“But…but why me?”
“Because Todd really cared about you. He wrote me several e-mails about you – I just didn’t know it was you at the time. He said you were a ‘real bad-ass’ but one of the most loyal and courageous people that he’d ever met.”
Ty looked at me in shock.
“He said that?”
“When we get home, I’ll show you the e-mails. I saved them all. He also was very grateful to you for helping him become acclimated to Iraq.”
“But I couldn’t save him!”
This Ty practically wailed and I could see tears streaming down his cheeks. I got up and walked around the chair until I could wrap my arms around him. He stiffened at first and then finally relaxed and let himself rest against me as he continued to silently cry. I gently stroked his head.
“If you couldn’t save him, then nobody could,” I said quietly as I held him.
After a while, I could feel that Ty had gotten himself back under control.
“Are you ready to go home now?” I asked gently.
He looked up at me and I held out my hand to him. I knew it was difficult but he reached out and took it. Together, hand in hand, we walked out of the hospital and to my car.
Chapter Nine
The brief ride home was again silent but the moment he got into the car, I reached over and took his hand in mine. He looked at me, his eyes softer than I had ever seen them, and he gently squeezed my hand.
When we got to the house, I asked Ty if he wanted anything to eat. He said he didn’t.
“Well, in that case,” I said, “I have some things I want to show you.”
I walked down the hallway to my bedroom and I pulled a leather portfolio out of my bedside table. I sat down on the bed and nodded for Ty to sit down next to me. He did but he kept his distance, almost like he was afraid to get too close for some reason. I opened the portfolio and handed Ty a sheaf of papers. They were all the e-mails from Todd while he was in Iraq, including the ones he wrote about Ty.
Ty slowly read through the e-mails while I sat there, not knowing how he was going to react to them. When he was finished, he dropped his head and he closed his eyes for a while. Then he looked up at me.
“He really loved me.”
“Yeah. He did. Just like he loved me. I have to think that somehow he wanted us to be together. That’s why he made you promise to take care of me.”
“You know everything about me now. How do you feel about me being here with you?”
“Well…it’s okay but there’s something wrong I would really like to fix but I don’t know how you feel about it.”
“What’s that?”
“Well, I sleep in this bed all alone and you sleep down the hall all alone. Now, I don’t like sleeping all alone but maybe you do.”
“Uhh…well, no. I don’t like it but I don’t want to hit you with my cast in the middle of the night, either.”
“Your cast is on your left leg. If we put you on the left side of the bed, then you won’t hit me with it.”
“Yeah, I guess that could work. Are you willing to take a chance?”
He looked at me with this incredible grin on his face.
“Yeah. I’m willing. Of course, I can’t be held responsible for my reaction if I see what I saw the other night.”
“What’s that?” Ty asked.
“Uhh…you were jacking off and your door was slightly open.”
“Oh fuck! You saw me?”
“Yeah. I didn’t mean to. I couldn’t sleep and I’d gotten up to get myself a glass of brandy. But when I saw you through the crack of the doorway, I kind of jacked off with you, standing there in the hall watching. I went to sleep without the brandy afterwards.”
“You got off watching me?”
His grin was full of pride now.
“Yeah.”
“So…uhh…you liked what you saw, huh?”
“Well…yeah. I liked it. But it scared me, too. I’ve never seen one quite that big before.”
That’s when something happened that I never expected, never thought was possible. Ty’s face became ruddy and he looked away. He was blushing! This tough Marine warrior was blushing. I could hardly believe it, sitting there watching it. At the same time, I noticed how much more beautiful and…well…human it made him.
“It ain’t that big,” he said quietly, looking down at the floor.
“The fuck it’s not! It’s the biggest one I’ve ever seen…uhh…not that I’ve seen all that many. Just in the locker rooms in high school and the dorms in college.”
“And in your bed?” Ty asked quietly.
“Uhh…no. None there. Except my own,” I quietly admitted.
Ty gave me a look like he was trying to figure out if I was telling him the truth or not. It was now my turn to blush and turn away.
“Are you saying you’re a virgin?” Ty asked, his voice showing his confusion.
“Yeah.”
“How the fuck did that happen? Somebody as cute as you are?”
“I guess nobody thought I was all that cute.”
I still couldn’t look at him. My head was down and slightly turned away from him. Then I felt his warm, strong fingers lifting my chin and turning my head to look at him.
“Then those mutherfuckers were fuckin’ blind. You know, I loved Todd but he wasn’t anywhere near as cute as you are.”
Ty gave me another of his dazzling grins as he said this. I could feel my face heating up again in a blush which I knew had to have me the color of red on the Marine Corps flag. However, it was at that point something Ty had just said, hit me.
“Uhh…did you and Todd ever…uhh…you know…”
“No! Never. Todd was my buddy. He was like a brother to me. I wasn’t…well…he just didn’t turn me on that way. Do you get that?”
“Easily. He didn’t turn me on that way, either.”
At this, Ty looked at me really strangely and then we both broke up laughing. When we stopped laughing, Ty and I just sat there, gazing into each other’s eyes. I didn’t know what was going to happen next. I knew what I wanted to happen but I didn’t know how to get there. Luckily, Ty did.
