Daisy's back in town lt-1

by Rachel Gibson

  The garage was new, rebuilt since she'd seen it before. The yard surrounding the garage had been cleaned up.

  The old cars towed away. From what she could see the house was exactly the same, though, bringing a memoryof a nice summer breeze lifting her hair and carrying the scent of roses. Of the many nights she'd sat on theporch where she now stood, wedged between Steven and Jack, laughing at their stupid jokes.

  Thunder and lightning boomed and lit up the night sky, shattering the memory. An omen that she should leaveand come back again some other time.

  She wasn't good at confrontation. She wasn't one of those people who liked to face problems head oil. She wasbetter at it than she used to be, but maybe she should have called first. It wasn't polite to just show up onsomeone's doorstep at ten o'clock at night, and she probably looked like a drowned cat.

  Before she'd left her mother's house, she'd made sure her hair was brushed smooth and flipped tinder just belowher shoulders. Her makeup looked perfect and her white blouse and khaki pants pressed. Now she was sure herhair had frizzed, mascara had run, and her pants were splattered with mud from the puddle she'd accidentallydashed through. She turned to go, then forced herself to turn hack. Her appearance wasn't really important, andthere was never going to he a good time for what she had to do. She'd been in town three days already. She hadto talk to Jack. Tonight. She'd put it off long enough. She had to tell him what she'd been keeping from him forfifteen years.

  She raised her hand once more and nearly jumped out of her skin when the wooden door Swung open beforeshe could knock. Through the screen and dark interior, she could make out the outline of a man. His shirt wasmissing, and a light from deep within the house cast a warm golden glow from behind, pouring over his armsand shoulders and halfway down his naked chest. She definitely should have called first.

  "Hello," she began before she could give into her trepidation. "I'm looking for Jackson Parrish."

  "My-my," his voice drawled in the darkness, "ii it isn't Daisy Lee Brooks."

  It had been fifteen years and his voice had changed. It was deeper than the boy she'd known, but she would haverecognized that nasty tone anywhere. No one could pack as much derision into his new him anymore.

  "Hello, Jack."

  "What do you want, Daisy?"

  She stared at him through the screen and shadows, at the outline of the man she'd once known so well. The knotin her stomach pulled tighter. "I wanted to... I need to talk to you. And I-I thought... " She took a deep breathand forced herself to stop stammering. She was thirty-three. So was he. "I wanted to tell you that I was in townbefore you heard it from someone else."

  "Too late." The rain pounded the rooftop and the silence stretched between them. She could feel his gaze on her.

  It touched her face and the front of her yellow rain slicker; and just when she thought he wasn't going to speakagain, he said, "If that's what you came to tell me, you can go now."

  There was more. A lot more. She'd promised Steven that she'd give Jack a letter he'd written a few monthsbefore his death. The letter was in her coat pocket, now she had to tell Jack the truth about what had happenedfifteen years ago, then hand over the letter. "It's important that I talk to you. Please."

  He looked at her for several long moments, then he turned and disappeared into the depths of his house. Hedidn't open the screen for her, but he hadn't slammed the wood door in her face either. He'd made it clear that hewas going to he as difficult as possible. But then, when had he ever made things easy?

  Just as it always had, the screen door squeaked when she opened it. She followed him through the living roomtoward the kitchen. His tall outline disappeared around the corner, but she knew the way.

  The inside of the house smelled of new paint. She got an impression of dark furniture and a big-screentelevision, saw the outline of Mrs. Parrish's piano pushed against one wall-and she wondered briefly how muchhad changed since she'd last walked through the house. The light flipped on as she moved into the kitchen, andit was like stepping into a time warp. She half expected to see Mrs. Parrish standing in front by the almond-colored stove, baking bread or Daisy's favorite snicker-doodle cookies. The green linoleum had the same wornpatch in front of the sink and the counter tops were the same speckled blue and turquoise.

  Jack was in front of the refrigerator, the top half of him hidden behind the open door. His tan fingers werecurled around the chrome handle, and all she could really see of him was the curve of his behind and his longlegs. One pocket of his snug Levi's had a three-corner tear, and the seams looked like they were just about wornthrough.

