by L. J. Swartz
Rian and I are in her car on the way to work when she says, "So I was surprised Vance didn't come down last night." I look to her then shrug saying, "We're not together or anything. It's just some good adult fun." She huffs then says, "Well I would like to know where I can sigh up for some." I laugh slapping her arm. We pull into the parking lot. Vance's car is here already. I can't help but feel anxious about seeing him. "I ended it," I blurt looking to a very shocked Rian. She has her hand on the door handle. She takes it off turning to me. "Why," she asks confused. "I don't know really. He got real weird after we uh, it was like he felt something, but he didn't want to or something. He asked me what I was doing to him. Then when I was leaving he asked me to wait, but he didn't say anything. I broke it off. I know that's what he wanted so..." I tell her trailing off then grab the handle opening the door. She grabs my arm pulling me back in. "Sadie, you need to know something," she tells me. I search her face then close the door. "Vance's ex died while he was filming his last movie. She was pregnant. They had been high school sweet hearts. It sounds to me like maybe he's scared to feel for you," she tells me totally knocking the wind from me. I shake my head a couple times trying to wrap my head around what she just told me. "The media smeared him through the mud Sade. He's probably scared out of his mind to feel again," she tells me. I look to her confused asking, "Why would they smear him?" Rian shrugs saying, "For a good story I guess. They blamed him, said he upset her by telling her to abort the baby and that's why she wrecked her car. I don't believe it. He seems to sweet and genuine for that. My guess is it was just a very tragic accident. Remember I told you he won awards for his movie. He never accepted any in person. He did an interview a few months back and was asked about it. He said the movie only made him remember what he lost and he didn't want rewarded for something that cost him everything," she tells me. "I had no idea," I tell her. She nods at me saying, "I know that's why I told you silly." I smile then nod at her in thank you. We get out then grab our bags. Could she be right? Does he feel more? Is he just scared? I'm scared I know that, but not of what I feel with him. I'm scared that if this is over, I'll never feel it again. We get to our trailer. "Sadie," I hear then look up as Victor walks up to us. "Hey Victor what's up," I ask. "Uh Vance has a bit of a hair emergency," he tells me. I give him a funny look as I say, "Oooook." He starts to smile, but hides it as he says, "Follow me please." I give Rian a what the hell look. She shrugs then opens the door to the trailer. I follow Victor on set and smile as soon as I see Vance. He walks to me handing me a cup of coffee from my favorite coffee place. "Thank you," I tell him as I take it. "Look I'm sorry for last night. I don't exactly know how to tell you what happened, but," I hold my hand up. He stops talking. "You don't need to apologize to me Vance ok," I tell him then turn to walk back to the trailer. "No Sadie wait," he says grabbing my hips. I turn to him. "I don't want us to be done. I want....... you know, I don't know for sure what I want. I just know what I feel for you is too good to let go," he tells me looking me in the eyes. "Vance," I whisper. I reach up sliding my hand up his neck pulling his lips to mine. I kiss him feeling what he couldn't say with words. He's falling for me. God help me. I already belong to him.
