"What's the difference?"
"I just wanted to give you a message. From Joslyn."
Ben blinked. "From Joslyn?"
"The last thing she said to me. Outwit the stars. At first, I thought it was some sort of mantra or something. But after I read that book, I realized she was trying to tell me something very specific. The Yogananda knew that many people believed in astrology. That our fates are steered by the stars. But he was a great believer in the strength of the spirit and the eternal nature of the soul. He believed that we could change what the stars dealt us. He believed we could become whoever we longed to be."
Ben fell silent.
"Everyone has issues with which they must deal. Baggage from parents, lovers, spouses, ex-spouses, children. From traumatic events. They deal with their problems in different ways. Or find ways to avoid them. Some of those ways actually benefit other people, but that doesn't change the fact that they are not dealing with their issues. More like self-medicating with good deeds. And how long can anyone keep that up? Not forever. It's impossible to know exactly what another person's triggers might be…"
He seemed to be peering at Ben very closely. It was making him uncomfortable.
"… but I know what Joslyn was seeing. She knew she was dying. And she knew how I would react. Because I do have a temper. That's one of the attributes the stars dealt me. She knew that could potentially get me into a lot of trouble."
Dennis averted his eyes toward the floor. "After she died in my arms, I was filled with rage. When I saw Christopher Sentz, I wanted to do more than just punch him in the face. I wanted to kill him. For days thereafter, I wanted to kill him." He shook his head. "I didn't really get my head clear until I read this book, after I got out of prison. Then I understood what Joslyn was telling me. And I did it. I let go of my anger. Not just toward Sentz. Toward everyone.
"Have I told you about the foundation?" Dennis asked eagerly. "Whatever we get from the state, I'm putting into the Joslyn Thomas Foundation. To help those with medical difficulties who can't get proper care. It's not right that people have to endanger their health because they can't afford to pay for it. It's not right that children go uninsured through no fault of their own. Let's face it-if Officer Shaw's sister had been able to afford treatment, this whole mess might never have happened. So I'm going to try to make sure it never happens again."
He leaned back in his chair. "I'm a better person now, Ben. Much better than I was before. It took a tragedy to get my life in order. But sometimes I think that's why tragedies happen. We need something dramatic to shake us by the shoulders." He smiled. "So we can outwit the stars."
He leaned forward, gripping Ben's wrist tightly. "We all can."
He stood up and clapped his hands together. "Well, I suspect you've had about enough of me for one lifetime. I'm going to get out of here. So you can move on and obsess over something else."
His eyes twinkled a bit. He walked toward the door, and just before he left, added, "Thank you, Ben. For giving me my life back. And making it better."
He left the office. But even halfway down the hallway, Ben was able to hear him shout, "Now read the book!"
Ben blew air through his teeth. Honestly. He supposed it was sweet, in a way. So many people wanting to help him. As if he needed it. The only thing he needed right now was a little time off. Although he saw from the message on his desk that Jones had a potential new client for him. She had no money and the evidence was totally stacked against her, but she seemed sincere and her trial was scheduled to start in less than a week-
He looked up. What was it Dennis had said?
Slowly, almost grudgingly, he flipped open the pages of the big blue book.
"… the soul is ever-free; it is deathless because birthless; it cannot be regimented by stars…"
43
The man standing in the shadows checked his watch for the third time in a minute. He hated this. He did not like doing it. At least, he did not like doing it himself. That was why he used others, a carefully chosen chain of well-paid associates who could get the job done with virtually no trail leading back to him. Nothing that could flow back. Except the money.
That was the way he liked it. But now that everyone with whom he associated had been either killed or arrested, he was hard-pressed to get the job done. Dr. Sentz had made one last withdrawal after he sent Officer Shaw on his merry way. And now that Sentz and Shaw had been arrested and the leaks from the hot lab at St. Benedict's had been discovered, there were likely to be no more. He needed to get rid of this stuff as profitably as possible.
Who would've imagined he would end up doing this? He had barely paid attention to high school chemistry. When he was first approached by those in the black market, he had no idea substances of such value existed anywhere in Tulsa, much less at a medical facility. It had been time for his real education, the kind you don't get at Will Rogers High School. Learned cesium was first discovered in 1860 in mineral water in Germany, the first element detected by spectrum analysis based upon the distinctive bright blue lines. An alkali metal, found naturally occurring all over the world, most especially at Bernic Lake in Manitoba. And he learned how useful it could be as a hydrology measure, an ion engine propellant, a hydrogenation catalyst, in magnetometers, in organic chemistry, as an oxidizer to burn silicon in infrared flares.
And oh yes. You could make bombs with it. Dirty bombs. Bombs capable of causing great destruction and also spreading radiation over a wide area. The former attorney general John Ashcroft had raised the alarm. This could be the means of the next terrorist attack on the United States, he had said. I mean, we all know it's coming, right? We just don't know when and how.
