by K J Taylor
“Oh!” Laela fiddled with the amulet. “Of course! I’d forgotten. I’ve got t’see it before we go. What about you, then? Are yeh up for it?”
“I would be very interested to see it,” said Oeka.
“Well then, that’s where we’ll go,” said Laela. “Inva, we’ve decided we’d like t’go see the Sun Temple today. That okay?”
Inva smiled slightly and bowed. “I would be glad to show you the pride of this city, my lady. When would you like to go?”
“Now, of course,” said Laela. “Before it’s too hot out there. C’mon, let’s get goin’!”
“Certainly, my lady.”
Laela followed Oeka out of their lodgings, with Inva close behind. The slave looked cheerful today, and Laela had to ignore the urge to try to make conversation with her—it never worked. Even so, she’d decided that she rather liked her reserved attendant.
Outside, the city was bustling, as always. By now, Laela was used to people staring at her, and she ignored them.
Inva had brought a small portable shade-cloth with her, and as they left the shelter of the marketplace, she moved closer to Laela, holding it over her head. The long tassels that hung from it helped keep away the flies, and Laela made sure to keep pace with it, grateful for the shade.
The city was built on a hill, but while in the North important buildings were usually built on high ground, in Amoran, they were lower and closer to the river—where it was cooler. But the great Sun Temple of Instabahn was on the highest ground in the city—the closest to the sun. Laela saw it well before they reached it—a weird, irregular shape against the wide-open desert sky. It didn’t look like a building at all. In fact, it looked like something else she knew.
She halted. “Is that . . . wait, that’s a . . .” She rubbed her eyes. “That’s a giant . . . man. What the . . . ?”
“It is a statue, my lady,” said Inva. “Made in the likeness of the great god Xanathus. It’s said to have taken a hundred years to build.”
Laela only just heard her. As she walked on up the hill, the sheer size of what she was seeing slowly stripped away all sense of reality. There was no way it could be real. Human beings couldn’t make something like this . . . no. It was impossible.
The statue wasn’t really a full representation of the great sun god—only his chest, shoulders and head, thrusting upward out of the ground as if the rest of him were somewhere under the earth. The huge hands, shaped to include elegant, tapering fingers, were cupped outward, holding the entrance to the Temple between them like an offering. The arms were part of the front wall, and the shoulders made the roof. The colossal head reared into the sky, as high as the Council Tower at Malvern. It was bald, made from smooth, sand-yellow stone. The features were wide and benign; the lips set into a haunting smile. The eyes—too big for the face—were two enormous blue gems that glowed in the sunlight.
Laela, staring up at it, was struck by a sudden, irrational fear. Accepting that something this huge could exist was almost too much, and for a moment she fought the urge to run away, or to bow her head rather than look at it any more.
“This,” said Inva, from somewhere far away, “is the great god Xanathus. The Lord and Father of Amoran and all its people.”
Laela breathed deeply. “Xanathus . . .” Gryphus.
“He has another name in your land, my Lady,” said Inva.
“Yes,” Laela said, very quietly. “He does.”
Beside her, Oeka had lain down on her belly. “By the sky,” she breathed. “What magic is this?”
“Gryphus’ magic,” Laela told her, without thinking. But inside she believed it. She looked at the entrance, and then at Inva. “Can I go inside?”
Inva averted her eyes from the massive stone face. “You can, my lady, provided that your griffin goes with you. I will wait outside.”
Laela paused. “What, you ain’t comin’ with us?”
“It is forbidden, my lady,” said Inva. “Slaves may not go in.”
Laela frowned. “Wait here, then.”
There was no door on the arched entrance to the Temple. Instead, heavy yellow drapes had been tied back to reveal the dark space beyond. Laela hesitated for a moment, but Oeka had already gone in. Laela followed.
Beyond the drapes, a short passage led to the single chamber that made up the inside of the Temple. It was huge inside, made all in the same yellow stone as the outside. But it was full of gold as well. Gold discs, representing suns, had been placed at intervals along the walls, and more gold had been inlaid into the elaborate friezes that were carved everywhere. There were no seats; only brightly woven mats on the floor, and an altar at the far end. Light shone down in two beams from the ceiling and bathed the golden statue that stood there. It was a smaller version of the giant impossibility that made up the Temple—a slender, smiling man, holding a large copper dish in his outstretched hands, just above the altar. Pale flames flickered inside it.
