“Where to, boss?”
“My parents; hurry.” My gut was in knots as he sped through the streets and I stared out the window without seeing anything. Inside I was a mass of confusion. I didn’t know how to make this right.
The only thing I knew for sure is that I wasn’t letting her go. The thought of her alive in this world, living away from me, having an existence that did not include me, was like death.
I all but broke down the door to mom’s house when I arrived. She met me on the landing and tried to stop me. “Where is she?” She put her hand on my chest to hold me back and I’m ashamed to say I almost pushed my own mother to the ground.
“Mom, where is Alexandra?” I’ve never raised my voice to her before and I could see the shock resonated in her eyes. She pointed up the stairs, “She’s in your old room. Poor thing I couldn’t console her.”
I took the stairs two at a time and busted through the door. Even before I was fully inside, I heard her tears. I stopped short at the sight before me. She was curled up on the bed with her face buried in a pillow I hadn’t lain my head on in years.
I went to her and climbed into bed behind her. “Why are you crying like this?” Stupid fucking question Solomon. She didn’t answer me and I didn’t expect her to. “Look at me Alexandra.” I had to turn her over myself. Her face was ravaged by tears, her eyes already swollen and red.
I wrapped my arms around her and squeezed. “I’m sorry you had to hear that that way, but I promise you this changes nothing.” She cried even harder, as if my words had fallen on deaf ears. “Let’s go it’s time to go home. We need to talk.”
“I’m not going, I’m staying here.” She stiffened her little body against me and tried to pull away. “The hell you are. You’re not staying here. Your place is with me, come.” I had a lot to say but not here. Alone, where I could reassure her of what she meant to me.
I lifted her from the bed and walked past my mother who was standing in the doorway wringing her hands with worry. “I’ll take care of her mom don’t worry.” She was listless in my arms, silent tears rolling down her cheeks. Each one twisted the dagger in my heart deeper.
16
Solomon
Outside, I climbed into the car with her still held firmly in my arms. I held her all the way home while she sat staring into space with an empty look in her eyes. I shook her to snap her out of it but she wouldn’t even look at me. She was pissed. Pissed, but I think more hurt than anything.
“Don’t do this, baby. I promise, I’ll make it right, just give me some time.” Nothing. My bright cheerful girl was gone and in her place was this shell that had neither voice nor will. I took her straight to my room once we reached the house and instructed the servants to leave once dinner was prepared.
“Is Ms. Alexandra ill? Maybe I should stay and look after her.” Betty, one of the maids that had been with us the longest had always taken an interest in my girl. She was the one more often than not, who’d been here with her if I was running late on the odd evening.
“That won’t be necessary. I’ll see to her myself.” I looked back at her on the bed exactly where I’d left her. Once everyone was gone, I went to her, climbing into bed behind her so I could draw her back into my arms.
“I know you’re mad and hurt; but I promise you I will make this up to you. You have nothing to fear. I will not leave you; not for any reason, please believe me. I told you; you belong to me. I take care of my own always.” I was rambling, looking for the right thing, that one thing that would bring her back.
“The baby belongs to you too. You’ll have a family with her. Where does that leave me?” Her voice had no life but at least she was talking again. “I will take care of the child when it comes, but I won’t lose you to do it. Now please stop crying you’re breaking my heart.”
“How can you say that? I know you remember? You took me in, took care of me. How can you do any less for your own son or daughter?” Her body shook with sobs and I held her tighter, wishing with every second that I had spared her this. But how could I have known this shit was going to hit me out of left field?
I still hadn’t had time to process the news that I was going to be a dad, and until I fixed the hurt to her heart I wasn’t thinking about fuck else. “I don’t have all the answers but this much I know; you and I will never be over. I will never let you go. You can take that to the grave.”
She hiccupped and pulled my arm tighter around her. “I’m scared Solomon, you don’t know Jessica.” I wasn’t quite sure what she meant by that but I wasn’t interested in finding out right now. Fuck Jessica.
“Don’t be afraid. No force on earth will take you from me. As for Jessica…” She clamped her hands over her ears like a two year old.
“Stop that, and listen to me.” I pulled her hand away and lifted her chin with my finger. “If this is true, then we’re going to have to talk about her. She’s going to be part of our lives…” I was about to say in one way or the other but before I could finish this one got to her knees with a look of fire in her eyes.
“I won’t share you, I won’t stand by and watch you marry her either. I’m leaving…” She moved to get off the bed and I grabbed her to my chest. She tried pulling out of my arms but I held her tighter.
“No you’re not. I won’t let you. I want your word right now that you won’t try to run away. I almost died when I couldn’t find you tonight; don’t put me through that hell again. I said I’ll make it right and I will. Now stop this.” I turned her face to mine and studied her eyes.
So sad-so bruised. My heart ached for her. “Trust me with your heart. I will never hurt you or allow anyone or anything to bring you harm. The baby was made before you and I became a couple. I can’t go back and change it.” As I said the words, I remembered the feeling I’d got the first time I took her; like I’d shared part of the essence of my soul with her. Like I’d planted my seed in her.
