“I think we should go inside,” I said instead of answering to his question. Lucky for me, he didn't notice that I was avoiding answering to his it.
I didn't have any idea what kind of life was waiting for me in this university. For some reason, I was waiting for the worst scenario. Unfortunately, I quite liked what I found in this university. It was a pity that I decided in the end to vanish. I had more important things to do than to listen about literature right now.
But before I could leave the building, I needed to do something with phone. I really didn't want to see Christopher running to me and yelling that I was a bad girl that I should be where was safe for me and so on. That Eduard could have answers to my questions.
But what if he is a hunter? A week voice asked me in my mind. Yea, there was a change for that. And leaving my phone... I hit my hand to my forehead. What should I do?
In the end I still decided to risk. Be that as it may, I said in my mind as I asked Tobias to keep my phone in his backpack. Of course, he asked me why he should do that. He seemed suddenly alarmed and I didn't need him to be like that.
“Please,” I begged and give him a soft kiss on his lips. He nodded reluctantly. I grinned and told him that I had to go to administration and do...something. He believed me. Sucker, I said in my mind.
So, I had the address and some time. It wasn't difficult to find the right building. And lucky for me, or maybe not, it wasn't some kind of abandon place as I had imagined. The building was almost in the centre of the city and it was very luxurious.
“Can I help you?” a young doorman asked me when I approached closer to the door.
I hesitated. I didn't know what to do. I only had the card, nothing more.
“I came to meet Eduard,” I said. “he gave me this card,” and I showed it to him.
He took a good look at it before he nodded and let me inside. I was confused suddenly.
“He is waiting for you, miss. The third flour, miss,” he smiled. I returned his smile and entered inside. In a dash I could smell roses. I also could hear a calming melody.
I took a deep breath and walked forward. A young girl, somewhere around my age, met me and order to follow her. I nodded and did what she said.
Soon I found myself in really exclusive flat. I had never had an opportunity to be in one. I only saw this kind of luxurious flats in TV.
“Please, take a seat. Mr. Eduard will soon come and join you,” she said as she lowered her head a bit. Then, she turned on her heels and walked away. I did what she had said. Again. I put my purse next to me. I wasn't so afraid as I was when I was going here. Did the hunters live in this kind of flats? For some reason I imagined them as recluses which lived everywhere except this kind of buildings.
I heard footsteps behind me. I quickly stood up and turned my eyes to see Eduard, slowly approaching me. His eyes saw only me, reminding me our first meeting, when his eyes were like glued to my face.
He was wearing a grey costume with red like blood tie. This time his eyes were hidden by glasses with black frames. He didn't seem surprised seeing me here, in front of him. That only let me guess that he was waiting for me.
“You came,” he said, slowly coming to another sofa on which soon he sat. “Was it easy to escape from your protector?” he didn't ask if it was easy to escape from Avery. He just wanted to find out if Christopher was a bad protector.
“Not really. I don't have much time,” I sat back as I narrowed my eyes into two small splits. I also tried to put a serious person's mask on my face. I didn't have time to play games.
“Of course you don't have it. If you had, you wouldn't be here now. So, what do you want to know?” he spoke slowly, carefully measured every word of his.
“I didn't come here to give questions,” I replied. I knew better that to give questions. The only thing to find out something was to ask him to tell me everything, because in other way he will just give me half of what I needed.
“Of course, not. Trinity, you came here to understand why are you special,” he grinned.
“So, please tell me what I should know.”
He slowly shook his head.
“ I will tell you one story, Trinity. Listen carefully, because maybe it could explain you many things. So, how you know now, everyone tries to find his soulmate in order to be all, finished and happy. “
“Yea, I know that. Tell me something I don't know,” I crossed my arms against my chest. I was really feeling brave right now.
“Our world is much older that anyone thinks, Trinity. There were people, who were different, who liked creating things. One of them decided to create something similar to them, but these creatures should have what they didn't have – feelings. In their society feelings were things which could destroy their world, but he wanted to make sure if he was told truth. So, he created humans with souls. But one soul without another was worthless and only few of them could actually find another one. So, he created the bodiless, which had to make sure that souls could find each other. But creator did one tiny mistake; his created souls not all were good and they soon started to destroy his created world and ignore their mission for which they were created. You see, every soul has its own destiny. For example, yours is to change the world. But coming back to our story. So, the creator decided to... help his creatures; he took bad souls away from this world and never let them come back. But here was the problem; one soul was left without a chance to be happy. So, he let them to be protectors and tutors, who could help souls to find their happiness or faint hope that there will appear a soul one day who could be his soulmate.”
I lowered my eyes down, trying to remember what Christopher and Avery had said about souls, which lost their another half. Yea, they told me about possibility to become a protector or a tutor. They also mentioned that the soul could come back over and over again, but he will never be happy. But they didn't tell me that those souls had some kind of hope to have a soulmate one day.
