He heard Mathias sigh. “Eric—”
“Just give me the fucking knife, okay? I’ll do it myself.”
“I don’t have the knife.”
“So go get it.”
“When it starts to get light—”
“Call Jeff. Jeff’ll do it.”
“We can’t call Jeff.”
“Because?”
There was a pause, and Eric could feel Mathias hesitating. “Something bad’s happened,” he said.
Eric thought of the little lean-to, that stench of urine and shit and rot. He nodded. “I know.”
“I don’t think you do.”
“It’s Pablo, isn’t it? He’s died.”
“No. It’s not Pablo.”
“Then what?”
“It’s Amy.”
“Amy?” Eric hadn’t expected this. “What’s wrong with Amy?”
There was that same pause again, that search for the right words. “She’s gone.”
“Sheleft ?”
He sensed Mathias shaking his head in the darkness. “She’s dead, Eric. It killed her.”
“What’re you—”
“It smothered her. In her sleep.”
Eric was silent, too shocked to speak.Dead. “Are you sure?” he asked, knowing even as he spoke that it was a stupid question.
“Yes.”
Eric felt a spinning sensation in his head, an abrupt loss of traction.Dead. He wanted to get up and go see for himself, but he wasn’t certain he had the strength. Someone needed to cut the vine out of his leg first, pull it from his chest.Dead. He knew it was true, yet at the same time he couldn’t accept it.Dead. It was silly, but the movie they’d joked about had taken hold of his imagination: Amy was the good girl, the prissy one; she was supposed to survive, was supposed to float away with Jeff in their hot-air balloon.
Dead, dead, dead.
“Jesus,” he said.
“I know.”
“I mean—”
There was that pat of the hand again, that sweaty touch of skin. “Shh. Don’t. There’s nothing to say.”
Eric let his head fall back onto the tent’s floor. He shut his eyes for a while, then opened them, searching for the first hints of light coming through the orange nylon. But there was only darkness—all around him, only darkness.
He closed his eyes again and lay there, waiting for dawn, with that single word echoing through his head.
Dead, dead, dead, dead, dead…
Eric started to call from the tent again, as soon as the sun began to rise. He wanted the knife. Mathias stepped out through the little opening, stood in the clearing, staring at Jeff and Stacy. They were still sitting next to Amy’s body, one on either side of it. Stacy was holding Amy’s hand.
“What?” Jeff asked.
Mathias shrugged, tilted his head. The light hadn’t yet gained much strength; it was tinged with pink. Off in the distance, in the jungle, Jeff could hear birds calling out, shrieking and cawing. He couldn’t read Mathias’s expression: worried, maybe. Or just uncertain. “I think you should come look.”
Jeff got up, feeling stiff, heavy-limbed, his reserves running out on him. He followed Mathias back into the tent, leaving Stacy with Amy’s body.
Inside, the light was still too dim to see much. Eric was lying on his back. His left leg and most of his abdomen were hidden beneath something, and it took Jeff a moment to realize that it was the vine.
He crouched beside him. “Why haven’t you pulled it off?” he asked.
“He’s afraid to tear them,” Mathias said.
Eric nodded. “If they break off, they can go anywhere. Like worms.”
Jeff prodded at the mass of leaves, bending close to see. The vines had pushed themselves into the wounds on Eric’s leg and chest, but it was hard to tell how far they’d managed to get. Jeff needed better light. “Can you walk?” he asked.
Eric shook his head. “It’ll crush them. They’ll burn me.”
Jeff considered this; it was probably true, he decided. “Then we’ll carry you.”
Eric seemed frightened by this. He tried to sit, but he only made it halfway, propping himself up on his elbow. “Where?”
“Outside. It’s too dark in here.”
There were five tendrils in all, coiling themselves around Eric’s body. Three had attacked his leg, each of them entering a different wound. The other two had both pushed their way in through the cut on his chest. Jeff realized they’d need to snap them off from their roots if they wanted to carry him out of there, and he did it quickly, not saying anything, worried that Eric might protest. Then he gestured for Mathias to help him. Mathias took Eric’s shoulders, Jeff his feet, and they picked him up. The five tendrils hung off his body, dangling toward the floor of the tent, writhing snakelike in the air, as they carried him out into the clearing.
They set him down in the dirt, midway between Pablo and Amy. Then Jeff stepped across the clearing, picked up the knife. It was a good thing, having a task like this; he could feel it helping him. Just holding the knife in his hand seemed to clear his mind, sharpen his perceptions. He hesitated for a second, staring about their little campsite. They were a desperate-looking bunch: dirty, their clothes falling off them. Mathias’s and Eric’s faces were thickly stubbled. Eric was covered in dried blood; the vines looked as if they were growing from his wounds rather than into them. Jeff had seen him glance toward Amy as they’d carried him out from the tent, just a quick exploratory peek, before he flinched away. No one had spoken; they all seemed to be waiting for someone else to do it first. They needed a plan, Jeff knew, a path to carry them beyond this present moment, something to occupy their thoughts, and he understood, too, that he would have to be the one to find it.
