The Emotional Wound Thesaurus: A Writer's Guide to Psychological Trauma

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by Becca Puglisi


  Pulling back from relationships to avoid letting people in (and being hurt by them)

  Overreacting and sensitivity; feeling deeply wounded even by the smallest offense

  Crying easily

  Laughing off slights or smaller humiliations in hopes of de-escalating a bad situation

  Daydreaming and escapism via books, TV, movies, video games, or writing

  Self-medicating to cope (using drugs, alcohol, or food)

  Being meticulous with one’s appearance to try and fit in

  Watching others to see how they behave; emulating them to avoid being targeted

  Cutting and other self-destructive behaviors

  Suicidal thoughts or attempts

  Difficulty eating and sleeping

  Not taking care of oneself due to depression

  Bullying weaker individuals as a form of release or a means of gaining control

  Being hypersensitive to fairness (and unfairness)

  Avoiding social media and closing down one’s accounts

  Downplaying exceptionalities and passions that might make one a target, such as academic success, a love for Dungeons and Dragons, or one’s passion for and knowledge of trains

  Befriending animals or seeking solace in nature

  Seeking friendships with “safe people,” like those who are much younger or outcasts themselves

  Being deeply moved by small kindnesses or gestures by peers (due to their infrequency)

  Engaging in positive self-talk in an effort to find the strength to face everyday situations

  Recognizing that the bully is the one who has problems and not oneself

  Finding a group to be part of that focuses on friendship and belonging rather than judgment

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Cautious, cooperative, independent, industrious, introverted, just, kind, loyal, mature, nature-focused, nurturing, obedient, private, proactive, protective, resourceful

  Flaws: Addictive, antisocial, confrontational, cynical, defensive, gullible, hostile, hypocritical, insecure, needy, nervous, self-destructive, subservient, suspicious, uncommunicative

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Running into a bully from the past, or witnessing another person being mistreated

  Hearing about a victim of bullying who has committed suicide

  Revisiting a location or circumstance that reminds one of past bullying experiences

  Being mistreated on a smaller scale (e.g., a friend coercing one to do something one doesn’t want to do)

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Being bullied in one’s adult workplace or within the community after suffering it as a child

  Being in an abusive relationship and realizing that one is allowing the pattern of mistreatment to continue

  Seeing signs in one’s child that he or she is being bullied and wanting to intervene

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  BEING FALSELY ACCUSED OF A CRIME

  EXAMPLES: It hurts to be accused of something when one is innocent. It’s even more devastating when the allegation involves a crime that could result in a humiliating investigation, one’s reputation being dragged through the mud, family being impacted, and possible jail time. This can happen with a false accusation of most crimes, including…

  Homicide

  Sexual harassment of an employee

  Discrimination at work

  Child or spousal abuse

  Sexual abuse (of a student, neighbor, one’s child, etc.)

  Theft

  Corruption (misappropriating funds, bribes, abuse of power, law-breaking, etc.)

  Blackmail

  Kidnapping

  Vandalizing school or neighborhood property

  Dealing drugs

  Prostitution

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Safety and security, love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  I’ll never be able to clear my name.

  Even though I was found innocent, people will always wonder about me.

  To avoid any hint of wrongdoing, I have to be perfect.

  No one will trust me.

  This now defines me.

  Because of this stain on my reputation, I have to give up my dream (or public office, my career, etc.).

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  New people finding out about the accusation

  Family members being mistreated because of what happened

  Not being believed

  Being falsely accused again of something else

  Being rejected due to the accusation

  People who hold positions of power and control

  Betrayal by someone they trust

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Hiding the incident

  Instructing loved ones to keep it a secret

  Making a change to start anew, like switching careers, moving, or attending a different synagogue

  Prejudice toward the kind of person who made the accusation

  Limiting interactions by pulling back from friends and social groups or avoiding new people

  Becoming defensive at the slightest provocation and feeling one must explain oneself

  Needing to immediately address even the smallest of misunderstandings

  Avoiding situations where jealousy could result

  Getting upset if friends joke and misrepresent the truth about one’s involvement in anything

  Becoming a people pleaser

  Being very loyal to those who stood by one during the accusation

  Keeping thorough records in case one is accused of something again

  Following the letter of the law out of fear

  Having a martyr complex

  Adopting a defeatist attitude

  Advocating for oneself out of the belief that no one else will

  Avoiding scenarios that could lead to a false presumption of guilt (being alone with a student, traveling with a co-worker, etc.)