I kept talking, telling her what I thought she needed to hear. Telling her my truth. I don’t give a fuck if Jessica has twins I won’t leave her. I wasn’t too happy with myself for being so fucking careless. I’d always gone out of my way to make sure this shit never happened. In all these years it never has, so why the fuck now?
It didn’t matter. It didn’t change a thing. Like everything else in my life, I will take control of the situation and see that everything came out right. Jessica might get her feelings hurt once she realized that I wasn’t planning on having a life with her because of the baby, but that’s something she’ll have to deal with on her own.
I’d promised the young girl in my arms to take care of her. I’d lain with her, taken her virginity. All of that added to who she was to me, what she meant to my life, meant I wouldn’t hurt her for the world. Not even for my own blood. What a fucking mess.
“You don’t have anymore kids running around out there do you?” There was life in her voice again. I’d gotten through to her after all.
“No miss smarty pants. But I plan to make lots of babies with you; starting now.” Her tension eased and she looked up at me with a little less sadness in her eyes.
“I love you.” Her eyes widened on mine. She’d said the words more than once but this was the first time I’d ever said them out loud. Her eyes softened with fresh tears and her lips trembled. “Really?”
“Never doubt.” I lifted her chin with my finger and held her eyes with mine as I lowered my lips to hers.
She didn’t deny me, didn’t resist, and the soft kiss I meant to offer as comfort, became an inferno as she wrapped her arms around me desperately. I rolled over on top of her, crushing her into the bed. My hands moved around between us and made quick work of removing her clothes before straddling her to remove my own. She showed more life as she sat up and joined me, dragging my zipper down and releasing my cock.
“Oh…fuck!” She wrapped her lips around my cock and sucked me into the back of her throat with a few inches to spare. There was a kind of desperation to
her movements and I understood when I felt the tears drip onto my flesh. “Shh, shh, shh, come here.” I pulled my dick out of her mouth and pulled her into my arms.
“You don’t have to do anything to win my love, you already have it. Look at me. Jessica will never take me away from you. Her child will never take me away from you. Nothing will. You’re mine; always.” She studied my eyes for the truth and finally found what she needed there.
She pulled my head down to hers and spread her legs open in a silent command for me to come to her. I sucked gently on her tongue and slipped into her soft heat gently. She wasn’t ready for me. I hadn’t given her my mouth so her pussy was extra tight around my cock.
I teased one nipple with my thumb while suckling the other, holding still inside her until her body softened and her pussy got wet. Only then did I allow myself to move inside her.
She clutched at me as if afraid I’d disappear and I wrapped her up in my arms until I could feel all of her pressed against me. “I’ll never leave you, never give this up, no matter what.” I made love to her the way she needed me to, the only way I knew to heal her heart.
Slowly, gently, tenderly, all the while whispering to her of my great admiration. “I love your ass, the way it fits in my hands. Your perfect tits that make me drool, and this…” I plunged into her pussy, going deep. “So deep.”
“Give me a baby Solomon.” My eyes went to hers. Even though I suspected I’d already bred her, the words made my cock grow an extra inch inside her. “Do you know what you’re saying?” She nodded her head shyly and moved on my cock.
“My pleasure.”
I lifted her perfect ass in my hands and fucked into her until the tip of my cock slammed into her cervix. Pulling out again, I took her nipple between my teeth and bit down while slamming past her cervix and into her womb. I wanted the pain in her nipple to distract from the one my dick would most definitely cause deep inside her.
She howled and her body contracted beneath mine. I didn’t apologize; my woman needs to be able to take me, whenever, however, wherever. Once the pain eased the tears ended and she fucked up at me. Her eyes never left mine. She seduced me with their light even as I fucked her.
Every once in a while she’d whisper those words in my ear and my cock would spit pre-cum, deep inside her. ‘Breed me Solomon’.
She was doing that shit on purpose and to great affect. Pretty soon I didn’t need the words, the urge in me was strong. Now it was me growling into her ear just how I was going to breed her every chance I get. I came harder than I ever had in my fucking life.
Her pussy grew extra tight and it was then I realized I had my hands around her throat and was choking her through her orgasm. The sweet pull of her cunt made my cock stay hard and my balls were already filling again, so I stayed buried inside her. Enjoying the spasms of her pussy as she came continuously.
We rolled around on the bed in a wild fuck the likes of which we hadn’t shared so far. It was as if we were both trying to erase the day’s events. I felt a slight pang in my heart because I knew it wasn’t over. Knew that the next few months were going to be hard on her. If having her own child would help ease the pain then I would gladly breed her as often as she liked. As long as it’s what’s best for her.
Her hands moved desperately over my back and chest as I surged into her, our eyes once again locked.
“I will tie you to this bed and fuck you every hour on the hour until I give you what you want.” It wasn’t long before I was shooting off inside her again. I left my cock buried deep and kissed her long and hard as the last drop of my seed dripped inside her.
“Just in case it didn’t work that time.” I pulled out and threw her to her hands and knees immediately.
