by Bowie, Emily
His carefree laugh swirls around me, making me smile. “Thought you may need a ride.” He shrugs. “But if you don’t…” His words hang in the air and he revs his engine as if he’s gearing up to leave.
“Oh no you don’t,” I chastise him, picking up my pace to jump into the passenger side.
As soon as I climb in, I instinctively lean into his woody scent and our lips brush together, taking both of us by surprise. It happened so naturally without either one of us thinking.
Oh I have it bad. And I thought my childish crush on him would destroy me. I know that it is this here that will undoubtedly one day destroy me and my heart. Because nothing this good can last forever.
CHAPTER 14
Like a lovesick puppy, I’ve been waiting for Shay at the end of her driveway since nearly six a.m. not knowing what time she will start walking to school. At first I tried to convince myself that I was here to chat with Kellen, but I couldn’t even finish that thought without laughing at its ridiculousness.
I can’t get this girl out of my system. This is how I find myself throwing rocks at her bedroom window a few nights later.
It takes no longer than a moment before her dark hair swings out of the window and that gorgeous face of hers is looking down at me with an arched eyebrow. Her lips are pressed together like she is trying to be stern yet I can see the smile that wants to escape.
I nod my head away from the house, trying to indicate for her to come down. I can see her laugh under her breath while shaking her head at me, like she thinks I am crazy, before she nods.
I sink back into the shadows by the large tree, waiting for her to climb through the window.
“Hi.” Her lowered voice comes from behind me, making me jump before turning around to her.
“So what was so urgent you had to throw rocks at my window?” Her hand is on her hip as she tries to give me grief, but she’s not fooling anyone.
“Come on, I want to show you something.” I go to grab her hand to show her the way.
“At midnight?” she questions with sass.
Pulling her in, I hold her tight against me. “Do you think if I rang your doorbell Kellen would let you out? Or your dad?”
The air crackles around us; her head is tilted up and she’s looking at me. I watch her suck in her lower lip, and all I want to do is nip it back into place.
“Is that what you want?” I search her face for any sign I’m pushing her too far, anything to give me a reason to let her go.
The seconds it takes her to respond seems like minutes. Causing my confidence to waver slightly before she slowly shakes her head.
Lowering my head so my voice can brush past her ear, I smugly tell her, “That’s what I thought.”
We stand there, her snug against me as I tell myself to let go. It takes a few times of telling myself this before I release her from my grasp. I can’t help but notice she makes no move to distance our embrace.
“Come on now.” I pull away from her warmth and lead her toward the road where my truck is waiting.
I keep glancing over at her, nervous and excited. She looks content and smiles at me with each glance I steal.
When we get to the top of my driveway, I turn off the truck.
“You’re not going to pull in?” she questions, looking over at me.
I point into the distance at the light barely visible. “My dad can’t sleep so he’s out there doing something. I don’t want him to know I’m home yet.”
Like a gentleman I go to her side, opening up my old truck door and holding her hand to help her out.
I lead us to our old barn that needs a new coat of paint. I’ll probably have to do that this summer coming up.
“You wanted to show me a barn?” Her voice is practically laughing at me.
Instead of saying anything, I crush my lips to hers. The girly moan that leaves her almost undoes me, making me temporarily forget the reason why we are here. I pull away, resting my forehead on hers.
“This isn’t why I brought you here.”
She giggles. “I know, but it’s fun to see you like this.” Her gray eyes twinkle with mockery and lust, making this harder for me.
“Now what is so important that I had to see it tonight.”
I begin to second-guess myself as I calmly climb up the ladder to the loft in our barn. Shay follows my lead.
“Now don’t be checking out my ass,” I tease her, and when I look down I am certain I see her cheeks becoming rosy.
I help her at the last step, making sure she doesn’t slip as she stands on the firm ground scattered with hay. There is a small bench-like area made up of hay and an old barn blanket covering it.
“Behind here.” I lower my voice, not wanting it to boom across the barn.
She kneels down with me and her adorable sigh has me grinning.
“Kittens!”
“Their mom isn’t skittish of us so I am hoping her kittens will be the same,” I tell her, trying to sound like I know what I am talking about. “Want to hold one?” I mentally hope that their mom doesn’t go crazy and claw my arm off if she says yes.
“Are they old enough for that?” she asks with hope in her sweet voice.
“They are almost a month old, we should be fine to hold them.” I nod, her eyes wide with adoration. That’s the way I hope she will always look at me, along with those bedroom-hooded eyes she cast upon me earlier. New life goal right there. It’s funny how over the last couple of years most of my new hobbies and life goals circle around this girl in front of me.
I begin talking to the mom cat, my hand movements slow as I go to pick up the multicolored baby that I have named Skittles. She has been the most curious about me when I have come up here to check on them.
My hand cups around the sleepy kitten and I place her into Shay’s arms, she immediately begins to coo to it, touching its soft fur.
We sit cross-legged in the hay, taking turns holding the kittens. A few of them manage to run away from us but stay around watching, not going too far from their mom.
