Amy screamed, scrambling backward, tearing at them with her hands, yanking free one limb, only to feel another immediately become ensnared. The vine wasn’t strong enough to overpower her in this manner—it tore too easily, its sap bleeding across her skin, burning her—but it kept coming, more and more of it. She spun and kicked and continued to scream, panicking now, losing her sense of direction, until finally, in the darkness, she could no longer tell which way led to safety, which to the shaft’s open mouth.
“Jeff?” she called, and then she felt his hand grasping her, pulling her, and she surrendered, following him, the vines thrashing at both of them, grabbing and tearing and burning.
Jeff shouted something, but she couldn’t understand it. He was dragging her backward, the two of them stumbling, falling over each other, onto their hands and knees amid the vines, which caught at them, trying to hold them down, and then they were up again, and there was a faint hint of light in front of them, and they were sprinting for it, Jeff pulling Amy by her arm, the vines falling away behind them, going still again, motionless, silent.
Amy saw the sling hanging from its rope. And then, up above, that little window of sky. When she craned backward, peering toward it, she could see Eric and Mathias, the shadowed outline of their two heads, staring down at her.
“Jeff?” Mathias called.
Jeff didn’t bother answering. He was looking back toward the open shaft behind them. It was just darkness there now, with that steady push of cold air, but he seemed reluctant to take his eyes from it. “Get in the sling,” he said to her.
Amy could hear how short of breath he was. She was, too, and she stood beside him for a long moment, not moving, struggling to regain herself.
Jeff crouched, grabbed the bottle of tequila, uncapped it. He picked up Pablo’s sock, spilled some of the liquor across it.
“What’re you doing?” she whispered.
There was the sound of something stirring now from within the dark mouth of the shaft, almost inaudible, but growing steadily louder. Jeff started to stuff Pablo’s sock down the neck of the tequila bottle, using his forefinger to push it deep. The sound kept increasing in volume, still too soft to hear clearly, but oddly familiar—like the shuffle of cards—strange and horrifying and almost human.
“Hurry,Amy,” Jeff said.
She didn’t argue; she reached for the sling, ducked her arms through it, her head.
Mathias called again: “Jeff?”
“Pull her up!”
Amy tilted her head back, looked. The heads were still visible, peering down at her from that tiny rectangle of sky. She knew they couldn’t see her in the darkness, though. She saw Mathias cup his hands around his mouth. “What happened?” he yelled.
Jeff was fumbling with the box of matches. “Now!” he shouted.
The sound was louder—a little louder with every passing second—and as it climbed in volume, it grew steadily more familiar. Amy knew what it was; it was in her head, this knowledge, but just out of reach. She didn’t want to hear any more, didn’t want the knowledge to reveal itself. The sling gave a jerk, and then that creaking began again, dropping toward her from above, blotting out this other sound, the one she didn’t want to know, and she was in motion, rising into the air, her feet swinging free of the shaft’s floor. Jeff didn’t even glance at her. His gaze moved back and forth, from the box of matches to the darkness where that sound lurked, even now continuing to gain in volume, as if intent on following her upward into the light, capturing her, dragging her back down.
Beneath her, Amy saw Jeff’s hand flick, a match burst into flame. He held it to Pablo’s sock, the tequila catching instantly, coming alight with the same pale blue fire as the torch. Jeff rose to his feet, held the bottle out to his side for a moment, making sure it was burning steadily. Then, side-armed, like a grenade, he threw it down the open shaft. Amy heard the bottle shatter, and a glow swept outward, illuminating Jeff more fully.
