A command to move never registered, but suddenly West was across the room, the guy's neck in his hand. He seethed with fury and aggression, his words lashing like a whip. "You're an asshole." He slammed the guy into the bank of lockers. "You don't talk about her like that. Ever."
Hazel eyes bugged out and air wheezed from a throat close to closing up shop.
"He's sorry, man. We're sorry," the friend rushed out. "We didn't know she was yours. Let him go, okay?"
"Let him go," Jase echoed, now at West's side. "Ending the life of a fool isn't on your schedule."
He was panting, West realized, as if he'd just run a ball up and down the field for several hours. Any second, he would snap, and there would be no stopping him until it was too late.
Can't let that happen. Not around Jase.
West gave a final squeeze before unlocking his fingers and stepping back. The offenders raced out the door, practically leaving skid marks in their wake. Predatory instincts surfaced, the urge to give chase almost too strong to ignore.
"I know you want Jessie Kay," Jase said softly. "I know you wish you didn't. You need to go out with her or forget her, because you can't go on like this. I see that now."
He saw it, too, but he couldn't go out with her and there was no way he could forget her.
Still he said, "I'll clean up, dry out." Recovery terms. One hundred percent accurate in this case. "You have my word."
This behavior wasn't good for him, and it certainly wasn't like him. He was the one who thought everything through, who planned the beginning from the end before ever acting. But it was her, Jessie Kay; she was to blame for his uncustomary outburst. Months of looking at her, sparring with her and fantasizing about her without ever actually touching her had finally destroyed the calm outer shell he'd cultivated while living with his mom.
He remembered the day he'd learned it was better to hide his emotions than share them. He'd made the egregious mistake of telling his mom about Sam, and she'd cried for days, shooting up more than usual until finally overdosing. At five years old, he'd tried to give her CPR. He'd seen people on TV do it--the wrong way, it turned out. When he'd failed to revive her, he'd banged on his neighbor's door, begging for help.
He'd helped all right. By calling 911 and social services. West was taken away for the very first time.
"We can't afford trouble with the law," Jase reminded him. "Especially this kind of trouble."
"I know. Don't worry about me. Seriously." West's hands curled into fists. "I'm just jacked on adrenaline because of the game."
Disbelief shadowed Jase's features, but he said, "Maybe you should take a breather and sit out the first half."
"I'd rather eat nails. The field is the only place I can legally kick ass."
"Just make sure the asses you kick don't have to be carried away on stretchers."
Those tits were spectacular.
West laughed without humor. "I can't make any promises."
CHAPTER THREE
JESSIE KAY SAT in the bleachers, embarrassingly awed. West was a warrior of old and the arena was his battlefield, his body his weapon. And what a weapon it was.
He owned the ball. When someone else had it, he took it. When he had it and someone tried to steal it, he knocked that someone into a wall with a full-on slam. He threw insults, elbows and knees like they were confetti.
Tomorrow, the members of Team Ball Buster would feel as if they'd tangled with an F5 tornado and lost, guaran-dang-teed.
It--was--hawt. West was hawt.
Jessie Kay's gaze remained glued to him. Sweat glistened on his bronzed skin, and blood trickled from several cuts he'd sustained. The injuries only made him sexier. She wanted to kiss him all better. With tongue.
Dang. The future of her new good-girl status looked pretty bleak right about now.
He shoved someone else into the wall, a loud thud echoing, and she sighed dreamily.
Harlow gasped with concern. "Butter my butt and call me a biscuit. This sport is brutal. It's making my stomach churn."
"Churn with happiness, right?" Brutal equaled awesome.
"Would I need a vomit bag for happiness?"
"Not likely."
"Then no, not happiness. Beck has such a violent past. I'm nervous this kind of aggression will lead to flashbacks and nightmares."
Jessie Kay knew the guy had grown up in foster care, same as West and Jase, and that not all the homes had been safe havens. "Beck doesn't look traumatized out there, honey. He looks as thrilled as a bull with teats."
Harlow rolled her eyes. "A bull would not be thrilled with teats."
"How do you know? A guy with boobs would be over the moon. Anyway. You mentioned Beck's past. What do you know about West's?" Subtle, Jessie Kay, subtle.
