"What? You've asked them already?"
"No, I haven't asked any of them," he said, "but I've gathered some data." He smoothed the crumpled nose of the glider and flung the thing again, this time straight at the wall from a short distance. It crashed and fell. "Just as I thought," he said musingly.
Bitterblue collapsed on the sofa. "Po," she said, "take pity on me."
He came to sit beside her. "Thiel has a cut on his leg," he said.
"Oh!" said Bitterblue. "Poor Thiel. A bad cut? Do you know how it happened?"
"He's got a big broken mirror in his room," said Po, "but beyond that, I really couldn't say. Did you know he plays the harp?"
"Why does he keep that broken mirror around?" exclaimed Bitterblue. "Is the wound stitched?"
"Yes, and it's healing cleanly."
"It's a bit creepy what you can do," she said, leaning back, closing her eyes. "You know that, Po?"
"I had time tonight to poke around," he said blandly, "while I was lying in bed with ice on my face. Next, you won't believe what Holt did earlier tonight."
"Oh," said Bitterblue, moaning. "Did he dive under a team of galloping horses, just to see what would happen?"
"Have you ever been to your art gallery?"
The art gallery? Bitterblue wasn't even entirely certain where it was. "Is it on the top floor, overlooking the great courtyard from the north?"
"Yes. Several floors directly above the library. It's quite neglected, did you know? Dust everywhere, except where pieces of art have been recently removed—which is why I was able to count the exact number of sculptures that have been stolen from the sculpture room. Five, in case you were wondering."
Bitterblue's eyes popped open. "Someone's stealing my sculptures," she said as a statement, not a question. "And returning them to the artist? Who's the artist?"
"Ah," said Po, pleased. "You seem already to be familiar with the overriding concept here. Excellent. I had to go have a chat with someone—Giddon—to understand it myself. Here's the situation: Holt had a sister named Bellamew who was a sculptor."
Bellamew. Bitterblue had an image of a woman in the castle: tall, broad-shouldered, with kind eyes. That woman had been a sculptor?
"Bellamew sculpted transformations for Leck," Po continued. "A woman turning into a tree. A man turning into a mountain, and so on."
"Ah," said Bitterblue, understanding now that not only did she have some familiarity with Bellamew's work, but Bellamew had had familiarity with her once. "Did Giddon tell you all this? Why does Giddon always know more about my castle than I do?"
Po shrugged. "He knows Holt. Really, you should be asking Giddon what's wrong with Holt, not me. Though I didn't tell Giddon what I witnessed."
"Well? What did you witness?"
Po smiled. "Are you ready for this? I witnessed Holt entering the castle from the city with a sack on his shoulder. He carried it up to the art gallery, removed a sculpture from the sack, and placed the sculpture in the sculpture room, right on the non-dusty spot it was missing from. That girl who disguised Danzhol's boat and turned into canvas, you remember her?"
"Oh, balls!" said Bitterblue. "I'd forgotten all about her. We need to find her and arrest her."
"I feel more and more that we don't," said Po. "She was with Holt tonight, because, guess what? She's Bellamew's daughter and Holt's niece. Her name is Hava."
"Wait," Bitterblue said. "What? I'm confused. Someone stole my sculptures to give back to Bellamew, but Holt and Bellamew's daughter are bringing them back to me?"
"Bellamew is dead," said Po. "Holt stole your sculptures. Holt brought them to Hava, Bellamew's daughter, but Hava told Holt, no, the sculptures had to go back to the queen. So Holt brought them back, with Hava supervising."
"What! Why?"
"Holt puzzles me," said Po, musing. "He may or may not be mad. He's certainly confused."
"I don't understand!" said Bitterblue. "Holt stole from me, then changed his mind?"
"I think he's trying to do the right thing," said Po, "but is confused about what the right thing is. I understand that Leck used Bellamew, then killed her. Holt feels that Hava is the rightful owner of the sculptures."
"Is Giddon the one who told you about Hava?" asked Bitterblue. "Shouldn't something be done about Hava if she's floating around the castle? She tried to kidnap me!"
"Giddon doesn't know about Hava."
"Then how did you figure all this out?" cried Bitterblue.
