“Here you go,” Jordan said, handing me a folded sheet of paper.
I unfolded the white sheet and read it silently.
It was a letter composed on the typewriter.
August 18, 1965
To Whom It May Concern:
The bearer of this letter, Mr. Ezekiel Rawlins, is hereby empowered by the writer, Deputy Commissioner of Police Gerald Jordan, to be given free access by the police and any other security employee as he is conducting private consultations for the Los Angeles Police Department. If there are any questions as to his authority you should contact the central office of the police department and inquire at the desk concerning the police commissioner’s business.
Gerald Jordan
Deputy Commissioner Gerald Jordan
“This is enough?” I asked.
“It should be,” Jordan said.
“And when does it go into effect?”
Past the deputy commissioner’s shoulder I could see Suggs and the third white-man-in-white coming down the hall.
“Right now, Mr. Rawlins. I called it in before coming to find you.”
I refolded the letter and put it in my shirt pocket.
“I have to leave, Mr. Rawlins,” Jordan said. “Is there anything else you need?”
“No sir.”
“What about remuneration?”
“I don’t usually take on white clients, Mr. Jordan.”
“So you want a higher fee?”
“I don’t want no fee whatsoever,” I said. “I’ll do this thing but not for you. I’ll do it for the people I care about.”
For one instant Gerald Jordan’s smug, superior attitude wavered. Behind the mask of sophistication was a face that made Nola Payne’s death mask look benign.
But then he was the politician again. Smiling and nodding at me.
“The city appreciates your goodwill, Mr. Rawlins. It’s too bad that your community doesn’t have more citizens with such a sense of civic responsibility.”
Before I could come up with a fitting reply Jordan was walking away, with Fleck scuttling behind.
“I’ll give you a ride back to your office,” Suggs said to me.
“No thanks. I think I’ll stick around here for a while. Maybe Miss Landry will come to. And I’d like to talk to the doctor.”
“That’s me,” the third white-man-in-white said. “Dr. Dommer.”
He put out a hand and I shook it.
“I don’t really have very much time, Mr. . . . ?”
“Rawlins. People call me Easy.”
“Well, Easy, I can give you a few minutes but I have to prepare for surgery this afternoon.”
“I’ll be quick.” I turned to Suggs and asked, “How do I get in touch with you, Detective Suggs?”
“The Seventy-seventh Precinct will be my home until this is finished.”
“You got it,” I said.
Suggs looked at me a moment, and then he realized that he was being dismissed. At that moment I realized the same thing. The world was changing so quickly that I was worried about making a misstep in the new terrain.
“Okay,” Suggs said. “You call me when you got anything.”
He hesitated a moment more and then turned away.
Before he was out of sight in the long white hall Dr. Dommer asked, “How can I help you, Easy?”
“How did she die?”
Dommer wasn’t a large man. His chest was concave and his brown eyebrows were bushy. His lips were normal size but flaccid and his brown eyes were on the way to becoming yellow. He had hands like a woman, long and slender, soft and tapered.
“Strangled.”
“Then why did he shoot her?”
“I can’t tell you that, Easy. Maybe he wanted to make sure that she was dead.”
“Was there anything else you found?”
“I didn’t do an autopsy. That’s the coroner’s job. But I’d say that she was knocked around quite a bit before she was killed.”
“Was she raped?”
“She had sex with someone,” the doctor said. “But considering the way she was beaten I doubt if he raped her too. There was no trauma in the vaginal area at all. This guy wouldn’t have been a gentle lover.”
“What about Miss Landry?” I asked.
“What about her?”
“Why do you have her all trussed up in that straitjacket?”
“How do you . . . ? The commissioner asked us to keep her sedated and secured.”
“Isn’t there some law against that?”
“Not if we believe that she’s a danger to herself or others.”
“Do you?”
“Is that all, Mr. Rawlins?”
“I’m coming back here tomorrow, Dr. Dommer. Please try and have Miss Landry out of those restraints.”
The doctor and I made eye contact. When I was sure that we understood each other I turned away and walked down the white maze.
6
I wandered up and down the halls until I found my way back to the reception desk. The freckled girl glanced up at me when I emerged from the swinging doors. I made it all the way to the exit before she spoke.
“Excuse me,” she said to my back.
“Yes?” I turned my head to be halfway civil.
“I’m sorry . . . about before.”
“About what?” I knew what she meant but I asked anyway.
“I’m from Memphis,” she said.
With the emphasis on the last word her Tennessee drawl took control. Her origins explained why she looked at Suggs and not me when she asked for our names. Where she came from, a white woman didn’t address a black man directly. I wasn’t supposed to speak in her presence or even look in her general direction.
“Yeah,” I said, turning back to the door.
I reached for the knob.
“Mr. Rawlings.”
“No ‘g.’ ”
“I’m sorry. Mr. Rawlins.”
I turned all the way around and went to her desk. “That’s okay. No blood drawn.”
“Are you related to those poor women?” she asked.
