by Serena Bell
Sleepover is a work of fiction. Names, places, and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events, locales, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.
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Copyright © 2018 by Serena Bell
Excerpt from America’s Sweetheart by Jessica Lemmon copyright © 2018 by Jessica Lemmon
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Contents
Cover
Title Page
Copyright
Chapter 1: Sawyer
Chapter 2: Elle
Chapter 3: Elle
Chapter 4: Sawyer
Chapter 5: Elle
Chapter 6: Sawyer
Chapter 7: Elle
Chapter 8: Sawyer
Chapter 9: Elle
Chapter 10: Sawyer
Chapter 11: Elle
Chapter 12: Elle
Chapter 13: Sawyer
Chapter 14: Elle
Chapter 15: Sawyer
Chapter 16: Elle
Chapter 17: Sawyer
Chapter 18: Elle
Chapter 19: Elle
Chapter 20: Sawyer
Chapter 21: Elle
Chapter 22: Sawyer
Chapter 23: Elle
Chapter 24: Sawyer
Chapter 25: Elle
Chapter 26: Sawyer
Chapter 27: Elle
Chapter 28: Sawyer
Chapter 29: Sawyer
Chapter 30: Elle
Chapter 31: Sawyer
Chapter 32: Elle
Chapter 33: Sawyer
Chapter 34: Elle
Chapter 35: Elle
Chapter 36: Sawyer
Chapter 37: Elle
Chapter 38: Sawyer
Chapter 39: Elle
Chapter 40: Sawyer
Chapter 41: Elle
Chapter 42: Elle
Chapter 43: Sawyer
Chapter 44: Elle
Chapter 45: Sawyer
Chapter 46: Elle
Chapter 47: Sawyer
Chapter 48: Elle
Chapter 49: Sawyer
Acknowledgments
By Serena Bell
About the Author
Excerpt from America’s Sweetheart
Chapter 1
Sawyer
“It’s a shithole.”
Brooks stands on the sidewalk outside my new place, arms crossed.
“Thanks,” I tell my brother.
“Well, it is.”
I sigh. “That’s the point. I’m supposed to fix it up.”
“Well, you’ve got your work cut out for you.”
Typical Brooks. Doesn’t mince words, doesn’t apologize. Most of the time, those are great traits in a brother, especially for a guy like me who’s zero bullshit. But every once in a while I wish he’d beat around the bush or drop a white lie, especially when it comes to the house I’m going to be living in for at least the next few months with my eight-year-old son, Jonah.
Brooks has a point, though. The roof shingles are peeling, there’s enough moss up there that I think a tree is starting to sprout, and the house desperately needs a paint job—which I’m pretty sure also means some of those siding boards are going to need replacing. The yard is overgrown, a miniature suburban jungle.
The good news is, the more work I do on the house and landscaping, the less rent I pay.
The bad news is, for the first few months at least, Jonah and I are going to be living in a dump. And I’ve seen the inside. It’s not a lot better.
A car pulls up to the curb behind the Penske truck I rented for this move. It’s Brooks’s friend Chase, with Jonah in the backseat. I can see Jonah through the window, his too-long hair shadowing his face as he leans over my cellphone, playing a video game. Chase tosses words over his shoulder to him, and Jonah replies. Knowing my son, he’s saying, I’ll be there as soon as I finish this game. Those are the words most often uttered in my house, besides, C’mon, Dad, really?
Chase gets out of the car and ambles toward us. “It’s—got promise.” He eyes the house like he’s looking hard for something that would make his words true.
I raise an eyebrow at Brooks, like, See, that’s how it’s done.
Brooks shrugs. “I tell it like it is. No lube for you, asshole.”
“You are such a dick.”
“We share fifty percent genetic material.”
“You were definitely adopted.”
“Can you two quit it and come unload the truck? I told Liv I’d be back for dinner.” Chase’s arms are crossed.
Brooks rolls his eyes. “Wouldn’t want to do anything that would keep Chase from having boring sex.”
Chase laughs. “Spoken by a guy who has no idea what it’s like to have the best sex of your life every fucking night.”
That used to be me. A plentiful supply of reliable—and often great—sex. Terrific, now I’m horny and sad. It’s so weird what’ll still set me off, almost two years after my wife’s death. Some days I’m fine, and others…
It didn’t help that Brooks and I spent all of yesterday packing up the house where Lucy and I lived together. I thought her parents had taken most of her belongings—the ones I hadn’t held onto and hidden away—but as I filled boxes, I kept finding her stuff. A sock of hers clinging to the guest towels. A binder she’d assembled with pages she’d ripped out of magazines and catalogs—recipes, photos of rooms she liked—
So many fucking things she never got around to.
