His heart danced at the sight of her.
She was so beautiful lying there, with her hair spread about her face. She had fallen asleep with her sketchpad at her side and her pencil still in hand. The sketchpad was still open to the page where she had been drawing. Curious, Jack lifted it up, marveling at the details she had captured so accurately on paper.
It was the dzonot where they had spent the previous afternoon. Never in his life had he seen a more... spiritual drawing. There was no other way to describe it. Bathed in the rays of sunlight it was almost possible to see the sanctity of the place, and in the lush greenery, it was almost possible to spy Hechicera’s face. She wasn’t there, but somehow she was... an almost indistinguishable face among the great canopy of leaves.
It was incredible.
Curiosity made him turn the page, and his heart jolted at the face that stared back at him. It was his own, captured with a sense of perfection that he knew he did not possess. The face was almost godly, the eyes piercing and intelligent, the lips full with sensual knowledge...
It was him, and yet it was not him.
It was his face as Sophie saw him, and the realization made his heart swell with emotion. He was still reeling from it as he turned the page to find another. He cocked his head at the image. It was another of him... horrific... the eyes bulging in anger and the mouth wide open as though shouting. Christ, if he had been flattered by the previous portrait, this one left him wincing. But her work was extraordinary.
Sophie stirred at his feet and he closed the pad, setting it down next to her backpack, along with the rest of her drawings. He glanced at them, and then back again, caught by the familiarity of them.
He began to leaf through them, and was stunned by his discovery. His own research. She had recreated the drawings with incredible accuracy... the jaguar god... even the mapped tombs. Her attention to detail was astounding. Her drawings were not only accurate, they were damned good, capturing more of the spirit of his subjects than he ever could have hoped for. He could use her talents.
With an overwhelming sense of gratitude, he set the drawings down and went to her, hovering over her as she slept, watching her. The shadow of her lashes fell long over her cheeks, brushing them softly.
He was overcome with the desire to kiss her.
“Jack?” she whispered sleepily, and he swallowed, pushing aside the thought that tomorrow she would no longer be with him.
He didn’t want to think of that now.
Didn’t want to feel angry.
Didn’t want to feel lonely.
He wanted to make love to her.
He kissed her lips softly, his heart beating harder at the feel of them so soft against his mouth.
“Sophia,” he murmured, desperate for the taste of her.
“Jack,” she said, waking. She smiled sweetly at him and stretched lazily, then lifted her arms around his neck. She opened her mouth to speak.
“Shhh,” Jack demanded, afraid she would refuse him. He silenced her with a hungry kiss, willing her to feel what was in his heart.
Like a flower, she opened to him, and he made love to her as he’d never made love to anyone in his entire life.
Before Sophie, he hadn’t known the real thing.
Before her... everything he ever did was simply in preparation for this...
CHAPTER 33
Jack had assured her they would reach Harlan’s camp bright and early the next morning, but Sophie was shocked to find how near to it they’d encamped.
They’d walked, at most, a mile, and then burst forth from the forest into a lush, beautiful clearing that was littered with the nearly vanquished remains of a bygone age. The buildings stood a silent testament to the people who had erected them, but the forest had long ago begun to choke the ruins into submission. Flora and fauna alike conspired to conceal the very buildings themselves from human eyes. So deep in the jungle they lay, they were not ruins any man might easily stumble over.
Except that someone had found it, and Sophie could see evidence of the jungle stripped away in places, reluctantly unveiling the masterpiece of some forgotten culture.
The sight of it all momentarily took her breath away.
She stood staring at the clearing in surprise, at the multitude of tents her father’s money had purchased, and wondered which tend was Harlan’s.
Her gaze sought Jack’s.
He was watching her at a distance, his feet planted stubbornly, though she willed him to her side.
Had he realized how near they were?
Why hadn’t he told her?
Despite the intensity of their lovemaking, for whatever reason he was still sullen with her. Suddenly, as she stood in the shadow of these august ruins, beyond the bounds of Harlan’s sleeping camp, she felt more alone than she’d ever felt in all her life. Never had she felt so minuscule and unimportant, her purpose so insignificant in the greater scheme of life.
Some part of her wanted to kneel in homage to this place. Some part of her wanted to forget all she had come for and simply sit and capture the heart and soul of this forgotten city. The greatest part of her wanted to turn and run, but she’d come so far to face Harlan and she intended to see it through till the end.
Sucking in a breath, she heaved the backpack off her shoulders and laid it on the ground. Her heart began to hammer as she knelt to retrieve her picture of Harlan.
Their arrival had been noted.
As the sun rose, bursting through the tree-tops, Harlan’s camp began to stir. One by one, they crawled out from their tents to watch the interlopers.
Somehow, it seemed everyone watched her... Jack’s crew and Harlan’s, as well. They all stared at her, waiting to see what she would do.
Her fingers shook as she withdrew the picture she had been carting around, and she refused to look up into anyone’s eyes, especially not Jack’s.
Kell came forward and patted her on the back... at least she thought it was Kell by the friendly way he clapped her.