“Yes I am,” I said. And I didn’t feel that I was lying. Over the past few days, I came to feel a new connection between myself and the people caught up in the throes of violence. It was as if I had adopted Nola Payne as my blood sister.
“They brought them in in the early morning,” the receptionist-nurse said.
“What’s your name?” I asked.
A tremor went through her and she looked around, maybe for the Klansmen that would hang us both if she answered.
“Marianne,” she said softly. “Marianne Plump.”
We both smiled.
“What were you saying, Marianne?”
“I have a girlfriend, a colored girl that has the graveyard shift. She told me that Miss Landry said that they were killing poor black people.”
“Who?”
“She just said that it was a white man.”
“Did she say anything else?” I asked.
“Maybe,” Marianne said. “I don’t know.”
“What’s your friend’s name?”
“Tina Monroe.”
“Do you have a pencil and some paper, Marianne?”
She pointed at a pad on the edge of her desk and handed me a yellow number two. When I took the pencil our fingers touched. I think we both got a shock. It wasn’t a sexual thing but the breaking of a taboo that had governed her people and mine for hundreds of years.
“This is my number,” I said as I wrote. “I’d really appreciate knowing anything about what happened to Nola, anything that Miss Landry said. So if she can I’d like Tina to call me.”
Miss Plump nodded solemnly, taking the flimsy slip of paper.
WALKING DOWN La Cienega I thought about Marianne Plump and the shock we both felt when we touched. It wasn’t that I’d never made physical contact with a white woman before. I had been through World War II. I had had many French and English and even German lovers. I had known Amer
ican white women too. But this was different. Marianne and I were cut from the same rag. We spoke the same language. And though I couldn’t explain how, I knew that the riots had broken down the barriers between us.
I WALKED SOUTH to Wilshire and then headed east.
It was a beautiful day. In the eighties and nearly clear because of a slight breeze. Wilshire was a nice street in those days. Small businesses and a few nondescript office buildings. I was walking at a brisk pace, steeling myself for the second test that day.
After I’d crossed to Fairfax Avenue the police car pulled to the curb beside me. Two tall white policemen got out as a team. Really I should call them policeboys because both of their ages put together wouldn’t have added up to my forty-five years.
“Hold it right there,” one cop said. He had a button nose, pale skin, and small, stunned-looking eyes.
His partner was a few inches shorter and six shades darker.
They both wore hats, so I couldn’t say what color hair they had.
“What are you doing here?” the taller, paler cop asked.
“Walkin’ home.”
“Where do you live?”
I gave him my address on Genesee Avenue, a few blocks away.
Without asking permission the interrogator started patting my sides and pockets. The darker white cop stood a few paces away with his hand on the butt of his gun.
“Where are you coming from?” the pale cop asked, still frisking me.
“May I give you something, Officer?” I replied.
“What?”
“A document that will explain my presence here.”
“Did you hear that, Mike?” the pale boy asked the dark one.
“What, Gil?”
“He wants to give me a document that will explain why he’s here.”
Mike got a quizzical look on his face and his partner went over to him. They discussed my unusual request for over a minute. Meanwhile pedestrians and shop owners had come to see what was going on. Everybody in L.A. was on alert. At the height of the riots angry black crowds had threatened to leave the ghetto and bring the violence into the white neighborhoods. Who knew when the Molotov cocktails would start exploding in Beverly Hills?
Mike came up to me.
“What is it you want to show us?”
I took Gerald Jordan’s letter from my shirt pocket and handed it to him.
The Mediterranean-looking boy took enough time to have read the note six or seven times. Either Mike was slow or he was surprised by the content and signature. He looked up at me with dark Hellenic eyes.
“Is this a joke? I mean, do you think you can get away with this?”
“No joke, Officer,” I said. “And yes, I do expect to walk away if not get away.”
Mike went back to the police car and made a radio call while his partner kept an eye on me.
More and more people had gathered across the street in front of the May Company department store. My mind stayed calm but my body was reacting to the situation. I could feel the blood racing and my muscles getting tense. I could have run a quarter-mile sprint but instead I took out a new low-tar cigarette and lit it up.
Cigarettes would kill me one day, I was sure of that, but inhaling that smoke right then probably saved my life. Without the calming effect of the tobacco I might have taken a run at that pale child calling himself the law.
Mike got out of the patrol car and went up to his partner. They discussed the letter, glancing at me from time to time. People across the street were pointing at me and talking about me too. There wasn’t one dark face on the corner of Wilshire and Fairfax.
I took another deep drag on my cigarette, wishing that it were a filterless Pall Mall.
Finally the cops approached me.
“Break out some I.D.,” Mike ordered.
I took out my wallet, pulled my driver’s license from its sleeve, and handed it over.
They eyed the name on the letter and compared it to the license.
“Are you Ezekiel Rawlins?”
“Yes I am.”
“What are you working on for the commissioner?”
“That’s none of your business.”
“What did you say to me, son?” Mike asked.
That brought a smile to my face. The letter worked. The police were impotent and that made them mad.
