Embrace in Motion
Sarah MacNeil is about to put her heart in the hands of a beautiful woman who could be her salvation...or her ruin!
Surfing high on the wave of lesbian chic, author/screenwriter Melissa Hartley is deliciously dangerous. She knows the right people, goes to all the right parties, says all the right things. When she meets the quiet, elegant Sarah MacNeil at a hotel bar, Melissa makes all the right moves to get Sarah to her bed, then makes all the right promises to convince the usually cautious young attorney to come live with her in San Francisco.
Totally captivated for the first time in her life, Sarah surrenders herself completely. Blinded by the glow of Melissa's white-hot sensuality, is Sarah setting herself up for a total meltdown?
Melissa
EMBRACE (em-bras') [Middle English embracen, from Old French embracer] embrace (verb); embraced, embracing, embraces (verb, transitive); embrace (noun)
1.To clasp with the arms, usually as an expression of affection; to hug; to pull close.
2.To take up willingly or eagerly accept.
3.To enclose; encircle; engulf.
4.To twine around.
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She had been forced into prudence in hex youth, she (earned romance as she grew older. (Jane Austen)
The man who set his half-empty glass on the bar was attractive and he had a definite swagger in his manner. Sarah began to give him her best "hands off' look, then realized he was familiar. The memory clicked — they'd met at a workshop during last year's convention.
"So, hey, sweet thing, got any plans for dinner and breakfast?" He smirked and his charming blue eyes actually twinkled.
Sarah decided to reply in kind. She slid her hand along his thigh, making him jump. "Hey, lover, buy a lady a drink."
Geoff burst out laughing and leaned comfortably against the bar. "I'd almost think you'd had practice picking up men in bars."
"Never men, as you well know. I noticed that the diversity training session this year doesn't mention the unmentionable again."
"Me, too. I guess our comments on the evaluation form last year didn't open any eyes." Geoff took a sip from his glass, grimaced and settled on the bar stool next to her.
"I signed up again," Sarah said. "The session is tomorrow and I'm going to bring it up if I can keep up my nerve."
"Lucky you," Geoff said, "working for CompuSoft where you can be out."
"You're still at —what was it, H and G Chemical?"
"Yes, but I have a cunning plan," he said with one of his heartbreaking smiles. "They've fired at least two research guys I know were gay and neither of them made a fuss. But if they find out about me I'll be a client for Lambda Legal so fast, it'll make their head spin. I'll be sitting pretty."
"After a long legal battle," Sarah said practically. "Are you serious?"
"No," he said. "I mean yes, I'll sue if they fire me, but I don't really want to. I don't suppose there are any more openings for patent attorneys at CompuSoft? I'd be willing to relocate." Geoff mimed a begging dog and panted.
"Down, boy! I've got a waiting list a mile long of people who would be willing to pay me large sums of money just to put in a good word for them."
"So I'm stuck writing patents for the latest cleaning fluid in a company where being a single man makes you suspect. Actually, that was why I sauntered over here." His eyes were twinkling again.
"Did you know you have Robert Redford's eyes?" She had a feeling that it wasn't news to him.
He gave her an annoyed look. "So I've been told. I have to tell you it's one of the reasons I like hanging out with gay girls. I get tired of being hit on." He brushed back his crisp, blond hair in a gesture at once unconscious and decidedly attractive.
"Sorry I said something so cruel, you poor beleaguered man," Sarah said dryly. If ever there had been a man who was her type, Geoff was it. Exactly the looks for armor and a white charger. He'd look really good in a jerkin and tights.
Geoff laughed. "Anyway, I came over here because the butthead of a co-worker at the table with me keeps trying to trick me into admitting I'm gay — you know the type. He mentions show tunes and Judy Garland like I'm going to squeal and launch into 'Somewhere Over the Rainbow.'" He shook his head with a sigh and sipped his drink.
"So," Sarah prodded, "how did Mr. Butthead make you come over here?"