If he had been better educated, he might not have been so surprised when the dark men first came to his office.
A relationship was forged from mutual interest and need. He needed cash. They had lots. They needed cesium. He knew everyone.
How much did they have now? He couldn't be certain, but it was no small amount. He knew they were using a great deal for testing. But how long could it be until they were ready to use it in a more productive manner?
The Chechen separatists had been the first to make the attempt. Two times they tried to plant dirty bombs. The first ever attempt at radiological terror was in 1995 with a canister of cesium-137 wrapped with explosives in Izmaylovsky Park in Moscow. The second came two years later. The bomb was found near a railway line not far from the Chechen capital, Grozny. KGB agent Alexander Litvinenko was killed by exposure to polonium-210.
People had been stealing radioactive materials ever since that first time in Brazil, then elsewhere all across the globe. So long as these materials were processed, for medicine, for nuclear power, for weapons, for anything at all, there would be terrorists trying to steal them. And inevitably some would be successful. So he really had done nothing, he told himself, nothing that would not have happened anyway. The only question was who would profit. Why not him? He would use it a good deal more purposefully than most of the people in the black market arena.
He saw headlights flicker down the long desert trail. Saints be praised. He had been out here ruminating long enough. Let's get this thing done.
They pulled up in a blue van, a Town and Country, if he was not mistaken. Tinted windows, dark. So cliched.
The man who stepped out was not smiling. He was rough and angry and obviously in a hurry. Presumably that was his way of dealing with nervousness-to mask it under a veneer of arrogance and presumed macho toughness. It reminded him of nothing so much as the police officers he dealt with so often. Ironic, given what this man was doing.
"Do you have it?" the man asked brusquely. He spoke with a thick accent. Talk about another cliche. Was it wrong for him to wish there was no Middle Eastern origin? Why couldn't he get a nice white backwoods bully determined to bring down the federal government by blowing up innocent citizens?
"I have it. Do you have my money?"
The man opened a steel-shell briefcase
. It was all there, all in cash, all in small unmarked bills. More than enough to take care of his immediate needs.
"I'll get the pig."
He walked to the back of his truck and wheeled out the small covered bucket. He would not be sorry to get rid of that. He had been keeping it far too long. The cesium was supposedly safe so long as it stayed in the bucket-safe from contamination and safe from being detected by law enforcement officials with spectrometers. But it still creeped him out. Made him wonder if he should be sleeping in a hazmat suit.
"Still active?" the other man asked.
"I'm no scientist. But I'm sure it is."
"And no one knows? We have heard what happened in Tulsa."
"Dr. Sentz may have been an idiot, but at least he had the sense to realize that he couldn't keep making little withdrawals forever without eventually being noticed. He took everything he could get the last time, then only sent as much as you asked for with Shaw. This is what's left."
"We are concerned that the police will find us."
"No chance. Shaw knew nothing about you."
"But if they investigate-"
"They will find nothing. Trust me. I've been watching the investigation very carefully."
"And if they find you?"
"They won't. The only one who knew I was involved was Christopher Sentz, and he's dead. The rest reported to him. I communicated with his brother through anonymous text messages. They knew there was a higher boss, but they didn't know who he was. Who I am."
The man smiled with admiration. "We do things much the same in our own cells."
"I know you do. That's where I got the idea."
"I hope we can do business again sometime."
"I appreciate that, but I have to keep my nose clean for a while. I'm going to be under a lot of scrutiny. Besides, my source has run dry. But who knows?" He shrugged. "In four years, I'll probably need money again. And that should give me about enough time to find another source of cesium."
They made the exchange with minimum fuss. He took the briefcase full of cash and returned to his truck. He waited for them to leave, then started his engine.
It was a long drive back to Tulsa.
He plugged in his iPod and spun up the John Prine playlist. Nothing better than Johnny for a long drive. Down-home, smooth, easy to listen to, and very smart. Country music for those who can't stand country music.
He thought about what the man had said. Would the police ever trace the cesium back to its buyers? He knew the current investigation would never get them there. He would like to think something would, someday. Before the big boom. Not that he wanted to see his most reliable source of funding dry up. But he did feel an itching at the base of his conscience that was hard to ignore. Like he should be a member of the French Resistance, but instead he was collaborating with the enemy. Still, he knew it was going to happen, and he knew someone was going to profit… and there was no point in beating himself up about it. Right?
He chuckled a little when he thought about the whole Dennis Thomas inquiry. Who was the mystery man who'd signaled Christopher Sentz to refuse to open an investigation into Joslyn's disappearance? Kincaid was all around it, but he couldn't see the answer, even when it was right before his eyes. Dennis had never gotten a good look at him, barely a glimpse, back at the police station. And no one else had noticed he was there. Ironically, those dunderheads assumed that if such a person existed, it must not be anyone they knew because they didn't remember him. The truth was, they didn't remember him being there because he was in there all the time.
