by Nalini Singh
"All the information is in a file on the organizer inside here." He tapped his pack. "I thought I was dealing with a conglomerate tied to a pharmaceuticals company, people who wanted to co-opt our research." Fingers trembling, he moved his hands from the pack. "I didn't know it was the Consortium."
Kaia's breath caught, her body bunching almost before her brain processed the meaning of his actions, but George was already turning toward the rocky danger of the ravine--even a small jump would send him crashing onto the lethal edges and sharp corners of those rocks, his body gaining momentum as it careened down.
He'd be dead long before he hit the bottom.
"I'm sorry, Kaia. I never intended for anyone to die."
Even as Kaia screamed and attempted to move fast enough to grab him, George jumped--or he tried to. Because, at the end, he'd forgotten about Bowen and that Bowen Knight wasn't a scientist or a cook. He was the security chief of the Human Alliance and it turned out he could move a lot faster than a cerebral sea creature stranded on land.
He wrenched George from the edge, dragging the crying, screaming man back until there was no chance George could escape and make another suicide attempt. Ignoring the pack that held the data and the precious compound, Kaia all but jumped on top of her clanmate at the first glimmer of a shift. "How dare you try to end your life?" she yelled, successfully startling him into staying human. "You're part of my family, George! You don't get to just give up!"
George's sobs turned even harsher and he tried to curl into himself, but Kaia was having none of that. Dragging him to her, she let him bury his face against her neck, his arms locked tight around her, and then she rocked him as he cried, a broken child in a man's body.
Her own tears fell above his head as she watched Bowen walk to the edge of the drop-off and retrieve the pack.
Sixteen hours to go.
Chapter 59
Financial trail's turned ice-cold. Either Trey's wised up that someone's tracking him, or something's wrong.
--Message from Lily Knight to Cassius Drake
THIS HADN'T GONE anything like Bowen had expected.
There was no way he couldn't believe every word George had said; there were no more lies left in the man. George wasn't even holding himself together. It was Kaia who was doing that, Kaia who was stopping him from crawling into himself and never coming back out.
A glimmer of light along the edges of George's form.
Bo had seen the same fracture of light with Hawke. And he realized what the BlackSea male was about to do. It had nothing to do with violence and everything to do with being a creature designed for the ocean on dry land--if KJ's story about the colossal squid scared of needles was true, George could probably survive a certain time out of the water once in his other form, but it was unlikely to be a long period unless George semi-shifted to breathe air.
Regardless, once in his powerful wild form, he could propel himself over the edge, shifting back into his more vulnerable human body as he fell.
Bo reacted instinctively. "No," he ordered using the most dominant tone in his arsenal.
He saw George flinch and the glimmer faded . . . only to reappear a second later.
This time, Bo went down on one knee beside the other man and clamped him hard on the shoulder. "No," he ordered again. "You owe the children of those lost swimmers answers." George had mentioned those children only by implication, but it was obvious he felt bad that a number of them had lost a parent and at least two were now orphans. "Pay your debts to them, even if you don't believe you owe a debt to anyone else."
Kaia pressed a kiss to George's hair, her palm firm against the side of his face. "Don't you dare, George," she said, her own voice harder than he'd ever heard it. "You do and so will I."
The last edges of the oncoming shift faded, George's body slumping against Kaia's. "You shouldn't be on land," he said, his voice a rasp. "You know you shouldn't be on land. You're so afraid on land."
Kaia stroked her hand through the other man's hair. "Did you really think I'd just give up on a member of my ohana?" Kaia shook her head. "We'll figure this out together. Even if I have to go toe to toe with cousin Mal."
She was magnificent, Bowen thought. Loving and strong and fierce.
It took fifteen more minutes of time they didn't have for George to get up. His legs were shaky, his face white--but though he looked longingly toward the drop-off, he didn't attempt to run in that direction. Pulling on the pack, Bo walked on the man's left, while Kaia wrapped an arm around him from the right.