She looked up to find Jack, and her heart did a quick little somersault against her ribs. “Jack,” she exclaimed, and wanted to throw herself into his arms.
Panic began to take hold of her. Her meticulously memorized speech flew out of her head completely.
He dragged her up, seizing her by the arms, his fingers digging gently into her flesh.
“Sophia,” he said, and the look in his green eyes was fervent. Sophie wanted to weep at the intensity visible in his stark green eyes. “I’ll back you... however you choose to handle this. I’ll make it right...”
She knew he would. That wasn’t her concern. She wanted to tell him everything, but it wouldn’t be long before he knew. “Oh, Jack!” she cried, and tried to embrace him, but he held her at bay.
“I’ll tell him it was all my fault,” he assured her. “But you don’t have to confess anything at all.”
“Jack,” she protested. “I have to—”
He shook her gently, but urgently. “No, listen to me!” he begged her.
Sophie suddenly wanted to sob, and she didn’t even know why. Tears pricked at her eyes, and she admonished herself for being so silly.
It wasn’t as though this were goodbye.
Why was she crying?
“Sophia...” He swallowed visibly. “I just want you to know...”
Her heart squeezed her painfully. She stared into his eyes, willing him to speak. “Yes, Jack?”
“Before you go ..
His fingers clutched her harder, almost desperately, but Sophie didn’t care. The look in his eyes gave her hope.
She waited with bated breath to hear his next words.
“Jack,” she prompted when he merely stared, the look in his eyes something like fear, as though he were afraid to speak the words. But that was impossible, because Jack MacAuley wasn’t afraid of anything at all.
She swallowed convulsively.
He was her hero, her lover, her friend, and lately her mentor. She loved him fierc
ely, and respected him even more. She wanted to please him always.
Harlan’s camp had come completely alive in the few moments while they stared at each other, while Sophie willed Jack to speak the words.
I love you, her heart cried out.
Say it, Jack.
“Sophia!” someone shouted. It was Harlan.
Sophie peered over her shoulder to see him coming toward them, and panic beset her all over again. She clutched Jack’s arm, looking frantically at him. She didn’t want him to let go of her because if he did, she would fall flat on her face and humiliate herself before one and all.
“Jack!” she cried softly, terror-stricken, but not for the reasons he might have thought. The picture of Harlan slipped from her fingers and fell to her feet.
She was afraid he would never say it, afraid the real world would somehow take him away, afraid he wouldn’t wait for her... that he would walk away without knowing the truth—and she was still afraid of being a fool for any man.
His eyes seemed to be pleading with her.
She tilted him a beseeching glance.
His hand suddenly lifted from her arm, and gently reached out to caress her face. “I love you, Sophia,” he said, speaking the words she most needed to hear.
Her heart lifted into her throat, and tears sprang to her eyes. Her throat constricted, and she couldn’t speak for an instant.
“Sophia!” Harlan shouted once more, his tone sounding overly pleased. “Here I am... over here!” he hailed her.
With a strength of determination, she hadn’t known she possessed, she pulled away from Jack, but he held her fast. “You don’t have to go,” he urged her.
Sophie pushed him firmly away, wanting so much to explain, but Harlan was nearly upon them. “Yes, I do!” she assured him, and sucked in a breath. “I have to do this, Jack!” And she extricated herself from his iron grip, suddenly dizzy with joy.
He loved her!
Dear God, he loved her!
Never in her life had anyone spoken those words to her. Never in her life had she wanted someone to say them more. Her heart felt near to bursting.
She didn’t care about Harlan at all.
This wasn’t the least painful, only necessary, and she was suddenly eager to do it! She straightened her shoulders, picked up the picture of Harlan from where she’d dropped it at her feet, gave Jack one last heartfelt glance, and said again, “I really have to do this.”
And she grinned at him.
She actually grinned at him.
As she tore away from him, Jack swallowed so hard that it hurt his heart. She began walking toward Harlan, never looking back, and he stood there, feeling as though she’d ripped out his insides and then smiled as she’d done so.
He let her go.
He had no choice but to do so.
He’d laid out his heart for the taking, and she’d refused it and left him anyway.
He couldn’t bear to watch.
His gaze sought Kell’s and he found his friend grinning as well. The realization gave him pause.
What the hell was wrong with everyone?
He turned once more to Sophie, watching her stride toward Harlan... full of confidence and purpose. She was a woman with a mission. In her hand she clutched Harlan’s vandalized picture as though it were a weapon. As he watched, she lifted it up suddenly when she was almost near Harlan and quickly removed the back, tossing it over her shoulder. She removed something and then tossed the picture as well. And just when Harlan would embrace her to welcome her, she unfolded something and thrust it into his face.
He’d be damned if Kell wasn’t laughing. Jack couldn’t hear him, but his shoulders shook with mirth.
What the hell was going on?
How did Kell seem to know?
Jack moved closer to eavesdrop, thinking maybe he could bear to hear this after all.
“Oh, Harlan, guess what Jon has shared with me!” she declared as she waved a paper in his face.
“What?” her fiancé asked her, trying to examine the paper as she waved it.
