“And he came and went, you said.” Arthit is on the hassock with his notebook positioned in front of him on the glass-topped table. He’s made half a page of notes.
“He’d usually stay a month or so,” Rose says. “Then he’d be gone for a while and come back.”
“How long between visits?”
“Maybe three months, maybe more.” She squints into the past. “Maybe less. It’s hard to say. I hadn’t been in Bangkok long. Everything was new to me. Some weeks felt like months, some months felt like days. I was fighting for my life in the bar, trying to figure out how to tell friends from enemies, trying to get over being terrified all the time. I wasn’t keeping track of anything, just trying to get through the nights.”
“Don’t think about that one for a minute,” Arthit says. “Maybe it’ll come. When did you first see him?”
Rose rubs her upper arms as though she’s cold, although the living-room temperature is into the eighties. “A few weeks after I got here. I know that because it was near my birthday. I got here in July, and my birthday is in September.”
“That’s how many years ago?”
“Thirteen.” She glances at Rafferty. “No. Fourteen. I’ve been with Poke five years.”
“So he came into the bar,” Arthit prompts.
“I don’t want to talk about that. I mean, I do, but I need to explain things to Poke and Miaow, not just answer questions like this.”
“Fine,” Arthit says. “Can you remember anything he said about himself? What he did, where he went when he left here, anything like that?”
“He told me he came from England.”
“He’s American,” Rafferty and Miaow correct her, almost in unison.
Rose straightens, looking from one of them to the other. “I know,” she says. “I didn’t know then that there was a part of America called England.”
“There isn’t,” Miaow says. It’s nearly a snap.
“New England?” Arthit asks.
Rose nods but doesn’t speak. She’s gazing at Miaow, who’s searching for something in her own lap. Finally Rose says, “Yes. New England. Someplace with a V. I remember that because he laughed at the way I pronounced it. I said”—her face clears for a moment as she remembers—“Wermont. I called it Wermont.”
“Like wampire,” Arthit says. “Thais say wampire.”
“Like that,” Rose says, the animation fading from her face. “Wermont.” She makes a knot out of her fingers. “Wampire.”
“When he was here for these—what?—one-month stays . . .”
“Something like that. Sometimes longer.”
“Did he ever leave the country for a short time, a few days, and come back? Would we find multiple entries in immigration?”
“No,” Rose says.
“Here a month or more, every time. No need to go back to wherever he earned his living. You’re sure.”
“I’m sure,” Rose says, and buries the lower half of her face in her coffee cup.
“How?” Arthit asks.
Rose looks at Miaow and then lets her eyes slide to the floor. “Because I was with him.”
“The whole time?”
“Yes. He paid the bar fine for a month in advance every time,” she says.
Arthit makes a note, but Rafferty recognizes it as just something to do, a way of masking his discomfort. Rafferty, who is standing beside the kitchen counter, goes into the kitchen and tops up his cup, which is still full. He doesn’t want to go back into the living room. What he wants to do is leave the apartment, go out into the oven of the day, find Howard Horner, and kill him. Kill the other one—what was his name?—John. Kill John, too.
But he breathes several times all the way to the depth of his belly and goes back in. Instead of stopping at the counter, he goes to the couch and sits next to Rose. Puts a hand on the smooth warmth of her thigh. Rose doesn’t seem to notice.
“Why is this important?” he asks Arthit. “Whether he came and went, I mean.”
“It’s a pattern,” Arthit says. “It feels military, or quasi-military. So many months on, a month off.”
“Either he’s military or he was,” Rafferty says. “All you have to do is see him walk.”
“Rose stabbed his hand,” Miaow says suddenly. “He didn’t even pull it back. You know, when you touch something hot, the way you yank your hand back? He didn’t do that. He just left the hand there, like he was waiting for her to stab it again.” Her voice is higher and younger than usual.
“It was a display,” Rafferty said. “It was a macho, four-testicle display. Like that old bullshit about holding your hand over the fire. ‘I’ve got more testosterone in the cleft in my manly chin than you have in your entire body.’ ”
“It isn’t something many men could do,” Rose says. “It might be a display, but you should take it seriously, Poke.”
