But dealing with those heavy cartons of books was a different matter than mental exercise, and tonight she was tired.
She went through her closing up ritual quickly and almost thoughtlessly; she'd done it so often she thought she could do it in her sleep. The register was totaled out and locked, the back door closed and secured, and she decided to put off cleaning the restroom until tomorrow morning. She picked up her small purse, nipped out the lights and made her way to the front door.
She was turning to lock it from the outside when she heard the sound. A low, throaty growl that sounded almost more animal than mechanical. She chalked that bit of anthropomorphism up to her weary state as she turned to look; it was a motorcycle, that was all.
All?
The word echoed in her mind as she stared. A motorcycle, yes. But she'd never seen anything like the picture that greeted her eyes now, riding out of the twilight. The bike was big and sleek and shiny black, but she barely noticed it as it cruised past, growling as if in protest at the slow pace. All she could do was stare at the man astride the low-slung, snarling beast.
He was dressed like a walking advertisement for some rebel motorcycle gang, except that the declarations of affiliation were missing. Plain, unmarked black leather jacket and boots, black jeans, and a pair of wraparound, black framed sunglasses with mirrored lenses. She thought she caught a glint of gold at his left earlobe. His hair was nearly as dark as the bike, and more than long enough to whip back like a mane in the wind of his passage. His face was unshaven, but not bearded, and beneath that his skin was tan, as if he spent a lot of his time outdoors. Probably on that monster, she thought a little numbly.
Instinctively she drew back in some alarm; she didn't want to draw the attention of this intruder. He looked like the personification of everything she'd been fascinated by as a girl but had been too terrified to go near. That hadn't changed much, she thought, as she became aware that her heart was racing in her chest.
She noticed a duffel bag fastened to the rack behind the seat of the bike. Was he traveling, then? Did he just travel about the country as the spirit moved him, like some fictional character in a weekly action show or something? She nearly sighed aloud.
She caught herself and smothered the familiar yearning to be something other than what she was. The words to an old song came to her, something about a man who was the wrong kind of paradise. This man would be just that for a woman. For this mouse of a woman, at least, she admitted, knowing herself too well to think she could ever even begin to handle a man like that.
As he went past the store she saw a helmet—also, of course, gleaming black—hooked to the back of the bike, and wondered if he ever bothered to wear it, or if he just carried it in the hopes of talking himself out of a ticket in this mandatory helmet state.
She thought she saw his head move slightly, but if he glanced her way at all, she couldn't tell behind the mirrored glasses. She doubted it; there was nothing to draw his attention. She couldn't imagine what it would take to interest such a man. The bike had California plates, but he didn't seem to fit here in Santiago Beach. This was a sun and surf town, and he was a splash of the wild side.
The wild side.
Suddenly she knew. With an instinctive certainty she couldn't question, she knew.
Luke McGuire was back in town.
Chapter 2
Santiago Beach hadn't changed a bit, Luke thought. Oh, there was some new development around the edges, some new houses and the occasional strip mall, but the downtown district hadn't changed at all. It was still the quaint, villagelike, tourist-attracting place, the main drag with the incredibly hokey name of Main Street, that had bored him to distraction. Everybody seemed to think living near the beach was the dream life for any kid, but it hadn't been for him.
No, it hadn't changed much at all. He had, though. He had to admit that. Not, he amended with an inward grin, that he resisted gunning the Harley's engine on occasion, just to break the smothering quiet. That it also turned heads, made people either gape at him or eye him suspiciously—or even with shock, like the woman outside the bookstore—was just a side benefit.
But down deep, he was no longer the kid who had done that kind of thing just for thrills, just to build on the reputation that had already begun to snowball. Now he did it for... what? Nostalgia?
Lord, nostalgic at twenty-six, he thought with a rueful twist of his lips. Back then, at eighteen, you thought anybody on the far side of thirty was decrepit, and now you're thinking people can still be young at forty.
He wondered if at thirty he would push that back to fifty, then at forty to sixty, continually pushing the boundaries back so that they were a safe distance away.
And he wondered if just coming back here was making him lose his mind. He never thought about this kind of thing at home. Of course, at home his thoughts were focused mainly on how to keep himself and everyone else alive through the next adventure. He rarely thought about Santiago Beach at all; in his mind, his past consisted of the last eight years.
But it was amazing to him how quickly he relapsed, just from seeing the old, familiar things, all in their old, familiar places. The faces might be different—although some had looked familiar—but the effect they had on him was the same. He immediately felt cramped, trapped, and he found himself wondering if his favorite secret hideout, the place no one had ever found, was still there.
The urge to turn the bike around and head for the high country was tremendous.
But he couldn't. He had to find Davie first, make sure he was all right. He'd wrestled with it for days, but now that he'd decided, now that he'd arrived, he wasn't going to turn tail and run until he'd done what he'd come here for. He really wasn't that kid anymore, desperate and weary of fighting a battle he could never, ever win.
