Tucker stared at her—well, gaped, was more the word for it. “You mean that? You’re not blaming me?”
“Of course not.” She scooted closer, close enough to nudge his shoulder with her own. “He’s going to be okay.” She faked a gruff voice. “So lighten up.”
He shut his eyes, whispered, “Lori…”
Something in his tone made her heartbeat quicken. “Yeah?” She hardly dared to breathe.
He leaned back on the bench, tipped his head up, and looked at the darkening sky above. “I never knew my father. But still, I hated him. I swore I’d never be like him—making kids all over the damn place. And then just walking away. That’s why I’ve been so furious at you, I think. Not because you never managed to track me down and tell me that I had a son. But because the way it turned out, I’m just like my own dad. I got you pregnant. And then I was gone.”
“You didn’t walk away from Brody, Tucker. You had no choice. I gave you none.”
He took his gaze off the sky then, and looked at her squarely. “It all worked out, though, didn’t it?”
“Oh, I’d like to think that it did.”
“Yeah. It did work out. I got away from the Junction. And then I got to choose to come home. And you gave my son a good father while I was gone—a man who really loved you the way you deserve to be loved. A man who took care of you, of both of you, better than I could have at the time. And now, here you are, beside me, and all I can think of is that all that—what you did, what I didn’t do. None of that matters. All I can think is that we should be together, now. That you’re the only woman for me and you always have been. And that, as far as forgiveness goes, well, if you need to hear me say it, I do forgive you. But right now, I can’t see that there’s anything to forgive.” He took her hand once more. “Lori. I love you.”
She felt the tears welling again, and gently swiped them away. “Oh. I’m so glad.”
“Do you remember that first night you and Brody came out to the ranch?”
“Yes. Yes, of course I do.”
“That night, I tried to tell you something—something so important.”
“But I wouldn’t let you. I couldn’t. Not then.”
“Can you let me tell you now?”
She had to swipe more tears away. “Yes. Oh, yes. I can.”
“Lori. That first day you came back to town, when I saw you getting out of that fine silver car, I thought, There. Right there. At last. Now I know the reason I came back to my hometown.” He hooked an arm around her and pulled her close. “You’re the reason, Lori. It’s you. Always. You.”
“Oh, Tucker. I do love you so.”
“Marry me. Move back here, to the Junction—or if you don’t want that, we can—”
She touched his mouth again. “Shh. I’d love to move back home and live at the ranch with you and Brody. That works for me. And my sister will plan our wedding. How else could it be? And I’m thinking that I want to go back to school, get a business degree. But these days, you can do that online, so that should be no problem at all.” She beamed up at him. “Kiss me. Do it now.”
He chuckled. “You haven’t said yes yet.”
“Oh, Tucker. I’ve been saying yes for weeks now. And finally. At last. You are hearing me.” She twined her arms around his neck and lifted her mouth.
And he kissed her. A kiss of passion and commitment. Of love and forgiveness. A kiss rich with the promise of all the days to come—their days, together. At last.
Which Child is Mine
By
Karen Rose Smith
Karen Rose Smith grew up in Pennsylvania’s Susquehanna Valley and still lives a stone’s throw away. She visited several vineyards in the area to develop a setting for Which Child Is Mine? She hopes readers enjoy the taste of her home state. They can write to her at PO Box 1545, Hanover, PA 17331, USA or e-mail her through her website at www.karenrosesmith.com.
Look for Karen Rose Smith’s new novel,
The Midwife’s Glass Slipper, in May 2010.
I wish to thank Pennsylvania vintners John G Kramb
of Adams County Winery and John A Nordberg
of Laurel Mountain Vineyard and Winery, who
so patiently answered my research questions.