Hawke appeared out of the trees at that instant. He was wearing only a pair of jeans, his feet bare against the snow. When Bo went over to talk to him, the SnowDancer alpha offered them lodging and food. "Thank you," Bo said, "but what I really need is a jet-chopper that can get us to our plane. We have to get back to Lantia as fast as possible."
A large black chopper landed on the snowy grass only seven minutes later, the wind generated by its blades causing the snow to ripple in a dramatic pattern. Bo made sure George bent his head and that Kaia, too, was safe from the blades as he ushered them into the craft. As the pilot took off, Bo looked down and saw a pack of wolves looking up. Including a big one with fur of silver-gold.
After noting that Kaia had George in hand, the other man slumped on her shoulder with his eyes closed, Bo made contact with Malachai. As he didn't want the SnowDancer pilot to overhear their conversation, he sent a written message, outlining the basic facts of what George had confessed and what he'd accused his mother's uncle of doing to him.
Malachai's response came back ten minutes later: His great-uncle was before my and Miane's time in the leadership, but I just spent the past ten minutes talking to those older than us who knew the bastard. The general consensus is that he was a nasty man, one who preferred to keep his family isolated. We'll talk more when you arrive. Miane and I will be back by then.
We have a timing problem, Bo wrote back. We'll reach Lantia with a few hours to spare but it won't be enough to reach Ryujin by the injection deadline. The station was too far in the deep.
I can haul you down, Mal replied. We have aerodynamic shells made for that purpose. Just get to Lantia, then we'll figure out the rest.
Sliding away the phone, Bo looked over at Kaia. His siren was murmuring to George, trying to keep the other man from slipping into shock. And in her worry about him, she'd lost her own fear--a fear the shape of which Bo now understood. His gut clenched, his skin hot. He wanted to shake her for doing this to herself.
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KAIA could feel Bowen's coiled intensity, but he said nothing when they reached the airport, simply helped her get George onboard. Then, while she continued to try to comfort her shattered clanmate, he went and conferred with the pilots. Kaia was desperate to talk to him, but George was barely holding himself together right now, the psychic damage inside him a bomb that had finally exploded with destructive force.
It was two hours later that George finally fell asleep, his head in Kaia's lap and her hand stroking through the light brown strands of his hair as the jet cut through the clouds. Bowen, seated across from her, his forearms braced on his thighs, watched George with inscrutable focus. "Do you think Miane will permit an empath onto one of your cities?"
"I thought you didn't like Psy?"
"I make an exception for empaths"--that dark gaze shifted to her, held her prisoner--"and for a telepathic siren."
The rough gentleness of his voice as he spoke those final words twisted her up. "I think if it was an empath associated with an ally, then Miane wouldn't have a problem with it." BlackSea's First had spoken about the empaths to Kaia the last time Miane had been on Ryujin, the conversation part of a wider one they'd had on the fall of Silence.
Miane had sat at the counter in Kaia's kitchen, drinking the strong Turkish coffee she adored and chatting with Kaia in between visits from other clanmates. "Miane admires what it takes to be an empath, the courage it requires to take terribl
e, painful emotions into themselves, but their very softness makes them suspect."
Bowen nodded. "Be pretty easy to break an E if you were cruel enough, get them to act for certain interests." He leaned back in his seat. "Good thing they've got some very dangerous protectors."
"The Arrows." Kaia didn't know much about the deadly Psy squad, but Mal had mentioned the squad siding very publicly with the empaths--and that the Arrows and BlackSea were building a strong working relationship. "I still don't think Miane would accept just any E."
"Sascha Duncan? She's part of DarkRiver."
"Yes. Or--there's an Arrow teleporter who helped find several of our vanished. I think he might be mated to an empath." She looked down at George. "You should talk to Mal, see if he can arrange for an E to be waiting when we land." Kaia wasn't sure how much of George was left to save but she damn well wasn't about to give up on him.
"I'll do it now." Not wanting to inadvertently wake George, Bo went to the back of the plane to have that conversation.