"He's stupid enough to bet me a hundred bucks that I can't get a woman to dance with me. He apparently believes that women have built-in radar and know I'm gay and therefore..."
"Therefore won't dance with you? He's certifiable. A woman who likes to dance would dance with Bigfoot if he knew how to fox-trot." Sarah casually surveyed the room in order to sneak a glance at Mr. Butthead, who was busy leering at the cocktail waitress. He was a pasty bit of pudding — his palms were probably perpetually damp.
"I said he's an idiot. So how would you like to split the hundred with me?" He gestured at the dance floor. The song had just changed from a raucous and unintelligible disco song to Bonnie Raitt's sultry "Let's Give Them Something to Talk About."
"Perfect timing," Sarah said and she let Geoff spin her out onto the sparsely coupled dance floor.
She loved to dance and hadn't been dancing since the break-up with Ellen. She hadn't thought that there'd be any chance to dance at the annual patent attorney's convention. When you don't generally dance with men, and know no other lesbians in the association, you don't need your dancing shoes. Then again, when she'd arrived and seen on the conference board that there was a lesbian writer's conference sharing space in the hotel, she'd had a passing romantic fancy that she would meet someone and have a torrid fling that included dancing all night and walking with their pantlegs rolled up through the surf—a Hallmark moment — even though she knew perfectly well that there were no beaches with surf within 1,500 miles of Louisville, Kentucky.
The last thing she had dreamed she would do was dance with a man. And she'd certainly never dreamed she'd be dancing with a man as good as Geoff was proving to be. She sent the usual fond mental thank-you to Jenny, a champion ballroom dancer. The past had its good moments, yes indeed. Too bad the future looked so dull.
He drew her close during the refrain and said, "Here — I'll do you a favor." He led her smoothly to the opposite side of the dance floor and then slowly turned her so that she was looking over his shoulder at a table occupied only by women.
It was just a guess, but she was pretty sure they weren't patent attorneys. Far too much color and style in their attire and a hint of attitude in the brown suede and black leather bomber jackets on the backs of the chairs. Definitely from the writer's conference, and two of them were practically in each other's laps. She noticed that several of the men nearby couldn't take their eyes off of the lovebirds, including Mr. Butthead — the worm.
She made eye contact with a pale, anorexic brunette who responded with a pointed, disdainful glance at Sarah's high heels. Amused, Sarah snuggled closer to Geoff and then winked at the brunette. The brunette leaned over to the plump chocolate-skinned woman on her right and said something that Sarah guessed was probably uncomplimentary about straight women who flirted with lesbians.
She could feel Geoff laughing. "What are you doing?"
"Flirting," Sarah said. "Looking for Ms. Goodbar."
"I would have sworn you weren't that type of girl."
"I'm not, usually. But I'm not getting any younger and the nights are getting colder. Know what I mean?"
Geoff swung her into a flip out and they turned so Geoff was facing the table. He said into her ear, "I know what you mean. Well, there's a cute girl giving me death looks. Blond, but not a natural, I'd say."
"That's catty."
"Truthful."
"Let me
see."
He turned her and then drew her to him for a cheek-to-cheek.
She regarded the blond woman through her lashes. Cute was not at all right, she thought. Striking, maybe, but neither cute nor beautiful. She would have to spend some time finding the right word for her. "Oo-la-la," Sarah said in Geoff’s ear. "Maybe I should rent the U-Haul now."
Geoff laughed. "You women," he said with mock scathing. "Just go upstairs and have fun. It doesn't have to be forever after."
Ha, Sarah thought. She knew lots of women who would do just that, but she wasn't one of them. Never had been. It was her curse that she wanted more than what her friend Debra called "hello—let's fuck—so long" relationships. She had been so sure she'd hit the center of the happily-ever-after target with Ellen, but it had ended with broken bowstrings for both of them.
"I'd almost do it, but there's no one who suits me." Except the blond woman. Curly, shoulder-length blond hair. Long neck. Strong shoulders, but not too broad. But Sarah couldn't just walk over and ask her to dance. She just didn't feel up to braving the hostile stares as she approached, nor the hostile stares they were sure to get if they danced.