A Molotov cocktail,she thought. It seemed odd to her that she should know the name for this; she pictured Poles throwing them impotently at Russian tanks, a futile, desperate gesture. Beneath her, Jeff stood perfectly still, staring off into the shaft; the fire was already dimming, and she kept rising so steadily. Soon, she knew—quite soon—she’d lose sight of him altogether. The flames ought to have stopped that dreadful noise, that sound she recognized yet didn’t want to know, and at first this seemed to be the case, but then the noise resumed again, more quietly, and yet in a manner that somehow seemed to envelop her completely. It took Amy a moment to realize that the sound wasn’t coming from beneath her any longer; it was all around her now, and above her, too. Jeff was slipping from sight, the fire dying out, the shadows reclaiming him, and as she lifted her eyes to see how much farther she had to climb, a hint of movement caught her gaze, held it fast. It was the plants hanging from the walls of the shaft, paler, more spindly versions of their cousins up above. Their tiny flowers were opening and closing. This was what was making that terrible noise, Amy realized—it was coming so much more softly now, insidiously—the sound she finally had no choice but to recognize, to acknowledge, the sound she also guessed was being echoed all across the hillside.
They’re laughing,she thought.
Once they’d pulled them both back up from the shaft, there wasn’t much left to do. Jeff was out of plans, for once; he seemed a little dazed by what he’d witnessed down there. They carried Pablo back to his lean-to; then they all sat together—everyone but Stacy, who was still at the base of the hill, waiting for the Greeks—and passed around the plastic jug of water. Eric noticed that Jeff’s hands were shaking as he reached to take his allotted swallow, and he felt an odd sense of pleasure in this. After all, his own hands were shaking—they had been for quite some time now—so it felt good to see the others beginning to join him.The miserable misery of the miser, he thought. For some reason, he couldn’t get the words out of his mind, and he had to keep resisting the urge to speak them.
“They were laughing at us,” Amy whispered.
No one said anything. Mathias capped the jug, stood up and returned it to the tent. Jeff had told them what had happened as soon as he’d emerged from the hole, how it was the plants who’d been making that cell phone noise, trying to lure them into a trap, and even this disappointment, with its accompanying freight of terror, had held some solace for Eric. Because now they were going tosee; now, having witnessed the vine’s power, they were going to believe him when he said it was still in his body, growing, eating him from the inside out. He could still feel it, certainly; he couldn’tstop feeling it. There was a burrowing sensation in his leg, something small and wormlike in the flesh beside his shinbone, constantly in motion, probing and chewing. It seemed to be working its way toward his foot. And then, higher up, in his chest, there was no movement at all, only a steady pressure, impossible to ignore. Eric imagined some sort of void there, just beneath his ribs, a natural cavity within his body that was slowly being filled by the vine, the plant twisting back upon itself as it grew, shoving his organs aside, taking up more and more space with each passing moment. He believed that if he were to cut himself at this spot, just the smallest of incisions, the plant would tumble outward into the light, smeared with his blood, like some horrific newborn, writhing and twisting, its flowers opening and closing, a dozen tiny mouths begging to be fed.
Pablo moaned—it almost sounded like a word, as if he were calling out for something—but when they turned to look, his eyes were still shut, his body motionless.Dreaming, Eric thought, yet he knew immediately that it wasn’t so, that it was worse, far worse. It was delirium, the stumble before the fall.
Dreaming, delirium, dying…
“Shouldn’t we give him some water?” Amy asked.
Her voice sounded odd to Eric.Her hands must be shaking, too, he thought. No one answered her. They sat for several long moments staring in silence at Pablo, waiting for him to open his eyes, to stir, but he did neither. The only
sound was the wet, phlegmy rattle of his breathing. Eric had the memory of himself lying half-asleep somewhere, early in the morning, listening as someone dragged furniture back and forth across the floor of the room above him, rearranging it. He’d been visiting a friend, sleeping on a couch. Oddly, Eric couldn’t remember the friend’s name. He could see the empty beer bottles lined up on the coffee table, could smell the mustiness of the pillow he’d been given, could hear the furniture being pushed and shoved from one side of the room above him to another, but he was so tired, so parched, so famished that somehow he couldn’t remember who his host had been. That was the noise he was hearing now, though—there was no doubt of this—that was what Pablo’s breathing sounded like, a table being dragged across a wooden floor.
Amy persisted: “He hasn’t had any water, not since—”
“He’s unconscious,” Jeff said, cutting her off. “How are we supposed to give him water?”
