collided with mine, pushing me to the ground.
A gunshot . . .
I screamed and toppled off my bed onto the floor. Rasping wheezes came between sobs as I clutched the side table until my knuckles turned white. I stared at my hands.
&n
bsp; No. No. No!
I could hear Mom running to my room. The handle rattled.
“Zoya! Zoya, let me in! What’s going on?”
I wanted to get up. To unlock the door. But my legs wouldn’t let me. I wanted her to hold me. But it wouldn’t help.
I gritted my teeth. Eyes closed.
No. It couldn’t be true.
The end of the dream replayed . . .
A gunshot.
Andie’s body lay motionless on the ground.
Blood spilled forth from a wound.
A bullet wound.
CHAPTER TWELVE
SEAN
January 16
North Pole, Alaska
6:21 a.m.
Ringing. Somewhere.
Another ring.
Sean jolted awake and sat up in bed. The hotel phone. He reached for it. “Hello?”
“Sean.”
Any cobwebs left in his brain disappeared. He knew that voice. All too well.
“What? Nothing to say to your old man?”
Plenty. He simply chose not to say it. “How did you find me?”
The condescending laugh was all too familiar . . . “You should know by now that you can’t escape my reach.” The tone turned to steel. “Ever.”
“What do you want?”
Curses poured through the phone wires. “You know what I want. Your place is here. Get back here. Now.”
Sean leaned back against the headboard. “No.”
“What exactly do you expect to accomplish with this? Your money will run out soon enough, and you’ll have to come crawling back.”
Typical. All his father cared about was money. And control.
“Ah, the silent treatment. Aren’t you a little old for that, son?”
Sean kept his tone level, calm. “I’ve left. It’s permanent. Please, just let it go.”
“Let it go?”
He could picture his father, roaring into the phone, an enraged lion putting an upstart in its place.
“You are my son, you insolent, ungrateful—”
“Father—”
“Don’t ‘Father’ me, Sean! I’ve invested my life in you—”
“I’m hanging up now.” The soft click of the receiver in the cradle might as well have been the slamming of a door.
He was done. With his father. With that life.
Sean slid from the bed and walked to the window gazing into the black night. “God, show me Your will.”
Honor your father and mother, Scripture said. He’d done his best. All his life. But what his father had become . . . what he’d wanted Sean to become . . .
That he couldn’t honor.
A ribbon of green caught his attention. He stared through the right-hand corner of his window as the ribbon was soon joined by a yellow gold streak, and then, in the seconds that passed, the two intertwined and shot across the sky. The Northern Lights. They took his breath away.
As he watched the lights move and sway in their ribbons of magic, the stark reality hit him square in the face. It would never be over. He’d defied his father, and now he’d have to fight the battle for the rest of his life. It didn’t matter. It was the right thing. Even if it was the hardest thing he’d ever done.
If only his mother and baby brother had lived. But would it have made any difference?
His life would never be the same, but the correct path couldn’t be clearer. Every fiber of his being knew it.
God never said this life on earth would be easy, but that He’d walk the path beside His children. Sean had his heavenly Father. And God’s words in Scripture. And other believers . . .
Sean smacked his palm on his thigh. That’s what he needed. Church. Fellowship. He’d need them more than ever if he wanted to resist the pull of power and money. And his father.
Heading to the shower, he whistled an old hymn. The hot water invigorated him as he wondered how long it would take him to find a church he liked. He’d better get moving. Needed time to shave and dress, make coffee, research churches and their locations on the Internet, and then—
All thought left him and time stood still as he glanced at the steamed mirror. Someone had left him a message on the glass:
Go home, Sean. No one wants you here.
* * *
DETECTIVE SHELDON
January 16
North Pole, Alaska
10:15 a.m.
“Sir? What do you make of this?”
Dave looked up from the forensics report. “What exactly is it?”
One of the new officers handed him a torn-up blue plastic bag. “Macrochips. One of the dogs dug it up about 100 yards from the murder site.”
“Macrochips?”
“Yeah, really small ones. Each one has a casing. Pretty high tech.”
“I’m assuming you’ve already checked for prints?”
“Yes, sir.”
“And?”
“The prints match the victim.” The officer smirked. “Captain knew you’d want to see it.”
