"Ride?"
"He needs the exercise, and so do I. I thought I would hunt this morning. Come with me."
To ride a horse? Just the idea of it was thrilling. "I have duties."
"I might get lost alone." He brought her hand back up, ran it under his along
Cathmor's silky neck. "I don't know your forest. And I'm still a bit weak."
Her lips twitched. "Your wits are strong enough. I could send a man with you."
"I prefer your company."
To ride a horse, she thought again. How could she resist? Why should she? She was no fluttery girl who would fall into stutters and blushes by being alone with a man. Even this man.
"All right. What do I do first?" . "You wait until I saddle him."
She shook her head. "No, show me how to do it."
When it was done, she sent one of the boys scurrying off to tell Orna she was riding out with the prince. She needn't have bothered, for as they walked the horse out of the stables, her people began to gather at the windows, in the courtyard.
When he vaulted into the saddle, they cheered him like a hero.
"It's been a long time since they've seen anyone ride," she explained as Cathmor pranced in place. "Some of them, like me, never have." She let out a breath.
"It's a long way up."
"Give me your hand." He reached down to her. "Trust me."
She would have to if she wanted this amazing treat. She offered her hand, then yelped in shock when he simply hauled her up in the saddle in front of him.
"You might have warned me you intended to drag me up like a sack of turnips. If you've opened your wound again—"
"Quiet," he whispered, entirely too close to her ear for comfort, and with her people cheering, he kicked Cathmor into a trot.
"Oh." Her eyes popped wide as her bottom bounced. "It's not what I expected."
And hardly dignified.
With shouts and whoops, children raced after them as they trotted out of the castle.
"Match the rhythm of your body to the gait of the horse," he told her.
"Yes, I'm trying. Must you be so close?" He grinned. "Yes. And I'm enjoying it.
You shouldn't be uneasy with a man, Deirdre, when you've seen him naked."
"Seeing you naked hardly gives me cause to relax around you," she shot back.
With a rolling laugh, he urged the horse to a gallop.
Her breath caught, but with delight rather than fear. Wind rushed by her cheeks, and snow flew up into the air like tattered lace. She closed her eyes for an instant to absorb the sensation, and the wild thrill made her dizzy.
So fast, she thought. So strong. When they charged up a hill she wanted to throw her arms in the air and shout for the sheer joy of it.
Her heart raced along with the horse, continued to pound even when they slowed at the verge of the forest that had been known as the Forgotten for the whole of her lifetime.
"It's like flying," she mused. "Oh, thank you." She leaned down to press her cheek to the horse's neck. "I'll never forget it. He's a grand horse, isn't he?"
Flushed with pleasure, she turned. His face was too close, so close she felt the warmth of his breath on her cheek. Close enough that she saw a kind of heat kindling in his eyes.
"No." He caught her chin with his hand before she could turn away again. "Don't.
I kissed you before, when I thought I was dying." His lips hovered a breath from hers. "I lived."
He had to taste her again; it seemed his sanity depended on it. But because he saw her fear, he took her mouth gently, skimming his lips over ones that trembled. Soothing as well as seducing. He watched her eyes go soft before her lashes fluttered down.
"Kiss me back, Deirdre." His hand slid down until his arm could band her waist and draw her closer. "This time kiss me back."
"I don't know how." But she already was.
Her limbs went weak, wonderfully weak, even as her pulse danced madly. Warmth enveloped her, reaching places inside that had never known its comfort.
The light that had sparked inside her when their hearts had brushed in healing spread.
On the Isle of Winter in the snowy rose garden, beneath a shield of ice, a tiny bud—tender green—formed on a blackened branch.
He nibbled at her lips until she parted them. And when he deepened the kiss she felt, for the first time in her life, a true lance of heat in her belly.
Yearning for more, she eased back, then indulged herself by letting her head rest briefly on his shoulder. "So it's this," she whispered. "It's this that makes the women sing in the kitchen in the morning."
He stroked her hair, rubbed his cheek against it. "It's a bit more than that."
Sweet, he thought. Strong. She was everything a man could want. Everything, he realized, that he wanted.
"Yes, of course." She sighed once. "More than that, but it starts like this. It can't for me."
"It has." He held her close when she would have drawn away. "It did, the minute
I saw you."
"If I could love, it would be you. Though I'm not sure why, it would be you. If
I were free, I would choose you." She turned away again. "We came to hunt. My people need meat."
He fought the urge to yank her around, to plunder that lovely mouth until she yielded. Force wasn't the answer. So he'd been told. There were better ways to win a woman.
Chapter 5
She spotted the tracks first. They moved soundlessly through the trees, and she was grateful for the need for silence.
How could she explain or ask him to understand, when she couldn't understand herself? Her heart was frozen, chilled to death by pride and duty, and the fear that she might do her people more harm.
Her father had made her in lies, then had run away from his obligation. Her mother had done her duty, and she had been kind. But her heart had been broken into so many pieces there had been none left for her child.
And what sort of child was it who could grieve more truly for a dead dog than for her own dead mother?
She had nothing emotionally to give a man, and wanted nothing from one. In that way she would survive, and keep her people alive.