Laela walked toward it as if in a dream, ignoring Oeka completely. The statue seemed to be waiting for her, its shining face locked in that distant, enigmatic smile.
A shape stepped in her way. “Welcome,” it said.
Laela jerked to a stop. “What the . . . ?”
The stranger was a man—bald, wearing a yellow kilt. His skin had been covered in gold paint, so for a moment he looked like a living version of the statue behind him.
“Who are yeh?” Laela said unceremoniously, almost resenting the interruption.
The man smiled and folded his hands together. “I am Ocax,” he said. “I am a priest of Xanathus.”
He was speaking griffish, Laela realised. “I’m Lady Laela,” she said. “Chief advisor to King Arenadd.”
Ocax ignored her. He had seen Oeka, and now he stepped closer to her and knelt, laying his head on the ground.
Oeka looked bewildered for a moment, but quickly recovered. “Rise, human,” she said.
Ocax rose, but kept his head bowed. “Mighty griffin,” he said. “Herald of Xanathus. I am not worthy to speak to you.”
“You may speak,” said Oeka. “So, human—you are a priest of this Temple?”
“I am, Sacred One,” said Ocax. “It is my task to bring oil to fuel the sacred flame, and to accept the offerings of those who come to worship.”
Oeka glanced at Laela. “This is a mighty temple. Did your kind build it alone?”
“No, Sacred One,” said Ocax. “The power of great Xanathus bound these stones together and blessed them with his grace.”
“Then you have pleased him,” said Oeka. She paused. “I am Oeka, of Tara. My human is Master of Wisdom.”
Ocax finally looked at Laela. “A worthy human to have your favour, Sacred One.”
“Thanks,” said Laela, by now thoroughly uncomfortable. “I came t’see the Temple.”
“It is a modest thing, compared to the great Temple in the capital,” said Ocax.
“I’ve never seen a temple this big or magnificent,” said Laela, and she meant it.
Ocax smiled. “Thank you, Lady Laela. Have you come here to pay homage to Xanathus?”
Laela glanced at Oeka. “Uh . . . yeah. Sure.”
The priest looked keenly at her. “Do you know Xanathus?”
Laela thought of the dream where she’d talked to Gryphus. “I think so.”
“Then come forward and know him better,” said Ocax.
Laela went closer to the altar, as he gestured her to. “Xanathus is a sun god, isn’t he?”
“The sun god,” Ocax corrected. “The only sun god. He may have other names in other languages, but he is the sun, the day and the light. He is life, he is love. There is no other.”
Laela thought of Arenadd’s frightened ramblings. “Then he’s Gryphus,” she said confidently. “This is his place.”
Ocax smiled. “Long ago, a strange people came to Amoran. They were pale-faced and spoke a strange language, but they revered the sun, and when our ancestors saw that they knew that they were a blessed pe
ople. They taught them the ways of Xanathus. Those people carried his teachings to their new home.”
“Cymria!” said Laela. “So the Southerners learned about Gryphus here.”
Ocax pointed at the altar. “See that symbol? Do you know it, Laela of Tara?”
It was a circle, with three curling lines that met in the middle and spread outward. Laela stared at it and laughed in disbelief. “I’ve seen that! It’s carved on the door of the temple in Sturrick! That’s Gryphus’ . . .” She trailed off.
“Xanathus’ symbol,” Ocax said solemnly. “The sun’s symbol. We have revered it for thousands of years.”
Laela kept her eyes on the gold-inlaid sunwheel, and felt as if all she knew were unravelling. Arenadd had been right—this was Gryphus’ place. All these people belonged to him. Amoran was a huge country—she’d been told that plenty of times. So much land, and so many souls, all Gryphus’ own. No wonder Arenadd couldn’t bear to be here.
