And yet now he had to think for himself, to dissuade Wimpy from returning to Colembert.
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So—why should Wimpy want to go back? Why?
Of all places, Colembert was the last one in which the Germans would look for them now! But even if that was a reason for going back there he still wasn't going back.
The damned paper waved under his nose. Damned paper!
'If anyone catches us with that—anyone other than the Germans—they'll shoot us,' he snapped.
They will?' Wimpy echoed the thought carelessly. 'You think so?'
'They'll take us for Fifth Columnists.' Bastable pressed his point without quite knowing how it might help him.
'They will?' Wimpy looked at the paper. 'I hadn't thought of that . . .'
'You bet your life they will!' Bastable stared at the paper. 'If I caught a damn Frenchman with that—or an Englishman—I'd put him up against the nearest wall.'
'You would?' Wimpy continued to study the paper. 'Hmm . . .'
There were no British troops between where they were standing in a darkening nowhere and the ruins of Colembert, so the execution was purely hypothetical, thought Bastable hysterically. And even if there were, and he was the officer-in-charge, he wouldn't shoot a dog on such evidence, never mind a lame Frenchman with a child in tow.
Or would he?
'Without a second thought, man!' he said, trying to inject dummy4
brutality into his voice. 'The nearest wall. And no damned court martial, either.'
Perhaps he would.
Wimpy looked at him. 'You would too—wouldn't you!'
For his own sake he had to believe it. And . . . damned Fifth Columnists—damned traitors!... he was already more than half-way to believing it. 'Yes. I would, Willis.'
Wimpy smiled at him—and that was the last bloody straw on the donkey's back: weak, stupid Harry Bastable not capable of shooting a damn traitor, the last bloody straw—
'F—'
'I believe you!' Wimpy cut off the obscenity. 'You're a genius, Harry! I'd never have thought of it— and that makes it perfect. .. the reward—and the risk . .. the risk—and the reward . . . absolutely perfect. You-really-are-a-genius!'
'What?'
'To catch a traitor—and that's what it's all about—and it doesn't matter what happens to us ... to catch a traitor—'
Wimpy started to crumple the paper in his fist, and then caught himself doing it, and opened his hand guiltily. 'God!
We mustn't spoil the ticket to Colembert, must we!'
'W-what?'
Wimpy pointed into the cart. 'Get the wine—get the bread . . .
bread and wine for the last communion . . . We have to reach the St Pol crossroads as soon as possible, old boy, and we need to stoke your boiler for pushing me there.'
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The what clogged in Bastable's throat this time.
'There's bound to be Jerry transport moving that way, said Wimpy. 'And there's a road—I saw it on the map—pretended to be short-sighted, and civilian . . . St Pol to Fruges, Fruges to Desevres ... Desevres to Colembert. And then—what's the word?—hitching? No—hitch-catching? To catch a traitor, anyway—eh, Harry?'
The names meant nothing to Bastable—except Colembert; but Wimpy's eyes were feverish; or, it was Wimpy's voice, and he was imagining the look that went with the voice.
'I didn't think we could do it. And maybe we can't... but we can try, Harry—we can try!'
And there was only one traitor.
Damned, bloody traitor!
But not at Colembert—
'But he—he won't be at Colembert, Willis,' he heard himself.
It was what he should have said all along, fuck it!
'Of course not, old boy. If he's anywhere, he'll be on the bridge between Les Moulins and Carpy at noon tomorrow. So let's hope there's only one bridge, and we can be there too—if that's the Destined Will, Harry.'
He was mad. He was insane. They were both insane—in the middle of nowhere.
'The bridge between Les Moulins and Carpy—Carpy's on the map, I saw it. It's just off the Route Nationale from Arras to dummy4
Boulogne—the Germans must think they'll be there by tomorrow.'
'Boulogne?' The insanity was catching—even the Germans had caught it. Boulogne was as unthinkable as ... as Colembert?
Wimpy drew a deep breath. 'I know. It doesn't seem possible . . . But if they've reached Abbeville today—or Amiens today—they can reach Boulogne tomorrow, can't they? Can't they?"