He'd learned well in the past eight years. He'd learned how to depend only on himself, learned how to take care of himself, and most of all, he'd learned how it felt to win. And he liked it.
He wasn't going to let this place beat him again.
* * *
She wouldn't have sought her out, Amelia thought, but now that Jackie Hiller was right here, she should say something. She would never betray David's confidence, but she was worried. Especially if she was right about that dark, wild apparition she'd seen riding down Main Street.
The image, still so vivid in her mind, gave her a slight shiver. She knew she'd grown up within the boundaries of a strict childhood and been further limited by her own natural shyness; men like the one on that motorcycle had had no part in her life. But if that were indeed Luke McGuire, Amelia could easily see how David had built his half brother up into an almost mythological being in his mind.
She shook off the odd feeling. Jackie was coming out of the community center, and Amelia wondered if she had been giving one of her speeches. That was where Amelia had first met her a couple of years ago, at a meeting of the local Chamber of Commerce, where the woman had earnestly, passionately, almost too vehemently, pitched her views on the problem of teenage pregnancy. For a decade now she had been giving lectures at local schools and communities on the subject, and from what Amelia had heard, she was quite zealous in her crusade.
The woman was dressed impeccably, as usual; Amelia didn't think she'd ever seen her without perfect makeup, tasteful gold jewelry and medium heels. Her dress was tailored yet feminine, and looked very expensive. Her hair was perfectly blond, exquisitely cut and looked equally expensive. In all, a package Amelia doubted she could ever put together; she had the money, but not the time. Not time she wanted to spend on that kind of production, anyway.
But that wasn't what she was here for. Steeling herself, she waited until Jackie finished speaking to a woman outside the doors of the center, then approached.
"Mrs. Hiller?"
Jackie turned, an all-purpose smile on her face. It changed slightly when she saw Amelia, apparently recognizing her as someone she had met before.
"Amelia Blair. Of Blairs' Books."
"Ah, of course!" Her greeting was effusive and, for all Amelia could tell, genuine. "How nice to see you again. I've been meaning to stop in and see you."
Amelia blinked. She had? As far as she knew, the woman had never set foot in the store before; whatever her reading tastes were, if any, she satisfied them elsewhere.
"I wanted to talk to you about carrying our new newsletter," Jackie went on. "I understand you have several teenagers who come in regularly?"
"Yes," Amelia said, recovering. "Yes, I do."
"It's free, of course. And I'm sure you'll want to help in getting out such an important message."
Amelia couldn't argue about the importance of the message, but she didn't like the assumption that she would agree, sight unseen.
"I'll be happy to take a look at it and get back to you," she said, refusing to be swept up by the woman's polished energy. She might be a mouse, but she could be a stubborn one if she had to be.
There was only the most minuscule of breaks in the woman's demeanor, as if she'd heard a tiny blip she hadn't expected. But she went on as if nothing had happened. "Fine. I'll get one to you. I'm sure you'll be able to find space for it."
Jackie turned to go, as if assuming Amelia had only approached her because she had willed it. As if Amelia couldn't possibly have had a reason of her own.
"Mrs. Hiller, I needed to talk to you."
She turned back. "Oh?" Not quite looking down her nose, she waited.
"About David."
Jackie smiled. "Of course. I've also been meaning to tell you I appreciate the way you've encouraged him to read. I don't approve of some of the things you've picked, but I suppose reading anything is better than nothing."
How on earth, Amelia wondered, did she make an expression of thanks insulting?
"You're right, it is better," she said, carefully picking her words. "It's important that kids learn to love reading, and the only way that happens is for them to read things that interest them."
She could see the disagreement rising to the other woman's lips and continued quickly to forestall it.
"But what I wanted to talk about is not David's reading. It's... his brother."
The practiced smile faltered. Something hot and annoyed nickered in the cool blue eyes, and Amelia wondered rather abruptly if the man on the motorcycle had blue eyes, too.
"Why on earth," Jackie finally said, "would you ask about him?"
"I just..." Amelia stopped, wishing she'd thought this through before she'd done it; it was going to be very difficult not to give away David's secret. But she didn't have to; Jackie was on a roll.
"That boy," she said firmly, "was a hellion from the day he was born. I tried my best, but I've never seen a child who got into so much trouble so often and so young. I couldn't turn my back for a minute or he'd be into mischief. And later it got worse. He became incorrigible. It's a miracle we all survived."
"I see," was all Amelia could manage.
"Oh, I know what David's probably told you. He's built Luke up into some kind of idol, and he won't see reason about it. I've had to be extra hard on David so he doesn't turn out like Luke did."
"And how is that?" Amelia asked, curious to see how much truth there was to David's assumption that his mother hated his brother.
"Useless, troublesome, wicked and hideously embarrassing," Jackie said baldly. "But he's my cross to bear, much as I would like to deny he exists. And the sooner David gets over this silly moping around and mooning over a brother who isn't worth it, the better."
Well. That answers that, Amelia thought. And felt another pang of sympathy for the much-maligned Luke. "I'm sure a lot of David's mood is because of his father," she said, purposely changing the subject.