Prologue
As Chase Remmington held his wife’s hand and coached her through another contraction, adrenaline rushed through him, feeding his excitement and concern over Fran. In scrubs with a cap pulled over his brown hair, he was sweating, although the January ice storm was freezing everything in sight outside. Driving to the community hospital not far from Washington, D.C.’s boundaries had been downright dangerous. Although this hospital had been closer to their home and seemed friendly when they’d attended parenting classes, now Chase wished he had taken Fran to a bigger facility. There wasn’t enough staff here tonight, and O.B. was overcrowded with women who’d probably come to the hospital in the early stages of labor afraid the weather would keep them homebound later.
The labor and delivery unit was so overcrowded, two women in labor lay on beds in the hall. Fran was sharing this room with a younger woman who looked to be in her early twenties. Only one nurse was tending to the two women because of the shortage of help. Before that nurse had closed the curtain between the two beds, Chase had gotten a glimpse of the younger woman. No one was with her. Chase couldn’t imagine letting a woman go through this alone. From his vantage point of thirty-five, she seemed too young to be having a baby…too young for the responsibilities a child would bring. He and Fran had wanted their baby, but even he was awed by the monumental immensities of parenting.
Fran’s obstetrician rushed into the room. Dr. Fenneker was a harried-looking woman tonight, with ashblond hair straggling from under her scrub cap and tortoiseshell glasses perched high on her nose. As Dr. Fenneker examined Fran, the nurse who had been guiding the other patient through her breathing and contractions called from behind the curtain at Chase’s back, “This baby’s crowning!”
“This one is, too. You’re going to have to deliver Mrs. Kendall,” Dr. Fenneker returned.
The nurse threw back the curtain between the beds and her voice was shaky. “Are you sure I have to do the delivery? Dr. Singer said he’d be in—”
“Dr. Singer is delivering twins down in two. You can do this. If Fran gives me two good pushes and gets this baby out, I’ll help you.”
“I have to push!” Mrs. Kendall announced in a strained voice.
Chase heard the fear, but concentrated on Fran’s frantic squeeze of his hand. “Easy,” he whispered to her.
“The baby’s coming,” the nurse called.
“So is this one,” Dr. Fenneker muttered in a wry tone from the foot of Fran’s bed. “Do what you were taught. I’ll be over as soon as I can.”
Just then Fran let out a piercing cry and pushed with all her might.
Chase could almost feel her pain and just wanted it over.
Seconds later, Dr. Fenneker was easing the baby from Fran’s body. “You have a little girl,” she announced triumphantly.
Love overwhelmed Chase for both his wife and the child…his daughter.
“This one’s a girl, too,” the nurse at the second bed said shakily, as both women suctioned and cleaned the babies, then clamped the umbilical cords.
Bending toward Fran, Chase murmured everything he was feeling.
After the doctor cut the umbilical cord, she laid their baby on a cart at the foot of both beds beside Mrs. Kendall’s new daughter. Then she helped Fran deliver the afterbirth.
Suddenly the lights flickered, and the delivery room as well as the hall went dark.
Gripping his wife’s hand, Chase assured her, “It’s all right. The lights will be back on in a minute. Certainly there’s a backup generator.”
There was a shout from the hall. “The generator’s not taking over. We’re checking it.”
Both babies were wailing now, and as the nurse and doctor moved about the room, Chase heard the cart swi
vel at the foot of the bed.
A moment later, he noticed Fran’s hand growing clammy.
Leaning down to her, he asked, “Fran?”
The nurse switched on a battery-powered light, setting it on the counter. Dr. Fenneker was attending to Mrs. Kendall. There were no lights from monitors now…no reassuring beeps.
In the shadows, Chase tried to find his baby daughter. The nurse was standing at the cart, and he couldn’t see the babies. Seconds later she brought their daughter to them and nestled her into Fran’s arm.
But Fran didn’t say anything. In the eerie shadows, Chase knew something was wrong.
“Doctor? Doctor Fenneker? Check my wife.”
The lights flashed on again.
Immediately, Chase spotted how pale Fran had become. Then he saw the tremendous amount of blood on the sheet.
At Chase’s call, the doctor rushed over from Mrs. Kendall’s bed.
Then chaos reigned.
