Ruby red
The sun has set
The moon will rise
His time has come
He fills the night with their screams
Of agony and ecstasy
Until they can scream no more
Nor walk in the sun
He tears at their throats
Drinks deep
Bathes long in the ruby red
Of the willing
And the not
He catches them all in his eyes
Lets them drown in them
Holds them under
Until he smells
The stench of the desperate
He tastes and bites and drinks
Running his river of blood
That never runs dry
He kills some and feeds on more
Takes his fill
Ripping at tender flesh
Watches it spark like liquid jewel
Grinning dark
He knows life once more
Star of night
Star of fire
Star of ice
Star of silence
Star of night
In the night sky, only silver should shine
Pure and unpolluted – the most revered of times
But the night can be anything
You want it to be
The stars can show you anything
That you want to see
Hundreds and thousands
Of these tiny, twinkling lights
Trying to hide in the blackness
Trying not to bite
Not to bite and swallow
And feed on the life
The souls that survive on the night
Night brings the chaos
Stars bring the calm
Night gets corrupted
Stars hide the storm
Star of fortune
Star of fate
Star of innocence
Star – too late
A Walk in the Park
The moonlight threw silver
Threads through the dark
What a beautiful night
For a walk in the park
The lake shines so brightly
That reflections are clear
Please don’t blemish this night
With one slow, painful tear
No sound in the air
But the wind in the trees
The birds, they all wait
For the deep, winter freeze
A shriek cracks the calm
A girl screaming ‘PLEASE!’
There is silence again
The plea is forgot
Moonlit calmness returns
Stars like white shot
The lake does seem blacker
Filled with oil or blood
A deader time of night
That’s normal and good
Nothing to disturb the
Tranquillity of dark
It’s a beautiful night
For a walk in the park
Death penalty
In my dreams, I’m dying
And I don’t want to wake
Heaven can take me now
Or let me burn me Hell
And I will not complain
Drowning in guilty seas
Because I killed a man
All the lives I have saved
And I make this mistake
It lies heavy against them
And I can’t even the score
In the night, it haunts me
His broken body’s ghost
Maybe I deserve to die
To lose what I’ve taken
But I always wake up
And find I am punished
I am sentenced to life
Hiding in the night
All around, the cold night air falls
And I’m afraid to break the silence
In these same four walls
The still night surrounds us
There is no escape
So surrender to the darkness
Surrender to fate
And the purpose of the darkness is to drive us all wild
Till I find myself hiding in your arms like a child
And all that’s around us is so cool and still
And it feels like forever tonight
So give yourself to me
Sacrifice your free will
Till everything evil just falls out of sight
In the silence, one heart beats loudly
In the stillness, one soul is not calm
Safe in this one room
The cold does not touch us
And we hear no stories of doom
Lonely is the night-time
But worse is the day
For the darkness conceals the pain
It’s been a long night tonight, too long
Silent and tranquil and dark
And your arms held me strong as dusk deepened to black
Something about this peace time is wrong
Misery
Misery found a friend in me
And now
It’s the only one I can rely on
There used to be others
But they all left
And misery stayed here for me
She is grey and empty
And everywhere
She is in my every breath
And in everything I do
Death is not good enough for misery
She wants life to corrupt
To corrode and decay
My silence is too loud for her
So misery tolls a bell
Misery fills your every space
And soon you forget
There was ever anything else
She’s all I’ve got now
All I’ll ever have
I shall wake
One day
I know
I shall wake from this dream
I shall shake myself from this slumber
Oh, how I wish
I was just sleeping
That I could still be that safe
This is no dream
Still, I shall wake from it
With silent fright
I know
I shall make no sound
Noise escapes me
I am not sleeping
Or breathing
Just dreaming
And
One day, I shall wake
Cheated
What did she tell you and how did she know?
Where have you been?
Did she let you touch her?
Why didn’t she fight?
When did it start and where will it end?
How far and how did it feel?
Where did she take you and what did you do?
When were you winning?
Did you think you could lose?
How did she reach you?
Where did you meet her and when will you leave?
Who knows and who will get hurt?
What did you whisper and what did it mean?
Who made the first move?
How long did it last?
Where did you go?
Why was it her and why was it you?
What was it worth and what did it cost?
Cold night
I cowered alone
In my room that cold night
Mommy was drunk again
And Daddy – he’d cry
I prayed for somebody to care
I wished I had died
In my room that cold night
There were no tears or blood
Just the silence of rage
I tried to tell them it’s not fair
I wanted to stay
In my room that cold night
Away from my parents
The destruction they made
I didn’t have the tears to spare
Everyone dies
In a world where everyone dies
And the air is full of
a million goodbyes
There’s blood on your hands
But you don’t understand
When you can see Armageddon coming
And all you do is keep on running, running
Calling your enemies your friends
Don’t know who to defend
Yet another child gets blown away
A midnight sky promises a darker day
Pray to a God who isn’t there
Learning life isn’t fair
‘Cos everyone dies
Tonight
Breathing space
She can beg for her world to fall away
She can plead for it to be over
While the walls are crashing in
She can listen to them laughing
And saying it’s fine
She can see the child smile without knowing
Or the old woman cry because she does
The last ashes are black and cold
The fire burnt out
And the party, the noise, the craze
People pulling her this way and that
It all fades away
And there is room to breathe
At last
To breathe
To breathe
For the future
You held me tight
Said you’d never let me go
And we ran
Oh, God, we raced
Like there were raving wolves at our feet
Then you looked away
Up to the sky
The past like a ghost in your face
Your face like a ghost in mine
And the future...