“Yeah, Rose?” Rafferty’s voice is more truculent than he would like it to be. “What’s it supposed to tell me?”
“That you can break his bones but he’ll keep coming at you. You’re not going to win a fight with Howard, because he won’t stop until you’re dead.”
Rafferty says, “We’ll see.”
“Poke,” Rose begins, but she lets the energy fizzle out and shakes her head.
“So,” Rafferty says to Arthit, around the ball of heat in his chest. “Can you talk to immigration?”
“Sure I can,” Arthit says. “Whether they’ll answer me is another issue. What do you want from them?”
“Confirmation that Howard Horner is his name. A photo, if they keep the ones those cute little cameras take at passport control. What he lists as his occupation. Where his flights originate. How often he comes. Whether he’s left.”
Miaow says, “Left?”
“We were wrong last night,” Rafferty says. “He could find the apartment. But he didn’t do any real harm, did he? Assuming that he meant to. You could knock that door over with a blunt remark, but he didn’t come in and kill anyone. Maybe that would have been too easy. Or maybe he didn’t have time to play with us. Maybe he had to leave the country, go wherever the hell he goes. So he buys a can of paint and he and his jerk friend paint the X on the door just to make us sweat, and then they go and get their plane. Maybe hoping we’ll move by the time he gets back and he can have the fun of finding us all over again.”
Arthit says, “Maybe he already knew where you lived. Maybe he spotted Rose months ago and followed her here, did a little research, maybe paid a cop. Maybe the meeting in the café was part of his game.”
Rose says, “And maybe he’s down in the street right now, enjoying the fact that he frightened us. Maybe he’ll be back tonight. This is what he does. He plays with people before he— Before.”
Miaow gets up as though she has somewhere to go and then sits down again.
“I can request all that information from immigration,” Arthit says. “They won’t have today’s records. If he left today, that’ll still be in the computers. And I can show that bird’s claw around, see if it means anything to anybody,” There’s a drag of unwillingness in his voice. “And I know this feels serious to you. To all of you. But you’re making this guy sound like a maniac.”
“A what?” Rose says in Thai.
Arthit translates.
Rose says, “That’s what he is, Arthit. A maniac.”
ARTHIT HAS GONE back to the station to start asking questions, and Miaow has retired to her room with her copy of The Tempest to work on her lines and, Rafferty thinks, to get out of whatever room Rose is in. The pressure of the silence in the apartment chases him out of it, and it’s almost noon when he comes back up from a short random wander, capped by a stop at the sidewalk restaurant a block away to pick up everyone’s favorite food, a gesture that feels futile even before he’s paid for it. He finds Rose sitting out on the balcony with the door open behind her, smoking and looking at the city.
He puts the take-out containers on the kitchen counter and goes to the
balcony door. “Are you hungry? It’s a thousand degrees out here.”
“I’m Thai,” Rose says without turning. “This is how it is in Thailand.”
“That doesn’t mean it’s not hot.”
“So it should be cooler? Has the climate made a mistake?”
“Sorry?”
“It’s hot,” Rose says. “That’s how it is. Life isn’t fair sometimes either. That doesn’t mean that it’s supposed to be or not supposed to be. That’s just how it is.”
“You don’t believe that.”
“I do. You’d believe it, too, if you hadn’t grown up with all those choices.” Her back still to him, she lifts a hand and starts ticking off fingers. “ ‘Let’s see, shall I go to college or run away to Asia and try to find my father? Or write books? Or live here? Or there? Or get married? Or adopt a daughter? Or do it all at once?’ ”
“That’s not what it felt like when it was happening.”
“Not to you. It wouldn’t. You have no idea how privileged you were. You could choose this or that, and it wouldn’t matter much if you chose wrong. ‘Uh-oh, better go back and give it another try.’ Nobody pulled you out of school at harvest every year so you could help raise the kids and work in the fields. Nobody was waiting for you to earn money so they could keep their house or feed your brothers and sisters.”
“Poor little farm girl,” he says. “Are you done?”