I walk through the trailer door and jump as Rian barks, "WELL!" I smile saying, "Well it wasn't a hair emergency." She chuckles saying, "No shit. What'd he say?" She walks to me taking my coffee from my hand helping herself to a sip. "Oh god that's good," she tells me handing it back. "He told me he wants to keep seeing me. You're right. He's scared of us," I tell her holding her gaze. "He said that," she asks. I shake my head no telling her, "I felt it." Her eyes go wide. "Holy shit. You're in love with him," she practically yells. I wave my hand in the air. "Impossible I hardly know him. We're just gonna see where it goes is all," I tell her knowing I'm full of shit, knowing she's right. "You're a bad liar. Anyone ever tell you that," she tells me with a smile on her face. I take a sip of my coffee to hide the smile creeping to my lips. This is my favorite mocha. How did he know? The door opens. Makayla walks in. "Morning," she says in a snippy voice never looking up from her phone. "Good Morning Makayla," Rian says in a sugary sweet voice. I take another sip of my coffee to keep from laughing. Makayla huffs as she sits on the stool. Her phone rings. "Hello," she barks. Her face transforms immediately into a huge smile. "Oh my god, he's even better in person. Oh you have no idea. I can't wait to do the love scenes. Hopefully they'll get him all worked up then I can just sneak into his trailer after," she tells whoever she's talking to. She's talking about Vance. My Vance. Rian gives me a look as she puts items on the tray. "Oh please he's so damaged he won't even know what hit him," she says. I want to scream at her. I want to punch her then demand she stays away from him. I grab my comb and some bobby pins off my station. After looking at the script quickly I need to style her hair in a pony tail. Easy enough. I walk up behind her. She holds her hand up as she says, "Oh I know. It would be the wedding of the century." I look to Rian shaking my head. "K bye," she says into the phone. "Ok Candy you're up," she says to me. "Sadie, my name is Sadie," I tell her. There's a bit more attitude than I intended. Fuck it. She's plotting to get Vance. "So what are you and Vance up to tonight," Rian asks me stone series. I start to laugh, but clear my throat saying, "Oh ya know maybe just a movie and snuggling on the couch." Makayla whips around on the stool to face me. "You're the one seeing Vance," she asks. I nod my head holding her gaze. She looks me up and down then huffs. "This'll be easier than I thought," she says turning back around. I give Rian a look then tease the back of Makayla's hair. "Hey easy," she barks at me. I get her hair into a sleek pony tail with a bit of a bump at the crown. I used my mouth to open the booby pins too, fucking bitch. Rian finishes her makeup then tells her we're done. She looks in the mirror and smiles. "You're good. Too bad we have to be enemies," she says looking over she shoulder at me. The door opens. Vance walks in. All eyes are on him. "Hey ladies," he says hesitantly. "Don't be long," Makayla says running her hand along his stomach as she passes him on her way out. I glare at the back of her head. I hate her. "That was fun," Rian says grabbing the powder she uses on Vance. "What was fun," he asks as he sits on the stool. "Oh ya know, Makayla telling Sadie that she wants you and that she's no competition," Rian tells him. "Wait she what," he asks looking to me. I shrug. "Yeah that happened," Rian says getting Vance's attention back. He stands walking to me resting his hands on my hips. "Sade, she's crazy you know that right? I'm not interested in her AT ALL," he tells me. I nod then turn to grab the stuff I need for his hair. His hands fall from my hips. "Sadie don't do that," he says to my back. "Do what I ask," as I slip my pomade into my pocket. "Treat me like I asked her to come after me," he says. I turn looking into his eyes. "I'm sorry Vance," I say then walk around him. He follows me over sitting on the stool in front of me. I secure the cape around his neck and uncap the color. "Sadie, you're mad at me. Why," he asks as I spray color on his hair. "Not mad at you Vance," I tell him sitting the color down. I pull the pomade out. He grabs my wrists. I lock in on his eyes. "I'm gonna go grab a water. Sadie you want one," Rian asks giving me a look. "Please," I tell her. She nods as she walks from the trailer closing the door behind her. "I'm not gonna fight her for you. I'll bow out. I don't share and I don't beg," I tell him. He searches my face saying, "Trust me there's no competition. You already own me." I can't breath as he holds my gaze. His words sink in. "God your good," I say dropping the pomade to the floor throwing my arms around his neck. I press my lips to his slipping my tongue into his mouth tasting him. He's delicious. He pulls me in close wrapping his arms around me as he kisses me fiercely. I slide my hands into his hair tugging. He groans loudly. The door opens. I pull away reluctantly as Rian clears her throat saying, "I see everything's all better now." Vance smiles at me. I reach down grabbing the pomade off the floor. Rian walks my water over sitting it on my station. "Thanks Ri," I tell her giving her a look. She nods mouthing, "wow." I smile as I put some pomade on my hands then run it through his hair. He holds onto my hip
s looking at me the whole time. "What," I ask with a smile. "You're just so beautiful," he tells me searching my face. "What the hell happened to you? You're all mushy all the sudden," I say playfully. "Well get used to it baby. You make me feel mushy," he says making me laugh. Rian chuckles. "Aw you two make me wanna puke," she says in a sugary sweet voice. I laugh grabbing his face kissing him quickly. "Ok Ri. He's all yours," I tell her walking over to my station grabbing my water. She does his makeup then looks to me with a smile. "You're all done," I tell him as I walk over removing the cape. He stands saying, "See you soon." I take a breath as I watch him walk from the trailer. "He's fucking perfect isn't he," Rian asks sarcastically. I shrug saying, "You know what they say." Rian smiles giving me a funny look. "So you're not buying it," she asks. "Oh I believe he wants me for now, but we'll see how strong he is once she walks into his trailer trying to get him naked. Trust me, he's not the kinda guy to turn down a hot woman," I tell her. She shrugs saying, "You never know Sade." I grab my water taking a long swig. Oh I know.
