by Murray, Lee
If I write enough, and for long enough, my diary might take on a life of its own and evolve into some kind of book, like Bridget Jones’s diary, or even a series of books, like Samuel Pepys’s diary (he wrote ten years of detailed volumes). Perhaps Samuel Pepys had an entertaining life and wrote it all down. Or maybe he just did not get out much, had a vivid imagination and was terribly verbose. I cannot know this for sure because I was not there at the time.
Some diaries get transformed from a book into a movie… though Chloe tells me that the most popular movies contain four key features, which are violence, sex, swearing and explosions, and she says they are the most popular movies because that is what NS people enjoy watching the most. She has cautioned me not to rely on movies as representing a true and accurate depiction of normal human personal relationships.
Nevertheless, those four elements are what my book, or diary, should contain, and this, therefore, will be challenging. I know little of violence and nothing of sex (though it is my intention to make this a special project of mine; this year I will investigate sex and even try to take part). The swearing will probably occur sporadically as I write this book. I do not know whether there will be any explosions. Hopefully they will not be in the house. If I am lucky, the sex will happen somehow (though preferably not the violence at the same time), as I do need it as one of the four essential things for the film adaptation.
I am jumping ahead too much, because I imagine things that might happen (such as a movie based on my diary, which I have not yet written), and it is scary because I do not know if these things will happen or not, and that creates uncertainty, which creates stress, which leads me to imagine even more things. This is fretful. Yet whenever there is uncertainty, I feel compelled to evaluate all possible outcomes. But then I feel overwhelmed.
The other problem for me is that Chloe says I should write about what I know, and I do not know anything much. However, I do know about her, and about me, and so I will write about us.
This is how we met.
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