Amy frowned, silenced.
One by one, they all stopped watching Pablo—shutting their eyes, glancing away, not looking back. Eric’s gaze drifted around the clearing, aimlessly, only to catch, finally, on the knife. It was lying beside the lean-to. Its blade was dull with the Greek’s blood, completely stained from point to hilt. It wasn’t that far away—to reach it, all Eric had to do was shift a foot or two to his left, then lean, stretching, and suddenly it was in his hand. Its grip felt warm from the sun, comfortingly so, the right thing for him to be holding. He tried to wipe the blade clean on his T-shirt, but the blood had dried and wouldn’t come off. Eric was dehydrated enough that he had to work with his tongue before he could gather enough saliva to spit. Even this didn’t help, though; as soon as he started to scrub at the blade, his T-shirt—eaten to a muslinlike transparency by the green fuzz of the vine—began to shred into nothingness.
It didn’t matter, he decided. It wasn’t infection that he was worried about.
He leaned forward and cut a three-inch-long slit in his leg, just to the left of his shin, slightly beneath the incision Mathias had made earlier that morning. It hurt, of course, especially since he had to push deep, probing down into the muscle, prying the flesh back with the edge of the knife, so that he could hunt for the tiny piece of vine he knew must be in there. The pain was intense—loud,was how it felt—but also strangely consoling: it felt bracing, clarifying. Blood was pooling in the slit, spilling outward, running down his leg, making it difficult to see, so he reached with his free hand, stuck his forefinger into the wound, digging, searching by feel, the pain like a man running up a flight of stairs now, sprinting, skipping steps. The others were watching him, too startled to speak. The worming sensation continued, despite the pain; Eric could feel the thing fleeing downward, away from his finger. He started in once more with the knife, cutting deeper, and then Jeff was on his feet, moving quickly toward him.
Eric glanced up, the blood running thickly down his lower leg, beginning to collect in his shoe again. He was expecting solicitude, an offer to help, and was astonished to see the disgust on Jeff’s face, the impatience. Jeff reached, grabbed for the knife, yanking it from Eric’s grip. “Stop it,” he said, tossing the knife away, sending it skittering into the dirt. “Don’t be a fucking idiot.”
There was silence in the clearing. Eric turned to the others, assuming one of them might offer something in his defense, but they avoided his eyes, their faces set, echoing Jeff’s disapproval.
“Don’t you think we’ve got enough problems?” Jeff asked.
Eric made a helpless gesture, waving his bloody hands at his bloody shin. “It’s inside me.”
“All you’re going to do is get yourself infected. Is that what you want? An infected leg?”
“It’s not just my leg. It’s my chest, too.” Eric touched the spot on his chest, the dull ache there, laying his palm against it. He believed he could feel the vine pressing subtly back.
“Nothing’s inside you. Understand?” Jeff asked, his voice matching the hardness in his face—the frustration, the fatigue. “You’re imagining it, and you just—you just fucking have to stop.” With that, he turned and strode back into the center of the clearing.
He started to pace, and everyone watched him. Pablo continued to drag that heavy table along the wooden floor, and suddenly the name Mike O’Donnell popped into Eric’s head. That was his friend: redhaired, gap-toothed, a lacrosse player. They’d known each other in high school, had gone to different colleges, gradually grown apart. He’d been living in an old row house outside of Baltimore, and Eric had spent a weekend there. They’d gone to an Orioles game, had bought horrible tickets from a scalper, ended up not being able to see a thing. All this was only two or three years ago, but it seemed impossibly far away now, another life altogether from the one he was living here, sitting in this little clearing, listening to the dreadful rasp of Pablo’s breathing—dreaming, delirium, dying—wanting to push his finger into his open wound again, but resisting the urge, telling himself,It’s not there, and struggling to believe it.
Jeff stopped pacing. “Somebody should go relieve Stacy,” he said.
No one moved; no one spoke.
