by Gemma Files
He winced again, caught in another breath, curdled in his throat like a half-choked sob.
“No,” Morrow told him, simply. Then leaned in and kissed him, hard; wound Chess’s arms in his, pressed him back and down, felt him strive against it ’til familiarity took over, one last time . . . that struck tuning-fork tone echoing through both their bodies, opening Chess’s mouth, his legs. Rousing both their cocks like a carnal magic trick and fitting each to each, slick-sliding, stiff and ready to rut.
No, Morrow thought, this is nothing I could feel for a brother. Thank whatever Lord watches over such foolery, above or below.
They went at it with a will, chasing distraction hammer-hard ’til it finally surprised them both, drawing a mutual grunt and holler. And if either might’ve been picturing another at the peak, they knew each other well enough (at this point) to keep that fact a secret.
In the last few seconds before red faded fast to black, however, Morrow realized not only that he still hadn’t told Chess what Geyer’d let slip on Pinkerton, but that Chess—attuned to others’ thoughts though he might be—hadn’t sensed enough of that lingering echo even to ask.
No point in hurrying bad news, he thought, dimly. Always gets there too fast for comfort in the end, no matter what.
Chess, meanwhile, his most immediate hungers well-met, was already snoring.
Eventually, Kees Hosteen’s ghost came to stand a while by the rumpled bed’s side, watching their twined bodies sleep; some time after, he made a stroking motion over rather than through Chess’s curls, as though unable to accurately judge the distance between objects from the real world and wherever he was, no matter how close the one might impinge upon the other.
Then, as the sun began to rise, he bowed his head and let the various parts of him eddy away, leaving no trace behind.
Chapter Thirteen
It took what felt like hours for Yancey to find her way back to sleep, after her dream of Edward Morrow—the shreds of which, even now, flushed her skin hot and pounding—broke with a force that vomited her out into the darkness of her room, shuddering and sweat-soaked under her quilt. When fatigue finally stole back over her, she slid under with the dim thought that at least, with no chores to do, she could lie abed as long as she needed in the morning. But lifelong habit bred betrayal, and with the sun’s first light Yancey found herself wide awake once more, blinking at the room’s ceiling.
She lay still, only half aware of a soft rasping sound she finally identified as Mister Geyer’s snores; the ghost of an ache, more mental than physical, lingered in places she hadn’t realized could pain her. At length, she forced herself to her feet—stepping over Geyer where he lay rolled up in the moth-eaten rug, wadded coat pillowing his head—and went to the washstand to splash tepid water over her face.
The air had that same peculiar stillness as a thousand mornings in the Cold Mountain, making memory seize her throat and eyes like venom. She had to brace herself against the washstand, choking, ’til the burn of it subsided.
Presently, she wiped her eyes clear, wondering if there was some other source of fresh wash-water to be found, since she’d only doffed her boots and stockings for sleep, and her conjured clothes seemed the equal of any more mundane garb for soaking up sweat and dust. On the landing, a window showed a hut out back: obviously a coldhouse, from its planking’s thickness, the heavy tarring in every seam and condensation stains along its base. Beside it—thank Christ—a pump.
Continuing down into the main room, she found Joe behind the bar, recombining what dregs he could save from mostly empty bottles into new ones. “You do know that’s as surefire a way to spread fluxes, coughs and colds as you could ask,” she offered, noting he did at least make an effort to only mix spirits of a similar type.
Joe merely shrugged. “Folks like the all-sorts; crowd here’s pretty rough, and I ain’t got stock to waste. And spirits ain’t so contagious as you’d think. Hunting up a wash, am I right?” Nodding to the left, behind the bar: “Door out back. Screen and a bucket by the coldhouse, you want some privacy.” His mouth skewed oddly, yellow teeth shown in something she couldn’t quite read as a smile. “Anybody you don’t mind joinin’ you, they come a-lookin’?”
The dream slammed back into Yancey’s skull, face erupting with fresh heat, so she took refuge in dignity. “I hope, Mister . . . Joe . . .that you don’t think my current company is any indicator of my nature.”