The future is our ambition
As we skirt its edges and fall
Forward like a feathery domino
With you still holding me
Clumsy but sure
Like an ape holds a teacup
And I watch you
Watching me
Watching the sky like a searchlight
Austria nights
The trees at my window
So dark and so dense
I wish my angel was here
Without it I’m so tense
I can hear the dark thing
it will hear my heart sing
and I rush to meet it
with open arms I greet it
the blackness is out there
waiting to play
just running and hiding
away from the day
something undefined
shadows designed
target assigned
it fails to break the curtain of dawn
biding hours for night
stalking hunting chasing
on the edge of sight
Torn to shreds
There’s no name for it
No cure for it
No healing
The feeling inside
Only it’s getting out now
And tracking you down
But you run and it always catches you
Always tears you into shreds
And then hungry dogs, mad dogs, rabid dogs
Dogs with too many teeth
Rip you up, rip you down and
Have their way with you.
Fragment
I remember the hero of the dream
Slipping, floating away
With nothing but ‘save me’
For a hero of the dark
Is now nought but a memory
A fragment of a last wish
Forgotten
I remember the hero of the dream
He does not remember me
Unfinished
Even numbers, odd words
Logic and imagination
A head and a heart
And only one can win
The brightest, loudest, fastest
Thoughts
The boldest, angriest, quickest
Beats
All connecting, sparking, flashing
In a head and a heart
That pump and pulse
The black door
If eyes show you everything
Like a door into me
I’ll close it just to save you
All the things you won’t see
Don’t turn away
Don’t forget me
Don’t hold too tight
And don’t forgive me
Can’t remember how it feels
Without you
Lost in the coldness, softness
Beneath darkness
Come swim in the lake
Bathe
Float
Splash in it
Try for the bottom
Beneath dark surfaces
And water so dark and
Darker and deep
It could be should be death
Be careful
Not to drown in it
Not to slip into the sea-glass
And be lost to it
A thankful of time
But you don’t have to stay
By a blank lake
A mirror
That only reflects real things
It chokes
Chokes and clogs and
Pulls you under
Because it will only be happy with you
So swim in the lake
Gasp
Fight
Thrash in it
The last time
I remember what it felt like
To dance in the rain
I remember what it felt like
To sing in the sun
I remember what it felt like
When he called my name
I remember what it felt like
To laugh for the fun
But that was so long ago
I drowned in the ashes
And rose from the flames
Too strong to be restrained
I played and ran and twirled
But that’s not my world
Not now
I remember the last time
My legs let me jump
I think I was touching the sky
I remember the last time
These nerves were alive
I see with my third eye
I remember the last time
This body worked as it should
But that was so long ago
Love and leave
At the edge of tomorrow
And the brink of the end
I’ll say we’re forever
‘Cos I have to pretend
I’ll tell you it’s okay
And I’ll make myself smile
Like the world won’t fall away
If you stay for a while
These chains can be broken
And clocks can be turned
I think this is the price
For the passions we burned
I’ll watch you and hold you
But I can’t live on sparks
So I’ll say we’re forever
As I leave you to the dark
Withdrawal
Oh, I can’t remember
The last time
You hurt me
And I can’t defend her
For what she’s done
And you are the dark need
That creeps through my soul tonight
Consumes me so sweetly
Completely
On, I can’t remember
Kill me and I’ll come back to life
For you
Stab me and I’ll rip out the knife
For you
But I can’t defend her
Long tunnel
There was darkness
And I walked toward it
There was redness
And I turned from it
There was lightness
And it raced toward me
As I raced away
I was standing still
Still racing
Light that longs to expose me
Burning shadow away
The planets are still
Still turning
Into flames that will brand me
Keeping people away
Nothing can be still
Still walking
Towards night that never comes
Hiding darkness away
Let it come for me
And it will eat me
Let me run from it
And it will chase me
Let me stand still for it
And it will stop
As I walk away
Fantasy forever
I dream of a million mirrors
Of broken windows
And open doors
And a mad genie in a jukebox
I dream of a thousand black flames
Of swimming pools
And puddles
And the gypsies that curse them
I dream of a dozen passions
Of shattered pleasures
And promises
And a mad man with a gun
I dream an endless craze
An endless poison
An endless acid
Ashen demons rise up
Paper phantoms wait
Insane angels dance
Endlessly
In perfect harmony
Whisper till it hurts
Said the man with the magic guitar
Scream till it stops
Don’t shout
Never shout
Just breathe the words blue
And make the songs true
Said the man with the magic guitar
Don’t doubt
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