"About as much as you do, I'm thinking. Which means not a whole lot."
Well, crap.
Her phone buzzed, and she checked the screen. Sunny Effing Day.
Got a line on party of the century 2nite. U in??
She didn't have to think about her response.
No thanks, but tell me all about it in the morning :-) :-)
Sunny: Girl, U know there's a big chance I won't even remember the deets, right??
Yeah. And that was one of the bigger problems for Jessie Kay. She hated remembering the things she'd done, but she hated not remembering the things she'd done even more.
"So, uh, what do you think of him?" she asked Harlow. "West, I mean."
Harlow's gaze sharpened on her. "Well, he's certainly a charming devil, isn't he? Why?"
She ignored the question, saying, "Of course you'd think he's charming. He's nice to you."
"He is, which is probably why I think he's smart, driven and witty. And handsome. And strong. I love his dedication to Beck and Jase."
"But?"
"But...sometimes he can stand in a full beam of light and I still think he's surrounded by darkness."
Yes! That! "I thought I was the only one who'd noticed." She'd often wondered if something bad had happened to him as a kid. Something more than the bits and pieces she'd gleaned over the months. Orphaned at a young age. The death of a girlfriend. A lost scholarship. "I bet this kind of aggression is cathartic for him. And Beck. Because this conversation does not revolve around West. I bet brutal field play would be cathartic for me. Hey! Maybe we should start a team of our own."
"No way, no how."
Excitement filled her, and she clapped her hands. "We'll call ourselves Victorious Secret and our motto will be 'We Live to Spank You.' Duuude. Yes! I'm basically the smartest person in the world. Ever. You in? Of course you're in. Practice begins tomorrow."
"I'm out." Harlow shuddered with horror. "I have zero desire to be tossed around like some kind of meat bag just because I have possession of a ball anyone can buy at any sporting-goods store for less than twenty dollars."
"Puss! You were the town bully for years. Where is your predator spirit?"
"In my pants," she deadpanned, "where Beck likes to visit."
Yeah. Okay. The fact that Jessie Kay hadn't gotten any since the Jase/Beck debacle could maybe possibly definitely for sure begin to explain her desire to attack strangers and bask in their misery, perhaps even dance in their blood. That and the fear that she not only sucked as a person, she sucked as a lover. Why else would so many guys ditch her so fast?
Throughout her life, she'd had too many hookups and too few relationships, nothing ever lasting more than a few weeks. And more often than not--or, you know, every time--it had been the guy who'd left her, not the other way around.
Why was she such a failure? What made her so unworthy of more?
Her winning personality should only ever seal a deal.
Like Daniel said, he'd had the time of his life during their dates, laughing with her--not at her--until he pulled a muscle. And yet, he'd still let her go. And after him, she'd gone out with Dorian Oliver, a childhood friend of Beck's who lost his wife to cancer years before. He hoped to f
ind love again, and honestly, he'd seemed really into her, always making excuses to get his hands on her.
You cold?
But after only three dates, all of which had ended with a passionate kiss at her door, he'd pulled the plug.
A good thing, actually.
According to Momma, a girl shouldn't give her pearls to pigs. Dorian was as far from pig-like as possible--a sweetheart who treated her with nothing but respect and kindness--but the message fit all the same. If she didn't have a future with a guy, why waste her precious time? Especially considering she'd wasted so much already.
She was twenty-seven years old and the dreaded thirty was creeping up on her like an insidious disease. Or the worst thing on the planet--a spider. Did she have a single prospect? No! Because the only guy capable of eliciting a lasting response in her was a bastard of the highest order some days, most days, and a charmer without equal the others. Again, a charmer to everyone but her for reasons he'd never had the courtesy to share with her. Not that it mattered...even though he could melt her panties with only a glance.
The next piece of beefcake she welcomed into her bed would like the crap out of her, figuratively speaking, and that was that.
You outshine the sun, Anna Grace. There's nothing about you I would change.
Her father's words to her mother only solidified her vow. Jessie Kay's next man wouldn't set a timer on their relationship, like some people she knew. He would fight tooth and nail to stay with her, no matter what.