“I don’t know. I don’t even know why I started. My own daughter is hiding from me.”
“That’s not like the heat,” Rafferty says. “That’s something you can do something about.”
“Maybe.”
Impatience crests inside him. “Of course it is.”
She starts to says something, then shakes her head and says, “Leave me alone.”
“Fine.” He steps back into the room. “If you get hungry, come in and eat.”
She says, “Close the door.”
He slides the door closed, with a little more force than required, and stalks down the hall to Miaow’s room. She has the frowny face out, just a rectangle of shirt cardboard that features an unhappy-looking, crayon-scrabbled roundhead, traced around a pie tin. The other side, the smiley face, means come in, and this side doesn’t. Rafferty hasn’t seen either face in almost a year. He thought she’d thrown them away a long time ago.
He hesitates and then knocks.
“Go away,” Miaow says.
“That’s what everybody says. I’m lonely.”
“Ohhhh, phoo. Just a minute.”
He waits, and a moment later he hears the door unlock, and Miaow pulls it open about four inches and looks up at him. “What?”
“Are you hungry? I brought back some larb kai, extra spicy.”
She pulls her mouth to one side. “What else?”
“Vietnamese spring rolls, the ones you like, that aren’t cooked, with mint and shrimp in them.”
“Coke?”
Rafferty draws a breath to slow himself down before he replies. “You mean, did I buy Coke or is there some Coke left?”
“I don’t know,” she says. “I just want Coke.”
“Then you’ll probably get some. Seems to me you usually get what you want.”
“Boy,” she says. “Everybody’s really awful today.”
Rafferty says, “I hadn’t noticed.”
Chapter 5
Those Are Pearls That Were His Eyes
Full fathom five thy father lies,’ ” Miaow says. She’s mumbling a little, embarrassed to speak the lines in this small apartment living room. In rehearsal at school, when she’s on the big stage, she belts it to the back row.
“What’s a fathom, Mia?” Mrs. Shin asks. As always, it takes Rafferty a beat to realize that “Mia” is Miaow. His child has been reincarnated while he was busy elsewhere.
“About six feet,” Miaow says, with a sideways glance that stops just short of Rafferty, who had asked her what a fathom was in the taxi on the ride across town and then provided the answer. “So he’s thirty feet underwater. Pretty deep.”
“His bones are becoming what?” Mrs. Shin asks.
“Coral,” Miaow says immediately. The corners of her mouth lift as she gets to the line she likes best. “And his eyes are pearls.” She waves the words away with her hands. “I mean, ‘And those are pearls that were his eyes.’ ”
“No ‘and,’ ” Rafferty says. Neither of them gives him a glance.
Mrs. Shin leans forward. “Can you envision that, Mia?”
“Yes,” Miaow says, her own eyes drifting past Mrs. Shin. “I see white sand with flickery ripple light on it, light coming through water, and the king lying there on his back all alone with a gold crown on and pearl eyes, and he’s holding one of those sticks with a jewel on the top.”
“A scepter?” Rafferty guesses.
“One of those. And he’s turning into something sort of fishy. Not fishy, oceany.”
“Exactly,” Mrs. Shin says. “A ‘sea-change.’ It’s a wonderful speech, isn’t it? We’re going to give you a special light when you say it.”
Miaow’s eyes come back to the teacher’s. “Special like what?”
“You’ll cross all the way downstage, to the edge of the orchestra pit, and you’re going to look down as though you’re seeing him through the water. We’ll have a blue-green spotlight aimed up at you.”
“How will you make it watery?” Rafferty asks, interested in spite of his preoccupation with Rose and Horner.
“We’ll shine it up through a big round glass baking dish, Pyrex because of the heat, with about three inches of water and food coloring in it, and the kid who’s holding it will slosh it around a little.”
Miaow says, “Cool,” which is one of the many words that’s followed her home from school lately.
“I thought of it yesterday,” Mrs. Shin says. She picks up her teacup and glances down at it. “A sea change.” To Rafferty, she says, “Mia has some of the best lines in the play.”
“Yes, and I get to hear them over and over.”