“Ah, I see that your tutor didn't tell you something important,” Eduard noticed my face. “Well, it shouldn't surprise me. Souls shouldn't know anything about the real world. Even you, who remember her previous life, should be kept in the darkness.”
“Why can I remember my previous life?” I lifted my eyes to meet his. He smirked.
“Let me finish my story first, Trinity. So, many souls decided to become protectors and tutors and live forever, while another cherished hopes that maybe one day they will have their soulmate. The creator was pleased with himself. He solved one problem, but it soon created only more problems. The hunters were created. Some protectors and tutors decided that everyone should feel empty and sad like them. So, they become stealers' of souls. The creator had to find another solution how to illuminate this problem, but he didn't find it. He even now tries to create some kind of a plan.”
“And how that helps me to understand why I can remember my previous life?” I didn't understand.
“Well, that doesn't” he admitted. “The truth is, that no one really knows what kind of secret your soul really holds, my dear. But everyone can be sure, that you are not ordinary soul. Things like souls don't transfer to another body, is quite often event, but that it could remember...that is new.”
“I heard voices when I was...”
“Yea, I was one of those voices,” he leaned back, making himself comfortable on the sofa.” You have the gift of God.”
“Writing?” I asked. He nodded. “I really don't understand how that could be important. Many people can write...”
“You are mistaking, Trinity. Not everyone can write. Stories, which you can create, are not ordinary. You see the world differently, you analyze it. Sometimes even one word or thing could let you create another world. You don't need to find inspiration, because it finds you itself. Not everyone is like you.”
“And because I see the world differently...”
“Makes you special and worth to keep. The creator wouldn't have given you this if your mission hadn't b
een important. That was why we tried to find out why you are special, but before we could find that out, our soulmate was killed and... you couldn't live anymore. “
“I was killed. I know that part.”
“Do you?”
He was teasing me.
“Yea, I was killed that in other life I could be happy and so one,” I said in irritated voice.
“It is a pity that we can't see what kind of history one or another soul has, but we can see its life before reborn. It would be really interesting to know your soul's real life, what things you had to face.”
“Why?”
“Because it could keep the key to this mystery. “
“So,” I decided to change our topic,” the souls could be taken if they are bad or didn't do their mission for which they were created?”
“So determinate to talk about something else?” he lifted one of his eyebrows up. “Souls could also be taken if they have done their mission.”
“So, there should be a lot lonely spirits in the world,” I did the conclusion.
“Yea, that is another problem which the creator have to face. Many lonely souls wondering around, searching for another soul which could make them happy again.”
“What else should I know?”
“Maybe that I am your master.”
“Master?” I didn't like the ring of this word. Especially, how he looked saying it.
He noticed my complaint in my eyes and hurried to explain everything.
“You have a protector and a tutor. But Avery can't tell you what she doesn't know or think it isn't worth for you to know. For them, you are just a mission,” that fact hurt. Mission. I am just a mission to them, I said in my mind. Avery told me many times, who I was to them, but still, hearing that and from other mouth, really hurt my feelings.
“What do you want to tell me with that?”
“That you shouldn't be kept in the darkness, Trinity. I am your master, a person who will teach you about our world. You can remember your previous life for a reason. So, I will try to help you to understand it.”
He really will tell me everything? I asked myself in my mind. His eyes seemed sincere and friendly when he said those words. I wanted to believe him. I really wanted, but something just couldn't let me trust him.
“You said that you can't trace a soul's previous life. So, how do you know that my soulmate was killed? How you know that I was killed?”
“You are smart,” he said rapt. “That's interesting, Trinity.”
And you are a weasel, I snapped mentally.
I pressed my lips tightly, giving him a sign that he was starting to push my buttons.
“We know you and your soulmate, because he wasn't killed by accident. The hunters found and ...killed him. Usually, they don't kill before souls find each other. So, it is really interesting, why they killed him.”
“And the bodiless killed me?” something in here I could see logical; he was killed my enemies while I was killed by the good guys.
“Yes, Trinity,” he said reluctantly.
I didn't know what else I should say. I was killed to live another life. It sounded a bit strange in my mind. To live another life, when I had a mission, which I didn't complete.
“So, you want to tell me that you don't know why the hunters killed my soulmate?” I asked to make sure if I understood everything correctly.
He nodded.
“And that only makes you even more interesting, Trinity. Your soul is really special. The question is, how much.”
“What else should I know?”
He lifted his hand up and waved his finger in front of me.
“Tsk tsk, my dear Trinity. I think we will have to continue this talk in another time. I think you should go now before Christopher could have opportunity to become your shadow.”
“What do you mean?” I asked as I lifted my wrist up to see my clock. He was right. I should go back to university.
“That also will be for our another talk,” he stood up and approached me. Eduard extended his hand for me to take it, but I ignored it and stood up by myself. He didn't seem disappointed or offended by my behavior. It almost even seemed that he was expecting for me to act like this.