She places her hand on my leg after we put the last kitten back into their little nest. I watch as she leans over, my body imitating hers. Just as our lips touch, the door to the barn slides open, making the animals in here wake up to the commotion. I can hear my father mutter to himself as we stay frozen. Hoping we won’t be found out.
Only a small light was on when we came out here, but it’s enough to cause my dad to call out my name.
I shake my head for Shay not to move as I stay rooted in place. My dad mutters to himself some more as he goes on with what he’s working on. It’s only a couple of minutes but it feels like an hour before he closes up, leaving us in the dark.
Even in the dark we stay quiet until I am sure he is far enough away from the barn before I whisper into her ear, “I think that’s my cue to get you home.”
She starts to giggle and it’s contagious. I can’t help but to laugh with her.
CHAPTER 15
Life settled into a new norm. Over the next few weeks Luke and I exchanged stolen glances that slowly turned into purposeful searches for each other. It happened so slowly that I can’t pinpoint when we started to openly hang out.
Eye candy: Can you meet?
I smile at the new name I gave Luke in my phone. I felt it safer to change his name in case anyone snooped.
I look around my room for an excuse to leave and decide to go with mission “run a marathon.” Putting on my shortest elastic workout shorts, I pair it with a loose top that has cutouts on the side that show off my sports bra. Placing my earbuds into my ears, I head down the stairs calling out, “Going for a run.”
I start off on a light jog toward one of the hundreds of tree-lined paths that goes throughout the field. It doesn’t take long until I am at the waterhole. Luke is leaning against one of the large century-old trees, looking handsome in his solid black T-shirt and his plaid blue shorts.
“At this rate my parents are going to think I can
actually run a half marathon,” I tease him.
He doesn’t hide the fact that he looks me over head to toe, his eyes filling with what I can only describe as lust. I know this look. This is the look he has before he pulls me in for a kiss. I watch him step forward while I stay in place, relishing in how he makes me feel.
Placing his arms around my waist, he pulls me in and I can feel all of him. This is my favorite place to be with him. In the solitude of our own special place, holding each other. My lips curve up as I press tighter into him, feeling more of his dick against me. My hands hold onto his muscular arms, bracing myself. My knees seem to be in a constant state of weakness around him.
Kiss me.
I love the excitement of not knowing when he will lower his lips on mine, but wanting it so bad it makes my skin tingle.
Not wasting any more time, he pulls me in for a hungry kiss. His tongue sweeps in, licking my top lip as I give him access. I sink into him, relishing the perfected state I feel we are in. He kisses me long and deep. Each of his first kisses is like they are our last one. The thought is terrifying but I push it out, only allowing myself to live in the present.
It is me who pushes my hands up and under his shirt, my fingers threading up through his happy trail and fanning his pecs while he flexes them under my delicate touch. Rounding my hands up and over his shoulders, I try to remove his shirt, wanting nothing more than to feel his naked skin against my body.
“I want to show you something.” Fixing his shirt back down, he grabs my hand, pulling me into the bush.
“Why do you do that?” I ask him, feeling slightly rejected.
He looks back at me for a split second before refocusing on where he is leading me.
“Do what?”
“You know what.” Each time I try to do more than some kissing or light touching, like taking off some of our clothes, he changes our activity. Case in point.
I hear him breathe out and stop before turning around to stand in front of me. “I don’t want to rush you, Shay.”
“You’re not rushing me.”
He tilts his head, looking right into my eyes. “I want our first time together to be perfect. I don’t want to rush through each stage with you. You are meant to be savored. And I plan to do just that.”
Well, damn. How can I be mad when he has a smooth answer like that!
We take a few more steps before he is kneeling and pointing down.
“What is it?” I ask, trying to get closer.
“Looks like Peter Rabbit has made some new friends.”
Taking a better look I see a new burrowing hole. Looks like my pet rabbit made it out in the wild after all.
As I am staring at the ground in awe, he takes me by surprise. Picking me up, I wrap my legs around his waist as he punishes my lips with the best kiss I have ever had. How is it that each kiss feels better than the last? I take it he got my message.
My shirt is off even before I am able to put my hands under his. I like to tease him and take my time, just so he can understand what I was talking about. But he swats my hand away like he knows my mission and tears his shirt off, discarding it into some bushes.
It’s so exciting and magical. Yes, I said magical. I have dreamed for this moment ever since I recognized Luke was a boy I liked. This is even the spot where I fell in love with him and now we’re here, together. It’s like it has started to come full circle.
I feel him moving us as I kiss him deeper. Then my sports bra is being moved up but he leaves it up around my elbows, locking my hands up. I want to squirm to move it fully off, but then his mouth latches onto my nipple and I had no idea I could feel this way. I can’t think, only feel his touches.
Who knew this is what I was missing out on. My other boyfriends should have had lessons. I’m not an innocent girl by any stretch but I have never been touched like this. Slowly, his mouth comes off my skin, triggering for my mind to work but it’s mush. I allow Luke to slowly lay me down on a blanket just past our waterhole.
Luke has no problem taking control and moves back on top of me, kissing me stupid once again.
