by Wood, Lauren
Sitting cross-legged on the floor, we ate dinner together and talked about his adventures away. I had missed him, and it was good to hear about all of the things he had done. He’d always wanted to get out Hartford and he had. I didn’t think that he was going to start a gang, but he had. It made sense because he was never one to follow too many rules. I just couldn’t believe what he was into now. He had really upped his game when it came to crime.
“Did you ever miss Hartford?”
“I missed old Rusty and I missed you, some of the old friends, but most of it I didn’t miss at all. There is a lot more going on outside of here, though it’s good to be back to familiar. I think it was just time for me to come back. I’m really glad that I did.”
He was talking about me and what was going on with us. I wasn’t sure what this was, but I knew that there was another reason. He’d talked about setting up shop here, although I didn’t really know what that actually meant. What was he doing here and why did he have a cabin out in the middle of nowhere, as well as a warehouse that I had heard Racen talking about with another guy earlier? There was so much that I didn’t know, but I didn’t care. I was just happy he was back. That’s all I knew for sure.
“So, are you going to tell me what happened last night?”
It was a conversation that I didn’t want to get into, even though I knew it was going to be something we were going to have to talk about.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, you kind of jumped on me all of a sudden. Did something happen to change your mind?”
It felt like he knew what was going on, but that didn’t mean that I wanted to talk about it. It was embarrassing, included his sister and his best friend. It was all just more complicated than I liked my life to be. I never wanted to be in this situation and I certainly didn’t want to share it with anyone else. It was humiliating and I felt like an idiot.
“No, nothing happened.”
Frank had an expression on his face that I didn’t know what to make of it.
“Nothing happened?”
I sighed and asked him what he knew.
“I think I know why you changed your mind to being with me and I want to know if that’s the only reason.”
“What, because I caught my boyfriend with your sister in my bed?”
Frank nodded.
“Well, I’m not going to say that it didn’t push me one way or another, but at the end of the day, I guess I wanted to bang it out with you anyways.”
“Bang it out? I thought guys were bad with that. I don’t think I’ve ever heard such a thing said by a chick before.”
I gave him a look. “How many girls have you actually talked to after doing the deed?”
All of a sudden, I had all these unorthodox euphemisms for sex and I don’t know why I was using them. Frank had me in this silly mood and it was hard to not smile. There was just something about him and even after all of this time, I was still trying hard not to let him back in. I’d loved this man, so much. Too much because at the end of the day, I’d gotten a broken heart out of it and I can’t say that I wanted to revisit it. I didn’t like that period of my life when he first left. I will be the first to admit that I was a mess.
“What happened?”
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, one minute you’re laughing and joking with me and the next you got this look on your face that I don’t really understand.”
I waved him off and grabbed the trays. We were both done and maybe we’d had enough going down memory lane for the time being. It was a painful stroll to have and I wasn’t sure how I felt about all of it. There was still a big part of me that was afraid of going back there.
“Nothing. It’s just been a long day. I think I’m going to try and get some sleep. I need to go to work tomorrow around noon. Do you think you could give me a ride in the morning to Justin’s house after nine? I will grab my car once he’s gone for the day.”
“You know you’re going to have to face him eventually. Have you talked to him at all?”
I told him that I hadn’t, and he asked me why not. I wasn’t sure of the answer. Maybe I was supposed to be more upset and I was waiting for it to sink in. All I could think about was Frank at the moment. I hadn’t thought that much about Sandra and Justin, which was strange because he was my boyfriend. But deep down, I don’t think that I’d ever really loved him, no matter how badly I wanted to believe that I did.
“I will talk to Justin when I’m ready.”
“Okay, well I won’t tell him you’re staying here. I don’t think he’s going to understand why you’re here.”
“It doesn’t matter what he thinks. You’re just letting me stay with you because I asked. You haven’t done anything wrong.”
“I wouldn’t say wrong, but it’s hard to forget what we did a couple of hours ago.”
“It was more than a couple.”
“You two are still together.”
“That relationship stopped as soon as I found him with Sandra in my bed. That’s how I feel about this being cheating. We weren’t together anymore from that moment on as far as I’m concerned. So whatever I did after that, I did as a free woman.”
“It was most likely a mistake on his part. He was trapped into it. My sister can be devious and the pair of you have always had this thing between you. I never understood it, but she might have provoked it.”
“She didn’t like me dating you. Thought I was making you soft. I don’t know. But she’s always been jealous of what we had with each other. I think she just idolized you and I took up all of her time with you.”
“That could be. I never really knew why, but there was always this tension. I don’t much get women.”
I giggled. “That’s the most honest thing you’ve said all night.”
“I know that if you want real honesty, I haven’t stopped thinking about you in all of this time. Even now, knowing that you want to wait, knowing that you have a boyfriend that happens to be my oldest friend, I still want to get on top of you and make sweet love. It’s all I can think about and that’s honest.”
