by Ha Jin
“Do you have Hailee already?”
“Not yet. We have to wait another day.”
“It’s very hot there, right?”
“Yes, it makes me miss Atlanta. I’ve never been in such weather. It’s scorching outside during the day, but that doesn’t seem to bother the locals.”
“That’s why Nanjing is called ‘Furnace.’”
“We went to see the other baby yesterday.”
“What baby?”
“The one whose photo came together with Hailee’s, remember?”
“Yes, how she’s like?”
“She’s a lovely girl too, a bit taller than Hailee. My heart went out to her. The good news is that a single woman in Philadelphia is going to adopt her. That makes Dave and me feel better.”
“So no more guilty, okay? Did you go to other place? I mean, look around and buy things?”
“We went to the Yangtze River and a park. Nanjing is a fascinating city. There’s a lot of good food here.”
“Did you walk on Yangtze Bridge?”
“Yes, it was kind of scary.”
“How come?”
“It trembled whenever a train passed beneath us. Dave and I were afraid it might collapse. You know he can’t swim.”
Pingping laughed. “You’re so funny, Janet. Everything is all right so far?”
“Yes. I’m calling to see how things are at home.”
“Everything is fine. Your house and yard is safe and clean. I went there yesterday morning. Your grass is cut, and everything look nice. Don’t worry. Susie keep your store good too. She’s very careful about everything.”
“Thanks a lot, Pingping. After we get our daughter, we’ll have to go to Beijing to get her papers. Then we’ll go see the Great Wall before we fly back.”
“Why you do that? Isn’t hard to go there with baby?”
“We figure we won’t be able to travel for a long time once we have Hailee. Also, we want to take some photos, to show them to her in the future.”
“I see. Travel safely then. Don’t worry about anything here.”
Having hung up, Pingping said to Nan, “They’re going to see the Great Wall with the baby. Isn’t that crazy?”
“Hailee is really a lucky girl,” Nan said poker-faced. “If some American family had adopted me when I was an infant, I could have become a movie star, or at least a CEO.”
That cracked everybody up.
Late that afternoon Nan read an article in a week-old Overseas Daily, reporting that Mr. Manping Liu had gone back to Beijing to get cancer treatment. The old exile had suddenly collapsed one day as he was patching the muffler of his jalopy with duct tape, and had been rushed to a local clinic for poor people. The diagnosis was liver cancer, and the doctor said his days would be numbered if the treatment wasn’t effective. It was rumored that the old dissident had written to a member of the Political Bureau, begging for permission to go back to China. “Please let me die in our motherland,” he wrote. Out of pity or political expediency, they let him return and even assigned him a hospital bed in Beijing, provided he’d remain silent about sensitive issues and would inform the police beforehand if he was to meet with any foreigner. He could resume receiving the same salary as before he had fled China. Mr. Liu accepted the provisos and went back quietly, together with his wife.
His case evoked mixed feelings in Nan, and for days he’d been thinking about the implications of Mr. Liu’s return. Why did the old man stoop to the authorities so easily? True, he was nostalgic and might get better medical treatment and live longer in Beijing. But wouldn’t his return compromise his principles and impair his integrity? Nan couldn’t answer definitively. His mind couldn’t help but turn to Mr. Liu even when he was busy cooking.
Gradually he figured out the essential difference between himself and the old scholar. Mr. Liu was an exile, whose life had been shaped by the past and who could exist only with reference to the central power that had banished him from China. Here lay Mr. Liu’s tragedy—he couldn’t possibly separate himself from the state’s apparatus that could always control and torment him. Without the frame of reference already formed in his homeland, his life would have lost its meaning and bearings. That must be why so many exiles, wrecked with nostalgia, would eulogize suffering and patriotism. Physically they were here, but because of the yoke of their significant past, they couldn’t adapt to the life in the new land. In contrast, Nan was an immigrant without a noteworthy and burdensome past. To the authorities, he was nobody, nonexistent. He didn’t even have a Chinese official to beg. Who would listen to a man like him, a mere immigrant or refugee? People of his kind, “the weed people,” survived or perished like insects and grass and wouldn’t matter at all to those living in their native land. To the people in China, they were already counted as a loss. Small wonder that a senior official had recently declared to a group of overseas Chinese, “You must be qualified to become a real patriot,” implying that China needed only those who could make substantial contributions to its economic and technological development. The more Nan thought about these issues, the more upset he became. On the other hand, he was willing to accept the immigrant life as the condition of his existence so as to become a self-sufficient man. He felt grateful to the American land that had taken in his family and given them an opportunity for a new beginning.