“Tomorrow?” I asked.
He shook his head.
“Next week, my dearest Trinity. By then I think you will understand more about the situation in which you are.”
What that supposed to mean? I asked myself in my mind. Was he warning me about something? If so, why he couldn't just tell me? Why was he talking in riddles?
“Learn to say before you sing, Trinity,” he said in a whisper as he took some steps away from me. “Until our next meeting,” he didn't say good bye. He just walked away from me. I followed him with my eyes. One thing was clear for me; I will never be able to live a normal life which was expected from me.
The same young woman appeared, asking me to follow her out from the flat. She seemed sweet, but I knew better than just to believe in that, because I was a player of this world too; no one really wore his true mask on his face. Behind her friendly eyes could be lurking a tiger.
I nodded. I didn't have time to play this game. Tobias was waiting and also was Avery.
Chapter fourteen
I was a minion of fortune...at least this time. Tobias didn't give me unnecessary questions when I came back. Maybe it was because I didn't let him open his mouth? I kept him occupied with kisses. And when I released him, he couldn't remember his questions. I really liked this soulmates' thing.
Avery also didn't have any kind of suspicions about my absents at university. So, it wasn't a surprise that Christopher thought that I was where I had to be. But I had to admit, he was a good actor, because at the first opportunity, he pulled me into my room and shot at me his angry eyes. His body language was screaming that something bad will happen right now.
“I have another tracking device?” I asked, frowning. He nodded slowly. Really slowly.
Busted, I said in my mind.
“Maybe you would like to tell me about your little trip?” he asked, taking some steps to me.
I shook my head.
“Not really,” it was surprising that I didn't felt fear in front of him, although deep in my mind I knew that I should tremble with fear. He knew that I had broken their rules; I left their safe place and risked to be caught by some hunters. At least I knew who those hunters were; they wanted to make others miserable.
“Oh, I think you are dieing how much you want to tell me about that.”
I laughed at that.
“You know what, I think you are not a psychic.”
He didn't laugh or even put a tiny smile on his face.
“Tell me,” he ordered me in low tone.
My smile died on my face. What should I tell him? Eduard didn't mention this time if I could or not tell Christopher and Avery about him. But still, even if he had, I still wouldn't want to tell them anything. They had their secrets, so, I would like to have some of my own, too.
“What if I say no?” I asked carefully, creating some distance between us.
“And what if I make you tell me everything?”
I pretended to ponder over his words.
“How?” I said in the end. “You will try to kill me? Been there, done that,” I snapped. Why couldn't he just pretend that everything was okay, that I spent all day long in the university. Oh yea, he was my protector.
“Don't force me to do things which I don't really want to,” he stepped forward.
“Was it a threat?” I lifted my eyebrows. Yea, I was playing with fire.
“Vanessa,” his voice could kill even a death person again.
I gulped and hugged myself. He decided to hear the truth from my mouth and he won't leave without it.
“First of all,” I tried to be calm and confidence,” I am Trinity to you. Secondly, you are nothing to me. Therefore I don't need to give you reports what I did and what I am planning to do. If I want, I will meet as many hun
ters as I want. If I want, I will kill myself again. If I want, I will leave this stupid flat and buy a drink!” I lost control. They wanted too much from me and I wasn't ready to give them that. My family trusted me and let me do whatever I wanted. But Christopher and Avery... they just locked me in the cage like I was some kind of animal.
His eyes finally turned to see something else than my furious face. But still, I could see that he was serious and determinate to have the answers to his questions.
“Why are you so stubborn, Vanessa?” he asked me. “Why do you want to risk your new life?”
“Maybe because I didn't ask for it,” I answered honestly. He lifted his head up, confused and surprised by my words. I knew what he will ask or at least, what he was thinking. “Before I was killed, I had thoughts about suicide,” I confessed. “I didn't want to live. And I had that kind of thoughts not for one or two days, but years. The more I understood about the world, the more I wanted to leave it. So, when you ask me why I want to give up this second chance even with a man, who could love me, the answer would be that I don't want to live.”
“Why?”
I leaned back, hearing only that one world. In his face I could see fear. My words scared him. They should. Many people wanted to live forever, but I wanted to die.
“Because what point is to live if you create darkness?”
His eyes double in his face. He took some steps back. His reaction startled me. One second he was calm and serious, and another he was as white as a sheet.
“Christopher?” I said unsure what else I could say.
“You shouldn't say words like that. Never. Do you understand?” he ran to me so quickly that my eyes barely could register him moving. He grabbed my arms and started to shake me. “Never!”
I opened my mouth but any sound escape from me. I was shell-shocked. My words triggered some kind of memory of his? Because really, why was he so suddenly so scared?
“But if this is the truth?” I heard myself saying after some seconds.
“Do you want to hurt Tobias?” he asked. No, it wasn't a memory which was provoked by my words. It was a fact that someone could live in despair without me. Right now I was everything to someone.
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