by Thorne Smith
“I don’t know,” replied Alfredo rather hopelessly. “There she was. On it.”
Suddenly the intention rather than the meaning of the Italian’s words dawned upon Tim.
“You mean she was on the rack,” he suggested. “Isn’t that it, Alfredo?”
Once more Alfredo resorted to one of his expressive shrugs.
“It’s all the same,” he said. “Wreck or rack, she was on it. Untold suffering and danger. Without cease.” He paused for a moment, then added proudly, “Italian women have their babies much easier than American.”
Upon the receipt of this information Tim’s eyes grew round with horror. The hair that Alfredo was trimming endeavored to rise up on its ends.
“You mean they have a harder time of it than your wife?” faltered Tim.
“Much,” replied Alfredo generously. “Many die. Poof! They are gone. It is sad.”
It was altogether too sad for Tim, When he left the barber’s shop he was plumbing the depths of spiritual depression. He was going to die, die like a dog on a wreck. There was not the remotest chance of escape. His number was up. Alfredo must know what he was talking about. Certainly he had had enough experience.
He stopped in front of a grocery store to consider a display of nuts. It was an attractive display. Tim was very fond of nuts. He thought of the vanished bar of a vanished Sherry’s where in bygone days he had eaten tons of nuts and swallowed gallons of cocktails. Gone, all gone. His past life swam before him. He was beginning to die a little already, he decided. A baby carriage had been parked near him. With morbid curiosity he bent down and regarded the small and disconcertingly complacent face of its occupant. A nice baby with nice little old wise eyes. A potential murderer. The baby looked long at Tim, then showed him how to blow bubbles without the use of either water or soap. The baby was good at it, had mastered the technique. From the number of bubbles it made it was apparent the baby knew it was putting on a pretty good show. “Bubbles,” thought Tim moodily. “For all the good we accomplish in this world we might just as well sit in a carriage and blow bubbles. I’ve even lost that art.” Then the baby’s mother appeared. Tim smiled timidly at her.
“You’ve a lovely baby,” he said. “I envy you.”
The young mother’s face flushed with gratification.
“He’s not so bad,” she smiled, endeavoring to keep a check on her inordinate pride.
“Did—did—did it hurt much?” asked Tim, almost in a whisper.
“My dear, I almost died,” said the woman.
With a choking cry Tim turned from her and hurried down the street. The woman looked after him curiously, then shook her head and dismissed the incident from her mind, for the moment. But Tim did not hurry far. Dopey had other plans. If there was anything the dog loved it was to give the appearance of ferocity without incurring the risk of putting it to the test. On such occasions he was an awful sight to behold. He foamed at the mouth and rolled his eyes. His jaws were a nest of teeth lined with hellish red. A very small dog already on the run was the excuse for the demonstration. Dopey’s fury was instantaneous. He lunged after the small creature like a maniac on four feet. The pursued uttered a despairing yelp and doubled on his tracks. Dopey followed his example with an unpleasant sound of scraping toenails. Unfortunately Dr. Jordan stepped blithely into the picture at this moment. Dopey rounded the clerical legs at great speed and brought his leash against them with terrific force. The sudden shock pulled Tim to the pavement. Dr. Jordan almost immediately emulated his example. As a matter of fact, for a moment it was a neck-and-neck race to see who would hit the sidewalk first. Tim won by a sufficient margin to permit Dr. Jordan to descend heavily upon him. Dopey, suddenly realizing that he was no longer under restraint, sat down abruptly and whimpered. At any moment that small dog might change its mind and return to bite him. In the meantime from beneath the body of the stunned man of God came one of the most convincing and comprehensive expositions of the baser side of the English language that had ever been heard on Springfield Avenue, or on any other avenue, for that matter. All the bitterness and depression pent up in Tim’s soul poured out through his throat and crackled venomously in the surrounding air. Even in his dazed condition the Rev. Dr. Jordan was reminded of something. It had to do with the explosion of a gasoline stove. There had been a church supper. The good man shuddered at the memory.