"I just—did," said Po, looking sheepish.
"What do you mean, you just did? How can I be sure it's all true on the basis of 'you just did'?"
"I'm quite certain it's all true, Beetle. I'll explain why another time."
Bitterblue studied his battered face as he smoothed the glider against his leg. It was clear to her that he was upset about something he wasn't saying. "What are Helda and Katsa arguing about?" she asked quietly.
"Babies," he responded, flashing her a tiny grin. "As usual."
"And what are you and Katsa arguing about?"
His grin faded. "Giddon."
"Why? Is it about Katsa not liking him? I would love someone to explain that to me."
"Bitterblue, don't pry into the man's business."
"Oh, such commendable advice, coming from a mind reader. You can pry into his business whenever you like."
Po raised his eyes to her face. "As he well knows," he said.
"You told Giddon," she said, understanding everything now; understanding when he hung his head. "Giddon hit you," she continued. "And Katsa is angry with you for telling Giddon."
"Katsa is frightened," said Po quietly. "Katsa is too aware of the strain I'm under. It frightens her, knowing how many people I'd like to tell."
"How many people would you like to tell?"
This time, when he raised his eyes to her face, Bitterblue was also frightened. "Po," she whispered. "Please start small. If you're going to do this, tell Skye. Tell Helda. Maybe tell your father. Then wait, and get advice, and think. Please?"
"All I'm doing is thinking," he said. "I can't stop thinking. I'm so tired, Beetle."
His problems were so peculiar. Bitterblue's heart reached out to this cousin who slumped on the sofa looking weary, disgruntled, and sore. "Po," she said, going to him. She smoothed his hair and kissed the top of his head. "What can I do?"
Sighing, he said, "You could go comfort Giddon."
A VOICE ANSWERED her knock. When she entered Giddon's rooms, Giddon was sitting against the wall on the floor, in rapt contemplation of his left hand.
"You're left-handed," Bitterblue said. "I suppose I should have noticed that before."
He flexed the hand and spoke grimly, not looking up. "I spar sometimes with my right, just for practice."
"Have you hurt yourself?"
"No."
"Is left-handedness an advantage in fights?"
He shot Bitterblue a sardonic glance. "Against Po?"
"Against normal people."
A disinterested shrug. "Sometimes. Most fighters are better trained to defend against a right-handed assault."
Even Giddon's grumpy voice was nice in timbre. "Shall I stay?" Bitterblue asked lightly. "Or shall I go?"
He dropped his hand then and looked up at her, looked straight at her. His face softened. "Stay, Lady Queen." Then, seeming to remember his manners, he made a move to stand up.
"Oh, please," Bitterblue said. "It's a stupid custom," and she lowered herself to the floor beside him, putting her back to the wall for symmetry's sake, commencing an inspection of her own hands.
"Less than two hours ago," she said, "I sat beside a friend, just like this, on the roof of a shop in the city."
"What? Really?"
"We'd been chased there by people who wanted to kill him."
"Lady Queen," Giddon said, almost choking, "are you serious?"
"Don't tell anyone," Bitterblue said, "and don't interfere."
"You mean that Katsa and Po—"
; "Don't think of him and think of it at the same time," Bitterblue said calmly. "Don't ever bring him up in any conversation or contemplation you don't wish him to be a part of."
Giddon made a noise of disbelief; then went quiet, working that over for a while. "Let's discuss what you've just told me another time, Lady Queen," he said, "for my thoughts are rather singlemindedly on Po right now."
"The only point I wanted to make," Bitterblue said, "is that I have an irrational terror of heights."
"Heights," Giddon said, sounding lost.
"On occasion," she said, "it is profoundly humiliating."
Giddon went quiet again. When he next spoke, he was not lost. "I've shown you my worst behavior, Lady Queen, and you respond with kindness."
"If that's really the worst you've got," Bitterblue said, "then Po has an excellent friend, indeed."
Giddon stared into his hands again, which were broad and big as plates. Bitterblue resisted the urge to hold hers up to his and marvel at the difference in size.