It wasn't insanity any more: it was the terrible logic of defeat struggling against hope. If there had been nothing to stop the Germans from driving all the way across northern France to the Channel, then perhaps there was also nothing to stop them pushing northwards to Boulogne?
But Boulogne!
That wasn't a lost battle—that was the war itself— that was the British Army itself—lost!
And that was impossible: after Boulogne, only Calais was left on the map.
He shrugged the impossibility off. And besides, there was another impossibility to set against it: Colembert was to the south—Wimpy was an idiot—
And that was another impossibility—
Christ! He was the idiot!
There were two Colemberts: the right one and the wrong one—the one he knew and the other one—and the other one dummy4
was the right one—near Boulogne—the real Colembert!
'Harry. Get the wine—I need a drink if you don't, old boy.
Because I'm going to need some Dutch courage, I think. I certainly don't think I can do it stone-cold sober, anyway.'
Do what?
Idiot, idiot!
But not idiot alone: because Wimpy had reversed the trick on the German officer—pointing to Colembert-les-Deux-Ports, but intending Colembert-near-Boulogne all along, and getting it on his piece of paper, and no one would know the difference.
Do what?
'But—how are we going to get there?'
'By trusting our luck again—and my French, Onri.' Wimpy wasn't smiling: the twitch couldn't be called a smile by any stretch of the imagination, even in the gathering twilight.
It occurred to Bastable that the German officer had been a decent sort of fellow, doing his duty with a foolish touch of humanity, as he himself might have done.
Or, as he might have done if he had been winning.
But losers couldn't afford to make mistakes, and be decent.
He must remember that.
'And also by saying "Heil Hitler" at the right moment,' said Wimpy. 'As of now, Harry, we're joining the Fifth Column.'
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XV
'Harry. Wake up, Harry. It's time.'
Time?
Bastable awoke to greenness swimming before his eyes; which, when he blinked the sleep from them, resolved itself into a primeval forest of grass, impenetrably thick and tangled.
'It's time, Harry.'
The voice in his ear and the hand on his shoulder were both so gentle as they reclaimed him from sleep that they confused him for a moment. He moved his own hand, which had been resting on his cheek to shield his eyes from the light, and pushed at the grass, only half conscious of what he was doing.
'Harry—wake up, old chap. It's past eleven hundred—it's nearly eleven-thirty.' Not so gentle now, the voice.
The back of his hand was tingling very strangely—no, not so much tingling as itching . . . and more than itching—
Christ! The back of his hand was on fire! The bloody grass was full of stinging nettles, damn it!
And it was time—dear God!— it was past eleven hundred—
Wimpy must have let him sleep on, quite deliberately— and now it was nearly eleven-thirty already!
He sat up abruptly, looking round about him quickly with the dummy4
beginnings of panic, at once fully and horribly awake.
'What—' He lifted his other hand from the ground quickly, but too late, feeling t
he crushed nettles bite into his palm. 'Oh
—damn!'
'It's all right, old boy,' Wimpy reassured him. 'There's nothing moving. A bloke on a cycle about half an hour ago, that's all. You were sleeping like a baby.'
'Did he see you?' Caution was second nature now.
'No.' Wimpy turned back to the corner of the bridge's brick parapet. 'I thought it safer to lie very low, just in case.'
'In case of what?'
'We-ell . . .' He craned his neck cautiously round the corner to look up and down the road ' . . . just in case he wasn't as innocent as he appeared to be. We are rather in the middle of no-man's-land again, it looks like. So Jerry may be indulging in a spot of reconnaissance out of uniform, I don't know . . .
Anyway, he didn't see me, so it's quite all right. Nothing to worry about.'
It wasn't quite all right, and there was everything to worry about, thought Bastable desolately.
'Where's the child?'
'Under the trees, where we left her—with the chariot. Don't worry. When I last looked at her she was asleep too. Quiet worn out, poor little soul, I'd guess. So just don't worry.'
Wimpy's voice was relaxed and strangely distant. 'There's nothing to worry about.'
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'How's your ankle!'