If I’ve learned anything in the last two years, it’s how to put one foot in front of the other. That’s what I did yesterday, and that’s what I do now. “Chase is right. Let’s get this fucker done.”
Of course, Jonah chooses that moment to exit Chase’s car and come running up to us. “Dad,” he chastises.
“Sorry. Let’s get this thing done.”
Doesn’t have the same impact.
Jonah pauses, and I watch, wincing, as he takes in the house, no doubt comparing it to our old house, which, while smaller, was in great shape. “Dad,” he whines.
“Don’t start, Jo.”
“It’s a dump.”
Brooks puts his arm around Jonah. “It has a lot of promise.”
Chase snorts quietly.
“We’re going to fix it up until you won’t recognize it, bud. You and me,” I tell him, looking down at his pale, sullen face, framed with a fall of straight black hair. He has Lucy’s eyes, bright blue, and my chest aches.
“Why do we have to move?”
“You know why,
bud. Remember, I explained? It was time for Nonna and Pops to move back to Florida”—my parents had come to stay long-term after Lucy’s death, to help us out—“and that catalog, The Reclaimed House, wants my furniture, and so we needed to be closer to Gram and Gramps so they can watch you while I build. We’ll have enough money by the end of this year to buy an even nicer house than our old one, near Gram and Gramps. And I’ll let you help pick it.”
“I know, but…” Jonah wrings his hands, a habit he started after Lucy died. It’s painful to watch. I touch my fingers to his and he stops.
If Luce were here, she’d know how to get him to break the habit.
Of course, if Luce were here, he wouldn’t do it.
“Come on, Champ,” Brooks tells Jonah. “Let’s find the boxes that go in your room and we’ll get you set up.”
For what it’s worth, that’s typical Brooks, too. No one worked harder in the weeks before and after Lucy’s death to try to make things easier for Jonah.
Over the next couple of hours, there’s not much conversation as Brooks, Chase, and I unload the truck, stack boxes, and do our best to arrange furniture. Brooks, true to his word, spends most of the time helping Jonah unpack. After a while, Jonah loses interest and begins exploring the backyard, and then making forays along the sidewalk to check out the rest of the neighborhood, which is a lot nicer than the house we’re living in. I’m pretty sure the people who lived here the last three years didn’t do any upkeep at all.
“Stay where I can call you,” I caution him.
Brooks holds my phone out to me. I’d left it on the kitchen counter. “Text from Mom.”
I take it warily.
Did you make the beds first thing?
My mother is very opinionated about moving.
Not yet, Mom.
Go do it before you and Jonah get tired. Trust me.
I roll my eyes at Brooks, who rolls his back, and head upstairs to take my mother’s probably very sage advice. She has been more motherly toward me in the two years since Lucy’s death, having laid off somewhat during Lucy’s reign as queen of the household. Most of the time I appreciate it, because most of the time she’s right, but it can also make me feel like I’m ten years old.
The box with the sheets also contains the contents of my nightstand drawers and all the stuff I swept off the surface during my rushed packing job. Once the two beds are made, I shove as much of the other crap as will fit into the drawers, then stack the rest on the surface of the nightstand. I don’t do a very good job, though, and the whole thing rushes to the floor in a landslide—Clive Cussler, John le Carré, Lee Child, a few self-help books well-meaning people have tortured me with, and the spiral notebook where I keep my Lucy journal. The Lucy journal—basically, a daily letter to Lucy since her death—was the brainchild of the counselor at my grief group. It won’t bring them back, she cautioned. But it will help with the pain.
I scoffed at the idea. I might even have made a scornful noise out loud. Anyone who knows me knows I’m not a journal guy, not a feelings guy, not a pour-it-all-out guy. But the idea must have stuck somewhere in the back of my mind, and one particularly bad night, I tried it. And, well, it kind of worked. It wasn’t like she was right there in the room, but “talking” to her in the journal was a lot better than not talking to her at all.
I eye the journal guiltily. In the last couple of months, I’ve started a whole bunch of entries I haven’t finished. Tonight, I promise myself. I restack the books, unfortunately just as precariously, with the journal on top as a reminder.
“Yo!” Brooks calls up the stairs. “Will you get down here and help me with this behemoth?”
He almost certainly means my kitchen table, which I built. The kitchen table is a heavy piece, made with reclaimed beams from old barns, fitted together to form a mosaic pattern. I’m pretty damn proud of it.
Brooks and I are carrying said table into the house when a voice calls to me from the next yard over. “Hey you! Young man!”
I look up to see my new next-door neighbor on the right side, a prune-faced white-haired lady standing on her front stoop, holding a jar.
“Which one of you is the new renter?”
We set down the table and I raise my hand, feeling like a kid who’s about to get in trouble in school.