Life, she reminded herself, mattered most. And what she felt for him was surely no more than a churning in the blood.
But how could she have known what it was like to be held by him? To feel his heart beat so strong and fast against hers? None of the books she'd read had captured with their clever words the true thrill of lips meeting.
Now that she understood, it would be just another precious memory, like a ride on horseback, to tuck away for the endless lonely nights.
She would decide later, she thought, if the nights were longer, lonelier, with the memory than they were without it.
But today she couldn't allow herself to think like a woman softened by a man's touch. She must think like a queen with people to provide for.
She caught the scent of the stag even before the horse did, and held up a hand.
"We should walk from here," she said under her breath.
He didn't question her, but dismounted, then reached up to lift her down. Then his arms were around her again, her hands on his shoulders, and her face tilted up to his. Even as she shook her head, he brushed his lips over her brow.
"Deirdre the fair," he said softly. "Such a pretty armful."
The male scent of him blurred the scent of the stag. "This is not the time."
Because the catch in her voice was enough to satisfy him, for now, he reached over for his bow and quiver. But when she held out her hands for them, he lifted his eyebrows.
"The bow is too heavy a draw for you." When she continued to stare, hands outstretched, he shrugged and gave them to her.
So, he thought, he would indulge her. They'd make do with more cabbage tonight.
Then he was left blinking as she tossed aside her cloak and streaked through the trees in her men's clothes like a wraith—soundless and swift. Before he could tether his horse,
she'd vanished and he could do no more than follow in her tracks.
He stopped when he caught sight of her. She stood in the gloomy light, nearly hip-deep in snow. With a gesture smooth and polished as a warrior, she notched the arrow, drew back the heavy bow. The sharp ping of the arrow flying free echoed. Then she lowered the bow, and her head.
"Everyone misses sometimes," he said as he started toward her.
Her head came up, her face cold and set. "I did not miss. I find no pleasure in the kill. My people need meat."
She handed the bow and quiver back to him, then trudged through the snow to where the stag lay.
Kylar saw she'd taken it down, fast, mercifully fast, with a single shot.
"Deirdre," he called out. "Do you ask yourself how game, even so sparse, come to be here where there is no food for them?"
She continued walking. "My mother did what she could, leaving a call that would draw them to the forest. She hoped to teach me to do the same, but it's not my gift."
"You have more than one," he said. "I'll get the horse."
Once the deer was strapped onto the horse, Kylar cupped his hands to help
Deirdre mount. "Put your right foot in my hands, swing your left leg over the saddle."
"There isn't room for both of us now. You ride, I'll walk."
"No, I'll walk."
"It's too far when you've yet to fully recover. Mount your horse." She started to move past him, but he blocked her path. Her shoulders straightened like an iron bar. "I said, mount. I am a queen, and you merely a prince. You will do as
I bid."
"I'm a man, and you merely a woman." He shocked her speechless by picking her up and tossing her into the saddle. "You'll do what you're told."
However much she labored side by side with her people, no one had ever disobeyed a command. And no man had ever laid hands on her. "You… dare."
"I'm not one of your people." He gathered the reins and began to walk the horse through the forest. "Whatever our ranks, I'm as royal as you. Though that doesn't mean a damn at the moment. It's difficult to think of you as a queen when you're garbed like a man and I've seen you handle a bow that my own squire can barely manage. It's difficult to think of you as a queen, Deirdre," he added with a glance back at her furious face, "when I've held you in my arms."
"Then you'd best remember what that felt like, for you won't be allowed to do so again."
He stopped, and turning, ran his hand deliberately up her leg. When she kicked out at him, he caught her boot and laughed. "Ah, so there's a temper in there after all. Good. I prefer bedding a woman with fire in her."
Quick as a snake the dagger was out of her belt and in her hand. And its killing point at his throat. "Remove your hand."
He never flinched, but realized to his own shock that this wasn't merely a woman he could want. It was a woman he could love. "Would you do it, I wonder? I think you might while the temper's on you, but then you'd regret it." He brought his hand up slowly, gripped her knife hand by the wrist. "We'd both regret it. I tell you I want to bed you. I give you the truth. Do you want lies?"
"You can bed Cordelia, if she's willing."
"I don't want Cordelia, willing or not." He took the knife from her hand, then brushed a kiss over her palm. "But I want you, Deirdre. And I want you willing."
He handed her back the dagger, hilt first. "Can you handle a sword as well as you do a dagger?"
"I can."
"You're a woman of marvels, Deirdre the fair." He began to walk again. "I understand developing skill with the bow, but what need have you for sword or dagger?"
"Ignoring training in defense is careless and lazy. The training itself is good for the body and the mind. If my people are expected to learn how to handle a blade, then so should I be."
"Agreed."
When he paused a second time, her eyes narrowed in warning. "I'm going to shorten the stirrups so you can ride properly. What happened to your horses?"
"Those who left the first year took them." She ordered herself to relax and pleased herself by stroking Cathmor's neck again. "There were cattle, too, and sheep. Those that didn't die of the cold were used as food. There were cottages and farmhouses, but people came to the castle for shelter, for food. Or wandered off hoping to find spring. Now they're under the snow and ice. Why do you want to bed me?"