“You know, you can move over here next to me. I don’t bite,” he said, his voice low and with a very different kind of growl in it than I’d ever heard from him before.
At the same time as he said this, he raised his arm and I just kind of slid over so it was over my shoulders and around me. He used his arm and hand to pull me closer and he leaned over until he had captured my earlobe with his teeth and nibbled lightly on it as I groaned softly. I then heard his voice in my ear.
“I guess I do bite…just not hard.”
His voice in my ear was a deep purr.
Chapter Ten
I turned my head and looked into his eyes. For the first time I was close enough to realize they were a very dark brown. I hadn’t been sure. I knew they were dark. I knew whenever I looked in them I had a tendency to get lost in them but I had tried not to do that too often.
“You’re trembling. You’re not afraid of me, are you?” Ty asked.
“No. I’m just…well…I’m excited. I’ve never been in a guy’s arms before.”
“If I’m movin’ too fast for you, just let me know.”
“No! You’re not going too fast. I’m just so overwhelmed at everything.”
“We ain’t done nothin’ yet.” He smiled.
“We’ve done way more than I’ve ever done in my life. Way more than I expected to. I thought you were straight. When you finally told me why you’d been thrown out of the Corps, I just couldn’t believe it. I had spent all this time trying desperately not to be turned onto you. I especially tried very hard not to care about you.”
“Uhh…were you successful at it?”
“Not one damned bit. No matter how stupid I kept telling myself I was for caring about you, I couldn’t help myself.”
He didn’t say anything to that. The hand that wasn’t holding m
e close to him came up and he began to gently stroke my cheek. Then he caught my chin between his index finger and thumb, holding me still as his mouth closed over mine.
The kiss started out sweetly and gently, far more gently than I expected from a man like Ty. It didn’t stay that way long however. Soon it was harder and rougher, with Ty’s lips moving against mine until I felt his tongue begin to bore its way through my lips. I realized what he wanted though I had never been kissed this way in my life. I quickly opened my mouth and Ty showed me that Marines are well trained to take beachheads and not give them back.
My mouth felt invaded but I was soon quite happily sucking on this tongue as it moved around inside my mouth, almost seeming to be trying to count how many teeth I had. Without thought, my hands raised until they were grabbing at Ty’s head, pulling his mouth even harder against mine. It was like I wanted to devour him, or have him devour me. It was a kiss that took my breath away but made me want more and more.
Ty, however, had other ideas. He pulled his mouth from mine, at which I moaned in protest. This made him chuckle and I opened my eyes to find myself staring directly into his, which were twinkling in mirth.
“Enough of this makin’ out bullshit for now. I wanna get naked with you and get busy.”
Well, I guess I really didn’t expect Ty to be a romantic. He was as direct in making love was he was in everything else. However, I wasn’t exactly sure what he meant.
“Uhh…could you maybe give me some idea of what ‘get busy’ means?”
“It means I wanna get off and I want you to get off.”
He looked at me like I was perhaps somewhat mentally deficient. I got the distinct impression that even though I had told Ty I was a virgin, he didn’t really quite get how virginal I was.
“And exactly what did you have in mind for how we’re going to get off?’
That finally stopped him. He looked at me in consternation.
“Have you ever done anything with another guy?”
“No.”
“Not even when you were a kid?”
“No.”
“So you’ve never even been in a circle jerk.”
“No.”
“When you jack off, what do you think about?”
“Well…I’ve read porn stories online and I think about some of the stuff the guys do in them.”
“Like what?”
“Like sucking each other’s cocks and…well…fucking each other’s asses.”
“Okay, that’s a good start. Why don’t you help me get naked? When I do it, it takes such a fuckin’ long time.”
“So why haven’t you ever asked for my help before?”
“I guess because…well…because I don’t like askin’ for help and, besides, I didn’t want you around me when I was naked.”
“Why not?”
“I get turned on when you’re around. I didn’t want you knowin’ that.”
I leaned forward and kissed his mouth gently.
“I didn’t want you knowing how much you turned me on, either.”
“Well, then, let’s get this show on the road. I been layin’ here night after night, wantin’ you and I’m tired of it.”
And with that he stood up and moved in front of me, standing there practically ordering me to undress him. I looked up at him and finally asked a question I’d been wondering for a while.
“What the fuck rank did you hold in the Corps before you got thrown out?”
“Uhh…I was a sergeant.”
“Now why did I figure that?”
As Ty pulled off his T-shirt, baring his incredibly muscular upper body, I reached up and popped the top button on his jeans. He wasn’t wearing a belt so it was relatively easy to get his pants off him. I unzipped them and then I pushed them down his legs until they pooled around his ankles. As they slid down his thighs, I watched as his jeans uncovered that massive hard tower of pre-cum-dripping flesh that pawed the air aggressively at about a forty-five degree angle from his stomach.