“Well?” came the voice from beneath him, “isn’t it about time you were thinking about getting up? Do you like it here? Why not kneel on my body and offer up a prayer?”
The small crowd, that had both seen and heard, stolidly watched Dr. Jordan struggle to his feet and brush himself off diligently.
“That’s right, you big stiff,” came spitefully from the pavement. “Leave me here crushed and broken.”
Dr. Jordan looked down at the small figure and was human enough to long to kick it completely out of his sight and memory. Two women stepped forward and helped Tim to rise. Then the three of them stood looking at Dr. Jordan.
“Such language,” said one of the women.
“Never heard anything like it in all my life,” observed the other.
“And from a man of the cloth,” put in Tim. “It’s not the sort of language one would expect Dr. Jordan, I’m shocked and surprised. You have overstepped. You have put your foot in it.”
“My dear ladies,” rumbled Dr. Jordan, his face not unlike a grinning sunset, “I assure you I did not open my mouth. Not a word of anger or condemnation passed my lips. I heard all the terrible things you heard, the unbelievably vile language, and I was shocked to the core.”
“Where is that?” inquired Tim.
“Where’s what, the core?” asked Dr. Jordan.
“Yes, the core,” replied Tim.
“Madam, it is merely an expression,” explained the badgered man.
“Well, I don’t think it’s a very nice expression, I’m sure,” replied Tim.
“I agree,” said one of the other women. “It’s a terrible thing to speak about.”
“Why, my dear madam,” pleaded Dr. Jordan. “It’s the most harmless thing in the world. Let me—”
“We know how harmless it is,” the other woman cut in sarcastically. “You’ll be telling us next that babies are found in cabbage heads. What a man.”
“If you’ve finished insulting us, Dr. Jordan,” said Tim in his most ladylike voice, “we’ll be going. I suggest that the next time you see a woman on the public thoroughfares you’ll make some effort to control yourself. In the privacy of one’s home I could understand, if not condone, your conduct, but an assault on the main street of the town is short-sighted, to say the least. And do try to elevate your language. It’s disgusting.”
With this Tim collected Dopey and, with a bright smile at the two ladies, sailed off down the street. Dr. Jordan, standing amid the ruins of a shattered world, looked after him with murder in his heart. As if not knowing what to do with his hands he extended them supplicatingly to the street and turned helplessly from side to side. He seemed to be looking for someone to whom he could explain the whole ghastly affair, some reasonable, fair-minded person. Then, fearing lest he should go mad in public, he hurried home and turned on the radio at full blast. And under the cover of the resulting din the Rev. Dr. Jordan gave vent to his pent-up emotion. He could not remember all of the words Tim had used while lying on the sidewalk, but those that he did recall, Dr. Jordan made do double service. He concocted words of his own. In his desperation he even resorted to those words and expressions that are usually to be found on billboards, subway posters, and lavatories. Then, having cleansed his soul and unburdened his mind, he turned off the radio, sat down at his desk, and set about preparing his Sunday sermon in almost a cheerful mood.
Tim’s last experience of the day was one he would have preferred to avoid. He would have preferred to avoid them all, he now decided, and remain in a state of blessed ignorance.
On his way home from the village, and while he was in the ac
t of cursing Dopey bitterly for his hypocritical conduct, he glanced up to find himself looking into the clear, inquiring eyes of Claire Meadows.
“I can tell that you like that dog,” Mrs. Meadows remarked unsmilingly, “otherwise, with all you seem to have against the beast, you would not be associating with it.”
“This dog is a vice, like drugs,” replied Tim. “The animal is so darned useless I actually feel sorry for it.”
“Come home and have some tea,” said Mrs. Meadows, in a surprisingly comforting voice. “You’ve a desperate light in your eye. I’m a pretty desperate woman myself”
She took Tim by the arm, and reluctantly he allowed himself to be led to the home of Claire Meadows.
“But I forgot,” said the woman suddenly. “You might lose your reputation if you were seen on the streets with me.”
“Listen,” Tim declared quite earnestly, “I haven’t enough reputation left to dust a fiddle with. And I don’t give a damn about this town. I’d like to blow it up.”
