Erin drew circles on the table top and tried to ignore the heat crawling up her neck. She’d had more than a few ideas during the course of the evening.
The reality of her life was that the men her age were either stationed in Erbil for a period of time, or they expected things from a wife she wasn’t going to do.
Given the opportunity, at any other time, she’d flirt shamelessly with him. The way he blushed when he talked about his family was endearing, and those long lashes were mesmerizing. She could spend hours sitting here talking about nosey family.
“You ready for bed?” Riley patted her ankles, his touch leaving her skin tingling.
Panic twisted a tight hold around her chest, cooling the heat. The last thing Erin wanted was to be alone in the dark. The truth was until they crossed back into Kurdistan she wasn’t going to breathe an easy breath. Even then, she wasn’t sure who they could trust. This team was at risk. Hell, it was a wonder they hadn’t been stopped at a check point on their way here.
“Actually...” She smiled to keep her nerves from showing. Riley wasn’t a mind reader. He couldn’t know everything going on in her head. “I was curious how you secured that village.”
“Oh.” He shrugged as if it was no big deal pulling off a rescue with only a handful of bullets shot. “Brenden speaks enough Arabic to get by. We recorded him saying a message about the rescue and asking everyone to go to the mosque at sunset so no one was hurt.”
“That’s—that’s amazing, do you realize that?” Her admiration for them was getting out of control, which meant she was a few minutes from crawling across the table to wrap herself around Riley. She still hadn’t mustered up the courage to ask him if he was dating someone and just not sharing that detail with his mother.
“We were skeptical it’d work, but we were lucky.” Riley smile widened. He was a charmer, and she was letting him work his magic on her. Hell, she wanted it to work. Thinking about that smile was a far cry better than what she’d obsessed about in the dark.
“This far across the border you could have been walking into a town full of people who’d want you dead. Was that place even on a map? How did you find me?”
“We knew a guy who knew a guy that had heard about the kidnapping,” Riley said in his slow drawl. His green eyes seemed to twinkle. He wasn’t sharing his source with her, and she couldn’t find it in her to be upset about it.
“And the town?”
“It helps to make a lot of friends who want nothing but the best for everyone.”
“You aren’t telling me anything.” She flicked the cap of her bottle at him.
Riley caught it and his grin merely widened.
“This is what you do, then? Drive in, save the day?” She leaned her elbow on the table and propped her chin in her hand. God, he pulled all the right strings. He’d done everything to keep people safe. Even when he’d fired the one shot, he’d hit the shooter in the leg. If he flirted with her—for real, none of this smooth talking one liner stuff—she could not be responsible for her actions.
“I wish it was that easy.” He pushed to his feet and stretched. “I think I saw some snacks in the pantry. Still hungry?”
“Oh, not really.” At least not for food. She wanted to forget the last few days, if only for a little while, and replace it with something good. She wanted to feel alive.
Riley strolled to what passed for a pantry and opened it. His phone went off and he paused for a moment to stare at the screen. She didn’t mind. It gave her a wonderful view. Her initial impression of him was: big. A good deal of that was due to his tactical gear, but there was no denying that Riley was a tall, muscular man. His sandy brown hair was short, his skin a warm golden tan and those eyes. They made her think about mojitos. He’d showered sometime after her and changed into sweatpants and a t-shirt. There was something about plain, gray sweatpants on a man that looked damn good.
“That’s our company liaison. She said your family has not been notified, by the way.” He pulled a box out of the cabinet. “I don’t know what these are, but I’m eating them, anyway.”
The warmth returned to her chest. He didn’t forget a thing she’d mentioned. Damn, if that bit of knowledge didn’t punch her in the gut. “I can’t decide if I’m glad my parents don’t know or...”
Riley offered her a cookie like biscuit from the box. She took it and nibbled on it while she rolled that information around.
“Say what you’re thinking.” Riley nudged her.
“You know what I’m thinking.” If he didn’t, she’d totally misjudged him.
“They’re going to tell you they didn’t inform your family about the kidnapping because they didn’t want to worry them. That our team was here, and qualified, to bring you home without harm. That’s what they want you to believe.”
“There hasn’t been a terrorist attack inside Kurdish Iraq in years. If they label what happened an act of terrorism, it will impact the whole region. We haven’t even covered how they managed to smuggle me past so many security checks. The car didn’t stop once, Riley. Not a single time. I get stopped going from my home to the office at least six times on a normal work day.”
He sighed and chewed his cookie.
“I think there’s a lot going on here, and it’s going to take more than me, you, and this box of cookies to figure it out.” Riley neatly folded the box back together. “We should get some sleep.”
“I don’t think I can sleep,” she finally admitted.
“Try? For me?”
“I can sleep when I’m dead.” There had to be a reason she wasn’t seeing a reason, something obvious if only she’d open her eyes.
Riley held out his hand and speared her with a rare, serious look. He wasn’t going to leave her alone, and he wasn’t going to take no for an answer. If she had a reason to stay up, she’d give it to him, but she couldn’t identify anything more than a general sense of unease.