David Guillerman adjusted his rearview mirror and peered into his own eyes. Still blue, still crystal clear. Nothing had changed. He was the same person he had always been. Right?
It takes a lot of money to mount a campaign these days.
44
Ben opened the door of his Senate office in the Rayburn building, R-222, and inhaled. And started coughing. This place had been closed too long.
"Glad to be back?" Christina asked.
He shrugged. "I'd rather be back on our roof at home, staring at the stars."
Christina immediately walked toward her desk and started sorting through the huge pile of mail that had accumulated while the Senate was in recess. As his Chief of Staff, she generally got more mail than he did. She had tried to keep up with some of the work at home, by email, but there was no substitute for being here, in the locus of governmental power.
"You seemed pretty absorbed during the flight. Spent most of the time gazing out the window. What were you thinking about?" Christina asked.
"Oh… I don't know."
"Fine, I'll guess. You were gazing at the constellations and thinking, One of those beauties should be named for my Christina."
"Got it in one."
She walked over to him and laid her hand on his shoulder. "But seriously."
"I tell you, that was it."
"You were wondering if the stars are really big gaseous nuclear reactors spitting helium into the universe."
"Uh, no."
"You were wondering if there's extraterrestrial life."
"Not at the moment."
"You were trying to remember if Ursa Major is the same as the Big Dipper."
"No."
"You were trying to count the stars."
"Still no." He sighed. "I was trying to… outwit them."
She pulled a face. "What are you talking about?"
"Nothing. Anything beats thinking about the case. Over and over again."
"Still beating yourself up, huh? Pretending you could have done a better job?"
"Sometimes."
"It worked out in the end."
"No thanks to me."
She took his hand. "Look, Ben. I want to apologize."
"For what?"
"For being such a pain. From the start. I'll admit it-I just didn't like Dennis. I didn't trust him. I know how easily you're bruised, and I didn't want to see you hurt."
"Who says I'm easily bruised?"
"Are you kidding? You're like the most hypersensitive person since Spider-Man. Except his Spidey-sense is useful. Yours, not so much."
"A lawyer should be able to empathize with others."
"Is that what you're doing? Because I think it would be hard to go around feeling the way you do."
Ben made no reply.
"My point is just that I didn't mean to make this affair more difficult than it already was."
"You didn't," Ben replied. "It's always good having someone thinking over your shoulder. Catching what you miss." He squeezed her delicate freckled hand. "I need you."
She blushed a little. "Well, yes. You do. But it's nice to hear you say it." She fluttered her eyelashes. "So if that's not what's troubling you, what is?"
"Our temporary insanity defense failed."
"Well, insanity is such a subjective concept. You remember that quotation I showed you from Angela Monet? 'Those who danced were thought to be quite insane by those who could not hear the music.'"
"Clever. But it doesn't change the fact that my defense flopped."
"I know. I was there."
"We did eventually get him off."
"There for that one, too."
Ben paused for a moment. "But… we never proved he didn't pull the trigger."
Christina stared back at him. "Shaw testified that they drugged him."
"Which explains why Dennis doesn't remember what happened. No matter how intense and memorable it might have been. They gave Loving the same drug, and as a result, he lost his memory of everything that happened after he was captured. Anything could've occurred after Dennis went to that hotel room. Dennis would've forgotten it."
"But Shaw said that he and his boss wanted to eliminate Christopher Sentz. That he was getting a bad case of the guilts. He was dangerous. Had to be eliminated."
"True. So several people had motives to kill Sentz." He looked at her pointedly. "That still doesn't tell us who pulled the trigger. Shaw never sai
d he did it, not specifically. And if he didn't, then…"
She took Ben's hand, led him to the window of the reception area, and silently gazed out at the panoramic view of the Washington skyline.
Finally, after five minutes that felt like fifty, Christina spoke. "I think Dennis is innocent."
"You do?"
"Of course. He's such a nice man. So spiritual."
"He told me that after his wife died he was consumed with fury."
"But he wasn't a criminal. Shaw was a criminal."
"But not a murderer. As far as we know. And it was really his boss who wanted Sentz dead, not him."
Another silence fell upon them. This one lasted even longer.
"I still don't think it was Dennis."
"Really?"
"Yeah." She inhaled deeply. "In fact, I'm certain of it."
"You are?"
"Yeah. Certain."
Ben nodded. "Good. So am I."
"My instincts are good."
"They are."
"So there. That settles that."
"That settles it."
"We did the right thing, Ben. We did."
"Agreed."
"I mean it."
"Sure."
"Really."
"Absolutely."
And they stood in silence for the longest time, arms entwined, staring at the stars.
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