7
A THUNDERSTORM warning was broadcast the following day, and many people went to supermarkets to buy nonperishable foods, bottled water, and other supplies. No customers showed up at the Gold Wok after four o’clock, so the Wus closed early and went home to prepare for the severe storm due to hit the area in the evening. They were worried about the massive oak near the east end of their house. If it fell, it might crush the roofs of their carport and living room. The tree belonged to both the Wus and Gerald, the property line going right through its trunk. Several times Nan and Pingping had talked to Gerald about bringing the oak down, since it could fall on his roof as well, but he wouldn’t share the cost of six hundred dollars, saying he had no money. However, Alan had told Nan that oaks had deep roots and wouldn’t fall easily. It was pines that were more likely to cause damage; that was why Alan had taken down nineteen of his pine trees two years ago and had kept the oaks in his yard. Now all the Wus could do was cross their fingers and watch the television showing destroyed houses and overturned vehicles in the wake of the storm. A newsman said, “Besides the thunderstorm, it’s reported that some places in the northern suburbs got hammered by a tornado. We’ll bring you more on that once we have the details.”
The Wus moved a couch into the dining room, where they could stay to avoid being crushed by the oak if it fell. Around nine o’clock, after a series of thunderclaps, the night suddenly turned whitish—all the trees and lights beyond the lake vanished at once. Then came the ghostly rustle that sounded like a harvester cutting crops, though at a much faster speed. Taotao wanted to look out the window, whose panes kept up a steady rattling, but Nan stopped him for fear that the storm might crash into the room. In no time the power went out. The Wus realized this was a tornado, and wordlessly they cowered on the couch, set in a corner. Try as he might, Nan couldn’t hear the earth-shaking booms made by trees hitting the ground, and somehow all the noises were muffled, though their roof creaked and echoed with objects pelting it. He wondered if it was hailing as well.
Three minutes later the tornado passed, but the night was darker than before as all the lights were gone. The Wus looked out the broad window of the dining room and saw some boughs and branches on the grass. To their relief, all the trees were still standing in the backyard. In the north a fire engine or ambulance was howling. Because electricity might not come back on soon, they went to bed early.
After Taotao left for school the next morning, Nan took a walk in the neighborhood to see the havoc. Several houses had been damaged by fallen pines, and on the streets electric wires were mangled here and there. Fortunately the tornado hadn’t touched Beaver Hill Plaza, and
there was still electricity at the Gold Wok. Nan was pleased to find his freezer and refrigerators all droning as before. He realized there might be a lot of business today since many households in the area had no power. Hurriedly he went back and told Pingping to stop cleaning the front yard. Together they set out for work.
Indeed, for a whole day people came in nonstop. The Wus and Niyan had a hectic time, though all were happy about the business. Owing to the power outage, Taotao stayed at the restaurant after school, doing his homework. Toward dark, electricity finally came back to the neighborhood, where the smell of barbecued meat and fried chicken from cookouts still hovered.
Shortly after the Wus returned home that night, Gerald knocked on their door. Nan answered it. Gerald had been ill lately and out of work. He looked gaunt and aged, in jean overalls smudged with grease; the stubble on his chin was grizzled, and his eyes shone with a stiff light like a crazed man’s. He had lost his dog, Goby, a week earlier. It was Taotao who had found the dog dead the other morning—a pair of crows were standing on Goby’s belly, shrieking like mad, so the boy called to his parents, who went out but couldn’t rouse the animal. Goby had died of heartworm. According to Gerald, the collie had carried the disease since it was a puppy. In a way, the Wus were pleased by Goby’s disappearance, because now no dog would bark in the dead of night and wake them up.