Basically, the relationship equivalent of West and his soccer ball.
Her phone buzzed again, and when she checked the screen, a smile bloomed. Since her run-in with Daniel earlier in the week, they'd stayed in constant contact.
Daniel: Come over tonight. We'll eat SpaghettiOs, my fave. Just for the privilege of your company, I'm willing to watch The Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother or New Girl
Her: You know what would be cool??? If those 3 shows were combined. How I Banged the New Girl Before I Met Your Mother :-) :-) :-)
Daniel: OK. You owe me a new phone. I just spit coffee all over this one
Her: Consider it the price you pay for being friends w/such a "sass mouth" (as Mom used to say) and too bad for you, I'm hanging w/ my girls 2night
Daniel: Pencil me in soon. Pleeease (look at me, willing to beg)
Her: We'll see!
Daniel: Since I'm not getting sex from you, I'm only in this friendship for the fun, remember?
Her: Fine. I'll consider giving you a few minutes of JK time tomorrow--but I'll hear your thanks NOW
Daniel: Someone needs to spank your ass...but thank you
She so did not want to be buoyed by his eagerness to spend time with her, but dang it, she was. Maybe she should try dating him again--
No. No! No second chances in the romance department. Ever.
Build a house on sand, and the first storm that comes along will topple it. Build on a firm foundation, and the house will withstand anything.
She would give anything for just one more conversation with her mom. Just one more hug.
The crowd erupted into bloodthirsty cheers, jolting her from her thoughts, and she glanced up in time to watch another member of Ball Busters hit the wall, impact so strong it even shook the bleachers. As the guy slipped to the floor, he left a smear of crimson behind. Through it, Jessie Kay met West's stare.
She saw hunger...such gnawing hunger...
He gave her a look so raw and carnal, she felt stripped of every piece of clothing in less than a second. That look said he couldn't go a minute more without having her in his bed. That he would suffocate without her. That she'd become the center of his world--his gravity.
It was a lie. A nasty, nasty lie.
Or she was only seeing what she wanted to see. A problem of hers.
Even still, goose bumps broke out over her skin and fire blazed in her veins. Savage, sexy beast. Gimme.
Before she did something stupid--like throw what was left of her panties at him--she buffed her nails.
"Hey, Jessie Kay, Harlow. I finally made it."
She turned to see Brook Lynn climbing the bleachers and sighed with relief. Her sister had always been her saving grace.
The blonde, blue-eyed beauty had rescued Jessie Kay from certain disaster so many times over the years, she'd earned a JK life-preserver badge. If the little darling hadn't become the mother they'd lost, despite being two years younger, Jessie Kay would have ended up on the streets...and oh, crap. Guilt gnawed on her soul. Guilt like she hadn't felt in years--because she hadn't let herself feel it, numbed by keggers and "romance."
She was the worst sister ever. She'd destroyed Brook Lynn's entire world. She was the worst daughter ever. She'd escorted her mother to death's door, rung the bell and ran away. She'd insulted her father hours before he died and, and, and--
She focused on that, the least horrendous of her crimes, hoping to stop the panic attack in its tracks. And for a moment it worked, the arena disappearing, replaced by the kitchen walls of her childhood home--the home she still lived in--morning sunlight shining through the large bay window.
"Go change out of those shorts and into something appropriate," her father demanded.
"But Daddy--"
"You're still a child, Jessie Kay. My baby girl. You shouldn't wear skintight pants with the word naughty scripted over your backside."
"I'm not a child! I'm--"
"No argument. Just action."
She stomped her foot. "Sunny has a pair just like them, and her dad thinks they're cool."
"He isn't your dad. Go change."
"Well, I wish he was my dad!" she shouted. "I like him better."
She raced to her room, and a short while later Daddy left for work...but he'd never come home.
A manager at Dairyland, he'd been speaking to one of his engineers about a broken machine. A machine that exploded, killing them along with half the workforce.
He'd died thinking she wanted a different father.
"Hey, hey. You okay?" Soft hands cupped her cheeks.