“That’d be me, ma’am. Sawyer. Sawyer Paulson.”
“Well, Sawyer Paulson, when you get a chance, can you make yourself useful and come help me open this spaghetti sauce?”
“Happy to, ma’am.” I cross my yard and unscrew the top of the marinara bottle.
“I’m Doris Wheeling,” she says, accepting the open jar and lid back. “I’ll try not to harass you, but even with that jar-opening thingie my son-in-law bought for me, I couldn’t get this open.”
“Happy to help anytime, ma’am.” I scrounge in my pocket and find one of my furniture-making cards, frayed but serviceable. “Call or text my cell if you need jars opened.”
She points behind me. “I think your son has found a friend.”
Sure enough, when I turn around, Jonah is kneeling in the bushes beside another boy his age, inspecting something that from a distance looks like a small frog or a big bug.
“That’s Elle’s boy. Madden. They’re your neighbors on the other side. It’s just the two of them. You might offer to help her with her jars, too.”
Did Doris Wheeling just make that sound really, really dirty?
“I um, I could do that.” I cast a quick glance toward the house on the other side of mine. It’s the twin to the one Jonah and I are renting but infinitely better maintained.
Mrs. Wheeling taps arthritic fingers on the side of the jar, tugging my attention back to the conversation. “Anyway, thanks, Sawyer.”
I nod. “Anytime.”
“And a pleasure to meet you.”
“Same here.”
She gives me a lopsided smile, turns, and shuffles into her house.
I cast one more glance toward my other neighbor’s house. Elle. Huh. Weird. I guess it’s a more common name than I’d guessed.
Unless—
The thought is accompanied by a mental picture of soft blond hair, perfect creamy breasts, and a plump lower lip slack with pleasure.
Nah. Wishful thinking.
I banish the sexy screen grab from my head and walk back to where Brooks is fidgeting with his phone. On his count of three, we hoist the table aloft and carry it inside.
“Couldn’t you build this shit lighter?” Brooks groans.
I don’t bother to answer him, just adjust my grasp to put more of the weight on him.
“You suck.”
I lighten my own load a fraction more and smirk at him. “Remember, we share fifty percent genetic material.”
I’m pleased that the table is so heavy he can’t free a hand to flip me off.
Chapter 2
Elle
Hattie turns the wedding invitation over in her hands, eyeing it with loathing. “Do you want to burn it?”
I bite my lip. “I do, kind of, but I’m afraid I’ll regret it later, when I come to my senses and realize I have to RSVP.”
She raises her eyebrows. “You’re not seriously thinking about going.”
“Everything I’ve ever read online says I should go.” I affect an instructive tone. “ ‘It’s important to have an amiable relationship with your ex and his new wife, since they will be two of the most important people in your child’s life.’ Plus, if I don’t go, don’t I look like a total loser?”
I can tell from Hattie’s expression that I’m about to get an earful. “You’re seriously asking me that? He lied to you. He cheated on you. He left you. He only let eight weeks pass between your divorce becoming final and sending you a wedding invitation, and you’re asking me if you look like a loser if you don’t go to t
he wedding? Hell no, you’d be a spokesmodel for every woman in her right mind. ‘Fuck that, Big Asshole, no fucking way I’m going to your wedding.’ Unless—”
She tucks her long, dark hair behind her ears and looks thoughtful. “Unless you can go with a really hot date. Then it might be worth it.”
I scoff. “Sure. I’ll just pull one of those out of my back pocket.”
“Let’s think. I’ve gotta know someone…”
Hattie, in fact, knows everyone, but the truth of the matter is that we live in the ’burbs, where single men are few and far between.
She sets the invitation back on the coffee table and I push it as far away from me as I can. When I saw it in my stack of mail, it only took me a split second to recognize what it was. My hands and feet went ice cold and I couldn’t breathe. Then I opened it and saw their names side by side, gold text on ivory card stock, below a gold-leaf bride and groom. I almost threw up.
Thank God Madden was occupied playing with the new kid next door. I stumbled back to the house and called Hattie, who was over here ten minutes later with a bar of dark chocolate and a bottle of red wine.
Since Trevor left, Hattie’s been my rock—she and our friend Capria, who couldn’t be here today because she’s at some kind of select soccer playoff thing with her oldest daughter. Hattie and Capria are both divorced, too.
I’m ashamed to admit now that before my life imploded, I didn’t give other people’s divorces much thought. It wasn’t like when someone’s spouse dies and everyone brings food and writes sympathy cards. I don’t think I would have admitted this aloud, but I think I secretly believed divorce was a faux pas you should try not to draw attention to. Now that I’m on the other side of that equation, having gone through my own divorce, I know better. My personal opinion? People should bring you food and flowers. You need your friends more than ever when your marriage falls apart.