The song ended and Geoff led her back to the bar. "I'm going to collect my hundred, and then how about we split a bottle of expensive wine and room service delicacies and bitch about our love lives?"
"And going to my room with me is that much more cover for you, isn't it?" Sarah was teasing, but Geoff winced.
"I hadn't thought of it that way. But you're right."
"It's okay," Sarah said, putting her hand on his arm. "Go get Mr. Butthead's money, sir."
While she waited for Geoff, she glanced over at the table of women again and discovered the blond woman staring at her. Sarah fought down a blush as the other woman's expressive lips conveyed a flirtatious suggestion as she glanced at Geoff, then back at Sarah. Then with a tiny lift of one eyebrow she promised Sarah anything Geoff could do and more.
Sarah gave way to the blush and was smiling involuntarily as Geoff returned. She felt positively devilish as she took Geoff's arm and sent the blond a parted-lip, come-and-get-me smile Sarah hoped she'd remember in her dreams.
The following morning Sarah had a thick head and sincerely hoped Geoff did too. They'd finished an impressive cabernet sauvignon and a platter of hors d'oeuvres, complained about women and men and the death of romance, railed against homophobia, then sighed together during the local late movie: Camille. Geoff had imitated Garbo's cough to perfection. It had been a fun evening, but far too much wine for her head. Now she was paying for it. If it hadn't been for the diversity session first thing she would have stayed in bed until lunch.
Last year she'd been glad to see the stodgy Association of American Patent Attorneys include a session on handling diversity in the workplace. CompuSoft had been having in-house sessions like it for years and although Sarah found them hokey at times, they were necessary. It took those sessions and a vocal and unwavering commitment to diversity on the part of all levels of upper management to make a place as open to work at as CompuSoft. It wasn't perfect, but at least in the legal department your private life didn't influence your work ratings.
They had been about halfway through last year's session when she'd muttered something about sexual diversity under her breath and the man sitting in front of her — one of the few white men in the room — had turned around and smiled. At the first opportunity to pair off, Geoff had joined her. They used the exercise time to discuss if they should make an issue of it and Geoff had almost gone along, but then he'd described the hostile atmosphere at H&G Chemical and they'd both realized he wasn't ready to put his job at risk. But on their evaluation forms, which were anonymous, they'd plainly and persuasively pointed out that diversity training was worthless when it wasn't diverse.
She also knew that if the training were to have any effect at all, it took someone gay to speak up. So as the Association's conference representative introduced the trainer, Sarah glanced through the materials and found that once again no mention was made of gays, lesbians or bisexuals. In fact, the only diversity the Association wanted to discuss was racial. They didn't even mention gender.
She glanced around the room. It seemed as if all of the people of color attending the conference were in the room. A session devoted to only race relations seemed to her a little bit like preaching to the choir. Women far outnumbered men, and their perspective wasn't going to be addressed at all. Geoff was nowhere in sight, the lay about, and if anyone else in the room was gay they were just as invisible as she was in her suit and heels.
She sighed, feeling cross. Anna Ramos, the Association's representative, introduced the bubbly and bright-eyed facilitator, who enthusiastically launched into a review of the goals of the session. When she paused to ask if everyone was comfortable with the agenda, Sarah raised her hand. The facilitator told Sarah to go right ahead with her comments.
"I would like to see the agenda expanded to cover more territory," Sarah said. "If we're going to talk about diversity, in addition to race I'd like to talk about dealing with the differing perceptions of men and women in the workplace." She took a deep breath. "And I'd like to have a dialog about making the workplace a safe place to be gay or lesbian or bisexual."
The facilitator's expression froze for a moment, then she gave Anna Ramos what could only be an "I told you so" look. Great, Sarah thought, the facilitator has experience with the subjects and obviously thinks it should be included.
"Would anyone like to comment on —Sarah, is it? — Sarah's suggestion to expand the agenda?"