  Being highly attuned to unfairness and injustice

  Always believing others—even to a fault—because one doesn’t want them to feel the way one did when the accusation was made

  Standing up for others who have been falsely accused

  Needing proof beyond a shadow of a doubt before accusing someone of wrongdoing

  Showing appreciation to those who helped clear one’s name

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Appreciative, bold, cautious, centered, cooperative, courteous, diplomatic, discreet, easygoing, honest, honorable, independent, just, kind, obedient, private, proper, tolerant, wise

  Flaws: Catty, confrontational, cynical, defensive, dishonest, hostile, humorless, insecure, martyr, nervous, oversensitive, perfectionist, pessimistic, temperamental, uncooperative, withdrawn

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Seeing one’s accuser prosper without any consequence for what he or she did

  Losing a friendship over the false accusation

  Being falsely accused of something else, even something small or inconsequential

  People who gossip or jump to conclusions about others (in one’s social circle, at church, etc.)

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  Being punished for the accusation (not getting a promotion, being transferred to a different school, etc.) even though one was acquitted, and needing to choose whether to take it or fight the injustice

  After years spent trying to hide from the past, the accusation surfaces again, and one decides to stop running and seek justice and the truth

  A friend or loved one suffers mistreatment due to guilt by association, and one must decide to either ignore the unfairness or fight for what is right and just

  RETURN TO THE TABLE OF CONTENTS

  BEING FIRED OR LAID OFF

  EXAMPLES

  Being fired f
or one’s poor performance

  Being laid off because a department was downsized or a position was outsourced

  Being fired for poor performance, an addiction, being unreliable, etc.

  Losing a job at a critical time, like when a baby is on the way or a home has just been bought

  The company taking an opportunity to legally let one go due to one being a financial drain (e.g., because of medical issues that caused one to need a lot of time off)

  A merger that resulted in the majority of employees on one side losing their jobs

  Being let go (legitimately or illegitimately) due to friction with one’s boss

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Physiological needs, safety and security, love and belonging, esteem and recognition, self-actualization

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  To stay employed, I have to work harder than everyone else.

  It’s safer to be a team player than to disagree with what the company’s doing.

  I was a fool to try and have a career in this area; I’m not good enough.

  I’m worthless if I can’t support my family.

  Deep down I am defective, and the company knew it.

  People will lose respect for me if I can’t stay employed.

  I have to do whatever it takes to keep a job.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Having to tell family members about the firing

  Taking risks, especially financial ones

  Saying or doing the wrong thing at a new job

  Underperforming at work

  Disappointing a new employer

  Abandonment (e.g., a spouse leaving if financial problems impact the marriage)

  Changes that could threaten their new job, such as a shifting leadership hierarchy, the company being sold, or technology that could make the position obsolete

  Falling into debt while being out of work

  Losing the respect of loved ones (a spouse, children, parents, neighbors and friends, etc.)

  Being unable to find work

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Pretending one still has a job to avoid telling others about the firing

  Being disloyal to one’s employers out of anger or a sense of betrayal

  Absolving oneself of any responsibility for the firing, even if one was to blame

  Contacting the people in one’s network about job opportunities

  Beefing up one’s résumé to showcase one’s talents and abilities

  Anxiety, depression, and self-worth issues

  Applying for anything remotely close to one’s skillset (if one’s finances are in bad shape)

  Bending the truth in one’s new job if things are looking shaky

  Hiding difficulties from employers (an illness, unrealistic deadlines, etc.) rather than risking scrutiny

  Worrying about money; carefully watching one’s finances

  Tying job security and employer satisfaction to one’s self-worth

  Working late to reinforce one’s value and dedication

  Being meticulous with one’s appearance out of a desire to look good

  Turning a blind eye to ethical issues at work

  Becoming a “yes man” and always agreeing with the powers-that-be

  Needing constant reassurance that one is doing a good job at work

  Taking on extra shifts or working holidays to get ahead

  Taking a second job to be able to save money, in case something happens

  Bringing work home; having a poor work-life balance

  Missing out on family time due to work commitments

  Sticking with a job that is safe and pays the bills even though one dislikes it

  Feeling guilty if one has idle time at work or has to take a legitimate day off

  Making sure employers and associates know how much work one is doing

  Sucking up to employers and managers

  Taking on high-profile projects one may not be suited for out of a desire to prove oneself

  Employing oneself rather than being at the mercy of others

  Adopting a healthier outlook on work (that it isn’t tied to one’s value or worthiness)

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Alert, cooperative, courteous, efficient, focused, honorable, industrious, loyal, merciful, obedient, organized, perceptive, persistent, proactive, professional, resourceful, sensible