"I've been trying to decide which is the most humiliating," he said. "That I was only able to hit him because he let me—he stood there like a punching bag, Lady Queen—"
"Mm? And you know, you won't get the credit for it," said Bitterblue. "Everyone will think Katsa made a mistake in one of their practice fights. No one will believe you managed it."
"Don't feel the need to spare my feelings, Lady Queen," he said dryly.
"Go on," Bitterblue said, grinning. "You were enumerating the points of your humiliation."
"Yes, you're very thoughtful. Second, it's not pleasant to be the last person to know."
"Ah," Bitterblue said. "I'll just point out that you're far from the last person to know."
"But you understand me, Lady Queen. I spend more time with Po than any of the rest of you. Even Katsa. Though really, there's no contest."
"What do you mean?"
"The truest humiliation," he said, then stopped, suddenly stiff-jawed and miserable, drawing his arms and shoulders close to his body, as if it were a thing he could protect himself from physically, like a blow, or like cold weather. Which, of course, it wasn't.
Bitterblue stretched her legs out straight and made a quiet show of smoothing her trousers, to spare him the embarrassment of being watched. She said simply, "I know."
He nodded, once. "I've opened so much of myself to him. Especially in the early years, when I had no suspicions and never thought to take care with my thoughts—and also happened to hate him. He knew every point of resentment I bore against him; every jealous thought, he knew. And now I'm remembering all of it, every single piece of malice, and the humiliation is double, because as I relive it, he does too."
Yes. This was the worst, the most unfair and humiliating thing about any mind reader, especially a secret mind reader. It was the reason Katsa was so frightened: a great wellspring of wrath and humiliation, all focused on Po, especially if Po began telling his truth indiscriminately.
"Katsa has told me that she was also humiliated when Po first told her," Bitterblue said, "and furious. She threatened to tell everyone. She never wanted to see him again."
"Yes," Giddon said. "And then she ran away with him."
He spoke those words mildly, which interested her. Bitterblue considered his tone for an instant, then decided to seize it as justification for asking an utterly inappropriate question about something she'd been wondering. "Are you in love with her?"
He shot her an incredulous brown glare. "Is that any of your business?"
"No," she said. "Are you in love with him?"
Giddon rubbed his eyebrows in wonderment. "Lady Queen, where is this coming from?"
"Well, it fits, doesn't it? It explains the tension with Katsa."
"I hope you haven't been stirring up this sort of talk with the others. If you have nosy questions about me, ask me."
"I am," Bitterblue said.
"Yes," Giddon said, chewing on the word with admirable good humor, "you are."
"I haven't," she said.
"Lady Queen?"
"Asked anyone this question but you," she said. "And no one has said anything definitive about it to me. And I can keep a secret."
"Ah," he said. "Well, it's not much of a secret, really, and I suppose I don't mind telling you."
"Thank you."
"Oh, my pleasure. It's your delicacy, you know. It makes a fellow want to bare his soul."
Bitterblue grinned.
"I was—rather obsessed—with Katsa once," he said, "for a long time. I said some wrong-headed things I'm ashamed of and Katsa won't forgive me. In the meantime, I've recovered from my obsession."
"Is that true?"
"Lady Queen," he said patiently, "among my less attractive qualities is a certain pride that serves me well when I discover that a woman I love never would, and never could, give me the things I want."
"The things you want?" Bitterblue repeated acidly. "Is that what it's about: the things you want? What are these things?"
"Someone who can bear the grievousness of my company, to start with. I'm afraid I insist upon it."
Bitterblue burst into laughter. He watched her, smiling, then sighed. "Some bad feelings linger," he said quietly, "even when the thing that brought them into being has died. I've wanted to hit Po practically since the first time I laid eyes on him. I'm glad it's finally done. Now I can see what an empty wish it was."
"Oh, Giddon," Bitterblue said, then went quiet, because the things she wanted to say were things she couldn't articulate. Bitterblue loved Katsa and Po with a love as big as the earth. But she knew what it was like to be lost on the edges of their love for each other.
"I need your help," she said, thinking that distraction might be a comfort to him.
He looked at her in surprise. "What is it, Lady Queen?"
"Someone is trying to kill people who wish to bring Leck's crimes to light," she said. "If, in your wanderings, you hear anything about it, will you let me know?"
