His fingers traced the knuckles of her hand. "Grandpa said you are very sensitive. I can see by your aura that you are good...kind, so the sensitivity shouldn't be so unbelievable."
"I look different?"
Jonathan smiled handsomely. "Nolan never told you?"
She ducked her head. "He mentioned it once."
Jonathan stopped her, looking down on her with amusement. "He cannot keep his eyes off of you Raina...he does not need to mention it...it should be obvious." He touched a finger to her cheek. "You are no mere beauty Raina. Your goodness makes you breathtaking."
She felt her cheeks warm to a bright red. She swallowed hard at the sweet look he leveled at her. There was no lust, no envy, or evil intent. It was simple admiration. “Thank you Jonathan," she whispered.
His face lit. "You are welcome my new friend. And you would do well not to tell Nolan I said such things to you. I have never seen jealousy on Nolan...and I tremble to think of him defending you."
"It’s our secret," she laughed.
"Treat him well. I see that you are making him happy, and that pleases my grandfather to no end, which pleases me." He gave a wink. "Keep it up dear one." He stopped her before a set of doors, turning the knob. "Grandfather will be with you soon."
And just as swiftly. Jonathan was walking away. Raina found herself frowning. She could get use to Jonathan’s company.
"Come on in Raina," Joseph’s voice came through the open door.
Raina pushed through, entering a vast office. Joseph sat behind a big desk, his feet propped up on top of it. He was leaning back in a leather chair that looked comfortable enough to sleep in.
She offered a smile. "You have a very nice Grandson," she spoke sincerely.
Joseph nodded. "I'm proud of Jonathan. He is a good man...great immortal." He sat up, and then got to his feet as she neared. "Please, sit, we'll chat."
Raina bit her lip nervously, and sank into a plush chair near the desk.
"You have questions."
"So many," she admitted.
He chuckled. "Nolan would be the protective sort. We have never seen him interact with a woman.....well, not one he wanted us to know about...cared to introduce me to."
Raina tilted her head. "That’s one thing I was wondering. I didn't realize Nolan had so many immortals in his life. I knew Thanatos...then realized Elenora was still part...now you and Joseph, and even...Richard?"
Joseph frowned. "Learn to forget that name, Raina...and pray you never have to meet him. At least it will not be me causing such a thing to happen!"
Raina bit her lip again.
"If I had known what he would become...I would have never granted him immortality! Jonathan, now he took responsibility...used his gifts to better humanity. Leave it to the young to set the example."
She stared down at her hands.
"Do not be angry, but I do not wish to speak of my son. Richard is his own island, and I wish to have no part."
Raina nodded. "Yes...of course I'm not angry."
He nodded. "To answer your wondering...yes, there are a lot of us. You may meet more before this weekend is through. I think Nolan avoids us because it reminds him of what he is."
"There is nothing wrong with who you are as far as I can see," she said sincerely.
Joseph shrugged. "He has a right to his opinion I suppose...to live out life as he chooses. He can take what’s been given to him, and be happy or sad...rich or poor.
Raina leaned forward frowning. "He made mention that he has money...I just don't understand. He doesn't live as lavishly as..." Her eyes wandered the study full of leather and oak...expensive looking paintings.
"As me?"
She blushed.
"He is....wealthy...beyond probably what I can imagine! Nolan has decided to live a simple life, which is his right. He lives to see others succeed. This Bradley, your friend, he will be a wealthy man within years with Nolan near. He can pin point exactly where the market will go. He never fails, it’s uncanny. “His eyes danced. “He profits too of course, but he will never flaunt it. He gives much, anonymously to charity...doesn't take a write off...doesn't ask for anything in return. It’s just his way."
She smiled with satisfaction. "Sounds very much like a Nolan thing to do." She then shook her head. "But not a Thanatos thing to do. Why does he live the way he does?"
Joseph cleared his throat. "Guilt."
Her brows lifted. "Guilt?"
"When he shot Nolan and Nolan was brought back, and Nolan reacted the way he did. Thanatos was filled with guilt."