“Hard to know what to think.” He began putting the newly filled bottles away on the shelves, pushing the empties aside. “Only know I ain’t never seen but one kind of person ride with Chess Pargeter: all monsters, one way or another.”
“Is that so.”
“It is.” He turned to contemplate her straight on. “Man ain’t right,” he continued, voice pitched low, no doubt for self-preservation. “Never was, not even back before, with no hexation in it. I know why that other fella cleaves to him—he’s sotted, same’s the Rev used to be. But you . . . you seem nice.”
Yancey swallowed. “Might be I’m not, though. Ever think of that?”
“Sure. Maybe you’re already broke past the fixin’, I dunno. But—” He sighed, and leaned against the counter. “Gal, I’ve seen a hundred men swear blood-revenge in here, for you-name-it. Half of ’em, it was just bluster over a bottle; half again got bored, or dead, ’fore they ever came near the ones they wanted. But some found who they were lookin’ for, and ended ’em. Men shot, stabbed in the back, throats cut.” His gaze flicked to Yancey’s feet. “Almost where you’re standing, I saw one get his belly sawed open, guts spilled on that floor like offal. Man who did that died himself three weeks later, in a botched robbery up Utah way.”
“If there’s a point to your discourse, I’d be much obliged, you were to arrive at it,” said Yancey, hating the way her voice quavered.
“Point bein’, ma’am—only men I ever saw didn’t come out the worse for takin’ revenge were like Mister Pargeter. The ones who were already as bad as they were gonna get.”
“Think that means you’ve seen me at my worst, Joe?”
Yancey whirled; Joe turned more slowly, his general sallowness now outright sickly. Chess leaned against one side of the doorway, arms folded, hat rakish—and while he too was smiling, the gleam in his eyes presaged nothing good.
“Means I’ve seen enough to know not to cross you,” Joe told him, voice admirably steady, “and that’s why I don’t propose to. So . . . what can I do you for?”
“Nothing. Young Mister Kloves, on the other hand . . .” Though Chess didn’t quite sneer, Yancey felt herself flush, all the same. “I’ll be needing you outside, missy.”
“If I might inquire—for what?”
Without hesitation Chess cross-drew—and tossed his sinister-side gun to Yancey, connecting straightaway with her upflung palm, an instinctually perfect catch. She stared at it, mouth open.
“Heard you might want to learn to shoot, is what,” Chess said, shrugging. “’Cause Joe’s fine words notwithstanding, there are men out there need killin’, and you’ve got as much claim as any to do it. So you may as well learn the trade right.”
“I need to clean up, first.”
Chess inclined his head. “I’ll be waitin’.”
When Yancey came out, hair still damp and clothes clinging, she found Chess lounging against the hob-rail used to tie up mounts, where a score of Joe’s empty bottles had been carefully set up. He raised one eyebrow at the gun in her hand, which she had chosen to carry by the cylinder, rather than gripping the handle. “Christ, gal, don’t you even know how to hold an iron?”
“Why would I have had cause to learn that particular skill, Mister Pargeter?”
Chess snorted. “What fool wouldn’t teach his kin to shoot, out here? A dead fool, that’s who.” At Yancey’s look, he rolled his eyes. “Aw, don’t take on; dead Pa’s the human condition, far as I can see. Ed’s got one—Rook, too. Hell, mine’s probably dead, for that matter.”
“T
he plain fact that you don’t know makes that a singularly useless statement.”
Chess laughed. “Uh huh. Now get over here, and show me what I got to work with.”
As Yancey crossed to his side, Chess took her arm, guiding her to a stance some thirty feet away. “Most fights blow up inside ten yards,” he said, without preamble. “So if you can hit a target this close, you’ll be good for all manner of shindigs. First thing, hold it proper—straight out from your shoulder. Keep it up there, long as you can.” He stepped back, and watched.
Minutes passed; Yancey’s arm began to tremble, but something in Chess’s eyes warned her against relaxing. Finally, he leaned in without warning, grabbing the gun back. She gasped and let her arm fall, rubbing at her wrist.