  Adrenaline rushed through her veins, and she balled her hands into fists to keep them from shaking. Then herose to his full height, and everything seemed to slow, like someone flipped a switch on a movie projector. Heturned as he shut the refrigerator door, and he held a quart of milk in his hand by his thigh. Her attention gotmomentarily stuck on the thin line of dark hair rising from the waistband of his Levi's and circling his navel.

  She lifted her gaze up past the hair on his flat belly and the defined muscles of his chest. If she'd had anylingering doubts, seeing him like this removed them. This was not the boy she'd once known. This wasdefinitely a man.

  She forced herself to look up at his strong chin, the etched how of his tan lips, and into his eyes. She felt theback of her throat go dry. Jack Parrish had always been a good-looking boy, now he was lethal. One lock of histhick hair hung over his forehead and touched his brow. Those light green eyes that she remembered, that hadonce looked at her so full of passion and possession, looked back at her as if he were no more interested inseeing her than a stray dog.

  "Did you come here to stare?"

  She moved farther into the kitchen and shoved tier hands into the pockets of her raincoat. "No, I came to tellyou that I'm in town visiting my mother and sister."

  He raised the milk and drank from the carton, waiting for her to elaborate.

  "I thought you should know."

  His gaze met hers over the carton, then he lowered it. Some things hadn't changed after all. Jack Parrish, badboy and all around hell-raiser, had always been a milk drinker. "What makes you think I give a shit?" he askedand wiped the back of his hand across his mouth.

  "I didn't know if you would. I mean, I did wonder what you'd think, but I wasn't sure." This was so much harderthan she'd envisioned. And what she'd envisioned had been pretty dang hard.

  "Now you don't have to wonder." He pointed with his milk carton toward the other room. "If that's all, there'sthe door."

  "No, that's not all." She looked down at the toes of her boots, the black leather spotted by the rain. "Stevenwanted me to tell you something. He wanted me to tell you that he's sorry about everything." She shook herhead and corrected herself. "No... was sorry, I mean. He's been gone seven months and it's still hard for me toremember him in the past tense. It seems wrong somehow. Like if I do, he never existed." She looked back atJack. His expression hadn't changed. "The flowers you sent were really nice."

  He shrugged and set the milk on the counter. "Penny sent them."

  "Penny?"

  "Penny Colten. Married Leon Kribs. She works for me now."

  "Thank Penny for me." But Penny hadn't sent them and signed his name without his knowledge.

  "Don't make it a big deal."

  She knew how much Steven had once meant to him. "Don't pretend you don't care that he's gone."

  He raised a dark brow. "You forget I tried to kill him.

  "You wouldn't have killed him, Jack."

  No, you're right. I guess you just weren't worth it."

  The conversation was headed in the wrong direction and she had to turn it around. "Don't he ugly."

  "You call this ugly?" He laughed, but not with pleasure. "This is nothing, buttercup. Stick around and I'll showyou how ugly I can get."

  She already knew how ugly Jack could get, but while she might be a coward, she was also as stubborn asragweed. Just as Jack was n
ot the same boy she'd once known, she was not the same girl he'd once knowneither. She'd come to tell him the truth. Finally. Before she could get on with the rest of her life, she had to tellhim about Nathan. It had taken her fifteen years to get to this point, and he could get ugly all he wanted, but hewas going to listen to her.

  A flash of white caught the corner of Daisy's eye a second before a woman entered the kitchen wearing a man'swhite dress shirt.

  "Hey, y'all," the woman said as she moved to stand by Jack.

  He looked down at her. "I told you to stay in bed."

  "I got bored without you."

  Heat crept up Daisy's neck to her cheeks, but she seemed to be the only embarrassed person in the room. Jackhad a girlfriend. Of course he did. He'd always had a girlfriend or two. There had been a time when that wouldhave hurt.

  "Hello, Daisy. I don't know if you remember rue. I'm Gina Brown."

  It didn't hurt any longer, and Daisy was a bit ashamed to admit to herself that what she mostly felt was anoverwhelming relief. She'd come all the way from Seattle to tell him about Nathan, and now all she felt wasrelief. Like an axe had been lifted from her throat. She guessed she was more of a coward than she thought.