His captain was a great man, but he knew how much Dave hated technology. “Bring ’em over.”
“We haven’t been able to decipher what’s on them yet, sir. But the guys said to tell you they were working on it.”
“Thanks, Riley.” He studied the bag. Macrochips. How much information could be on one of those things anyway? They looked similar to the micro SD card that was in his phone for the camera. Amazed him that the little thing could hold so many pics and was a help during investigations.
One of his sergeants leaned halfway in the door and tapped the wall. “We’ve got a problem. Those chips hold some top secret encrypted military intelligence. Captain wants you to call the FBI that worked on the Gray case. He’s on the horn with the state troopers.”
The Gray case? That meant . . .
He blew out a big breath and dialed. “Agent Philips? Seems we are in need of your assistance . . .”
* * *
ZOYA
January 16
North Pole Community Church
11:10 a.m.
“Paul said in the book of Philippians, ‘Not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus. Brethren, I do not regard myself as having laid hold of it yet; but one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and reaching forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.’”
The new pastor, Brian Jamison, stood at the pulpit preaching. More like yelling.
His sermon was long. Too long. I couldn’t stand listening to him say over and over that God was love, that God was waiting for me to return to Him, that God had given me gifts, that God wanted me to run the race. God, God, God.
It was as if he was trying to tell me, and only me, that I was doing something wrong.
Well, I wasn’t. It wasn’t my fault. It was His.
Wasn’t it?
Yeah.
He abandoned me, not the other way around.
I turned my head to look out the window, letting the little voice argue away in my mind.
Why had Mom made me come anyway? I told her I didn’t feel very good. It wasn’t a lie. Not exactly.
My Bible sat open on my lap. I turned and glared at the tiny book. And I thought I’d never have to look into you again. Andie coughed from where she sat with Auntie Jenna and Cole a few pews in front of us. I hoped I wouldn’t have to talk to them. Maybe Andie was getting smart and knew I wouldn’t want to see her. At least, I didn’t want to talk to her . . .
Mom grabbed my hand.
I pulled away.
Hurt touched her face, and she looked back to the preacher.
I don’t care. I just want to be alone.
The congregation stood and we started singing “Victory in Jesus.”
Yeah, right. Whatever.
As soon as the pastor dismissed us, a loud murmur of voices filled the room. My
ears rang with all the noise, however little it may have been.
Finally, we could get out of there.
“Zoya, how nice it is to see you up and around. We all prayed for you after the accident, and it looks like God has answered our prayers abundantly, no?” Mrs. What’s-her-name smiled down at me as her head bobbed.
Please, just go away. The tears were about ready to spill. I held them back. Held my emotions in the bottle . . . the bottle that wanted to break so I could lash these things out.
The voice grew louder. “Don’t listen to that preacher . . . don’t let them see your anger . . . this is God’s fault . . . don’t believe what they tell you . . .”
“Yes. Thank you for your prayers, Mrs. Appuglies.” Mom grabbed my hand and dragged me toward Auntie Jenna and Andie.
I’d rather listen to Mrs. Apple-whatever gab for hours than talk to Andie. She was my best friend. She knew. I shook my head and tried to swallow back the urge to yell. Just let me die and get it over with. “Mom, can I go to the car?”
“No, we’re gonna go see Andie and Jenna.”
“But Mom—”
“Jenna, Andie, Cole.” Mom nodded to the three of them and pulled me up to her side.
Andie’s and my gazes locked for a split second—
No, I wouldn’t let her read me like a book. I turned away.
The voice . . .
Act natural . . . Act natural . . .
“Hey, girl.” Auntie Jenna smiled. “How’re you guys doin’ today?”
I stood there as Mom and Auntie talked of the new guy, of the dogs, of blah, blah, blah. For goodness sake, stop talking and let’s go!
“How’s it going with Sean?” Auntie dug for something in her purse.
“Well, he’ll certainly take some getting used to.”
Out of the corner of my eye, I could see Andie staring at me. I couldn’t engage in conversation . . . I knew what would happen. I’d blow my top. And that was the last thing I wanted to do. Especially in church.
I turned my head away.
Mr. Howe smiled down at his two-year-old daughter, Emma, then with one swift movement placed her on his shoulders. Even from where I stood, I could hear her giggles and see her smiles.