“That would avail you little,” said Claire Meadows. “There are oodles of other towns like this filled with almost exactly the same sort of persons. All over the world there are towns like this. You can’t escape them.”
“Then I will ignore them,” replied Tim resolutely.
“If they let you,” said Claire cryptically. “But they won’t. These towns want to know. They insist on knowing, and they generally find out sooner or later. They look for the worst.”
Over a cup of tea in Claire Meadows’s pleasant drawing-room Tim broke down. Perhaps it was the dreamlike memory of another and happier occasion that did it. What it was he never quite knew, himself. He just found himself talking, and he didn’t trouble to stop.
“I’m going to have a baby,” he announced in a deep voice.
“That’s nice,” said Claire easily. “I wish I had mine.”
“Did you ever have a baby?” asked Tim with awakened interest.
Mrs. Meadows nodded slowly and looked at Tim with unseeing eyes.
“I had a baby once,” she said in a low voice. “A perfectly good baby. A little girl with sleepy eyes. She used to sigh so fatly.”
“Did the little baby die?” asked Tim gently.
“No,” she answered, with a hard note in her voice. “He took her with the divorce. She was old enough to go then. They said I was unfit. The law can say a lot of things it really doesn’t mean. But they hurt for all that.”
“Did you experience much trouble having this baby?” Tim inquired delicately.
Claire Meadows raised her eyes to heaven.
“Don’t ask,” was all she said.
The calm moderation of the woman chilled Tim’s last hope. It lay cold against his heart. It was not so much what she had said as what she had left unsaid, what she had intimated, the awful things implied. In his self-absorption he forgot about Claire Meadows’s baby and thought only of his own prospective one.
“But I’m not what I seem,” he said haltingly.
“None of us is,” replied Claire Meadows.
“I shouldn’t be having this baby by rights,” he went on. “You see, I’m a man at heart.”
At this surprising statement, Claire Meadows sat up and looked penetratingly at Tim.
“You do talk like a man,” she said at length.
“And I think like a man,” added Tim.
“But seemingly you’re not a man,” the woman replied.
“It’s a sort of yes-and-no proposition,” Tim explained. “I don’t function like a man, and now I’m in this terrible condition. Everybody says I’m going to die.” Tim’s voice grew shaky. “I haven’t written my damn book yet,” he added, “and now I guess I never will.”
“Come over here,” Claire’s voice commanded.
She took Tim in her arms and made him comfortable. After she had heard his strange story she sat back and appeared quite charmed.
“I’ve always believed in magic,” she remarked at last, “but I never knew it actually happened. After what you’ve told me almost anything is possible. I might get my own baby back. Are you sure you’re not dreaming this?”
“I don’t know,” said Tim. “It seems like a dream.”
“And you simply must not pay any attention to what other women say,” continued Claire Meadows. “Childbirth is not easy under the most ideal circumstances, but it’s not nearly so bad as the majority of women make out. After all, I don’t blame them a bit. All men think that women exaggerate, so in order to give them an approximate idea of the truth women really do have to exaggerate. It’s a vicious circle.”
Presently Tim left. He was feeling greatly comforted. Claire Meadows had done it.
“You know,” she said, following him to the door, “I’ve often longed to establish contact with a man’s mind without having his body constantly interrupting the conversation. This is the first time I’ve had that pleasure.”
It was Tim’s grin that appeared on Sally’s lips.
That night he related to Sally the experiences of the day. She was especially edified by his encounter with the Rev. Dr. Jordan. Later, while Tim was writing the next day’s copy assignment, he sent her to the village to search for an avocado. He had yearnings.
“Here’s your damned alligator-pear,” she said an hour later. “I hope to God it bites you.”
“What a way to speak to a person in my condition,” replied Tim, delicately elevating his eyebrows.