  Daisy smiled and moved across the kitchen to offer Gina her hand. "Of course I remember you. We were inAmerican Government together our senior year."

  "Mr. Simmons."

  "That's right."

  "Remember when he tripped over an eraser on the floor?" Gina asked as if she weren't standing there wearingJack's shirt and, Daisy would bet, nothing else.

  "That was so funny. I just about -"

  "What the hell is this?" Jack interrupted. "A damn high school reunion?"

  Both women looked up at him and Gina said, "I was just being polite to your guest."

  "She isn't my guest and she's leaving." He pinned his gaze on Daisy, just as cold and unyielding as when she'dfirst walked in the door.

  "It was nice to see you, Gina," she said.

  "Same."

  "Good night, Jack."

  He shoved his hip into the counter and crossed his arms over his chest.

  "See you two around." She walked back through the dark house and out the door. The rain had stopped and shedodged puddles on her way to her mother's Caddie, parked on the side of the garage. Next time, she woulddefinitely call first.

  Just as she reached for the car door, she felt a hand on her arm whipping her around. She looked up into Jack'sface. Security lights shined down on him and shadowed the angry set of his jaw. His eyes stared into hers - nolonger cold, they were filled with a burning rage.

  "I don't know what you came here looking for, absolution or forgiveness," he said, his drawl more pronouncedthan before. "But you won't find it." He dropped her arm as if he couldn't stand the touch of her.

  "Yes, I know."

  "Good. You stay away from me, Daisy Lee," he said, drawing out the vowels in her name. "You stay away orI'll make your life a misery."

  She looked up into his dark face, at the passion and anger that had not abated in fifteen years.

  "Just stay away," he said one last time before he turned on his bare heels and disappeared into the shadows.

  She knew she would be wise to heed his warning. Too bad she didn't have that option.

  Although he didn't know it yet, neither did he.

  Chapter Two

  Daisy blew into the mug of hot coffee as she raised it to her lips. The sun had yet to rise, and her mother wasstill asleep in her bedroom down the hail. Besides updated appliances, little had changed in her mother'skitchen. The counter tops and floor tiles were the same matching blue, and the same Texas bluebells werepainted on the white cabinets.

  As quiet as possible Daisy slipped into her raincoat, hung by the back door the night before. She threaded onearm then the other through the slicker until it covered her short pajamas. She crammed her feet into her mother'sgarden clogs, then she slipped outside into the deep shadows of early morning. Cool air touched her face andbare legs, and a slight breeze pulled several strands of hair from the claw at the back of her head. The Texas airfilled her lungs and brought a smile to her lips. She didn't know why, or how to explain it, but the air wasdifferent here. It just seemed to settle in her chest and radiate outward. It whispered across her skin andanswered a hidden longing she hadn't even known rested deep in her soul.

  She was home. If only for a short time.

  For fifteen years she'd lived in the Seattle, Washington, area. She'd grown to love it there. She loved the richgreen landscape, the mountains, the bay. Snow skiing. Water skiing. The Mariners. So many things.

  But Daisy Lee was a Texan. In her heart and in her blood. In her DNA, likelier blond hair. Likelier birthmark inthe shape of a little love bite on the top of her left breast. And like her love bite, Lovett hadn't changed in thepast fifteen years. The population had grown by several hundred; there were a few new businesses and one newgrade school. The town had recently added an eighteen-hole golf course and a country club to its landscape, butunlike the rest of the country, and more urban Texas, Lovett still moved at its own laid-back pace.

  Daisy gazed into the shadows of her mother's backyard. The outline of the five-foot windmill, an Annie Oakleystatue, and a dozen or so flamingos were etched in black. Growing up, her mother's taste in exterior decor hadbeen a constant source of embarrassment for her and her younger sister, Lily. Now the parade of flamingosbrought a smile to her lips.

  She took a drink of coffee, then she sat on the top concrete step next to a stone armadillo with several babiesstacked on its back. Daisy hadn't slept well the night before. Her eyes felt puffy and her mind sluggish. Sheshivered and set the mug on her knee. Before she'd seen Jack last night, her plan had been so clear. She'd cometo Lovett, intending to visit with her mother and sister for a few days, then talk to Jack and tell him aboutNathan. All within twelve days. Which, until last night, she'd figured would be plenty of time.