Chapter One
Chase Remmington didn’t even blink at twists of fate in his life anymore. He’d had enough for three lifetimes. This last one, though, was more life-shattering than any that had gone before.
As he approached the park, his long stride quickened and his suit coat flapped with the breeze. His jacket hadn’t been quite adequate for a Pennsylvania winter, but here in Florida it was entirely too warm, even in mid-February.
When his gaze settled on the mother and child in the Daytona Beach park, his attention became riveted on them, and nothing else mattered. Although most of his focus zoomed in on the three-year-old little girl who could be his biological daughter, he couldn’t help but notice Jillian Kendall, too—the woman who had delivered a baby the same night as Fran had…in the same room. A few moments of confusion and chaos had connected their lives in a way neither of them ever could have imagined.
Chase had never been a master at handling people. Fran had understood and accepted that. More than once she’d told him he was far too blunt, but usually with a smile that said she admired that quality. Now, however, he knew he had to handle Jillian Kendall with kid gloves when all he wanted to do was return to Marianne and make sure her condition hadn’t worsened, sit beside her and read her stories that usually made her eyes sparkle.
With another glance at Jillian Kendall, he noticed how her chestnut hair glimmered with red strands in the sunlight, how her face was even more beautiful three years after the birth of her daughter. He’d only had a glimpse of her that night. But he’d remembered her.
Or maybe he saw her face in Marianne’s every time the little girl smiled.
Jillian was smiling now. She pushed her daughter in the child’s swing. From his private investigator’s report he knew she’d named her little girl Abby. Abby. His daughter…
Jillian seemed surprised when Chase approached her, cutting across the grass in a direct path from the sidewalk. But she didn’t appear wary, which told him she was either naive or confident enough to handle whatever situation came her way.
After a heart-filling look at Abby—her shoulderlength, wavy, dark-brown hair and bangs, her dark eyes—his gaze collided with Jillian’s. “Mrs. Kendall?”
Her green gaze asked a hundred questions as she answered, “Yes, I’m Jillian Kendall.”
He knew she was a widow now, and that could make things simpler. “My name’s Chase Remmington, and I’m here on business that concerns you and your daughter.”
Though her hands were already on the child swing, she took a step closer to it. “What kind of business?”
First of all, he wanted to assure her he didn’t mean her any harm—at least not physically. “I flew in from Pennsylvania this morning. I manage a vineyard there, Willow Creek Estates. When I arrived at your town house, you weren’t there and a neighbor told me you often come to the park with your daughter. I needed to find you as quickly as possible.”
Her expression more puzzled than anything else now, Jillian asked, “Why?”
The midday sun was beating down on them. Even in February it felt blazing hot. Abby was getting restless in the swing. Brown waves of hair bounced around her face, and the fine bangs blew in the breeze as she looked up at her mom and asked in a little above a whisper that Chase strained to hear, “I’m hungwy. Can we go home now?”
Jillian’s attention was instantly on her daughter, and she went around to the front of the swing. “We’ll go home right now.” Whisking Abby from the seat, she held her in her arms.
The three-year-old poked a finger into her mouth, laid her head against her mom’s shoulder and eyed Chase shyly.
Chase desperately wanted to hold her, to get to know her and to find out if she was really his daughter. Yet another part of him didn’t want to know at all. He didn’t want his bond with Marianne tampered with. But it was going to be. Big time.
Dressed in a blue-flowered knit top and jeans, Jillian’s clothes fit her in a way that Chase couldn’t help but notice. It had been a long time since he had taken note of what a woman wore.
“Since your daughter’s hungry and the sun’s hot, maybe we could go back to your place and discuss this.” He’d take them to lunch, but he didn’t want to spill his news in a public place.
As Jillian settled Abby into the stroller that sat not too far from the swing, her face was hidden by her hair. She straightened then, and her gaze met his squarely. “I’m not letting you near my house until you tell me what business we have to discuss. I’ve never been to Pennsylvania or heard of Willow Creek Estates.”