“Not bad,” he said. “You’d let it drop, I’d’ve pasted you a good one, just to learn you different.” Chess gave her a shrewd look. “Or did you pick up on me planning that?”
“No—I didn’t think to.”
“Maybe you should. You got an advantage. Use it.”
Yancey nodded. “True. But all that was about the gun’s weight, wasn’t it?”
“Get you trained to how heavy it feels—that’s absolutely right.” He touched her arm, causing her to start; fatigue vanished in a greenish flicker. “Ready to go again?” When she nodded, he put the piece back in her hand, turning her toward the bottles. “Now. This here’s Colonel Colt’s 1861 six-shot Navy Revolver, thirty-six calibre, and if you put a ball from it most anywhere in a man it will drop him. Got a kick like a mule and makes an almighty noise, so brace yourself.”
Yancey gritted her teeth, selected the left-most bottle as her target, lined up the barrel’s sight and tried to squeeze the trigger, which took a startling amount of effort; she ground her finger tight, tighter . . . then relaxed, lowered the gun, eased the hammer down, and after a second’s examination found the loading switch that let her break the weapon open. Wordlessly, she held it up before Chess’s face, showing empty chambers.
Chess clapped, sardonic-slow, but his expression was unlike anything she’d seen before—surprise, amusement, genuine pleasure.
“Always,” he said, “always check your weapon. You got no idea how many idjits couldn’t get that through their head, in the War—and believe me, under fire, that don’t pay.” He took the gun back and loaded it for her, deftly practiced, showing off how the cylinder ratcheted as each round socketed home. “I used to pack a loader for speed,” he said, “’fore . . . well, before.” He snapped it shut, slapped it back in Yancey’s hand. “Okay, no more tricks. Go wild.”
Yancey closed her eyes, breathed deep. Then—without giving herself time to think—she raised the gun, sighted, braced herself, and bore down on the trigger with everything she had.
The crack of the shot was louder than anything she’d ever heard, spiking straight through both eardrums like an awl. Wrist on fire, she screamed and staggered back, stench of cordite flattening her lungs. But she kept the gun up somehow, though her arm wavered crazily. And in the second before her eyes squeezed shut, she saw something she hadn’t expected at all—the bottle exploding, a haze of shards.
Chess recoiled slightly himself, more at the scream. But as he straightened he saw the burst bottle, and clapped a hand to Yancey’s shoulder, bracing her ’til she’d got her breath back.
“I suppose,” she managed, ears still ringing, “you’d call that . . . beginner’s luck.”
“Sure. But some beginners are luckier than others.” He stepped back. “Now, let’s try again—without the ruckus.”
By the time the last bottle was disposed of, Yancey’s arms burned equally—Chess had made her practise with both hands, together as well as separately. Her palms felt raw, ears humming tinnily, an acrid cordite stink permanently rooted in her nostrils; the growing heat had plastered her shirt to her back, pulling stickily as she moved. But the gun itself now felt disquietingly familiar. Chess soon stopped reaching ’round to adjust her arms, or pressing clinically upon her waist or shoulder to shift her stance, and the last three or four bottles—some of them not very large—had needed no more than one shot apiece to hit.
Chess pulled his hat off, raking back his hair. “That was . . . halfway decent.”
“Only halfway?”
She’d meant the question honestly, and was startled to see a sudden grin split his beard, white on red. “Hell, Kloves—what’re you doin’, fishin’? I’ve seen blooded veterans couldn’t learn a new firearm quick as you just did.”
Yancey looked down, trying to quash her feelings of absurd flattery, without much success. “It doesn’t seem a . . . demanding weapon, exactly.”
“Yeah, but ‘seem’ is the word makes all the difference.” Chess sobered. “Standing targets on a range is one thing. When the lead starts flyin’, though, that’s somethin’ else entirely, and I’ll tell you this much for free: you got any foolishness in your head about ‘fair fights,’ put it right out, for good. Brawl starts, you’d best be ready to finish it—whatever it takes, fast as you can. ’Cause that’s how it goes, for such as us; womenfolk, I mean. And—”
“—men . . . like you.”