It turned out the BlackSea security chief's thoughts had been running on a parallel track. "I've already spoken to Miane about arranging for empathic help."
On the tiny screen of the phone, Malachai shoved a hand through his hair, his eyes that eerie pale, pale gold that was nothing human. "It all depends on whether I can get one of the Es we trust." Glancing offscreen at that moment, he seemed to be listening to someone else.
When he turned back to Bowen, he said, "We have an empath."
"It's bad, Mal." Bo looked over at where Kaia continued to gently stroke George's hair, keeping him linked to the present and to his clan. "I'm not sure the E is going to have a whole person to work with."
"I'll pass on the warning."
"What will you do with him?" Regardless of all else, George had broken his vows to the clan, had turned traitor.
Malachai went motionless in a way a human never could. "What would you do if you were in Miane's shoes?"
"As long as he truly wasn't responsible for the capture or deaths of any of the vanished, I'd give him another chance." George had never had a real chance, had been twisted up inside since childhood.
And yet, despite it all, the other man hadn't been able to sell out BlackSea. "I've had a look at the organizer on which George loaded his data. He was supposed to meet his contact on a beach in the Caribbean, but he couldn't take that final step, couldn't bring himself to ally with those who had so badly hurt his clanmates."
Bo leaned up against the bulkhead. "Give him another shot, get him help, and you might be able to save him." Somewhere in his fractured psyche, George did have the capacity to build connections and to feel loyalty.
Malachai's golden eyes turned almost translucent in the sunlight where he stood. "When I met you, I didn't think you were anything like Miane--but you both put your people first, ambition second." He paused for a moment, his expression difficult to read. "I don't believe you'd send Alliance Fleet ships to harm our own, but someone in your organization did."
"I don't have any answers for you yet," Bo said. "But it does look like we have a traitor in the ranks." It was tough to say that, to admit Heenali might've done things that went against everything Bo believed.
"Who?"
"I won't give up the name until I know beyond any doubt."
Malachai's lips curved slightly. "Yes, you and Miane will never get along. You're too much alike."
Hanging up soon afterward, Bo turned his attention to the woman whose scent was embedded into his skin, a kiss he never wanted to escape. A woman who'd had to inject herself with drugs to survive on land.
He squeezed his phone so hard that the screen cracked.
Chapter 60
It is our mandate to do no harm and to heal psychic and emotional wounds. By now, we have all seen that some wounds are too deep to heal without leaving lifelong scars, but don't allow that to crush your spirit. Remember this: if we can take away even a small percentage of a wounded person's pain, we give them freedom to live a life free of horror and suffering. It may only be for a minute or an hour, but all healing begins with a single moment.
--Letter from Ivy Jane Zen, president of the Empathic Collective, to its membership
KAIA KEPT GEORGE'S hand in hers as they stepped off the boat that had ferried them to Lantia in the heavy dark of a world wrapped in sleep. He was so distraught at this point that he'd stopped crying, his head hanging low, but his hand clutched hers like a lifeline. And when he looked at her, his eyes were those of a child. "Please don't leave me."
"You couldn't get me to go," Kaia assured him, though her mind continued to count down. They had to get Bowen to Atalina within the next seven hours or it would be far too late. Bowen had told her of Malachai's offer, but her chest remained tight. Mal was fast in the water, but they were still cutting it dangerously close.
"No, you should go into the deep," George said without warning. "You shouldn't have come on land--I know it hurts you."
"How do you know?" Kaia asked softly, very aware of Bowen listening with silent concentration. "I don't speak about it."
"I heard Dr. Kahananui talking to her mate once." Another pause. "Has she had her baby? I'm sorry if you missed that."
Her heart, it expanded all over again. "Let's talk to Ivy before we decide anything," she said after drawing a deep breath of the salt-laced air; she'd already told George that an empath would be waiting for them on the city.
According to what Bowen had told her after speaking to Malachai late into the flight, Ivy Jane Zen was the empath mated to the teleporter who'd helped BlackSea. She also happened to be the president of the Empathic Collective and part of the Psy Ruling Council. A very powerful woman.