'About the same.'
'You can't walk on it?'
'Uh-huh.' Distant, and quite unconcerned.
'You can't walk on it?'
'That's right.' Wimpy peered round the parapet again.
Not just unconcerned.
The nettle stings on Bastable's hands had risen as painful white blotches in the middle of raspberry-coloured stains. It struck him as ridiculous that they should bother him, such little childish pains— Don't scratch it, Henry, it'll only make it worse. Wrap a dock-leaf round it—at a time like this.
Not just unconcerned. Serene.
His mouth was full of a foul taste, made up of sleep and the stale fumes of alcohol: at some stage last night he hadn't been quite sober, if he hadn't actually been drunk.
Last night—
The night hadn't been dark, as night should be. It had been full of greyness, and black shapes and the flicker of war to the north, like distant thunder and lightning.
And finally the loom of the blacker shape on the road ahead, and the different, slower light of torches—
'Achtung! Achtung! The guttural warning and the torch-beam swung towards him simultaneously, terrifying him and blinding him at the same time. ' Halt!' Stop—
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' Heil Hitler!' shouted Wimpy confidently.
'Hände hoch! Halt! Halt!' Boots scraped on the road.
'Heil Hitler!' Wimpy shouted again, his voice cracking.
'Kameraden! Kameraden!'
The night was now blinding light and blind darkness, and absolute fear though Wimpy had prepared him for it ('The moment when they'll be as scared as we are, old boy').
'Heil Hitler!' Wimpy positively shrieked out the password this time ('Would you shoot someone who shouted "God save the King!", old boy? Would you?') They were about to find out, anyway—once and for all!
'Schprekken zee Franz-oh-sisch? Kameraden—Kameraden?'
shouted Wimpy. 'Ich bin Froind—ich bin Froind—ja!'
The boots scraped uneasily, left and right—and closer—in the glare-and-blackness filling Bastable's brain.
More German words—but this time they were beyond his script and meant nothing.
'Ja! Ja!' exclaimed Wimpy eagerly.
The torch-beam left Bastable's face in preference for Wimpy's, dancing the familiar black hat in silhouette in front of him.
For an interminable moment there was no reply. There was only fear crawling around in the silence, and what made it worse for Bastable was that he knew he was sharing it with the Germans: in their place, in the middle of a hostile dummy4
country, at night and alone—even if he'd been winning—he would have been petrified and trigger-happy. And what made it worst of all was that he wasn't in their place: he was at the end of their rifles, and they plainly didn't know what to do next.
No—not worst of all! Worst of all was that there was nothing he could do about it, he was harnessed to the cart like a dumb animal.
'Kameraden!' Wimpy's voice cut through the silence, and Bastable was astonished at the change in it: it wasn't pleading, it wasn't trembling with fear—it was sharp with authority!
'Kameraden!'
' No half-measures, old boy— we've got to go for broke—I shall tell the buggers I'm on a Fifth Column mission of the highest importance, delayed by the damned Englanders of Arras—game leg, and all that!—sent by General Rommel in person—signed and sealed by one of his own staff officers —
with an order to prove it—piece of bloody bumf, but it's bloody bumf that makes the world go round! Bumf, and the bloody cheek to go with it, Harry!'
And Wimpy had both. But would they be enough?
The torch came towards them.
'Franzozisch—Frong-say?'
'Oui. May-ma-gron-mare-est-dalsass—El-sar-ssich, ja?'
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And Wimpy was even enlisting his Alsatian grandmother to serve with his bit of paper and his bloody cheek . . .
The beam of light played over them nervously. 'Voz papiez, m'sieur?'
'Non. Nicht owsschwhyce—' Wimpy produced—produced with a decisive flourish—the magic piece of bloody bumf on which their lives depended, from which all his great lies were stretched.
The torch illuminated the crumpled piece of paper, and Bastable strained his eyes to make out the rank of the torch-bearer.
Please God—not an officer . . . but not a complete fool, please God! Someone in between . .. say, an NCO with a little imagination, but not too much. Say, just enough to see how useful a Fifth Columnist could be to an advancing army—that had been Wimpy's reasoning.