And then, evidently, he recognized it, because he paled visibly at the sight of it, and Sophie said to him, “I see you recognize it, Harlan dearest!”
Curiosity needled Jack and he moved closer to Kell. “What the hell is that in her hand?”
“A letter,” was all Kell felt inclined to reveal, and he grinned at Jack.
Jack shot him a glare, and turned to watch Sophie again, his attention riveted to her now as she began to recite something aloud to everyone who cared to listen.
“... and the women here are the most lovely any man has ever beheld,’ she read, her tone melodramatically poetic, “skin so velvet brown and eyes so deep a black a man may sigh to see his own reflection in her eyes!”
“How did you get that?” Harlan suddenly exploded, his face turning a mottled red.
“And hair!” Sophie continued, unfazed by the hysteria in his voice, “Christ, I have never had the joy of touching hair so rich it flows through your hands like the mane of a fine riding horse!”
“Sophia!” Harlan protested with a gasp and tried to seize the letter from her.
“And in parenthesis...” she added as an aside, turning to Jack. She actually winked at him then, and laughter erupted from his lips, despite his utter confusion.
She wasn’t even angry. He’d be damned. Had she planned this all along? Why didn’t she tell him? He would have reveled in her purpose, egged her on, even. Hell, he’d have given her free passage!
She went back to the letter, waxing poetic once more. “And they love to be ridden, Jon... I know this firsthand!”
“Sophia!” Harlan objected, his tone growing angry now. His face turned a deeper shade of red.
Everyone had gathered around them by now, and every eye remained on Sophie.
“... never have I known women so earthy in nature,” she continued, louder than before, with an artistic flair of her hand. “If you experience the carnal joy of one woman’s bosom, you must not think her the exception because the next will make you yearn to feel her native soil between your toes forever and run like a savage through the jungles of her birth. You will nearly forget you are a civilized man and never again wish to languish in the misery that is Boston.”
Harlan had written that? If so, he was more an idiot than Jack had ever supposed.
Laughter erupted from the crowd.
“Sophia, I can explain!” Harlan pleaded with her. “Give me the letter, please!”
She jerked it out of his reach. “Not for all the Vanderwahl money would I be dragged so soon from this paradise!” she finished passionately.
“I can explain,” he said again, but his plea fell on deaf ears.
“Don’t bother!” Sophie said, turning away, returning to Jack.
Harlan started after her. “Sophia, my darling princess, I can explain everything!”
She whirled to face him, rounding on him once more. “Don’t ever again call me that again! I have good news for you, Harlan! You don’t have to worry about the encumbrances of matrimony! Not with me! Not ever!”
Jack shook his head, realizing in that instant that this had, indeed, been her intent the entire time. This moment was what she had come for.
And he was damned proud of her for standing up for herself.
“And furthermore, you don’t ever have to leave this place if you don’t wish to!” she told him, and folded the letter in her hand, keeping the evidence. “And better yet you never again have to worry an inkling about Vanderwahl money!” she assured him.
She turned once more, leaving Harlan looking as though he’d been slapped in the face by his mother. She walked proudly toward Jack, looking every bit the woman she was, and handed the letter to him.
“It was never your money I cared for!” Harlan lied without hesitation.
“I love you, too,” she told Jack, ignoring Harlan, smiling, and then she spun on her heels once more, going back to Harlan, her demeanor sudd
enly fierce again.
Jack found himself grinning.
She loved him.
She’d said so.
“Oh no?” She poked a stunned Harlan in the ribs, and said, “Every man should have such an understanding fiancée, eh? And a father-in-law willing to plunk down good money in support of his cause?”
Harlan remained speechless.
“Well, you were right about one thing Harlan Horatio Penn the third! I am not wasting away! But I won’t be bearing your children—not in this lifetime!” She poked his chest once more.
“How dare you think to make me wait for you five, six more years for you to deign to return to me! And how dare you belittle my interest in your studies! And how dare you suggest that women have no patience or capacity for learning! And perhaps you couldn’t have chosen better,” she said in finale, “but I certainly can! And have!” she added with a nod.
And then she turned and left him one last time, coming toward Jack, her smile radiant.
Jack’s heart swelled with love for her.
And pride.
And joy.
She returned to him with shoulders squared, and a determined stride, confidence exuding from her person.
“You can’t do this to me!” Harlan railed at her back. “You can’t choose him over me, Sophia! It’s utterly disgraceful!”
Sophie ignored him.
“What will your father say?”
“I don’t care!” she replied, without turning.
Harlan advanced on them suddenly, his hand raised and pointing indignantly at the skies, “And don’t think I won’t tell him you’ve been carrying on with that... that...”
Jack set Sophie aside when she reached him, entrusting her into Kell’s arms.
Harlan was close at her heels.
“Excuse me an instant,” he told her calmly, and then hurled a punch at Harlan, catching him completely unawares with his false sense of security and interminable arrogance. It sent him flying backward once more onto his rear, adding another bruise to the collection on his face.
Some men never learned.
“What the hell was that for?” Harlan asked him, outraged, glaring at him.
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