I sank into her open pink pussy until my balls slapped against her ass. “Arch your back baby.” I knew that was the only way to ease the pain and pressure of taking my cock so deep in this position.
“That’s it baby, good girl. Now fuck yourself on my cock, make me cum. I’m going to cum in you all night. You’re bound to be bred by morning.” She pulled off of my length until just my tip was left inside her, before twisting her ass and moving back down my shaft until her ass hit my lower stomach. Once there she did some kind of roll dance thing with her ass that made her pussy do amazing things to my cock.
She did that shit over and over again before I got tired of her teasing shit and took over. I grabbed her hips in my hands and pulled her back hard on my cock. She’d started a fire in me, one that now burned out of control. I don’t think I would ever fuck her again without the thought of breeding her in my head.
By the time I’d fucked her the fourth time with her riding my cock at the end, it was full dark outside. We were both sweaty, and out of breath, but I noticed that the shadows had disappeared from her eyes. “Hungry?” She shook her head against my chest.
“Let’s not move. Let’s stay here like this all night.” I leaned down to kiss her hair and put my arms around her more securely. “I like the idea of going to sleep with my scent in you, on you.” I pulled her up higher until our lips met before settling her on my chest again.
Neither of us said anything for the longest while, both seemingly lost in our own thoughts. “Promise me you’ll let me give you lots of babies Alexandra.”
“As many as you want.” She rubbed my chest.
“Good girl.”
I wasn’t hungry either so we both laid there in silence, the day finally catching up to us as we drifted off.
17
Solomon
I was extremely over protective of her for the next couple of days. I took her to school in the mornings and picked her up in the evenings. She refused to let me out of her sight when we were together, and when she had to go to school and me work she called me every time she got the chance.
I’d gone to see Jessica the day after her big announcement. It was a necessary evil but not one I was looking forward to. I still wasn’t sure how I felt about the child and I hate to say it but I hadn’t really given much thought to the baby. It didn’t seem real yet.
Alexandra was pissed that I was going to be in the same room with my ex and it took some doing to calm her high-strung ass down. I understood her completely though, especially when she posed the question of what I would do if the tables were turned.
I damn near choked the life out of her for asking me that shit, and the hard fuck that followed put that shit right out of her head. I’m thinking she knew not to even suggest such a thing to me ever again. In fact, it took a solid day of constant fucking to get the picture out of my head and the bad taste from my mouth.
Once she realized what that shit did to me, she decided to torture me with it. If I thought for a second she was serious about that shit I’d really tie her to my bed and never let her see the light of day again. Since that shit was all kinds of fucking illegal, I satisfied myself with fucking her into submission. There was no more talk about it. She was too busy screaming from getting her sore pussy soothed by my tongue.
I had to keep her pussy stuffed because when we weren’t fucking or I wasn’t pleasuring her with my tongue, she was fretting about Jessica and the baby. The more time went on though, the more her old assertiveness came back. Once she accepted that I wasn’t going to leave her for the child, she relaxed and went back to her shit. Trying to run me.
It looks like I was going to be spending the next nine months caught between a hellion and a she witch. Jessica had already started making demands, none of which I planned to give into. She seemed to have it all planned out without asking my opinion. I don’t know what world she was living in, but it was as if in her mind the baby wiped clean all the shit I hated about her. Fat fucking chance.
I had no doubt that I would love my kid when he or she was born but I had to stop her before she embarrassed herself. “I’m not planning to hold your hand through this pregnancy, unless there’s some kind of emergency of course. I’ve moved on. By the time you told me you were
pregnant we were already long over. I don’t get why you think that that’s going to change.”
“You’ll come around. I know how much you love kids. Look at how well you’ve taken care of your little ward all these years.” I wanted to wipe that smirk off her face. And why did I get the feeling she was playing me? I didn’t let on to any of the thoughts that were running through my head, but I did make sure there was no question of us becoming an item again.
“Whatever you have going on in that head of yours, I suggest you forget it. I have someone in my life already, I’ve moved on.” She acted as though my words went in one ear and out the other, which was fine. She could do whatever the fuck she wants it wasn’t going to change a damn thing for me.
Even mom had raised the question of whether or not I was going to marry Jessica and give the kid my name. Like me fucking myself over was going to be any good for the kid. She wouldn’t be the first single mother in the world and it wasn’t like I wasn’t going to take care of my kid. I just didn’t plan on having anything to do with the mother.
I won’t hurt Alexandra, and she’s made it pretty clear that the less interaction I had with Jessica the better. Since she was already raw from the pregnancy, I was bending over backwards to please her. So I told Jessica in no uncertain terms that the phone calls at all hours weren’t going to fly. She’s been ringing my phone off the hook, which was making Alexandra rabid.
You’ve not seen anything like a teenage girl in a rage while riding your dick. Come to think of it, some of our best fucks came after one of Jessica’s calls. Maybe I should rethink my stance on that. Then again, nah, I don’t need the fucking aggravation. Plus I didn’t like her being hurt. It was to the point where she tensed up every time the phone rang.
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