"Jonathan said Nolan was not happy."
"He was deeply depressed. Thanatos felt awful. He'd let his jealousy get the better of him, and he caused it to happen. He should have known Elenora would never let him die.
Nolan and he had been friends...very good friends. Though things were never the same for them after, Thanatos has never let go of the guilt. I think he follows Nolan around just to watch over him... Thanatos is not all bad."
Raina laughed at this. "That’s what I say...all the time!" She grinned. "He certainly causes mischief in Nolan’s life."
Joseph nodded. "It makes life interesting for the both of them."
She shook her head. "So...Nolan really hated that he had been given the gift?"
Josephs face was solemn. "Thought he was an abomination before God...living dead. But he wasn't Raina...he never died. I stopped the cycle is all. I didn't bring him back from the dead...I just made it possible for him to live forever."
"You healed him?"
"Hmm, no, not healed. If I had that gift I would have simply healed up his wound...he would have remained mortal. I don't have that gift though."
"There are immortals with the power to heal?" Her eyes grew large.
"Very few...it’s rare."
"You've meet them?"
Joseph smiled, and closed his eyes. "I know of one."
Raina shook her head in disbelief. "What an amazing gift."
"It certainly is."
"Nolan has...gifts...the way he calms me...the dreams....the compassion." She sighed. "He doesn't want to talk about it though."
Joseph steepled his fingers, and rested his chin on them. "He does not want to glorify what we are."
"But you are...amazing...wonderful...."
"It scares the hell out of him that you feel that way. He doesn't want you entertaining thoughts."
She frowned. "Even if it means I'd be with him always?"
His eyes softened. "I would follow you around all your life waiting for the moment fate stepped in and allowed me to change you! If only for Nolan! But I have promised him I would not feed that obsession in you."
She drew in a deep breath. "I will respect his wishes too."
He nodded. "That’s why he loves you so."
Raina smiled and gave a small shrug.
"Now, continue...ask me what you've been wondering."
She thought carefully. She didn't know how long she had with him, and there was so much she wanted to know!
"Your abilities. Nolan downplays them all the time...but the strength...the hearing...the sight. He says that the gift is enhanced...but I've seen too much to believe it’s just a little above human, as he lets on."
Joseph laughed. "Oh yes dear Raina...there goes Nolan not wanting to glorify us again. Our sight? You just have to look at our eyes and know there is a difference. We have to at times dim our own sight to keep from going blind. We can walk through a dark forest in the middle of the night...moon and stars covered by clouds, and it’s as if it’s the middle of the day."
"And you can see...the aura of a person? Really?"
Joseph nodded.
"What about hearing?"
He tilted his head. "Has Nolan used his hearing skills against you?"
She chuckled. "The both of them...Thanatos and Nolan have...it’s quite annoying sometimes."
"Hmm, but knowing Nolan, he dims that gift to honor your privacy."
She fig
ured he did. It sounded like a Nolan thing to do. "What about the strength?"
"Immense," he said nodding. "We contain it though. Some...are stronger than others. It depends on how they treat their immortal bodies. Nolan, for example, you see how he cares for himself. He runs...lifts weights...builds on what was already given him. He has great strength...makes for an effective protector."
Raina now thought of Jonathans words, now realizing why he might fear Nolan’s jealousy. Her mind also wandered to the physique of her protector, and she blushed.
"You will never find a heavy immortal either...as our senses are enhanced...so is our metabolism...our immune systems..."
"Wait! Why would you need an immune system? Immortals can get colds?"
Joseph grinned. "Sure, we're still human...we just don't die."
She blushed. “Of course."
"We have all the human feelings...physical and emotional. In fact...the physical can be rather intense with all the heightened senses. Smell...touch taste.....the best parts of love, hmm?"
Raina blushed again. "Yes," she agreed. She thought of how much he loved to smell her hair...touch it...how he wouldn't allow her to do the same. It must be close to unbearable for an immortal man. Suddenly her respect for her protector went up. The patience and self-control he had used with her was admirable. His boundaries didn't seem so silly now...not for him.