She groaned and put her hand in his. Nothing said she had to stay in a dark room by herself. She could try to sleep, and when that failed she’d just come out here. He wrapped his other hand around hers and pulled her down the bench. She swung her feet over the edge and he helped her up.
“Thomas is across the house on the first floor from you. There’s two of us on security at all times, and we have people back home monitoring the cameras. I’ll be across the hall if you need anything, okay?” He guided her toward the narrow stairs.
Erin hung her head. Was it that obvious?
In all her time, she’d never been at risk like she’d been the last few days. She’d done her best to maintain her cool, think through what she should do, what she knew. It didn’t change the fact that she’d been kidnapped by potential terrorists and held in a cellar for three days.
“This is you.” Riley gestured to a door at the end of the hall. “I’m over here.”
She stared at the other door.
Erin didn’t want to be alone. She didn’t want to be in the dark.
“Thanks for everything,” she muttered and stepped into the bedroom, flipping on the light.
For as long as she could remember, she’d been independent to a fault. She’d struck out on her own, determined to do whatever she wanted, even if it horrified her parents. And now here she was, afraid of the dark and being alone in a house full of people. It didn’t make any sense.
If she managed to sleep, everything would be fine.
Erin walked through the room, but there wasn’t anything besides the bed, a nightstand and a dresser. It was a room for resting.
She was going to have to come to terms with the dark someday.
She turned off the lights and stood next to the door, gritting her teeth.
It wasn’t absolute darkness. She could still see, thanks to the moonlight coming through the windows. It cast a square of light on the floor and once her eyes adjusted, she could see the shapes of the furniture.
An invisible hand closed around her throat. Sweat dampened her underarms
and her mouth went dry.
Yeah, that was enough of a test. She turned the light back on and sucked down an easier breath. She was thirty years old and afraid of the dark.
This was stupid. She just needed to get over it.
Once more, she flipped the lights off and jumped in bed before she could talk herself out of it.
She squeezed her eyes shut, willing her mind to remember the room bathed in light instead of shrouded in shadow. She listened to her own breathing. The size of the room didn’t matter. It was still damn loud, just like it had been in the cellar.
Any minute, someone was going to bang on the door and jolt her awake.
This wasn’t working.
She needed to move, to pace, to see.
Erin rolled out of bed and flipped the lights back on.
The stress had worn her thin. What she needed was to get home, back in her apartment, have a strong drink, maybe a sleeping pill. She’d work through this. She had to. She would.
A tap at her door made her stop short.
It wasn’t the hinge rattling bang, but it might as well have been the way her heart galloped in her chest.
She stared at the shadows under the door.
Who was it?
Another tap.
“It’s me,” Riley muttered.
She glanced at the digital clock.
Fuck, it’d been an hour already?
She opened the door and peered out.
Half of Riley’s hair stuck up at an odd angle and he rubbed his eye. Sleepy Riley was more adorable than the one who’d fed her and talked to her all through the evening.
“Everything okay?” he asked.
“Yeah.” Her voice came out strained and too high.
“You sure?”
It was just the two of them. She didn’t have anyone to impress except him, and she wasn’t going to do that anytime soon after tonight. She blew out a breath and took a step back. Riley followed her into the room and closed it behind him.
“I can’t sleep. I don’t want to be in the dark, but with the lights on...” Her throat tightened, and she couldn’t finish the sentence. She didn’t want to be weak.
“Hey?” Riley took her hand and gave it a little squeeze. “Don’t beat yourself up, okay? You get to be or feel whatever, got it?”
Erin nodded and squeezed his hand back. He tugged, and she took a step closer, then another until they were chest to chest. Riley wrapped his other arm around her in a gentle hug. She sucked down a breath and leaned her head against his shoulder.
Damn him. She didn’t want to lean on anyone, but he made it so easy to talk to him. She’d told him more about herself than she should. In a few hours he’d drop her at the airport and that would be it. They’d never see each other again. It was okay to be weak now. She could lean on someone this once.
“Mom says even the toughest cookies crumble. It’s okay, I won’t tell anyone,” he whispered.
“Shut up. You’re ruining it.” She let go of his hand and hugged him properly, with both arms. There was something about his arms wrapped around her that loosened all the tension in her back.
“Sorry.” He chuckled and folded her in his arms.
Erin turned her face so she inhaled the scent of man and soap on his shirt, reveled in the tactile nature of being held by someone. She wished he was just some guy she met one night, that it was fate causing their paths to cross for a perfect moment.
“Thanks,” she muttered.
He leaned back and looked at her.
Erin peered up at Riley. His heavy-lidded gaze was sleepy, and yet she could feel the warmth of him in the look. She swallowed, fully aware of what that look meant. They were adults. He hadn’t just been good company, he’d flirted.
Any other night, she wouldn’t hesitate, but now she did. Was she trying to cover up the bad memories with something good? Or was this perfect time, perfect man?
She swayed toward him, her body betraying her. His hand tightened around hers, tugging her just a bit more off balance, deciding her fate for the next few moments. She went up on tiptoe and told her brain to pipe down. She pressed her lips to his and curled her fingers into his shirt, fisting the fabric. He jolted, sucking in a breath and rocking toward her. He slid his hand up her arm to her shoulder. She arched her back and pulled on his shirt until he bent his head. His mouth moved with hers, a hunger in his touch. Warmth unfurled in her stomach, answering that same hunger in her.