Jessie Kay blinked and found her sister sitting beside her, familiar features darkened with concern. "I'm fine." She gave her sister a big ol' bear hug, and she probably held on far too long, probably clung far too tight, but dang it, she loved the girl. "Just thinking about Daddy," she said when she pulled away, careful to articulate her words.
Brook Lynn was born with a severe case of hyperacusis--a condition that caused her to hear even the quietest everyday noises at a screaming volume--forcing her to wear bulky devices in both ears to muffle and even mute sounds.
"We've talked about this." Brook Lynn gave her cheeks a firm pat. "Do I really need to give you another lecture?"
Parents and children fight. That's part of life. You and Dad exchanged heated words, get over it. You both walked away knowing you were loved.
Brook Lynn hadn't witnessed the fight, and Jessie Kay hadn't wanted to spill the details, but she'd done it anyway. Panic attacks had been a way of life for her back then, and her sister deserved to know one of the many reasons why.
"No. I remember the last twenty thousand."
"Good." Brook Lynn nodded. "Now tell me what I missed game-wise."
The soccer game. A life raft. "West has tried to murder everyone on the field, and Jase has guarded the goal as if it's your virtue.
"In other words," Brook Lynn said with a grin, "we're winning."
Exactly. "So how'd the fitting go?"
"You mean the modern-day torture session I willingly signed up for? Well, if you ever decide you'd like to acquire a few body-image issues, just gain a few pounds before trying to zip your wedding gown and watch the seamstress's horrified expression in the mirror."
No one insults my sis--but me. "So you've gained a few pounds. So what? You've done Jase a favor. You've given him more of you to love."
Harlow snorted. "While your logic is impeccable--"
"I know, right? You're welcome, Jase," Jess
ie Kay shouted to the field.
He didn't hear her over the cheers and boos rising from the crowd, but somehow West did and he frowned over at her. The distraction cost him. He'd been waiting for the ball to cross the centerline, and when it did, he missed it, for the first time allowing a member of the other team to soar past him, heading for the goal.
Oops.
"--going to have a pity party, invitation one, if yesterday's brownies...and this morning's cupcakes...ruin my wedding gown," Harlow finished.
Jessie Kay barely paid attention to her friend, mumbling, "You're getting married this freaking weekend. The only thing you need to worry about is the death of your dating life."
"Before Beck, I had no dating life. My scars--"
"Are hideous. We know, you've told us." She watched as West jumped back into the fray, slamming his big, delicious body into the guy who had his ball. "We love you, anyway."
When the final buzzer sounded, the Goal Scouts won four to zero.
Her takeaway? Mercy didn't exist in soccer.
Knowing the boys had to shower and change, she and the girls made their way to the lobby to wait. The Ball Busters emerged first, each man making an obvious point to avoid her gaze as he passed her.
Had she become total dog food since the game kicked off?
"Jase," Brook Lynn squealed, rushing over when her fiance stepped into the room, his hair damp and his skin scrubbed clean. "You were freaking awesome."
He winked at her. "You know I can't help that."
"Hey. That's my line." Beck shouldered his way past his friend to get to Harlow. "We're going out to celebrate our victory. Tell me you're coming with us, love, or you'll break the heart you resurrected."
Harlow smiled sweetly at him. "Are you paying?"
Sweat beaded on Jessie Kay's palms as West moved into view, his gaze hard and steady on the exit, as if he couldn't wait to leave. He wore a black cashmere sweater and an old pair of jeans tucked into well-used combat boots. He was casual sophistication with a mule kick of dominant alpha, and he outshone every other man present.
"I'm not paying," Beck said, and Harlow pouted. "But West is."
Harlow--Jessie Kay's ride--fist pumped.
West arched a dark brow. "I am?"
"Well, then, we're definitely going." Harlow nudged Jessie Kay with an elbow. "Right?"
A free meal? "Sure. Count me in."
West motioned to the door with a clipped wave and she thought--hoped--he would put his hand on the small of her back to usher her forward. But as they walked to the parking lot, he maintained a steady distance between them. Of course, Jase decided to drive Brook Lynn's car and Beck decided to drive Harlow's, the two couples entering their respective vehicles and leaving Jessie Kay and West standing outside. Alone.
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