"It's been six months," Jackie said. "It's time to move on."
Startled at the woman's bluntness, Amelia said cautiously, "I don't think that's something you can put a timetable on. Everyone has to grieve in their own way."
If this was Jackie Hiller's way of grieving, Amelia thought as the woman abruptly remembered an appointment and stated she had to go right now, it was rather odd. And the woman seemed to have no idea how deeply David felt the loss of his father.
Amelia acknowledged the hasty goodbye and the promise to drop off the newsletter, and only after Jackie had taken a couple of steps did she think to call out to her.
"Mrs. Hiller? What does Luke look like?"
The woman's expression was nothing less than sour. "He looks," she said, "like his damned, black-Irish father."
The woman turned on her Ferragamo heel and walked swiftly away, as if in a hurry to leave the topic behind her in more ways than one.
His damned, black-Irish father...
The image of the man on the motorcycle came back even more vividly now. It all fit.
As did something else. That man had been at least in his mid-twenties. Jacqueline Hiller looked to be in her late thirties, although she could be a well-maintained forty-something. Not that she would want to hear that, Amelia was certain. But that meant that if the man on the bike was indeed Luke McGuire, he must have been born when Jackie was very, very young. And that he'd still been at home when Jackie had begun her crusade.
She wondered how it must feel to be the reason your mother campaigned like a zealot against teen pregnancy.
* * *
"Look, Davie, I'm really sorry about your dad. He was a good guy."
David nodded, his mouth tightening.
After one of the longest nights of his life, when his gut had tried hard to convince his head he should go home, Luke had waited down the street from the old house this morning until David had come out. And he had to admit, the boy's joyous greeting had been gratifying. He'd barely recognized his little brother, but the boy had had no such problem. He supposed it was because he'd already been eighteen when he'd left and hadn't changed all that much, whereas David had gone from small child to teenager.
"He liked you," David said.
"I liked him, too."
"He never said bad things about you, even after you left. Not like Mom."
Luke sighed. "I've been gone eight years, and she's still riding that old horse?''
"Sometimes I tell her to shut up."
And I'll bet that goes over like a busted paddle. "Hey," he said aloud, gripping his brother's shoulder, "don't make trouble for yourself. You don't have to defend me. Not to her."
"But if I don't, nobody else will," David said. Then, brightening, he added, "But you're here now. You can tell her to shut up."
Luke laughed. "Yeah, I suppose I could." He wouldn't— it wasn't worth it—but it seemed to make David feel better. "But if you don't mind, I'll wait a while. I'm not sure I want her to know I'm here yet."
"I didn't tell her," David said. "I didn't even tell her you were coming."
"Were you so sure I would?"
The boy nodded. "I knew you'd remember what it was like here. I did tell some people, though."
"Oh? Who?"
"My friends, some of them. Snake, anyway."
"Snake?"
"Yeah, like in the movie about New York being turned into a prison, remember?"
"Yeah, I do."
"And Amelia."
Luke lifted a brow. "Amelia? Who's that, your girlfriend?"
David blushed. Luke's mouth quirked; that was a stage he was glad to be long past. "Nah," the boy said. "She's too old. She's thirty, I think."
Ancient, Luke silently agreed with a rueful smile; his own thirtieth wasn't all that far away.
"She's a little quiet," David went on. "You never know what she's thinking. But she's cool. Even takes kickboxing lessons. She runs the bookstore downtown."
A memory flashed through his mind, of riding down Main Street last evening, just as it was starting to get dark. And of a woman, almost huddled in the doorway of the bookstore, as if she feared he would ride right up onto the sidewalk and grab her. That surely
couldn't be the "cool" Amelia....
"What happened to old man Wylie?"
"He retired. Amelia's folks moved here and bought the store, and she worked there. Then they died, and now it's hers. She's cool," he repeated. "She gets me good stuff to read, not that junk they make you read at school. You can talk to her, about anything and she really hears. And she talks to you, not at you."
"Definitely cool, then," Luke agreed; there had been a time in this town when he would have been pitifully grateful to find someone like that.
"She lets me talk about Dad," David added, looking away and faking a surreptitious swipe at his eyes that Luke pretended not to see. "Mom doesn't want me to ever bring him up. But Amelia says I should talk about him, that it'll help."
Another point for her, Luke thought. A big one.
David looked at his brother hopefully. "Want to meet her? I told her you'd come, but she wasn't sure."
Luke wasn't sure he wanted to meet anybody in Santiago Beach, but the cool Amelia had a few things in her favor. She apparently listened to David, something their mother never did; he doubted that had changed much. She had acknowledged his right to grieve for his father, something else he apparently wasn't getting at home. And most of all, she hadn't lived here when Luke had, so she didn't know him.
"All right," he agreed at last, and David yelped happily. It was fairly close so they walked, although Luke guessed David was itching to ask for a ride on the bike. Later, he thought; that would be just about right to send the old lady— Lord, she had always hated being called that—over the edge.
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