  She'd known it would be difficult, but clear-cut. She and Steven had talked about it before he'd passed. In herpocket, she still had the letter Steven had written before he'd lost the ability to read and write. When he'daccepted that he would die, that there would be no cure for him, no more experimental drugs to take, no moreradical surgeries to try, he'd wanted to make things right with the people he'd felt he'd wronged in his life. Oneof those people was Jack. At first he'd thought to send the letter, but the more the two of them talked about it,the more they'd concluded that it should be delivered in person. By her. Because ultimately, she was the onewho had to deal with Jack Parrish, and she was the one who'd wronged him most.

  They'd never really meant to keep Nathan a secret from him. Her mother knew. So did her sister. Nathan knewtoo. He'd always known that he had a biological father named Jackson who lived in Lovett, Texas. They'd toldhim as soon as he'd been capable of understanding, but he'd never expressed any interest in meeting Jack.

  Steven had always been enough father for him.

  It was time. Perhaps past time that she told Jack he had a son. A moan escaped her lips and she took a sip ofcoffee. A fifteen-year-old son with a pickle green Mohawk, a pierced lip, and so many dog chains hanging offhim he looked liked he'd broken into the animal shelter.

  Nathan had had such a hard time these past two and a half years. When Steven was diagnosed, he'd been givenfive months to live. He'd lasted almost two years, but it hadn't been an easy two years. Watching Steven fight tolive had been hard on her, but it had been hell oil Nathan. And she hated to admit it, but there had been timeswhen she hadn't been at all attentive to her son. Some nights, she hadn't even known he was gone until he'dreturned. He'd walk in the door and she'd scold him for not telling her where he'd gone. He'd look at her throughthose clear blue eyes of his and say, "I told you I was going to Pete's. You said I could." And she'd have toadmit to herself that it was entirely possible that he'd told her, hut she'd been focused on Steven's medication orhis next surgery - or perhaps that had been the day wh
en Steven lost his ability to use a calculator, drive a car,or tie his shoes. Watching her husband struggle to maintain his dignity while trying to recall a simple task he'dbeen performing since he was four or five had been heartbreaking. There were times when she'd simplyforgotten whole blocks of conversations with Nathan.

  The day Nathan had walked in the house with that Mohawk had been a real wake-up call for her. Suddenly, hewas no longer the little boy who played soccer, loved football, and watched "Nickelodeon" curled up on thecouch with his special blanket. It hadn't been the color of his hair that had alarmed her most. It had been the lostlook in his eyes. His empty, lost gaze had shocked her out of the depression and grief she hadn't even knownshe'd fallen into for almost seven months following Steven's passing.

  Steven was gone. She and Nathan would always feel his loss, like a missing part of their souls. He'd been herbest friend and a good man. He'd been a buffer, a comfort, someone who made her life better. Easier. He'd beena loving husband and father.

  She and Nathan would never forget him, but she could not continue to live in the past. She had to live in thepresent and begin to look toward the future. For Nathan, and for herself. But in order for her to move forward,she had to take care of her past. She had to quit hiding from it.

  Fingers of morning sun crept into the backyard and sparkled in the dew-covered lawn. The early sun cast longpatterns in the wet grass, crept up the windmill, and shot sparks off the up of Annie Oakley's silver rifle. Daisywished she had her Nikon and wide-angle lens on her. It was up in her room, and she knew if she ran up to getit, she'd miss the shot and the rising sun. Within seconds, dawn broke over Daisy's feet, legs and face; sheclosed her eyes and soaked it all in.

  Living in the Northwest, Daisy had lost most of her accent, but she'd never lost her love of wide-open spacesand the huge blue sky stretching across the horizon in unbroken lines. She opened her eyes and wished Stevenwere here to see it. He would have loved it as much as she did.

  Daisy looked down at the rubber garden clogs on her feet. She wished for a lot of things. Like more time beforeshe had to confront Jack again. She was in no hurry to see the anger in his face. She'd known that he would notwelcome her back with open arms, but she was surprised that after all of these years, he clearly hated her asmuch as he had the last time she'd seen him.