Anna Ramos, the only woman of color on the Association's board, actually looked relieved. "I'd certainly be willing," she said, firmly. Sarah put two and two together. Anna had wanted the topics on the agenda but had been overruled by the Association committee which planned the conference.
A corpulent white man in the front of the room got to his feet with the air of a man taking charge of a situation. Here it comes, Sarah thought. Buck Thurgood was also on the AAPA board and Sarah suspected the only reason he was here was to keep an eye on Anna Ramos, who was, as everyone knew, a troublemaker with radical ideas that might lead to — horror of horrors — change.
"I'm not sure that our time limit will allow us to go so far afield," Buck said.
The facilitator said hastily, "We can fold these topics into the existing exercises with very little impact on our schedule."
"Well, I'm sure you think so," Thurgood said with a patronizing chuckle that made Sara see red. He looked across the room to where Sarah still stood and said coolly, "Far be it for me to ignore a member's concern, but I wouldn't want to mire our worthwhile activity here with controversial topics."
"Diversity is controversial," a black man said from the middle of the room. He stood briefly to add, "If it weren't we wouldn't be here. I would like to talk about making peace between the sexes. I'm tired of taking the rap for the acts of other men and I guess I'd like to know why so many women I work with are angry."
The facilitator quickly said, "I hear a willingness to talk about gender in addition to race." She gave Buck a look that wasn't defiant, but rather suggested that he bow to the inevitable.
A petite Asian woman stood and said earnestly, "I think we're all fooling ourselves if we think we can ignore gays. I had this really great guy working for me and all of a sudden his performance drops to nothing. I tried to find out if he had some sort of personal problem, but he said no. Then I found out from someone else that his partner had left him. After that I knew how to work with him —just like when someone gets a divorce. I gave him time and space — helped him focus day-to-day for a while. But if I hadn't known what was up, I'd have fired him and lost one of my best people. After I told him he could be open about his private life with me, he admitted that he thought I was a homophobe because I'm Chinese... so we have to talk about all types of diversity because they're all interrelated. We need to end ignorance."
"I don't think we sho
uld talk about sex on the job," an older Asian man said.
Sarah, who was still standing, sighed. "If you tell me you and your girlfriend went to the movies Saturday night, is that telling me about your sex life? So why can't I tell you that I went to the movies on Saturday with my girlfriend?"
The facilitator said smoothly, "It's clear we do have something to talk about and there's a lot of interest in this subject. It will be a simple matter to include these new topics in our discussion. Thank you, everyone, for being willing to speak your mind."
Sarah sat down and glanced at Buck. He looked as if he had spit up in his mouth, but his sour expression didn't diminish her satisfaction one iota. She smiled to herself and realized her headache was gone.
At the end of the day, Sarah paused in front of the guest room elevators. She was tempted to spend the night in her room with the Kay Scarpetta mystery she'd begun on the plane, but she wasn't in the mood for a thriller. She wandered into the hotel gift shop and found, to her delight, a paperback copy of Pride and Prejudice, an old favorite. An evening with Elizabeth Bennett, Fitzwilliam Darcy and subtle, understated romance would be delightful and more enjoyable than her convention option, which was joining the excursion to Churchill Downs. She was not going to go out into a 95-degree Louisville evening with 100% humidity. Besides, she'd been there before, on Derby Day, in the company of an elegant woman who had collected athlete lovers much as she did tennis bracelets. Jane had been the last of Sarah's affairs in a social circle of wealthy and/or celebrity lesbians. Jane's entree to the circle was money; Sarah's credential had been two Olympic competitions.
At first, Sarah had thought she'd found her niche in life, but she had tired of travel and parading to the next event where lesbians would gather. She'd also gotten tired of living on other people's money. She had her own small trust fund inherited from her mother's mother, but she couldn't spend like Jane and her friends. Center court seats at Wimbledon and passes to LPGA tournament events had gradually fallen in her list of priorities and she'd left Jane, sans rancor.
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