by Howard Owen
“I know. I know. I want to. But I can’t. Won’t. Whatever. What …?”
“What would people say?” he finished the question.
Justin and Leeza knew already. Justin had uncomfortably broached the subject while she was still in the hospital. When she asked him why he hadn’t said anything before, he told her it wasn’t any of his business, and the way he said it was like another gift.
Still, she knew there was something there that she couldn’t seem to escape. She had always prided herself in her ability to endure censure and guilt, but now she didn’t know if she could.
She and Kenny didn’t even mention Littlejohn McCain, or Kenny’s father, although Georgia alluded to it.
“It’s funny, the thing that brought you here, that secured you this farm, is one of the things that’s keeping me from staying. Staying with you, I mean.”
“My great-grandparents were first cousins,” he told her. “They lived a long and happy life together, and almost none of their kids had six fingers or were congenital idiots.”
The part she could never tell even Kenny or Justin about was William Blackwell and Christmas Eve. She still couldn’t believe he had told her, or that he had done what he did. Sometimes, she thought she must have dreamed it.
And so she told Kenny she would be leaving as soon as she was able, perhaps as early as the middle of February.
She promised to return for several weeks every summer, and he promised to visit her when cold weather gave him a chance to get away.
“I haven’t given up,” he told her as he was leaving.
“I’m only going to get more wrinkles,” she told him. “The cellulite in my butt will just get worse.”
“I haven’t given up,” he repeated.
She knew she didn’t want him to.
And then, topping all that, there’s the wedding today.
It was Leeza’s idea. She told Justin, when they brought the baby home from the hospital, that she wanted to do it, that she was ready.
She told Georgia, when they talked about it, that she wasn’t really sure Justin wouldn’t run screaming in the other direction at some point in the pregnancy. She’d seen enough of that in her family. She said she thought, if he wants to leave, I’ll be better off raising the baby by myself than with some of the male role models I’ve experienced.
“But I know he’s here now,” Leeza told her. “He’s going to be here for me and Georgia Noel. I couldn’t trust my good luck, I guess.”
Georgia can’t get used to the fact that the baby has her name. She is startled every time she hears it. She is inclined to believe Justin when he tells her that the name was Leeza’s idea.
“She really does look up to you,” he told her. “God knows why.”
They go to church together, the five of them. It takes them half an hour to get everyone from the house to the car and then the mile to church. The older congregation acts as if they had descended straight from heaven. The old women make such a fuss over the baby that they finally succeed in waking her up. Everyone who isn’t surrounding the infant is trying to talk to Georgia, all at the same time. She is still a little shaky and finally has to ask for a chair so that she can reluctantly hold court outside the sanctuary.
The Reverend Weeks gives a forgettable sermon but does take time to praise the generosity of Georgia McCain, in such a way that there is no doubt the church already has accepted her offer.
And then, before he goes into the sermon itself, he tells everyone they are invited to the wedding afterward.
It isn’t a large event, befitting a bride and groom whose firstborn is being held by the groom’s mother, sitting in the front pew. When Forsythia heard about it, she organized the same women who had fed the shut-ins on Thanksgiving to handle the reception in the fellowship hall. Someone came up with flowers.
“All I wanted,” Leeza whispers to Georgia between the services and the wedding, “was just to get married. I didn’t want anybody to make a big deal about it.”
“It’s their gift to you,” Georgia whispers back. “It’s the gift of acceptance.”
“I know.”
Justin is going to buy her a ring, but for now, he has the one that was on Jenny McLaurin’s finger three months ago. No one seems to think it’s bad luck, and it appears to fit.
Georgia sits holding her granddaughter, praying that the baby won’t wake up again until the wedding is over, looking down into her perfect face and thinking about how she has never in her whole life seen anything coming, never been able to figure out what was next.
It used to drive her crazy, when she labored under the illusion that she was in control.
Today, she finds that the unknown leaves her with an odd combination of peace and excitement, an unsubstantiated faith that everything will turn out well.
She looks at the little band gathered around the Reverend Weeks. There are four of them—the bride and groom, a friend of Leeza’s who came down to be maid of honor, and Kenny, the best man.
Georgia and Kenny make eye contact.
Solemn as a judge, he winks.
She smiles and wonders what comes next.
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Copyright © 2006 by Howard Owen
ISBN: 978-1-5040-1207-2
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