  Flaws: Addictive, callous, confrontational, controlling, defensive, fanatical, hostile, insecure, obsessive, perfectionist, resentful, self-destructive, stingy, unethical, weak-willed, workaholic, worrywart

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Hearing rumors about downsizing and possible layoffs

  Getting a boss who has other favorites at work

  Receiving a poor performance report

  A company merger that creates uncertainty

  Being put on probation

  Seeing one’s parent laid off after many years of service and loyalty

  OPPORTUNITIES TO FACE OR OVERCOME THIS WOUND

  An unexpected financial difficulty (like buying a house, medical bills piling up, or a spouse getting laid off) that makes it especially important to keep one’s job

  Being fired from another job because of the negative attitude one developed from being let go the last time, and realizing one is creating a self-fulfilling prophesy

  One’s marriage growing rocky due to subsequent monetary strain, causing one to question the fairness of being held responsible for so much of the family’s financial welfare

  RETURN TO THE TABLE OF CONTENTS

  BEING FORCED TO KEEP A DARK SECRET

  EXAMPLES

  One’s child being a sociopath

  A spouse’s hit-and-run

  The abuse of a family member

  A murder cover-up in the family

  A horrible deathbed confession that has repercussions for loved ones

  One’s child being an accomplice in a mass murder

  One’s spouse belonging to a terrorist organization

  An illegal adoption

  One’s family running a drug smuggling operation

  Being related to someone of notoriety, like Hitler, Castro, or bin Laden

  A parent embezzling funds from work or stealing money from those who are vulnerable

  BASIC NEEDS OFTEN COMPROMISED BY THIS WOUND: Safety and security, love and belonging, esteem and recognition

  FALSE BELIEFS THAT COULD BE EMBRACED

  How could my own blood do this? I could end up being just like him or her.

  I’ll be a pariah if people find out.

  My silence has made me an accomplice, so I can’t tell.

  Keeping this secret is best for everyone.

  The well-being of my family is more important than the truth.

  Telling would make me disloyal.

  The secret will come out eventually; I don’t have to be the one to disclose it.

  You’re only guilty if you get caught.

  No one could love me if they knew the truth.

  People have moved on, so bringing the truth out will only cause more damage.

  THE CHARACTER MAY FEAR…

  Others finding out

  Legal repercussions (being arrested, children being removed from their custody, etc.)

  Being rejected by family and friends

  Becoming like the guilty person (sharing his or her weakness)

  Losing someone’s love, a prestigious position, or the respect of their peers if the truth comes out

  Being punished or victimized by the one wanting the secret to be kept

  POSSIBLE RESPONSES AND RESULTS

  Lying and deception becoming second nature

  Denial; rewriting the truth in one’s mind

  Telling conflicting stories (being unable to keep one’s lies straight)

  Enlisting others who are necessary to keep the secret hidden

  Being wary of those who mi
ght sniff out the truth

  Suffering from nightmares

  Depression

  Lack of focus and attention to one’s duties

  Distancing oneself from those associated with the secret (going away to school, moving, etc.)

  Avoiding the one who is requiring the secret to be kept

  Tiptoeing around the wrongdoer; walking on eggshells

  Constantly giving in to the wrongdoer as a way of placating him or her

  Physical responses to prolonged stress, like high blood pressure, digestive issues, and headaches

  Abusing drugs or alcohol

  Keeping the secret but rebelling in other ways to express one’s feelings

  Becoming temperamental or volatile

  Hostility toward the person responsible for the secret

  Being nervous around the authorities

  Excising things from one’s life that one shares with the wrongdoer (hobbies, activities, interests, etc.)

  Struggling with opening up to people out of worry one might spill the secret

  Subversively helping those negatively impacted by the hidden event

  Planning to reveal the secret in a way that maintains one’s anonymity

  Throwing oneself into other activities as a way of keeping one’s mind occupied

  Secretly gathering information that can be used against the wrongdoer

  PERSONALITY TRAITS THAT MAY FORM

  Attributes: Alert, cautious, cooperative, courteous, curious, diplomatic, discreet, easygoing, focused, independent, loyal, mature, meticulous, obedient, observant, patient, private, protective, trusting

  Flaws: Addictive, cowardly, dishonest, evasive, forgetful, hostile, impulsive, inhibited, insecure, irrational, irresponsible, nervous, rebellious, resentful, self-destructive, subservient, volatile

  TRIGGERS THAT MIGHT AGGRAVATE THIS WOUND

  Someone sharing another secret (even a minor one) and requesting it be kept

  A clue that makes one wonder if someone else knows about the secret

  Running into a victim of the wrongdoer

 

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