Erin would mourn losing him. She knew that from one kiss. That didn’t mean they couldn’t enjoy each other tonight.
Riley cupped her cheek and lifted his head. Their breathing was the loudest thing in the room now, for completely different reasons. She kept a firm grip on him so she didn’t tip over.
“What do you want?”
“I don’t know.” She nuzzled his cheek and kissed his face.
“Sure you do.” His fingers coasted down her throat to her shoulder.
“I don’t want to be alone tonight.”
“You could have just said that.” He straightened.
Shit. That wasn’t what she’d meant.
“I didn’t kiss you to keep you here. I kissed you because I wanted to. Because...if I met you any other way I wouldn’t have hesitated.” She splayed her hand against his chest, feeling the muscles under her palm.
“Oh, well, if you put it that way...”
“I don’t want to sleep right now,” she whispered.
She kissed him again, bits of herself finding their way back to where they belonged. Riley’s hand slid lower down her back, pressing their bodies together. God, she loved the way he felt. He took a shuffling step toward her, trapping her between him and the dresser. His thigh pressed between her legs until she felt the heat of him at her core. She pushed her hands through his hair, pulling his face down a bit more, deepening the kiss.
This was her, not some night terror.
Riley groaned into her mouth, his hands coasting over her back and arms. He was a damn gentleman. Here she’d practically thrown herself at him and he wasn’t taking advantage of her open door offer. It was sweet, but she didn’t like sweet all that much.
She shifted her hips, grinding against his thigh.
God bless sweatpants. She wrapped her hand around his erection through the thin material. Manners, good looks, a cock like that, he was lucky she would be gone in a day or two. More than that and she might be proposing to him.
Riley grasped her by one wrist then the other. She whimpered, but secretly liked that he wasn’t always the gentleman. He pulled her hands off him while his tongue thrust into her mouth. She groaned and pulled at his grasp.
“Fuck.” He let go of her. “I didn’t think...”
“What?” She sucked down a breath and blinked at him, her brain not firing all cylinders.
Riley stared at her, his features sharper, aroused. He wasn’t near as easy going as he pretended to be. He reached up and grasped her ponytail, wrapping it around his hand.
“Oh, yes,” she sighed and closed her eyes. That was her weakness. She was a sucker for a good hair pull.
He took a step back, leading her. He kissed her neck and up to her cheek before sitting on the bed. She straddled his lap without hesitation, driven by need, the rest of the world forgotten.
Erin took his free hand and slid it up under her shirt, eager to feel him against her skin. He cupped her breast, his thumbs sliding over her nipples, caressing her aroused flesh. He had that perfect combination of roughened skin and firm touch that had her toes curling from a simple slide of skin on skin. She wanted more of that. Him. All of it. He grabbed her shirt and pushed it up, exposing her breasts then leaned in and kissed one, then the other.
She cupped the back of his head, arching her back. He tugged on her hair, forcing her breasts up higher. This was pretty damn perfect in her book.
Riley wrapped his arms around her waist, holding her tight to his body. He picked her up. She pressed her face against his shoulder,
muffling her yelp of surprise.
“Sh,” he whispered.
She chuckled, a little thrill going through her.
He turned and laid her on the bed. She let go of him and lay back, appreciating the green of his eyes and those ridiculously long lashes that only accentuated the way he stared at her.
Riley bent his head and brushed a kiss across her lips.
“Sh,” he whispered again.
His hands slid up her stomach and over her breasts.
Damn, but that felt good.
She grasped at his sweatpants, trying to find the elastic band.
“Slow down,” Riley said.
Nope. Not happening.
He pushed her hands aside and slid down the bed, out of reach. He hooked his fingers in the waistband of her yoga pants and tugged them down her legs and off. All she had on was the damn t-shirt, and she didn’t have the presence of mind to get rid of that.
Riley crouched between her thighs, his focus on her mound. His touch was gentle, but he knew what he was doing. He found her clit without fumbling and circled the sensitive bundle of nerves. She lifted her hips, wanting more than tender touches. He seemed to understand her unspoken request because he slid his fingers down between her folds. There was something about this touch, a man’s fingers against her, that inspired all kinds of demanding thoughts. His fingers dipped into her channel. She gasped at the feel of him and lifted her hips, driving him deeper.
Riley bent, flicking his tongue against the delicate skin over her clit. She shuddered and grasped him by the hair, her body going taut. His fingers slid deeper within her channel, stretching her while his lips explored her most intimately. He pushed her legs open wider, making himself at home.
She groaned and lifted her hips, moving with him.
He hummed, the vibrations soaking into her.
She wanted this to last, but she didn’t have it in her. The need for release was too sharp.
The tight coil of arousal sprang loose within her. Pleasure tightened her muscles and her pussy clamped down on him as the world seemed to fracture apart. He continued stroking her through the orgasm, driving it on until she thought she’d cry if he didn’t stop.
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