Again, the warm, musky smell of his groin wafted up into my nose and I groaned softly at the scent. I could see the very tip of the head of his cock peeking out of the hood of his foreskin, with a glistening drop of pre-cum sitting there. I leaned forward and swiped my tongue across it, tasting the salty/sweetness of it as Ty groaned and grabbed hold of my shoulders to keep himself steady.
It was at that moment I began to realize I had a lot more power in this relationship than I realized. I was the one who controlled the pleasure I would give Ty. More importantly, as I opened my mouth and slowly slid the head of his cock inside, I began to note how pleasurable a feeling it was for me, not just him. I could taste more of the salty/sweetness of his pre-cum and the saltiness of his skin, along with a certain taste of Male, which thrilled me deep inside.
Slowly I pulled my mouth off his cock and looked up into his eyes. There was a look that was stunning in them. At once loving and feral. I could see how much he loved and wanted me but at the same time how incredibly he needed to get off as well. I grinned up at him impudently.
“This is what you really want, isn’t it? You want me to worship you.”
“Nah, babe. I don’t want you to worship me. I want you to fuckin’ ride me, but I don’t think you can.”
He said this with a wolfish grin while ruffling his fingers through my hair.
“What do you mean, ride you?”
“You know…sit down on my cock and ride me.”
“Oh! You want to fuck me.”
“Of course I do, babe, but I don’t want to hurt you. I know I’m pretty big.”
“Yeah. You are. But what if I want you to?”
He looked down into my eyes as I looked up at him.
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah. I at least want to try.”
“Why? Are you doing this because you know I want it?”
“Yes…and no. I know you want it but I’ve read all these stories about how wonderful it feels and I want to know what it feels like. And I do want to make you happy. I want to…well…”
I couldn’t go on because I didn’t quite know if I should tell him the rest of it.
“You want to what?”
“I…I want to…I want to feel like we’re joined as one person,” I said quietly, not looking at him.
He didn’t say anything for a few moments and then he sat down beside me on the bed again. I noticed that he’d started to lose his erection and I just knew I’d said the wrong thing.
“Tim, where do you see this goin’?”
“I don’t know. I guess further than you do.”
“That ain’t what I meant. I just want to know for sure what it is you’re lookin’ for. I ain’t never had nobody to call a lover or nothin’ like that. I mean, if that’s what you want, then I’m more than willin’. I just don’t want to be gettin’ my hopes up for nothin’.”
“How can you think that I don’t want you as a lover? You’re the kind of man I’ve always dreamed about – brave, courageous, honorable. Not to mention you’re fucking gorgeous.”
I grinned shyly at him, mostly at my own audaciousness.
“Well, there’s also the fact that I ain’t got nothin’. Only a high school education. You’ve been to college. You’ve got a good job. I mean, what do I got to offer you?”
I leaned over and looped my arms around his neck.
“Ty, do you love me?”
He lowered his eyes and said so quietly I could barely hear him, “Yeah. I do. More than anythin’.”
“Then that’s more than anyone has ever given me. What more could I possibly want? You’ll go to school and you’ll become a mechanic and I’ll be as proud of you as anyone could possibly be and we’ll make a life together loving each other. I’d say that’s plenty you’ve got to offer.”
Chapter Eleven
I think at that point we’d reached the limit of Ty’s ability to verbalize what he was feeling. Instead, he wrapped his arms around me and kissed me hun
grily. I melted into him, getting lost in the warmth of his body, the wetness of his tongue in my mouth and the breathlessness of being in his arms.
Finally, he pulled his mouth from mine and his hands went to my hips. He forced me to stand and he unbuckled my belt and unbuttoned my jeans as I pulled off my shirt. I kicked off my loafers and let my jeans drop around my ankles until I could step out of them. I figured I would then climb onto Ty’s lap but he had other ideas. He grabbed my hips in his hands again and leaned forward, gently taking my hard cock into his mouth. The warmth, the wetness, the stroking of his tongue caused me to cry out in surprise.
He pulled his mouth off my cock and looked up at me. “Come on, get over me.”
I watched as he lay back on the bed, his legs still bent over the edge and couldn’t understand what it was that he wanted.
“Come on. Just kneel over me with your face toward my cock.”
I did as he told me and felt him grab hold of my cock and put it back in his mouth. I leaned forward and was able to take his cock back into my mouth, as well. It was incredible, feeling his mouth surrounding my cock and tasting his at the same time. In fact, I became so involved in sucking his cock that I really wasn’t paying attention to what he was doing to me, other than the fact that it felt good.
I did notice, however, that my cock was no longer surrounded by the warmth of his mouth. Instead, I could feel his tongue gently licking at my balls and even drawing them into his mouth to suck on. I thought about doing the same to him but his body was far too long for me to do it. In fact, if it wasn’t for the extreme length of his cock, I would never have been able to get it to reach my mouth.
I could feel him gradually pulling me back so that his mouth was moving to the back of my scrotum and higher. I couldn’t quite figure out what he was up to but his cock finally left my mouth because I could no longer reach it. The next thing I felt were his hands on my chest, forcing me upward so I was almost sitting over him. I didn’t understand why he wanted this until I felt it…something I had never felt in my life nor had any idea that I would.
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