“More tea?” Her cup is empty.
“No thanks. It’s great, but I’m topped up.” Rafferty loathes tea but has forced down two cups to be polite. He has drunk more tea in the six weeks he’s been condensing The Tempest with Mrs. Shin than in his entire life before they met.
“More Coke, Mia?”
“No.” Miaow feels the force of Rafferty’s glance and corrects herself. “No thanks.”
“It’s a surprise to see Mia, but I’m glad you brought her,” Mrs. Shin says, standing and bending down to pick up her teacup. This is one of their regular Sunday rewrite meetings, where Rafferty proposes ways to condense and simplify and Mrs. Shin thinks of something better. His first inclination was to cancel today’s session, but it gave him a chance to get out of the apartment. When he’d invited Miaow, hoping to help her shake her mood, she’d actually jumped into the air. He’d meant the invitation to demonstrate that life was going on in spite of everything, but to Miaow it was mainly about getting away from Rose for a while.
“She wouldn’t let me come without her,” he says truthfully.
“Well, I’m happy she’s here. She’s a lucky girl, having a father who’s a famous writer.”
“Huh,” Miaow says.
Rafferty says, “Not so famous.”
As always, they’re seated on the beige carpet in Mrs. Shin’s living room, around a little black-lacquered table, inset with mother-of-pearl, that’s about ten inches high and is almost the only piece of furniture in the room. Floor sitting is a trial for Rafferty, but Miaow can stay cross-legged forever, just one more benefit, he thinks, of being ten, or maybe eleven, years old.
Mrs. Shin goes to the counter that divides the kitchen from the living room and puts her cup in front of an electric hot-water pot. “I don’t know about you,” she says as hot water streams into the cup, “but I feel as though I’ve been through a sort of sea change myself, little bits of me getting less Korean and more Thai every year.
”
“How many years have you been here?”
“Twelve.” She picks up the cup and inhales the fragrance, a brisk, trim, short-haired woman in her late thirties or early forties, wearing a brightly striped blouse in hard-candy hues, tucked into fawn-colored slacks. “And you?”
“Six,” he says. “I’m becoming Thai by marriage.”
“That’s a good way to do it,” Mrs. Shin says. “Twenty-four-hour tutoring. And you’re becoming Thai through fatherhood, too, of course.”
“That goes without saying,” Rafferty says.
Miaow says, “Does not.”
“When I first got here,” Mrs. Shin says, “I was only supposed to stay a year, and for the first three or four weeks I thought I wouldn’t make it. I hated it. Everything was so different from Korea. Bangkok felt like a mess—more than a mess, it felt like complete chaos. The traffic, the heat, the noise, the dirt.” She shakes her head. “And I was dripping sweat, waking up with a headache from the exhaust, and wondering why everybody smiled all the time. I was suspicious. What did they want from me? After eight or nine days, I noticed that the muscles in my cheeks ached a little because I was smiling back at everybody. So that was the beginning of my sea change—sore cheek muscles.”
“Mine was a keen awareness that my teeth weren’t very good.”
“Your teeth are fine,” she says without a glance. It’s a very Thai response. She sips her tea and looks down at Miaow. “And the people, they . . . Well, from a Korean perspective the Thais are a little . . . haphazard.”
“We are?” Miaow says.
“From a Korean perspective.” Mrs. Shin emphasizes the words. “Koreans tend to be highly organized. We’re planners and list makers. Not particularly spontaneous, unless we’ve been drinking, and then we’re too spontaneous. The Thais, on the other hand, sort of flow.” She sees the confusion in Miaow’s face and laughs. “Don’t worry, I’m not saying anything bad about the Thais. It’s actually about me, and it has to do with the play.” She crosses the small room again, barefoot, as are Rafferty and Miaow. One of the things Rafferty loves about Asia is how close everyone is to being barefoot all the time. When the two of them came into the apartment, they kicked off their shoes beside a plumb-straight line of Mrs. Shin’s, just inside the door, and the backs of all the shoes were flattened, stepped on repeatedly to make them easier to slip on and off. After all his years in Asia, the sight still cheers him.
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