She looked up at the eerily smiling statue, and thought of the crowned, bearded man from her dream. Could they possibly be the same person?
If they were, then what would they think of her?
Laela suddenly felt afraid. She was a Northerner. She had promised her soul to the Night God. And here she was, before the altar of Gryphus. Did he hate her? Did he want her gone from his lands, like Arenadd?
Ocax had been watching her. “Do not be afraid, Laela,” he said, as if he were reading her mind. “You are one of his children.”
Laela glanced at him. “I’m a Northerner.”
“But you do not have Northern eyes,” said Ocax. He smiled and touched her cheek. “I have never seen such eyes as yours. They are as blue as the sky. Like the eyes of Xanathus.”
“My mother was a Southerner,” said Laela.
“Then you are a child of Xanathus,” said Ocax. “Women are sacred to him; they give life, as he does.”
“But my father was a Northerner,” said Laela. “I figured since I was halfway Southern an’ halfway Northern, I could choose my own god.”
“And which god have you chosen, Laela of Tara?”
Laela hesitated. She had been going to say the Night God, but something stopped her.
“If you spoke to Xanathus, you would know which god was yours,” said Ocax.
Laela shook herself. “The gods ain’t exactly known for bein’ talkative.”
“But Xanathus can speak to you,” said Ocax. “Here, in this Temple. If you wish it.”
“How?” Oeka interrupted.
Ocax bowed to her. “There is a ritual, Sacred One,” he said. “A rite which calls Xanathus to speak. If your human would like to, she can perform it. I will help.”
“That is a matter for my human to decide,” said Oeka.
“What ‘ritual’ is this?” said Laela. “How’s it work?”
“It is simple enough,” said Ocax. “All you need do is cast a certain herb into the sacred flame. I will perform the chant, and before long, Xanathus will appear to you.”
Stuff and nonsense, thought Laela. But she couldn’t help but be curious all the same. She looked at the golden statue, and then at the priest. He had an odd, twitchy look about him and his eyes were bloodshot, but she didn’t believe that he would ever try to assassinate anyone. Vander had told her a few things about the priesthood in his home country, and nonviolence was supposedly one of their most important principles.
“All right,” she said. “Let’s do it.”
The priest smiled. “Wait for me.”
He went away through a door hidden behind the statue and returned a few moments later holding a small, woven bag. Laela stood close to the altar as he asked her to, her hand resting on Oeka’s head.
“You should stand back, Sacred One,” said Ocax. “A griffin does not need to breathe in the holy smoke.”
Oeka huffed to herself and moved away.
“Now.” Ocax gave the bag to Laela. “Take this, and cast it into the flame. Do not be afraid.”
“Right.” Laela opened the bag and peered inside. It was full of something dried and shredded—it looked vaguely like meat.
“Fungus,” said Ocax. “Gathered from the rocks in the Valley of the Wind. It has magical properties.”
Laela sniffed it and grimaced; it didn’t have a very strong smell, but for some reason it made her head spin. “So I just throw it in the bowl there?”
“Yes. The smoke will open your mind and allow Xanathus to speak to you.”
“It ain’t dangerous?”
“No.” He smiled. “I have done this many times. It was this ritual that first called me to become a priest.”
“All right then.” Laela reached over and tipped the entire contents of the bag into the flame. The dried fungus went up at once, but the oil soaked into it and made it burn slowly instead of vanishing. At once, smoke began to rise from the bowl—thick, yellowish smoke.
Ocax looked horrified. “You were only supposed to throw in a pinch!”
“Sorry—” Laela began, but in that instant the smoke hit her nostrils. It poured into her lungs, and in a heartbeat it had spread through her entire system. She turned to Ocax, asking for help, but she couldn’t tell where he was. Her head began to spin. She turned around, wide-eyed. Her head felt as if it were growing larger and larger, floating toward the ceiling. Everything around her had turned yellow, full of tiny sparks like pollen. Oeka wasn’t there any more, but that didn’t matter; Laela had forgotten all about her. She’d forgotten about Arenadd, too, and Yorath, and home. Everything fled out of her mind in an instant, and she was flying, suspended in a delicious cloud of sweet yellow fog.