He left me with my mouth opened and I didn’t know what to say. It was the best answer to a question that I hadn’t even asked. I wanted to believe him because I felt the same away about our time together. I thought about it a lot, but Frank was right. There was a lot between us right now and this wasn’t the time to get everything all confused.
“Thank you, Frank. That’s sweet.”
He growled at me. “The last thing that I want to be is sweet baby. I want to be so much more, if you’d let me.”
Chapter 13
Frank
She shut me down. It was in a nice way, but the results were still the same. I was sleeping alone, and I didn’t want to be. I wanted her next to me, but instead I got on the bike and went back to the small apartment that I’d rented. I would have invited Gemma here, but she wanted some privacy and neither one of us wanted to have to explain to Justin why she was there. I knew that I was going to have to say something to him, whether she did or not.
Justin was an old friend and I had to come clean. I didn’t have to tell him that we’d been together necessarily, but I did need to tell him that she was staying with me until they worked things out. If I was a good friend, I would have given him a heads up to the fact that Gemma knew about Sandra. I should have, but I didn’t want to help him at all. He’d fucked it up all by himself and I was happy with letting it play out and me not having anything to do with it. Or anything more to do with it.
I got to the apartment and there were several guys there. Most were coming in from Texas, so I had a few guests over. And where there were guys on bikes, there were girls that wanted to ride on the back of them. Several women I’d never met before were walking around, but they were there for entertainment purposes from what I could tell. I didn’t pay too much mind to them, getting a beer and jumping in the shower. It had b
een a long day at the warehouse and the sun had made me sweaty.
I thought of Gemma and had to pop one off before I could get myself together. The girl was always twisting me up and this was no different. I just couldn’t stop thinking about her and I went downstairs to try and get my mind off of her. Racen was there and of course, the first thing he said was something about Gemma. He wanted to know if she was going to be up at the cabin tomorrow.
“Yeah, I think so, but I will give her a ride early.”
“I can if you don’t want to. I’ll be there any ways after all.”
I told him that I was fine to go. I could see the attraction in his eyes and I didn’t like to see it one bit. The last thing that I wanted was for another friend and club member to eye my girl. But at the same time, I couldn’t claim her, now could I? It was all a headache and I just mentioned that she was with the VP the last I’d heard. I didn’t mention that I’d banged her brains out the night before last.
“Oh shit. Sorry. I didn’t know she was taken. That’s one hot little bitch there.”
I was trying hard not to let his words get to me, but so help me they were. I didn’t like to hear anyone talk about her like that, no matter who they are.
“Yeah, that little bitch was the one that got me riding bikes. I’ve known her a long time. For a while, we thought we were going to get married.”
“You, married? I can’t believe that. I don’t think you’ve hit the same woman twice as far as I know.”
I had of course but not very often, and I had a couple of last resorts that would tide me over when I needed them to. They were just girls like the ones that were running around here. They would go into the bedroom with me and do whatever I wanted. It should have been a dream come true, but pussy was never on short supply. It was quality that I was looking for over quantity. That had changed as I got older.
“Things change Racen. I don’t know about you, but I’m getting older.”
He nodded, but I could tell that his attention was on other things. He was checking out the girls that were there and I just waved him off. He wasn’t worried about talking to me. He was worried about the girls. Hopefully, knowing that Gemma was off limits would push him away from her and back to some of the more easily accessible girls. They were there for all of them.
“Hey baby.”
I was paying attention to Racen and I didn’t see the tiny blonde come up to me. She had a smile on her face and I knew what she was thinking. I was President and that meant that I always had the pick of the litter. I was worth more and if one of them got with me, they would have more status than the other women. It was all very strange, but even though the blonde was smoking hot, I wasn’t interested. I had another woman on my mind and no one else was going to do.
“Hey.”
“Alicia.”
“Hello Alicia.”
“You look tired. Would you like a massage?”
I told her that I was good but thanked her anyways before I sent her over to see if Racen wanted one. He’d been eying her and then she’d be off my back. That’s all I was worried about and I knew that it was going to be easy enough to get rid of her.
Alicia gave me a look back and I could tell that she wanted to be with me, but it wasn’t going to happen.
“Let me know if you change your mind Frank.”
I told her that I would. My cock was hard with the offer, but I’d learned that real satisfaction came when I had the girl I wanted. Alicia was nice, pretty and looked like she could suck a ball through a straw, but she wasn’t Gemma. I was holding out for something more than a few minutes of pleasure.
I went to bed alone and it was the first time in a long time that I wish I had someone there with me. I was sure that I would be able to get through it. Gemma was going to come around. I was sure of it. I just had to wait her out. Getting involved with one of the girls around here was going to be a problem, so I knew that I wasn’t going to. I was just going to have to wait.
***
The next morning, I was up early to set about for the day. I’d told Gemma that I would come get her for a ride and I was up and dressed earlier than I planned. Not wanting to wait to see her, I went to the cabin and found her still sleeping. I couldn’t pass up the opportunity to take off my boots and slide into bed next to her. Her body was soft and compliant against me.