The last few days have been pretty wonderful. Vance has taken me to dinner a couple times which is a bit overwhelming at first. Everyone knows who he is. He took me and Rian to a club too. We got VIP treatment. It's exciting dating a famous actor. The sex is only getting better. I swear I feel him in a way I didn't know was humanly possible. It's like he's a part of me. I refuse to get to comfortable though. I know better. All good things come to an end. Vance didn't have to come in to work until after noon so I rode with Rian. We're just getting to the trailer. Victor meets us at the door. "Ok ladies we need you on set all day. Lots of touch ups," he says with a wink. I look to him confused. We've never been ON set before. "Sex scene day baby," he tells me. My heart hits the floor. Why didn't Vance tell me? He had to know right? Rian must see the panic on my face. "Ok babe you can do this ok. It's acting, fake," she says shooting Victor a disapproving look. "Sorry, I didn't know for sure. I just had a inkling," he says to me. "Uh we need Makayla to have bed head and her makeup needs uh to be natural but worn off a bit," he tells us almost apologetically. "Thanks Victor," Rian hisses at him. He walks away. Rian opens the door to the trailer pulling me in behind her. She grabs my shoulders looking me in the eyes as she says, "Look Sadie you're a strong beautiful woman. Don't let that bitch get to you. You know for a fact she's gonna try and rub your face in it." I nod feeling tears forming in my eyes. "Stop you can do this. Vance is crazy about you," she tells me. I nod as the door bursts open. "Ok ladies I need to be sexed up," Makayla says in a cheery voice. I take a deep breath as I sit my kit on my station. I decide to shoot Vance a text saying, THANKS FOR THE WARNING. I get out my teasing comb and walk to the stool. Makayla sits down. My phone beeps. I pull it from my pocket and open his message, WHAT DO YOU MEAN? I hit reply and type, SEX SCENE DAY. WE'RE ON SET FOR IT, send. I start to tease her hair. My phone rings in my pocket. I pull it out answering it. "I'm doing Makayla's hair right now. I'll call you back," I say then hang up. I tease her hair all over then run my hands through it with some pomade. She looks fucked. Super. Rian gives me a look as she steps up to do her makeup. I wash my hands then look to Rian saying, "I'm getting a water you want one?" Makayla holds her hand up saying, "Yes please, thanks doll. I need to stay hydrated today. Gonna be sweating a lot." I take a deep breath walking to the door. It swings open. Vance is standing on the top step. He looks over my shoulder then down into my eyes. "Can we talk," he asks me. I nod as I step out closing the door behind me. "I need to get princess a water since you're gonna be making her sweat all day," I hiss at him as I step around him walking down the steps. "Sadie, I didn't even know it was being filmed today. I sure as fuck am not excited to have my girlfriend on set watching while I fake fuck someone else," he says frustrated. I turn to face him saying, "It's your job, so suck it up." I walk into the food room then grab three waters. Vance blocks the door way. "Sadie I need to know you can handle this. If you can't, I'll refuse to do the scene," he tells me. I meet his gaze. I'm so not ok with this, but I will not be a pussy about it either. It's all fake. I've heard a bunch of actors say in interviews it's not hot at all with all the people watching. How hard can it be? "I can handle it Vance," I tell him ducking under his arm. I stop and turn. He's turned looking at me. I stand on my tip toes pressing my lips to his. He grabs my hips kissing me fiercely. I pull back saying, "Alright calm down tiger. I don't need you all horned up for Makayla." He laughs saying, "Trust me. She doesn't do it for me one bit." I raise my eye brow at him then walk back to the trailer. I open the door. Makayla holds her hand out. I give her one of the waters then walk one to Rian's station for her. "Thanks babe," she tells me. "Welcome," I tell her then stick my tongue out at the back of Makayla's head. "So you gonna make him refuse the sex scenes," Makayla asks in a snotty tone. "No I'm not. He's an actor. I trust him," I tell her. She huffs saying, "Good I've been dying to roll around with him." Rian looks to me with wide eyes. I take a deep breath remembering his words, "You own me."