Chase knew Jillian Kendall was an event planner. She was obviously poised and assertive and everything a young woman was supposed to be these days. Unfortunately, he knew he had to drop his bomb before she’d let him into her life.
“We’ve met before, Jillian. Not officially. My wife delivered a baby the same night you did. In the same room.”
Jillian’s green eyes went wide. “In D.C.?”
“Yes. I’m not surprised you don’t remember me. You were in labor, and they pulled the curtain between the beds for part of the time. Do you remember what happened afterward? The deliveries so close together? And the blackout?”
“Yes, of course I remember. And then your wife—”
“She hemorrhaged,” Chase said bluntly. “They lost her in the operating room.”
“I’m so terribly sorry.”
He could see that Jillian was.
Abby babbled to a toy dog she held snug in her arms.
Not wanting to dwell on what had happened to Fran, he explained simply, “I think a mistake was made that night. I think our daughters were switched. I believe Abby is my daughter. And my daughter, Marianne, is yours.”
Jillian’s heart-shaped face went pale. “That can’t be! The nurse put a bracelet on Abby.”
“I think the nurse put the wrong bracelets on the babies. We need to talk about this someplace private.”
Jillian Kendall looked absolutely stricken. He watched denial, then panic and fear play over her face as she realized what he suspected might be true.
Suddenly Abby was jiggling the stroller, kicking her legs and motioning to her mom. “Go home, Mommy. Bow-Wow’s hungwy, too.”
Jillian placed her hand on her daughter’s head. “Okay, Bitsy-bug. We’re going home.”
For some illogical reason Chase wanted to put his arms around Jillian Kendall. Yet he knew that was crazy. Instead, much more practically, he tried to distance himself a little. “Mrs. Kendall…”
“It’s Jillian,” she said in a low voice. “Let’s go back to my place and I’ll fix something for lunch. After I get Abby settled, you can tell me everything you have to tell me. But you’d better have more than a wispy idea about this supposed mistake.”
“I do have more,” he said brusquely.
With a last look at him, Jillian took the stroller in hand and started to push her daughter home.
Jillian was shaking as she watched Abby run to the kitchen, ready for lunch. This man was crazy. Mistaken. He had t
o be wrong about everything that had happened. But he didn’t look crazy or mistaken or sound wrong. He looked…
He looked as if he were in command of the whole world. Tall, broad-shouldered with tobacco-brown eyes that were even darker brown than his hair, he definitely looked out of place in her duplex with its flowers, chintz cushions, homey framed prints and porcelain vases. She’d taught Abby what to touch and what not to touch. She’d taught Abby—
Tears came to Jillian’s eyes as she headed to the kitchen after Abby. There, she scooped her into her arms, lifting her to the sink to wash her hands. She didn’t give a whit if Chase Remmington thought she was an awful hostess. She needed space from him, and she needed to be close to her daughter. She needed time to absorb the possibility that he was bringing her a truth she didn’t want to face.
However, Chase Remmington wasn’t going to give her time or space. All of a sudden, he was there, in her blue-and-yellow gingham kitchen, pulling out the chair with the booster seat as if he had done it a thousand times before.
After drying Abby’s hands, Jillian lifted her daughter to the seat. Abby usually babbled a mile a minute, but when a stranger was present, shyness took over. It usually didn’t last for long, though.
“I’m used to doing this,” he said with a remnant of a smile.
She knew they had to talk. She knew they had to straighten this out. But every time she looked at him, her heart fluttered faster. Her pulse raced. Heat flooded her cheeks. With an attempt to stay reasonably calm, she told herself the whole situation was playing havoc with her nervous system.
Stepping away from him, she went to the refrigerator and opened it, staring inside. But she didn’t see a thing.
“Mommy, mommy. I’m a lot hungwy. Bow-Wow is, too.” Bow-Wow sat on the table as ready as she was. “I want chicken and juice.”
Jillian tried to swallow the lump in her throat, but couldn’t seem to speak around it.
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