She grinned; her mouth seemed to be out of her control and wanted to do nothing else.
Humming inanely to herself, she turned to see if the altar was still there. It was, and the statue was still there, too. Only now, it was moving.
Laela squinted at it. “Here, why are you movin’?” She giggled. “Are yeh bored? Want t’come out an’ get some air an’ that?” She giggled again and couldn’t make herself stop.
Very slowly, the statue straightened up. In its hands the bowl had become a ball of pure golden flame, so bright it hurt to look at.
Laela stopped giggling. She backed away. “What . . . ? No . . . stop . . . I don’t like this . . .”
The statue came toward her, its golden feet clanging on the stone. The face had lost its distant smile. Now it was alive, moving and changing its expression.
Laela tried to back away further, but her feet suddenly refused to move. The light hit her face, burning straight through her eyes and into her skull. She threw up her hands, trying vainly to protect herself. “No! Stop! Stop it! Go away! Help!”
The statue halted. She could hear it breathing; deep, rumbling, metallic breaths. Laela, it said.
Laela turned her head away. She was trembling in fright. “Leave me alone.”
Laela, the voice said again. Look at me.
It was impossible to disobey. Laela raised her head and saw those blank blue eyes, staring straight at her. “No . . .”
Laela, said the statue. My child. Do you know me?
“No,” said Laela. “No, I don’t know . . . I don’t . . .”
The statue raised a golden hand, holding it out. It was glowing with heat. Then perhaps you know them.
Laela turned, and saw a point of light in the fog—three points of light, growing brighter. The fog moved around them, gathering inward as if the lights were drawing it in. Forming shapes.
Laela saw the first of them emerge, and her entire body went cold. “You . . .”
The ghostly shape of Bran smiled at her. “How’s my little girl then, eh?”
Laela reached out to him. “But you’re . . .”
“. . . with Gryphus now,” he said. “Laela . . .”
She looked at the fog beside him and saw another shape. A woman’s shape. And on his other side, a man. The woman had long hair and a kind face, but there was no smile on it. Someth
ing had left a deep and terrible slash in her throat, and blood had soaked into the front of her gown.
The man who was with Bran looked more like a boy to Laela, but that was probably because of his eyes—they were round and bright blue, like a child’s. His hair was blond and tousled, and his face peppered with freckles. But he, too, had a ghastly wound on his throat, and his face was as pale as death.
Bran came closer, reaching out with a pale but still big hand. “Laela,” he said. “These two wanted t’come see yeh.”
Laela cringed at the sight of them. “Why?”
Bran put a hand on the woman’s shoulder. “This is your mother, Laela.”
The woman smiled sadly. “Laela. My little Laela. How you’ve grown.”
Laela stared at her, more frightened than anything else. “Mother . . . ?”
“Yes,” said the woman.
“I never knew yer name,” Laela mumbled.
“Flell,” said the woman. “I am Flell. Flell of Eagleholm. Lady Flell.”
“Lady?” Laela blinked. “Dad, yeh never said she was a . . .”
“I was a griffiner,” said Flell. “At Eagleholm. Like my parents.”
Laela looked at Bran. “Why didn’t yeh tell me, Dad? Why . . . ?”
“It was too painful t’talk about,” said Bran. “I didn’t think . . . didn’t see how it would help yeh t’know it.”
“Laela,” said Flell. She moved away from Bran and came closer, her feet making no sound on the floor. “Laela.” Her hand reached out. It was soaked in blood. “Laela, my sweet daughter . . .”
Laela wanted to get away from her. “Why are yeh here, Mother? What d’yeh want?”
“I want to know why,” Flell whispered.
“Why what?”
“Why you’re here,” said Bran.
“Why you’re worshipping the Night God,” said Flell.
“Why you’re with him,” said the boy.
“Arenadd is my King,” Laela told them boldly. “An’ he’s my friend.”
“Laela,” said Bran. “He murdered your mother.”
Laela faltered. “What . . . ?”
Flell put a hand to her throat. “He killed me in Malvern,” she said softly. “As I tried to defend your cradle from him.”