"I didn't know," she whispered. "What being with me costs him...what being with him could cost me."
Joseph’s face turned so gentle. "I feel for the two of you. You love each other. You are right for each other. You were meant to be in the same time....I can only imagine that’s why Nolan was given the gift...to meet you."
"Seems like a sick and twisted trick," she murmured bitterly.
Joseph shook his head. "I can't tell you my feelings on that Raina...I’ve promised Nolan. I can only say, I do not agree with him. If it were up to me...you would be like us."
Raina bit the inside of her cheek. Felt the excitement at the prospect. She could be with him...really be with him, and neither would worry for her life. She could hold her own with Elenora...she could be happy again. Not that Nolan didn't make her happy now...he did...but this...immortality would forever be between them. Well, forever as in as long as her puny life lasted. But did she want to live immortal? Watch her mortal friends and family pass? She didn't know if she'd been listening to Nolan for too long, or if she truly understood what he meant.
"Did you have any other questions little Raina?"
She lifted her eyes to his. "Why has Nolan been so sad? Jonathan said, before me..."
"He had no one Raina, when he was turned. He refused to tell his family what had happened. In fact, mortals knowing about us is generally frowned upon. He...he called me the night before he told you. He knew you could be trusted, and who was I to doubt Nolan? He has never lied to me, or made rash decisions."
I didn't know that," she whispered softly.
"Oh, I have heard about you for years...just tid bits here or there. I even know what nick name he uses on you! When his guard has been down he’s slipped...Aelan."
Raina smiled. "I take great pride in knowing meanings and origins in names," she admitted. "I've shied away from knowing...it makes it special, not knowing." She ducked her head. "That sounds silly."
Joseph laughed. "It sounds romantic," he argued.
Raina bit her lip. "I'll figure it out one day...but I refuse to look."
"You're a good girl Raina...good and pure, and true. You are the female version of Nolan," he laughed.
Raina felt her cheeks warm again. "Anyway...you were saying about Nolan being sad?"
Joseph nodded. "Yes. He had no family he could turn to...he had to give up his practice...he recused himself, hated himself. He was young...he was unmarried. He hadn't truly lived yet. I...was granted my gift at a good moment in my life. I had a family...I'd married, had my beautiful wife, children, grandchildren. I'd lived life."
Raina squirmed in her seat "Why hasn't he made a life with another immortal...woman?" The thought made her stomach twist in pain.
"Raina, there has never been anyone. Maybe he had a tryst here or there, but never anything real...like he has with you."
"Again...fates sick joke," she sighed.
Joseph grunted. "Yes...it is."
She shook her head. She wanted answers now, not a pity party. She pushed on. "Unlike Nolan...you stayed with your family?"
He nodded. "They had no idea...but I couldn't leave them. I didn't know when I would do as Nolan and make myself scarce so they would not notice my non aging." He drew in a breath, "I won't say fate, but by chance, shortly after I was gifted...there was an accident. My family and I were taking a boat ride...a storm hit...the water was rough...the boat was going down. I knew I could...save them, but only by gifting them as I am gifted. I rescued them in that way. Richard, Elenora, Jonathan...all but my daughter in law Elizabeth...a pity, she was an amazing woman. Jonathan is much like her."
Raina felt a lump in her throat. "How sad that you lost her."
He nodded. "Richard took that hard.....at first, before he took full advantage of what immortality could provide him."
"And your wife?"
He smiled sadly. "Belinda passed five years prior to my gift." He shook his head. "Over three hundred years, and not a day goes by that I don't think of her." His dark eyes filled with pain. "But I still have family...Nolan has none." He smiled. "Except...now he has you."
Raina felt a shiver of pleasure. She was proud to have him too.
He smiled again. "I'm glad you are here Raina."
She returned his smile. "I am too...thank you for sharing with me."