The light was growing stronger, bringing the first of the day’s heat with it. Pablo’s breathing—remarkably, unexpectedly—had become much quieter. For an instant, Jeff even thought the Greek might’ve died. He approached the lean-to, crouched beside it. No, he was still with them. But the phlegmy rattle had vanished; his breathing was steadier now, slower. Jeff touched Pablo’s forehead, felt the heat coming off him, the fever still burning within his body. And yet something had changed. When Jeff pulled his hand away, the Greek’s eyes eased open, stared up at him. They seemed surprisingly focused, too: alert.
“Hey,” Jeff said.
Pablo licked his lips, swallowed dryly. “Potato?” he whispered.
Jeff stared at him, trying to make sense of this. “Potato?”
Pablo nodded, licking his lips again.
“He wants water,” Stacy said from across the clearing. “That’s Greek for water.”
Jeff turned to look at her. “How do you know?”
“He was saying it before.”
Eric was lying on his back, staring up at the sky. “The knife, Jeff,” he said.
“In a moment.”
Mathias was standing over Eric, his arms folded across his chest, as if he were cold. But Jeff could see the sweat on his face, making it seem to shine in the gathering light. Jeff caught his eye, pointed toward the water jug. It was sitting in the dirt beside the tent. Mathias picked it up, brought it to him.
Jeff uncapped the jug, held it in the air above Pablo, pointing. “Potato?” he asked.
Pablo nodded, opened his mouth, his tongue protruding slightly. There was something on his teeth, Jeff noticed, a brownish stain—blood, perhaps. Jeff lowered the jug, brought it to Pablo’s lips, tilted a small amount of water onto his tongue. The Greek swallowed, coughing slightly, then opened his mouth for more. Three times, Jeff repeated this ritual. It was a good sign, he knew—this quieting of Pablo’s breathing, this return to consciousness, this ability to stomach the water—but Jeff couldn’t quite bring himself to accept it. In his mind, Pablo was already dead. He didn’t believe that anyone could survive all that had happened to the Greek in the past thirty-six hours, not without elaborate medical intervention. The broken back, the amputated legs, the loss of blood, the alm
ost certain infection—a few mouthfuls of water weren’t going to compensate for any of that.
When Pablo shut his eyes again, Jeff moved back across the clearing, crouched beside Eric.
A plan—that was what they needed.
Clean the knife—wash the blood off its blade, build another fire to sterilize it. Maybe sterilize one of the needles from the sewing kit, too. Then cut the vine out of Eric, stitch him back up.
And someone should head down the hill before long to watch for the Greeks.
And they should sew the remains of the blue tent into a pouch, in case it rained again that afternoon.
And—what else? There was something he was neglecting, Jeff knew, something he was avoiding.
Amy’s body.
He glanced toward it, then quickly away.One step at a time, he told himself.Start with the knife.
“It’s going to take a few minutes to get ready,” he said to Eric.
Eric started to sit up but then thought better of it. “What do you mean?”
“I have to sterilize the knife.”
“It doesn’t matter. I don’t need—”
“I’m not cutting into you with a dirty knife.”
Eric held out his hand. “I’ll do it.”
Jeff shook his head. “Three minutes, Eric. Okay?”
Eric hesitated, debating. Finally, he seemed to realize he didn’t have a choice. He lowered his hand. “Please hurry,” he said.
Clean the knife.
Jeff returned to the tent, started to dig through the archaeologists’ backpacks, searching for a bar of soap. He found a toiletry kit zipped into a side pocket; there was a razor inside, a small can of shaving cream, a toothbrush and paste, a comb, a stick of deodorant, and—in a little red plastic box—a bar of soap. He carried the entire kit with him back out into the clearing, along with a small towel he’d also found in the backpack, a needle, and a tiny spool of thread.
The bar of soap, the towel, the knife, the needle, the thread, the plastic jug of water—what else was needed?
He turned to Mathias, who was sitting now, beside the little lean-to. “Can you build a fire?” he asked.
“How big?”
“Just a small one. To heat the knife.”
Mathias stood up, began to move about the clearing, making his preparations. They’d left the remaining notebooks out in the rain yesterday; they were still too wet to burn. Mathias disappeared into the tent, searching for something else to use as fuel. Jeff poured a small amount of water from the jug onto the towel, then began to rub at the soap with it, working it into a lather. As he started to scrub at the dried blood on the knife’s blade, Mathias reappeared, carrying a paperback book, a pair of men’s underwear. He arranged these in the dirt beside Jeff, sprinkling some of the remaining tequila over them. The book was a Hemingway novel,The Sun Also Rises. Jeff had read it in high school, the same edition, the same cover. Looking down at it now, he realized he couldn’t remember a single thing about it.