“Kin—kin I borra some juice from ya?” Gerald asked Nan, apparently embarrassed.
“Orange juice?”
“No. I mean ’lectricity.”
“Oh, what happened to your house? Your power isn’t back yet?”
“No. I called ’em. They said they gonna come work on it tomorra.”
“How can you borrow electricity?” Nan was puzzled, though he knew Georgia Power must have cut off Gerald’s supply because of unpaid bills.
“I kin connec’ a cord to your carpo’t.”
“I see.” Indeed, there was a wall outlet near the side door of the house. “Two days. You don’t have to borrow it from us. I can let you use zer line for two days.”
“Two days’re plenty. I’ll git my powa back by then.”
Gerald looked hungry and probably had not cooked that day. As a matter of fact the Wus hadn’t seen him for a long time. He wouldn’t come out of his house nowadays, as if in hibernation, though their neighbor Alan would bang on Gerald’s door to remind him that his lawn needed mowing or that he should trim his trees. Gerald would rejoin, “I’ll take care of that when I feel like. I won’t be push’ around by nobody.” But he never did anything to put his property in order, except that once in a while he cut his grass with a tractor mower. When he drove that thing in his front yard, he’d kick up a thundering din and clouds of dust. To show his gratitude to the Wus, he once mowed their lawn with his machine as well, but its blades had been set so low that after the mowing, the grass turned yellow and shriveled for many days. So Pingping begged him to leave their lawn alone.
By nature Gerald was a kind fellow and a sort of craftsman, always ready to give a hand to someone. He’d get on Mrs. Lodge’s roof and blow down leaves for her. He had laid drainage pipes for the Utleys, a retired couple living a few houses down the street, so that rainwater could flow directly into the lake instead of sluicing and furrowing the roadside and their yard. Also, he had helped two families set their hardwood floors. People in the neighborhood went to those houses to look at the superb work, and everyone agreed that Gerald had done “a beautiful job.” Yet he simply wouldn’t bother about his own property, perhaps because no one would pay him for working on it.
“The other day I saw his ex-wife and daughter in his front yard,” Pingping told Nan after Gerald left.
“What’s she like?”
“She looks very young, with permed hair. She waits tables at the Waffle House near Berkmar High School.”
“But I remember Gerald once said his ex was older than he was.”
“I guess she is, but she really looks young and pretty. She said she couldn’t stand Gerald because he always collected too much junk. She called him a ‘pack rat.’”
“That can’t be the reason for the divorce.”
“She also said he used to drink a lot.”
“But he isn’t an alcoholic anymore.”
“She seemed happy without him. Maybe she has another man now, I don’t know. His daughter looked happy too.”
Nan turned the tap and let warm water fall into a plastic bucket, in which he was going to bathe his feet. Tonight he was too tired to take a shower, which he’d do tomorrow morning. He thought about Gerald’s situation and realized that if his life were like that fellow’s, he might have killed himself by now. In a way, Gerald was tough. Nan felt fortunate that he could hold his family together.
8
THE MITCHELLS came back with their daughter, and the Wus went to see them the next morning. Dave and Janet lived in a mansion secluded away in a cul-de-sac. A private driveway crossed a wooden bridge and led to their front yard, where a thin pine tree was lying beside a marble birdbath, felled by the storm a few days before. A beige portico supported a balustered balcony at the main entrance to their Victorian house, which boasted a sloping turret and arched windows. Their home was one of the most expensive in Breezewood Park, a subdivision off Five Forks Road.