The torch-bearer was making heavy weather of the paper—he was summoning assistance out of the darkness. Assistance also studied the note. And Assistance also had a map.
'Colembert,' said Wimpy. 'Entre Sit Omer et Boulogne.'
'Ja—ja...' said Assistance, midway between irritation and doubt. 'Colembert—ja!'
There was something wrong, and it could be any one of a hundred reactions—
1. A vital mission? Pushing a cart, with a child and the village idiot—in the middle of nowhere? You must be joking!
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2 All the way to Colembert? Do me a favour—The bloody British are still there!
3. Piss off, you bloody Frog! Or even—
4. You don't sound like a Frog to me—you sound more like Captain Willis, of the Prince Regent's Own. And there's a
'Dead or Alive' SS warrant out on him, I seem to remember
—
Wimpy spoke, and he was answering Number 2, by the sound of it: Take us as far as the St Pol crossroads, and we'll get another lift there (just so we get as far as possible from Arras and Number 4, Kameraden!).
'Ja . .. ja . . .' More doubt than irritation now: Assistance manoeuvred the map and the torch-bearer's light alongside Wimpy and embarked on what sounded—God! What actually sounded!—like a hesitant question ... in a mixture of German and French.
'Oui—oui!' Wimpy nodded, and bent over the map. 'Ici—' he pointed to the map '— nous sommes ici—la!'
'Ah—ach ssso!' exclaimed Assistance gratefully. 'Gut! Bon!
Bon!'
The Germans had been lost—hopelessly lost in a darkened France! Lost—just as the Prince Regent's Own had been hopelessly and fatally lost three days before!
'St Pol?' said Wimpy. 'Le carrefour de St Pol?'
'Ja, ja—der Karrefour de St Pol—komm—'
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It had been easier, after that.
It hadn't been less frightening— it had never been less than altogether terrifying for Bastable, even after they had shared one of their bottles of wine with the crew of the lorry, whose relief at discoverin
g their whereabouts was so great that they had shared one of their bottles in return (and they at least had a corkscrew!), which had added to the wine he had already consumed beside the road, in that other middle of nowhere (after having smashed off the top, very unskilfully, with a stone at the roadside); which had added an insufficient measure of dutch courage to his overmastering English cowardice.
Even, although they had almost ignored him—Wimpy had explained that he was short on wits, and even shorter on words, and one of them had patted his shoulder ('Doitsches soldarten—Doitsches soldarten ammee!')— even when they had made much of the child, like family men far from home; very ordinary men—men like his own dead fusiliers—
ordinary men who would have killed him a few hours before, and might still kill him, if things went wrong.
No, it had never been less frightening.
It had even been more frightening, in the first place where they had stopped, where there had been a great fire burning, illuminating faces and uniforms and vehicles.
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But it had been easier—
It had been easier because Assistance had assisted them to another vehicle—speaking to another Assister, explaining how they had helped him find his way in the darkness, giving substance to their lies—
. . . permitted and assisted . . .
— even putting Wimpy's case to a harassed German MTO in the firelight—
'General Rommel—'
'Le Gaynayral Rommel—'
There were French firemen fighting the fire—in polished brass helmets which flickered red-gold on their heads!
'Kolembert—ja!'
A German soldier actually helped him to transfer the cart from one lorry to another, snapping instructions at him, while Wimpy stood beside the tailboard, holding the child close to him, supporting himself on her shoulder.
'Kolembert— nine! Frooges—Frooges?'
'Frooges?' said Wimpy eagerly. 'Frooges—oui!'
Easier. But not less frightening.
For the second leg of their journey had been in silence, and dummy4
in bumping darkness, with the child wedged in his arms and the sharp edges of things gouging into him—the child shivering at first, cold as death, and then so still and silent that he had shifted himself deliberately once to make her stir to reassure himself that it wasn't a small, cold death he was cradling in his arms, but only the sleep of exhaustion which he himself had to fight against because there were Germans also in that darkness with him, and he dare not release himself from their presence.
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