"Of course," he said. "Goodness. Do you think it's someone like Danzhol? Other nobles who stole for Leck and don't want the truths of their past to come out?"
"I have no idea," she said. "But at least that would make some sort of logical sense; yes, I'll have to look into that. Though I hardly know where to start," she added tiredly. "I've got hundreds of nobles I've never even heard of. Giddon, what do you think of my guard Holt?"
"Holt is a Council ally, Lady Queen," Giddon said. "He stood guard during the meeting that took place in the library."
"Did he?" Bitterblue said. "He's also been stealing my sculptures."
Giddon stared at her in the sheerest amazement.
"Then bringing them back," said Bitterblue. "Will you pay him close attention in your dealings, Giddon? I'm worried about his health."
"You want me to pay close attention to Holt, who is stealing your sculptures, because you're concerned for his health," Giddon repeated incredulously.
"Yes. His mental health. Please don't tell him I mentioned the sculptures. You do trust him, though, Giddon?"
"Holt, who is stealing your sculptures and is of questionable mental health?"
"Yes."
"I trusted him five minutes ago. Now I'm at a bit of a loss."
"Your opinion five minutes ago is good enough for me," Bitterblue said. "You have good instincts."
"Have I?"
"I suppose I should go back to my rooms now," Bitterblue said, sighing. "Katsa is there. I expect she intends to yell at me."
"I very much doubt that, Lady Queen."
"The two of them together can be so pushy, you know," said Bitterblue impishly. "Part of me hopes you broke his nose."
The knuckles of Giddon's left hand were darkening with bruises from their impact with Po's face. He did not rise to her bait. Instead, still studying his own hand, he said quietly, "I will never tell his secret."
BACK IN HER rooms, she looked in on Po. Finding him asleep on the sofa, snoring with the clogged sn
ore of someone whose nose is swollen, she covered him with a blanket. Then, having no more excuses, she went to her bedroom.
Katsa and Helda were making up the sheets to her bed. "Thank goodness," Katsa said at the sight of her. "Helda's been trying to impress me with the embroidery on the sheets. One more minute and I thought I might use them to hang myself."
"My mother did the embroidery," Bitterblue said.
Katsa clapped her mouth shut and glared at Helda. "Thank you, Helda, for mentioning that detail."
Helda expertly snapped a blanket open so that it billowed over the bed. "Can I be blamed for forgetting details when I'm worried to distraction at finding the queen missing from her bed?" she said. Then she marched to the pillows and beat them mercilessly until they lay puffed out like obedient clouds.
Bitterblue thought it might be to her advantage to take control of this conversation from the start. "Helda," she said, "I need the help of my spies. People in the city who're trying to uncover truths about Leck's time are being killed. I need to know who's behind this. Can we find out?"
"Of course we can find out," said Helda with a self-righteous sniff. "And in the meantime, while killers are running around on the loose, you'll be moving among them dressed like a boy with no guard to look out for you and not even your own name to protect you. The two of you think I'm a foolish old woman whose opinions don't matter."
"Helda!" Katsa exclaimed, practically vaulting over the bed to be near her. "That's certainly not what we think."
"It's all right," Helda said, giving the pillows one last thrashing, then straightening to face her two young ladies with unapproachable dignity. "It hardly matters. Even if you thought me Graced with supreme knowledge, you'd none of you listen to me and every one of you do whatever harebrained thing you liked. You all think you're invincible, don't you? You think the only thing that doesn't matter is your own safety. It's enough to drive a woman wild." She reached deep into a pocket and flung a small bundle onto Bitterblue's bed. "I've known from the beginning that you sneak out nights, Lady Queen. The two nights you never came home were sleepless nights for me. You might remember that, the next time you contemplate lying in some bed other than your own. I won't pretend that I don't know the pressures you're under—and that goes for you too, My Lady," she added, gesturing at Katsa. "I won't deny but that your responsibilities differ from any I've ever known, and when push comes to shove, you're to be held to a different standard than other people. But that does not mean that it feels nice to be lied to and taken for a fool. Tell your young man that," she finished, raising her chin a notch to stare into Katsa's eyes. Then she marched from the room.
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