“May I go now, Officer?”
“I asked you a question.”
“Ask Deputy Commissioner Gerald Jordan,” I said. “Because I’m reporting directly to his office—son.”
Mike stared hard at me, committing my face to memory. He wanted me to know that one day he’d see me again, when I wasn’t protected by his bosses.
It was a serious threat but I didn’t care. I was having my own rebellion against the power structure. I was making a stand right there in West L.A. under the scrutiny of three dozen white people.
“Go on,” Mike said. “Get out of here.”
The police returned to their car. They went east on Wilshire so I decided to walk down Fairfax to Pico.
“We’re not gonna put up with that crazy mess around here, nigger,” a man’s voice said.
I turned and saw a white man, with a white woman at his side—both of them staring hate at me.
“Are you talkin’ to me?” I asked him.
“Yeah.”
He was all loose. His casual clothing, his skin, his drooping jaw.
I took a step in his direction and he scooted away with his girlfriend in tow. After five steps he turned to see if I was running him down. I took another step, and he and his girlfriend took off at a gallop.
“He is a fool,” another white man said. This one had a European accent.
When I turned I expected to see him talking to someone about me but he was alone. A short man wearing wire-rimmed glasses. He wasn’t old, maybe fifty-five.
“He is afraid, and frightened men are almost always fools,” the small man said to me.
“I’m not too much better,” I said, “puffin’ up like that.”
“You can’t help but to stand up for yourself,” he said. “Even if you struck him, it would have been okay. Maybe he would learn something.”
“That’s a hard school you talkin’ about there,” I said.
The little man in the gray suit smiled. “I am Henry Berg,” he said. “I own a watch shop up a block from here, on the east side of the street. If you need a timepiece fixed bring it to me.”
We shook hands and I walked away thinking that I had to keep the lid on. Because if I didn’t all hell might boil over.
7
Even if I had had my car I wouldn’t have been able to put it in the garage because there was a sailboat in the driveway. Bonnie Shay’s new pink Rambler was parked in the street in front of the house. From behind the boat I could hear the monotonous, back and forth rasping of a sandpaper block on wood.
“That you, Juice?” I called.
Jesus stood up from behind the boat and smiled. He’d taken his single sail out every day for three months before the riots. I made him stay home while the curfew was on, though. He took the time to fix any damage the craft had suffered.
“Hey, Dad,” he said in a voice made strong by the sea. “Bonnie’s home.”
He wasn’t very tall, five six in his deck shoes. His skin was the color of brown eggshell. His eyes were dark and almond shaped and he was fluent in English, Spanish, and French. The latter he picked up from Bonnie as easily as some people acquire an accent by moving to a different part of the country.
When Jesus came to live with me he was five and had never spoken a word. He didn’t speak for many years because of abuse that he was exposed to at a very early age. And even after he did start talking, it was seldom and soft.
But then he decided to drop out of high school and build himself a boat. I allowed him to do it, even though everyone told me it was a mistake. Jesus had promise in school. His grades were just average, but he excelled as a long-distance runner. UCLA had
been talking to the track coach about Jesus, but then I let him drop out to build his boat and take reading lessons with me at night.
The sea made him stand taller and speak out loud. He was the master of his own fate when he no longer had to deal with anyone he didn’t want to, like all of the teachers who didn’t believe that little Mexican kids were worth the seats they sat in.
“How’s it goin’, boy?” I asked.
“Daddy!” Feather yelled. She came running out of the front door with her thick blond-brown hair bouncing behind her. She’d shot up in the few months that Jesus was sailing. In just a few years she’d be taller than the brother of her heart. She was light skinned, even lighter than Jesus, but definitely American Negro—that’s black mixed in with something else. Her mother was a white stripper who died and her father was someone like me. She came to live in my home before she was eight months old. I was the only father she knew.
She ran right into me and hugged me as hard as she could.
“Are you all right?” she asked, whining.
“Sure I am, baby girl. Were you worried?”
“Juice said that you were going down to your office. Where the black people are shooting up everybody they see.”
“Juice didn’t say that part about the black people, did he, honey?”
“No. Graham did.”
“That little boy with the green eyes?”
Feather was still holding me. She looked up and nodded.
I kissed her forehead and carried her to the short stack of concrete stairs that led to our front door. When I sat down she twisted so that she was sitting in my lap. It was a dance step we’d developed over the nine years she’d been my girl.
She’d left the front door open. Her little yellow dog, Frenchie, came to the door and bared his sharp teeth. He hated me, dreamt every night, I was sure, about ripping out my throat. But we both loved Feather and so kept an uneasy truce.
“I don’t care what they say around here or over at Carthay Circle, honey, but black people aren’t running around crazy, shooting at people.”
“That’s what they say on the news,” she said.
“I know they do. But they don’t talk about why people are mad. They don’t talk about all the bad things that have happened to our people. You see, sometimes people get so mad that they just have to do something. Later on they might wish that they didn’t but by then it’s too late.”
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