Yet the small stranger with soft ebony curls who stood on the deck not far from them, bathed in the glow of the external lights, had no sense of dominance or aggression to her. A deep warmth uncurled in Kaia's stomach, her urge to befriend the woman coming from both sides of her nature.
"I'd heard that about empaths," she said to George. "That they have a magic about them that makes people want to trust." Nothing coercive, just a sense of innate goodness, a deep inner radiance.
"They could do terrible things with that trust," George whispered, his gaze having finally lifted--to settle on Ivy Jane Zen.
"That's true. Just like Attie could do terrible things with the chemicals she handles." Kaia didn't know if George was mentally present enough to understand what she was trying to tell him, but he swallowed and continued to walk toward the empath.
The wind played with Ivy's hair, tugged at the bottom of her deep magenta coat with white detailing, her jeans and boots as prosaic as the coat was cheerful. "I'm Ivy," she said with a smile when they reached her.
Kaia shook her proffered hand, and though the empath offered the same greeting to George, she didn't seem to take it badly when he stayed mute and motionless.
A woof sounded from a short distance away, the sound soon followed by a small white dog of indeterminate breed who came to sniff around Kaia's ankles. Smiling, she bent to pet him.
He stood patiently for her, but his nose twitched inquisitively the entire time. "Who's this?" Kaia asked, wondering if the little guy had met Mal's dog yet; born and raised on Lantia, the big German shepherd was a pro swimmer.
"His name's Rabbit." At the sound of his name, the dog looked at Ivy. "This is his first time on an oceanic city. He's pretty suspicious about it." Warm affection in her tone. "When we got here, he kept barking at the waves as if they were intruders trying to take over the city."
Rabbit slipped out from under Kaia's touch to run over and sniff around George's legs. Releasing Kaia's hand at last, George went down onto his knees with broken stiffness, then began to pet the dog, his hands hesitant but gentle. Where Rabbit had been all energy and quivering flesh under Kaia's hand, he was quiescent under George's touch, almost as if this small creature knew the man couldn't take anything else.
Though they were standing outside
, in the open air, the cold sea winds whispering across their skin, Ivy didn't motion for them to go inside. Instead, she sat down directly on the deck, and she began to talk to Kaia about the city and how she hoped she'd be permitted a tour.
Following her lead because Ivy was an expert in her field as Kaia was in hers, Kaia took a crosslegged position across from her--George to her left--and responded as if this were just an ordinary conversation, not one taking place at three a.m. in the middle of the ocean. At one point, she was aware of Ivy's eyes--an unexpected copper ringed by a rim of gold--flicking up in Bowen's direction, the look accompanied by a faint shake of her head.
Kaia looked up, too, telling him with her gaze that it was all right. George would do nothing here. He was too hurt inside, had given up. As for their limited time to reach Ryujin, she could see the aerodynamic "shell" ready to go and she'd also spotted Mal. They'd make it.
She could believe nothing else.
Bowen gave a curt nod after taking another look at George. Then, running his fingers over her hair, he bent to press a kiss to her temple.
"I've got one of those, you know," Ivy whispered after he'd left.
When Kaia tilted her head in a silent question, Ivy grinned. "A tall, silent, and handsome." Her eyes sparkled as she angled her body to point out a black-clad man who stood talking to Malachai in the distance.
As they watched, Bowen joined them in the hazy light thrown by the external lamps. Kaia wished she could claim Bowen as hers as the empath had assumed, but he was only hers for a stolen instant in time. But all she said to Ivy was, "We have excellent taste."
Ivy laughed.
Rabbit turned over onto his back at the same instant so that George could scratch his belly, and the man beside Kaia finally began to speak. At first, he talked only about Ivy's dog, asking questions about what Rabbit liked to do, his favorite games, his favorite things to eat. Kaia didn't know how long it took for him to even approach anything else and when he did, it was in the most indirect way.
Ivy didn't push him, simply followed his lead--and slowly, George began to relax until he was no longer poised for flight.