She made a moaning sound and turned towards me, wrapping her arms around me in her sleep. It would have been perfect if she hadn’t said another man’s name. When I heard her say Justin, I got up and made sure that she was up as well. He was the last person that I wanted to think about right now.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you up Gemma.”
She smiled at me and my heart melted. It was just that easy for her and I wasn’t sure what I was going to do about it. I wanted her, needed her even, but there was still so much between us that was unsolved. I wanted more than she was willing to give at the moment and a reminder that she was with an old friend and my second didn’t sit well with me. I wanted it to be out in the open and for her to move on. We were meant to be together. She knew that, so why was she fighting it so much?
“No problem Frank. I need to get up anyways. What time is it?”
“It’s almost nine. I couldn’t sleep, so I figured that we could get some breakfast or something.”
“Okay, well let me just get dressed and wash up really quick. Do I have time for a shower?”
I told her that she did. I would wait for her as long as I needed to. There was nothing that I wanted more than to spend time with her and I would get it in any way that I could. Her eyes were alight and when she stood up from the bed, I gave her a kiss. It wasn’t planned, purely spur of the moment, but I couldn’t help it. She just looked so damn pretty when she was looking at me in that way.
Her lips were soft, and they yielded to me rather quickly. She made a soft moaning sound, much like the one she had when I laid down next to her and it was hard for me to contain myself. Gemma finally pulled away and I was ready for more. I wasn’t going to be able to shut this off, whatever this was between us. I certainly didn’t know if I wanted to. I needed her, badly and it was literally all that I could think about.
“Are you sure you don’t want help in the shower? I would be more than happy to wash your back.”
“You want more than that.”
“That’s it, I swear.”
I thought she was going to say no, but there was mischief in her eyes and I knew that I was the one that was in for it.
“Sure, Frank come on. But you only get to wash my back and hair. I miss that. But that’s all you get. Just so you know. Full disclosure.”
I agreed to it, but who wouldn’t? She was going to be naked in minutes and I was going to be there. Of course, I was going to agree to whatever she wanted to get me in there with her. I used to wash her hair when we were together. I’d always loved the brown locks and they were longer than before. Her hair always smelled good and it wasn’t long before I was sure that I was going to get her right where I wanted her. I just had to talk her into it. It was easier, knowing that she wanted it. It was just convincing her that there was nothing else that we should be doing. We were great together and I had to believe that quickly she would see that. It was my hope anyways.
We got into the bathroom and I noticed that some of her toiletries were already there. I liked the idea of her showering in here. I could see her body perfectly long before she took her clothes off. She was beautiful, she really was and there was nothing more that I wanted to do. I just loved her so much and when her clothes started to come off, something came over me and my fingers were itching to touch her. I wanted to hear that moan again that I loved so much.
“Don’t get that look on your face Frank. I’m serious about no funny business.”
I didn’t agree with the term for one, and I certainly didn’t agree with not doing it. She had to see that she was driving me crazy.
“There is no look. I’m just enjoying the view. I don’t think you get how beautiful you are.”
She waved me off like I was just complimenting her because it was something to say. Gemma had never really gotten the effect she had on men, namely me, but also everyone that met her, wanted her. It was hard not to want Gemma. She was like the hot girl next door. She was down to earth and so damn beautiful. It was a hard mix to ignore.
Chapter 14
Gemma
I knew that inviting Frank into the bathroom was a hard thing to do because while I said there would be no funny business, it was clear rather quickly that it didn’t matter what he did, I was the one that was already wishing that I hadn’t said it. I wanted him, always had and this day was no different.
Frank took his clothes off and my eyes traveled down his body. This was the first time that I’d seen it in years with the lights on. He had more muscles, more scars and several more tattoos. I couldn’t believe the changes in him. He was far more man now and the smallish muscles that he had when he was younger had gotten thicker and there was certainly more of him to desire.
He got in next to me and he was rock hard. When I looked that way, he shrugged and told me that there was nothing that he could do about it.
“You’re standing there naked in front of me. How could I not be hard?”
I tried to ignore his logic. I know that I was certainly getting wet. It was hard not to be, so I could see his point. I certainly wasn’t upset about it in the least bit. There was nothing more that I wanted than to check him out. I was supposed to be getting dressed and getting clean, but all there was in my head, were dirty thoughts that made me blush just to think about it. I really wanted it all to be different. I wanted his hands on me, even though I was resisting the urge with everything inside of me.
Frank reached around me to get to the squeezy that I was using, and I knew that I was in for it. His hand just barely brushed against me and I was sure that I was going to lose it. It wasn’t hard to imagine what was going to happen next. It didn’t really matter how much I tried to deny it, I wasn’t going to be able to, not really. When I was around Frank, all bets were out of the window. I knew then that I wasn’t going to be able to stop the inevitable.