"Because you're beautiful."
She frowned down at him. "Are men so simple, really?" He laughed, shook his head, and her fingers itched to tangle in his silky black mane rather than the horse's. "Simple enough about certain matters. But I hadn't finished the answer.
Your beauty would be enough to make me want you for a night. Try this now, heels down. That's fine."
He gave her foot a friendly pat, then walked back to the horse's head. "Your strength and your courage add layers to beauty. They appeal to me. Your mind's sharp and cleaves clean. That's a challenge. And a woman who can plant potatoes like a farmwife and draw a dagger like an assassin is a fascinating creature."
"I thought when a man wanted to pleasure himself with a woman, he softened her with pretty words and poetry and long looks full of pain and longing."
What a woman, Kylar mused. He'd never seen the like of her. "Would you like that?"
She considered it, and was relaxed again. It was easier to discuss the whole business as a practical matter. "I don't know."
"You wouldn't trust them."
She smiled before she could stop it. "I wouldn't, no. Have you bedded many women?"
He cleared his throat and began to walk a bit faster. "That, sweetheart, isn't a question I'm comfortable answering."
"Why not?"
"Because it's… it's a delicate matter," he decided.
"Would you be more comfortable telling me if you've killed many men?"
"I don't kill for sport, or for pleasure," he said, and his voice turned as frigid as the air. "Taking a man's life is no triumph, my lady. Battle is an ugly business."
"I wondered. I meant no offense."
"I would have let them go." He spoke so softly that she had to lean forward to hear clearly.
"Who?"
"The three who set upon me after the battle had been won. When I was for home. I would have let them pass in peace. What purpose was there in more blood?"
She'd already seen this inside him, and knew it for truth. He had not killed in hate nor in some fever of dark excitement. He had killed to live. "They wouldn't let you pass in peace."
"They were tired, and one already wounded. If I'd had an escort as I should, they would have surrendered. In the end, it was their own fear and my carelessness that killed them. I'm sorry for it."
More for the waste of their lives, she realized, than for his own wounds.
Understanding this, she felt something sigh inside her. "Kylar."
It was the first time she'd spoken his name, as she might to a friend. And she leaned down to touch his cheek with her fingertips, as she might touch a lover's.
"You'll rule well."
She invited him to sup with her that night. Another first. He dressed in the fresh doublet Cordelia brought him, one of soft linen that smelled lightly of lavender and rosemary. He wondered from what chest it had been unearthed for his use, but as it fit well enough, he had no cause to complain.
But when he followed the servant into the dining hall, he wished for his court clothes.
She wore green again, but no simple dress of homespun. The velvet gown poured down her body, dipping low at the creamy rise of her breasts and sweeping out from her waist in soft, deep folds. Her hair was long and loose, but over it sparkled a crown glinting with jewels. More draped in shimmering ropes around her throat.
She stood in the glow of candlelight, beautiful as a vision, and every inch a queen.
When she offered a hand, he crossed to her, bowed deeply before touching his lips to her knuckles. "Your Majesty."
"Your Highness. The room," she said with a gesture she hoped hid the nerves
and pleasure she felt upon seeing the open approval on his face, "is overlarge for two. I hope you'll be comfortable."
"I see nothing but you."
She titled her head. Curious, this flirting, she decided. And entertaining. "Are these the pretty words and poetry?"
"They're the truth."
"They fall pleasantly on the ear. It's an indulgence to have a fire in here," she began as she let him escort her to the table. "But tonight there is wine, and venison, and a welcome guest."
At the head of the long table were two settings. Silver and crystal and linen white as the snow outside the windows. Behind them, the mammoth fire roared.
Servants slipped in to serve wine and the soup course. If he'd been able to tear his gaze away from Deirdre, he might have seen the glint in their eyes, the exchanged winks and quick grins.
She missed them as well, as she concentrated on the experience of her first formal meal with someone from outside her world. "The fare is simple," she began.
"As good as a bounty. And the company feeds me."
She studied him thoughtfully. "I do think I like pretty words, but I have no skill in holding a conversation with them."
He took her hand. "Why don't we practice?"
Her laugh bubbled out, but she shook her head. "Tell me of your home, your family. Your sister," she remembered. "Is she lovely?"
"She is. Her name is Gwenyth. She married two years ago."
"Is there love?"
"Yes. He was friend and neighbor, and they had a sweetness for each other since childhood. When I last saw her she was great with her second babe." The faintest cloud passed over his face. "I'd hoped to make my way home for the birthing."
"And your brother?"
"Riddock is young, headstrong. He can ride like the devil."
"You're proud of him."
"I am. He'd give you poetry." Kylar lifted his goblet. "He has a knack for it, and loves nothing more than luring pretty maids out to the garden in the moonlight."
She asked questions casually so he would talk. She was unsure of her conversational skills in this arena, and it was such a pleasure to just sit and listen to him speak so easily of things that were, to her, a miracle.
Summer and gardens, swimming in a pond, riding through a village where people went to market. Carts of glossy red apples—what would they taste like? Baskets of flowers whose scent she could only dream of.
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