“Give him some of that,” Jeff said, pointing at the tequila.
Mathias handed the bottle to Eric, who held it in both hands, looking up at Jeff uncertainly.
Jeff nodded, gesturing for him to drink. “For the pain.”
Eric took a long swallow, paused to catch his breath, then drank again.
Mathias was holding the box of matches now. He’d opened it, taken one of them out. “Tell me when you’re ready,” he said.
Jeff poured some water onto the blade, rinsing it. When he was done, he took the tequila from Eric, set it on the ground. “After I cut it out, I’m going to sew you up, okay?”
Eric shook his head, looking scared. “I don’t want to be sewn up.”
“They won’t close on their own.”
“But it’ll still be in there.”
“I’m not going to leave any behind, Eric. I’ll—”
“You won’t be able to see it all. Some of it’ll be too small. And if you sew it inside me—”
“Listen to me, all right?” Jeff was fighting to keep his voice low—reasonable and reassuring. “If we leave the wounds open, it’ll just keep happening. Understand? You’ll fall asleep, and it’ll push its way in again. Is that what you want?”
Eric shut his eyes. His face began to twitch. Jeff could see he was struggling not to cry. “I want to go home,” he said. “That’s what I want.” He inhaled deeply, something close to a sob, which he caught at the last moment. “If you sew it up, it’ll—”
“Eric,” Stacy said.
Eric opened his eyes, turned to look at her. She was still sitting beside Amy, clutching her hand.
“Let him do it, honey. Okay? Just let him do it.”
Eric stared at her—at Amy, too. He took another deep breath, then a third one, and the trembling slowly left his face. He shut his eyes again, opened them. He nodded.
Jeff turned to Mathias, who’d been waiting through all this, the unlighted match pinched between finger and thumb. “Go ahead,” Jeff said.
And then they all watched as Mathias coaxed the little fire into life.
Stacy was just a few yards away; she could see everything.
Jeff started on Eric’s abdomen, enlarging the original wound, tugging gently at one of the tendrils as he sliced. He didn’t have to go far—a couple of inches, no more—before the plant came free. Then he began to cut in the other direction, pulling on the second tendril. Again, it was only two or three inches before the vine slipped easily from Eric’s body. It must’ve hurt, of course, but Eric just grimaced, his hands tightening into fists. He didn’t make a sound.
Jeff handed the knife to Mathias, took the needle from him. Mathias had heated it in the tiny fire; he’d even threaded it for him. They didn’t seem to have to talk, those two; somehow, they just knew what the other wanted, and did it.Like Amy and me, Stacy thought, and nearly broke into tears. She had to shut her eyes to stop herself, clenching them—clenching Amy’s hand, too. The heat from her own body had warmed Amy’s skin by now; if Stacy hadn’t known better, she could’ve imagined that Amy was merely sleeping. But no, that wasn’t really true. Already, an odd stiffness had begun to set in, the fingers curling slightly in her grasp.
She opened her eyes. Jeff was mopping away some of Eric’s blood with the little towel, bending low, clasping the needle in his other hand, ready to begin his stitching.
Eric lifted his head slightly, stared. “What’re you doing?”
Jeff hesitated, the needle poised an inch above Eric’s abdomen. “I told you. We have to stitch it closed.”
“But you didn’t get it all.”
“Sure I did. It came right out.”
Eric gestured with his hand. “Can’t you fucking see? It goes all the way up my chest.”
Jeff examined where Eric was pointing—across the left side of his rib cage, then along his sternum. “That’s just swelling, Eric.”
“Bullshit.”
“That’s how the body reacts to physical trauma.”
“Cut me there.” He pointed at his sternum.
“I’m not gonna—”
“Do it and see.”
Jeff glanced toward Mathias, then Stacy, as if hoping one of them would help.
Stacy tried, weakly. “Just let him stitch it up, honey.”
Eric ignored her. He reached his hand toward Mathias. “Give me the knife.”
Mathias looked at Jeff, who shook his head.
“Either cut me or give me the knife and let me do it.”
“Eric—” Jeff began.
“It’s inside me, damn it. I can feel it.”
Jeff wavered for another moment, then handed the needle back to Mathias, took the knife from him. “Show me,” he said.
Eric ran his finger along the left edge of his sternum. “Here. Where it’s puffy.”
Jeff bent over him, pressed the blade into his skin, then drew it downward, carving a line three inches long. Blood spilled out of the wound, ran down Eric’s rib cage.
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