Jeff turned first to Amy, then to Mathias. Neither of them met his eyes. He didn’t even bother to look at Eric. “All right,” he said finally, waving his hand, dismissing the three of them—their inertia, their lassitude, their helplessness—his disgust seeming generalized now, all-encompassing. “I’ll do it.”
And then, without another word or glance, he turned and walked out of the clearing.
They should’ve eaten something, Jeff realized as he picked his way down the hill. It was well past noon now; they should’ve divided up the two bananas, cut them into five equal portions, chewed and swallowed, and called it lunch. Then the orange for dinner—maybe some of the grapes, too—these were the things that wouldn’t keep, that were already beginning to spoil in the heat. And then what? Pretzels, nuts, protein bars—how long could this last them? A couple more days, Jeff assumed, and after that the fasting would begin, the starving. There was no point in worrying about it, he supposed, not when there wasn’t anything he could do to change the situation. Wishing or praying—increasingly this was all that was left for them, and, in Jeff’s mind, wishing or praying was the same as doing nothing at all.
He should’ve brought the knife with him. Eric was going to keep cutting himself, unless the others stopped him, and Jeff didn’t trust Amy and Mathias to do this. He was losing them, he knew. Only twenty-four hours and already they were acting like victims—slope-shouldered, blank-faced. Even Mathias seemed to have retreated somehow, over the course of the morning, grown passive, when Jeff needed him to be active.
He should’ve known it wasn’t a cell phone in the shaft; he should’ve anticipated such a turn of events, or something like it. He wasn’t thinking as clearly as he ought to, and he knew this would only lead to peril. The vine could’ve easily eaten the rope, but it hadn’t. It had left it untouched on the windlass, which meant that it had wanted them to drop back into the hole, and Jeff should’ve seen this, should’ve understood that it could only mean one thing, that the chirping sound was a trap. The vine could move and think and mimic different noises—not just the cell phone but the birds, too. Because it must’ve been the vine that had cried out like that to warn the Mayans as he’d crept down the hill the previous evening, and he should’ve realized this also.
He was getting sloppy. He was losing control, and he didn’t know how to reclaim it.
Stacy came into sight, sitting hunched under her sunshade, facing the clearing, the Mayans, the jungle beyond. She didn’t hear Jeff approach, didn’t turn to greet him, but it wasn’t until he was nearly upon her that he understood why. She was sitting cross-legged, slumped forward, the umbrella propped on her shoulder, her eyes shut, her mouth hanging ajar: she was sound asleep. Jeff stood for nearly a minute, staring down at her, his hands on his hips. His first flash of anger at her negligence passed in an instant; he was too worn-
out to sustain it. He knew it didn’t really matter, not in any practical sense. If the Greeks had arrived, they would’ve called out as soon as they’d glimpsed her sitting here, would’ve roused her while they were still far enough away to be stopped. And, more to the point, the Greeks hadn’t arrived, probably weren’t ever going to. So there was no place for anger here; it came and went, brief as a shudder.
Her umbrella was angled the wrong way, its circle of shade only covering the upper half of her body, leaving her lap, her crossed legs, exposed to the noontime sun. Her feet, in their mud-stained sandals, were burned all the way up to the ankle—a deep, raw-meat red. They were going to blister later, then peel, a painful process. If it were Amy, this would involve a prodigious amount of complaining—tears, even, at times—but Stacy, Jeff knew, probably wouldn’t even notice, let alone mention it. This was part of that spacey quality of hers, a sort of disassociation from her body. Jeff often found it hard to resist comparing her to Amy. He’d met them together, had lived in the same dorm with them his freshman year, one floor down, directly beneath their room. He’d come up late one evening to complain about a pounding noise and found them in their pajamas, crouched above a small pile of wood with a hammer and nails and a sheet of instructions written in Korean. It was a bookshelf Amy had purchased over the Internet, very cheap, not realizing she’d have to put it together herself. Jeff ended up building it for them; in the process, they’d all become friends. For a short period, it wasn’t even clear which of them he was courting, and he supposed that this was part of what made it so difficult for him to stop looking at them in a comparative way, weighing their differences, one against the other.
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