“I said I would be there, so I’ll be there.” Kellen’s voice rings through, having us still completely. I don’t even attempt to breathe, fearing it will be too loud.
There are no other voices, just the sound of Kellen stomping around near the climbing tree. In my head I try to come up with possible explanations about Luke and I but nothing other than the truth fills my head. I can hear my heart pounding in my ears, knowing if he looks our way he will see us. What will that do to Luke’s and his friendship, and most importantly, how will that change Luke and me?
“Okay, got it. I’ll be there in fifteen.” Kellen’s frustrated words hang in the air.
I try to hide the best I can under Luke, not that it would help if we were found out. Slowly, Kellen’s footsteps fade away.
I can’t help the giggle that escapes me. Adrenaline fully spiked throughout my body. All of those thoughts of what if disappear as fast as they came.
“You think this is funny?” Luke’s eyes light up.
I nod with a stupid grin on my face, hoping he will make me “pay” for my outburst. The moment he lifts up, I take the moment of surprise and shimmy out of my bra before jumping into our waterhole with only my bottoms on.
“So this is how you are going to play it?” He stands up, looking at me in the water.
“I just thought I would have a nice dip to cool off.” I wink at him, hoping he joins me.
“You Steeles always have to one-up everyone.”
I watch as he slowly reaches for belt and unbuckles it, taking off his boxers and shorts in one downward push.
His cock springs free, hitting himself on his lower abs. My eyes are glued to him. Oh my. I don’t have to be up close to see how thick it is, its tip wide, taunting my body for a reaction. I swallow the saliva collecting in my mouth, feeling lost for words.
“I would like to remind you my eyes are up here.” Luke’s gruff voice is teasing but I can’t look up.
Watching his cock stride closer to the water has my body doing crazy things, like wanting to get out and jump him. My nipples stiffen, giving me away. Luke takes his time, crouching down before smoothly entering the water like some practiced porn star.
He looks like he is on the prowl as his naked body easily glides toward me. “Truth or dare.”
I don’t know how to answer, but the question is enough for my eyes to finally meet his. The intensity of his green eyes has my throat drying up, making it hard to answer.
“Truth.” Only because in this moment I’m pretty sure I would do anything he said.
“Did you buy that red bikini for me?” I can already feel my face flush as I try to think about how to answer this.
“I bought it because I wanted to test if you liked the color red.” He begins to circle me, a lopsided grin taking over his face.
“And what did the test result come back as?” He questions out of playing order.
“Is this you choosing truth?” I cock my head to one side.
He looks up like he is thinking about it. “Truth.” I wasn’t expecting him to choose that option.
“Do you ever think how that day could have changed if Brax never showed up?” We are now in the middle of the pond and Luke holds onto the rope to keep him afloat while I slide toward him.
I wrap my arms around his neck, waiting my answer.
“Considering you made my favorite color red, and I only asked you to climb that tree so I wouldn’t be tempted to pull you into me, yeah, I would say the thought of how that day could have changed has crossed my mind. I just didn’t know what to do about those feelings then.”
My body is humming with anticipation. “But you do now?”
His Adam’s apple bobs up and down, showing me he is as affected by this as I am.
He nods then lifts his free hand to gently move my hair to the opposite side of my neck to rest in front of my shoulder.
“These feelings still scare the shit out of me but I’m still willing to lose everything to have the chance with you.”
I wrap my legs around his torso, his large cock pressing against my apex. My body shuffles, the friction between us lighting me on fire. I can’t help but to move more, wanting to feel closer to him.
He stays still, making me move, but holds me close, his hand wrapping around me before I close my lips on his, needing the intimacy.
He kisses me back with force as I continue to move against his long shaft. My ankles dig into him.
“I want you,” I confess, breaking our kiss.
“Not like this. Soon, but not like this.”
I watch as his head dips down, latching onto my nipple, nipping at it before sucking it, his tongue swirling around before he repeats the process. His free hand now dips into my hip, helping me move.
I want his cock in me so bad, waiting seems almost unjustifiable. My body moves faster and harder grinding against him, I lose all self-composure. To my own ears I make unrecognizable moans, my breathing is labored, and all I can think about is how his cock is so close to my throbbing wet pussy, my bottoms being the only barrier. Luke pushes me against him again and again until I feel lightheaded. The length of his cock pushes against my clit, staying tightly against me. Then I combust, my voice echoing in the forest as I moan out his name, feeling dazed and satisfied.
My moaning only slows as my breathing slows and I begin to wake from my haze. I just then realize I’m still clinging to Luke like he is a life preserver.
I start to feel embarrassed that I just humped his cock like it was going out of style. Before I can feel mortified, Luke claims my lips again.
“You are so sexy when you come undone like that,” he tells me between kisses, making my heart flutter and causing me to forget my insecurities.
CHAPTER 16
Kellen is so consumed with whatever he is dealing with it’s like he hasn’t even been at school once his short suspension was lifted. I love and hate it. My emotions battle over it, making me feel like I am choosing Luke over my brother by not confessing about our affair.