“Oh, I seen flat-out queers far more man-made than myself, missy, believe you me. Killed ’em, too, when they made the mistake of underestimatin’ me just because I have my habits writ large all over. Big don’t mean shit, if you ain’t prepared to either put one wherever’s handy and run, or put one in the head, and walk.”
“Not sure that particular lesson’s going to come as easy as the rest did.”
“Naw, you got the instinct, never fear. Anybody can learn gunplay, but the will to kill? That’s a whole other matter.” He examined her. “Then again, maybe it is that thing you got makes all the difference, after all. Like with me.”
Yancey moistened her lips. “Uther . . .” she began, and swallowed. “He used to say talent was like a poker hand. No matter how good a draw you got, you still had to learn how to play it to make it mean anything.” She held up the gun. “This is yours, like it was forged with you in mind, and no other; I can feel the heft of it, all that time and skill and practice. And that you did all on your own, no matter what else you brought to the table.”
Chess lifted that creepish-lit gaze of his, and fixed her with it. “How long you known what you are, gal?”
Yancey let out a breath, remembering Mala—yet more hurt, older but somehow fresher, a pressed wound. “Most’ve my life, I reckon. Why?”
“Know when I knew?” Without ceremony, Chess pulled his shirttails clear of his belted waist, showing where a scar wormed its way beneath his breastbone like some leprous smile, the whitish-pink of raw haddock. “When Ash Rook pulled my heart out through here and showed it to me, and I didn’t die.”
“That’s when you knew for sure.”
It was out of her mouth before she could think of calling it back, and Chess’s lips thinned at the taste of it. But they both knew it for truth.
“Lesson’s over, for now,” he said, finally. “Have a drink with me.”
“I don’t—”
“You do today.”
More absinthe, naturally. Chess pulled it from his pocket with a mountebank flourish, took a swig and held it out, clearly expecting Yancey to match him. With a sigh, she took a pull, then almost spit the result back out onto the glass a-sparkle at their feet.
“My Lord,” she managed, choking down foul liquorice-moonshine dregs. “This is dreadful stuff! And you prefer it?”
“Got to, eventually. ’Course, there ain’t all too many others ask after this particular swill. So that means whatever stock a place happens to have of it, it’s pretty much mine.”
Yancey took a second shot and coughed, yet kept it down easier, this time; Chess grinned, like he relished the thought of changing her tastes. Perverse as a cat, she thought, knowing he’d pick up on it, and was rewarded by the grin becoming an outright chuckle.
“Strategically thought out, on your part,” she sa
id, at last.
“So take another.”
“Oh, I don’t want to deprive you.”
“What of? I can always make more.”
A near-unassailable argument, though Yancey suspected her faculties were already somewhat disordered. Above, the sun drew high and beat down bright, while wormwood’s mounting poison lent everything around her just the faintest rainbow tinge; “a lucid drunkenness,” some customer had once described the effect, when trying to sell her Pa on the idea of ordering a bottle or two. But given the difficulty of keeping its colour undecayed, not to mention the unlikelihood of cultivating a bohemian clientele in New Mexico’s wilds, he’d ultimately decided against it.
In the distance, she saw a few of Joe’s regulars come wandering out to squint in the noontime heat, while others arrived on foot or by horse, glancing their way only briefly before recognizing Chess, and finding something elsewhere to stare at. A mixture of fear and embarrassment ’cross their faces made Yancey frown; the former she understood, and sympathized with. But the latter?
“Might be they think I’m after what’s inside your pants,” Chess suggested, idly. “Or vice versa, which’d be even funnier.”
“Little do they know.”
“Ha! You got that right.”
They both had a snicker, at the very idea. Yet when he looked at her again, she saw an ever-so-slight softening in his fierce stare—almost apologetic.
“You know,” he said, “Ed might’ve misspoke somewhat, back in the Hoard. Bein’ raised up as whore-get means you don’t see nothing but women the first few years, and for all we’re made to follow after the same meat, I don’t despise your kind, as such—they just ain’t got much use for me, and I mostly return the favour.” He paused. “I did hate one woman, that’s true enough . . . but I loved her a good long time, ’fore I finally figured out she hated me.”