He shrugged. "My pleasure." He rose to his feet and tilted his head at her. "I do have a meeting to attend little Raina. I'm going to put you in the safe hands of Jonathan until your Nolan returns. Would you like that?"
Raina nodded. "Jonathan is lovely."
He chuckled, taking her hand, and then leading her to the door. "And you are returning tomorrow...to take a ride? And maybe say goodbye to an old man before you head back to Oregon?"
She smiled brightly at him. "Of course! I would never leave without saying goodbye to you!" She felt as if she'd known Joseph for a long while, not just mere hours.
He touched her cheek, and then led her to the door. Jonathan was already there, as if he'd read his grandfather’s mind.
Raina looked from one to another. "How did he...know?"
"A gift,” Jonathan chuckled.
"A gift? You said you can only hear fervent thought."
Joseph grinned at Jonathan. "That’s me my dear. I can grant life...and hear fervent thoughts...Jonathan has only one gift. Thoughts? He can hear them all. Well...all immortals."
Raina laughed. "Truly?"
Jonathan smiled. "Not your pretty thoughts my dear. Nolan tries hard, but yes, I read every one of his! That’s how I know you are good for him."
She blinked at him.
His dark eyes twinkled with mischief.
"Have fun with that one," Joseph laughed, as he moved slowly down the hall, in the opposite direction.
Jonathan offered his arm. “I can dim my gift Raina...and I promise not to eavesdrop on too many of his thoughts, unless I absolutely need to."
"I knew you were a gentleman." She took his arm.
"Now what would you like to do?"
She grinned. "May I see the alligators again?"
Jonathan nodded. "Grandfather likes that you've taken to his pets. Not many deem them their favorite animal." He shook his head. "Come, we'll keep entertained until Nolan shows back up. Maybe swap a story or two?"
She nodded assent. After her conversation with Joseph, she was really starting to miss her protector. She hoped he was having a good time none the less.
Jonathan pulled two chairs up close to the window for their "view", and motioned for Raina to join him.
She couldn't help her free falling tummy, when she
again spotted the alligators. Her wide smile was next.
"What an odd, pretty little girl," he chuckled. "I love it though...you're unique, Raina."
She flushed. "That’s probably why I got so caught up in the life of an immortal?"
He nodded, his handsome face cracked in a smile. "Probably."
She sat back, enjoying the back yard paradise. "So...we are swapping stories?" She peaked at him from the corner of her eye.
He shrugged. "What do you want to hear about Nolan?"
She shook her head. ” I promised him I wouldn't dig...I won't. I do have a question about...someone else."
His brow lifted.
"Don't get mad?"
He smiled. "At a pretty girl like you?"
She rolled her eyes. "I've never been called pretty so much in my whole life! Not since Nolan...and even Thanatos entered my life! What is it with you immortals?"
He chuckled, shaking his head at her. "It’s you Raina. If you could truly see with our eyes...it’s your goodness...your heart..."
"I am not all good...all heart," she argued.
"Bull," Jonathan growled. "Believe me, I can tell!"
She gave him half a smile. "I am flattered by your vote of confidence."
He shrugged. "Nolan wouldn't be with you if I wasn't right."
"You've been in his head? Don’t...don't tell me what you've heard," she quickly interjected. "But...it’s all good?"
"Conflicting," he whispered. "He's crazy over you...and he's scared over you all at once."
She bit down hard on her lip. "That doesn't sound promising."
He shrugged. "Nolan is noble. He will always look for the best coarse. In your case...he will do whatever he can to see you safe. Even if that means being away from you."
Raina made a face at this, not liking it one bit.
"Enough heavy," he sighed. "What was the question I wasn't supposed to get mad over?"
She drew in a breath. "What is your father? Nolan paled over him...Joseph refused to speak about him. I...I just have this feeling, I should know something of him...or get side swiped in the future."
Jonathan's dark eyes went serious. "You are very very perceptive, Raina. And I feel that you are right. My father may enter your life at some point. Especially if you intend on staying with Nolan...and my sister continues to stay in love with him. Or lust...it’s up for debate."
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