With delight the Mitchells received Pingping and Nan. Despite exhaustion, Janet and Dave were in high spirits and both seemed to have shrunk a little, probably withered by the heat in Nanjing. The floor of the nursery was strewn with stuffed animals, among which was a puppy, lying on its stomach, its long ears touching the rug. There was also a miniature toy elephant sitting on its ass with its trunk raised above its head, and beside it was a bassinet, maybe already too small for the baby. Hailee was lying in the crib, half wrapped in a red blanket. Now and again she prattled and put out a hand, which reminded Pingping of a tiny fresh bun. The baby was happy and comfortable, as if eager to talk to the grown-ups bending over her. In every way she was an ordinary Chinese infant, with slightly chafed cheeks and almond-shaped eyes, at the corners of which gathered a bit of crust. Despite her strong bone structure and energetic voice, Hailee didn’t look healthy. Janet said that the child had suffered from pneumonia in the past spring, which was the actual reason their trip had been postponed, and that she was going to take her to the doctor early the next week.
Dave’s face was flushed with happiness, his large forehead shinier than before. When he held the baby, Pingping thought his big hands might squash her, but he was careful and let Janet hold Hailee most of the time. He often followed his wife around when the baby was in her arms. The two couples returned to coffee in the living room. The Mitchells said their trip to China had been an eye-opener. The country wasn’t as backward as they’d thought and most people seemed to live comfortably there, and everywhere there was construction under way. Among the American visitors there was a joke that said China’s national bird was the building crane. Obviously the country was developing rapidly. Janet asked Pingping and Nan why the Chinese in Nanjing looked different from those in American Chinatowns. In Nanjing and Shanghai they had seen a lot of handsome men and women. Girls were slim and had smooth skin, often dressed to the nines, and many young men were well built, some athletic. The Mitchells couldn’t figure out why the Chinese here seemed like a different race. Pingping told them that if they’d gone to the countryside, they’d have met many people who bore more resemblance to the residents in Chinatowns. The truth was that nowadays young people in the big cities had better nutrition, so they grew taller than their parents.
“Don’t Chinese kids eat nutritious food here?” asked Dave. “Still they look so different from the people in China.”
“Maybe zeir genes have been Americanized,” said Nan with a straight face.
“Then they should be bigger and taller,” Dave went on.
They all laughed. Pingping explained that most people in Chinatown originally came from the southern coastal provinces, where people ate ri
ce and didn’t grow as tall as a result of the hot climate and the diet. Generally speaking, northerners are taller than southerners, but weren’t Shanghai and Nanjing in the south, where people should be shorter? Hard as they tried, neither Nan nor Pingping could come up with a convincing explanation, though they believed the Mitchells’ observation must be right. They too had noticed some physical differences between the Chinatown Chinese and those in mainland China.
The Mitchells showed them a lot of photos they’d taken on the trip, of temples, parks, English corners, the staff at the orphanage, banquets, and also of the girl baby they’d had to give up. Janet brought out another album, with plastic sleeves containing memorabilia for Hailee, among which, in addition to small artwork like colorful feather bookmarks and cut-paper creatures wrapped in onionskin, there were even the stubs of their plane tickets, taxi receipts, and a small map of Nanjing City. Pingping was so touched that she couldn’t stop thinking what a lucky girl Hailee was, and her eyes filmed over with tears for a good minute.
Then she unwrapped the onionskin and scrutinized the set of paper cuttings, composed of six creatures—a hog, a buffalo, a chow chow, a deer, a magpie, and a rooster. Janet told the Wus, “We bought these from a peddler. Aren’t they exquisite?”
“Not very good,” said Pingping. “Look at this pig. His nose is too long, like elephant nose slashed half.”
“Pingping can do better,” Nan put in. “Her mozzer won prizes for paper cuttings.”
“This is art.” Janet sounded incredulous.
“Sure, that’s why I married zer girl with zer deftest hands.” Nan laughed, scratching his crown.
“Don’t believe him,” said Pingping.
Janet looked her in the eye. “Can you really make artwork like these?”
“Yes, I can cut these things.”
“Then you should make some for me.”
“It take a lotta time.” Pingping smiled blithely.
As the conversation went on, the Mitchells brought up the topic of Hailee’s biological parents, but husband and wife couldn’t see eye to eye on this subject. Janet had asked the leaders of the orphanage to send her information on Hailee’s biological parents, ideally some pictures as well; although they didn’t promise to provide anything more, the head of the orphanage, a good-looking young man with a chipped tooth, had assured her that he’d try to gather the information for her.