Chapter 11
No Job for a Lady
Sally’s position in the office was becoming increasingly more difficult. There were times when she was called upon to dash off pieces of copy on the spur of the moment. She grew to dread these sudden demands on her depleted supply of inspiration. The results of her best efforts were usually quite unsatisfactory. There was no Tim in the offing to call upon for assistance. She was forced to rely on her own vast inexperience. What did she know, poor girl, about drop forges, lubricating oils, Never Flap union suits, and a number of other unsympathetic, not to say inimical, products thirsting for popularity through the medium of advertising? She was beginning to crack under the strain of the situation into which Mr. Ram had plunged her, and she, too, cursed that colorful little gentleman from the bottom of her heart. Grudgingly she admitted to herself that the business of being a good provider for a family even of two was not as easy as it had once seemed. There were times when she even wished that she could change positions with Tim and do things about having a baby. He was making an awful mess of it, getting himself all worked up and nervous.
All afternoon she had been laboring uninspiredly on one of these rush-copy assignments when a person no less than Mr. Gibber himself saved her. He summoned her to his presence and spoke with unwonted feeling.
“Willows,” he said, “Tom Burdock is in the city and we can’t get him out. He’s our best client. We have to handle him with gloves. A club would be better, but, as I say, he is our most important and profitable client. Already he has both physically and morally shattered three of our most hardened account executives. It is now your turn—your opportunity, I should say. Get Tom Burdock out of town and you are a made man here. The sky is the limit. Stick to him. Don’t let him out of your sight. Here’s two hundred dollars. Give it to him and get him to sign this slip. Draw as much money as you need yourself. It’s on the house. Now, Willows, I don’t hold with excessive drinking. Never have. But this is an exceptional case. I feel that any steps you see fit to take to get Tom Burdock on a train headed back home will be fully justified. After all, his wife and children might like to see what he looks like. Use drugs if necessary. And remember, he is our most important client. Be smooth, be tactful and—you know—be convivial. Above all, stick to your man.”
Sally may live to witness the stars go mad in their orbits, volcanoes gush forth ill-tempered jets of flame, and the Empire State Building stand jauntily on its head, but more vivid, more demoralizing than any of these manifestations will be the memory of her attempt to
stick by Tom Burdock.
He was a large, jovial man with a crop of defiant red hair, a livid face, and an all-pervading thirst. She found him sitting on the bed in his hotel room in the attitude of Rodin’s Thinker. When she gave him the two hundred dollars, the great man changed his position and looked upon Sally as if she were a messenger from on high. Immediately thereafter he began to distribute largess to the hotel staff. As a result of this generous conduct numerous flasks and bottles began to make their appearance, and as a direct result of their arrival Tom Burdock was soon back where he had been on retiring the previous evening. It was in this exalted state that it occurred to him it would be a benevolently paternal act to buy a doll for his youngest daughter. As long as Tom Burdock could think he acted, and even after he had ceased to think he still continued to act. Sally found herself in the street sticking to the great man.
“Willows,” he declared, “I’m going to buy me a doll—for my youngest daughter—it will get her on my side. When I get back home I’ll need every friend I have on earth as well as many who have indubitably gone to hell.”
Cheered by this harking back to home, Sally encouraged him in his mission. When they left the department store she found herself carrying the largest and most lifelike baby doll she had ever seen. The thing even felt like a baby as she carried it along the street, Burdock, in his impatience with details, having stripped off the wrapping, which like all wrappings had untidily come undone. The doll attracted no little attention and comment on the part of passing pedestrians, and it was this that started the trouble. Mr. Burdock conceived the idea that Sally was carrying the doll all wrong.
“Here, give me that doll,” he said, looking critically at Sally. “I’ll show you how to carry a baby. Watch me.”
Not only did Sally watch him, but also everyone else on the street. Burdock’s method of carrying the doll was brutal in the extreme. With one huge hand he seized the lifelike object round its neck and dragged it along after him, its legs dangling gruesomely against the pavements. In spite of her knowledge that Mr. Tom Burdock’s burden was as inanimate as a doll could be, Sally was unable to repress a slight shudder of revulsion on seeing it thus handled. The fact that at home Tim was busily if reluctantly evolving a real baby did not help matters. Sally was sensitive about babies.