by Dana Arden
Razz arranged a double funeral ceremony for Maggie and Georgie, as well as using her home as the funeral reception. I’m going to say it again. How many people do you know that would do that for someone they don’t even know? But she once again won’t take the credit and is thinking about the kids and hoping by being able to say good-bye, it will help them to heal, eventually.
The funeral is scheduled for Friday, so our Thursday has been spent preparing. Razz has been in the kitchen with Greer, Kit, Isabella and Emerson for most of the morning. Xander and I are enjoying a game of MineCraft with Danny and Rafe.
“Trigger!” Razz yells down the stairs.
“Ma’am.”
“We’re getting ready to leave to go shopping. Do you need me to pick you up anything?”
“Can you get me a black button down to wear tomorrow?”
“Yeah. We should be back in a few hours. I’m just going to get pizzas tonight, so don’t worry about fixing dinner if we’re not back in time.”
“Alright, darlin’.”
A few minutes later, I hear the front door close and start texting my mom.
Trigger: She just left, so anytime you want to start coming over.
Ma: Be there shortly. You’re sure we don’t need to get a hotel.
Trigger: There’s plenty of room.
Ma: Alright see ya soon. Love ya.
Trigger: Love ya too.
Time for Razz, Emerson and Xander to be lavished in love from family.
Chapter 26
Razz
Remind me next time that shopping with a four year old for two hours is unacceptable, especially when it’s passed her nap time. The day started out great. Being able to share the same experiences that I had with my granddaddy in the kitchen was awesome. The smile that Emerson graced us with was phenomenal after everything she’s been through.
Shopping…well that was a different experience. She’s the exact opposite of Isabella and me. Jeans and T-shirts didn’t cut it with Emerson. She wanted pinks and purples, dresses and no jeans. It was like a time warp from elementary school where you couldn’t catch me in a dress or skirt, but Emerson cried for the dresses.
I found out that even teal is not girly enough for her. I almost pulled all my hair out.
But we do have one thing in common when it comes to what we wear. Jeweled shoes are a must. Add in jeweled and light up shoes, and you have a winner. Where were these shoes when I was little? Why don’t they make them in women’s?
The last fifteen minutes of shopping I spent carrying her around because she was too tired to walk. If Emerson and Xander didn’t need clothes, I would have avoided the mall altogether, but it was a necessary evil.
The good, bad and the evil of the day was her falling asleep at seven. Yep, thank god for pizza delivery and cold beer, because I have a feeling this little power nap is going to have her up all night.
At the end of the day, I wouldn’t have it any other way. The kids are gradually healing and I’m thankful for that. Hopefully when we get back to Cumming and get them in school and possible into a routine, things will settle and we’ll find our own way.
I don’t even attempt to wake her and my back is killing me from carrying her, so I’m leaving that job to Trigger.
Pulling into a full driveway is definitely not what I expected and I pray that Trigger’s impromptu party will end early. Fingers crossed.
Standing on the porch, I can make out Trigger, Spook and Ryker, but Ryker’s in Georgia so I must really be tired. I get out of the Tahoe and signal for Trigger to me. His swagger is in full sway as he makes his way to me.
He grabs me in his arms and brings his lips to mine. I’ve missed him the past few days. It seems we haven’t had a moment to ourselves in weeks.
Stepping out of his arms, I notice the mischievous glint in his eyes. “Trigger, I understand wanting to have people over, but I’m exhausted. I just want to eat, shower and go to bed.”
“Darlin’, it’s not a party. It’s extra hands.” He growls low.
“Sounds good, but can you use your hands to get Emerson out of her seat and into the house. I can’t carry her anymore today.”
“Sure. We’ll get the bags too. Just go in the house and take a load off. Pizza has been orders. It should be here in fifteen.”
“Jesus I love you.” I slap my hand over my mouth not intending on those three words leaving my lips at the present moment.
He bends so he’s eye level with me. “Say it again without the freak out you’re having in your head right now.”
I stare in his blue eyes and repeat the words that I’ve wanted to say to him since I was a teenager. “I love you, Tanner.”
“That’s a good thing, Raquel, because I love you too.” He walks passed as a sharp pain emanates from my ass. I jerk forward and turn abruptly realizing the bastard just slapped my ass. It doesn’t phase him as he goes and gets Emerson out of her seat situating her in his arms with her head on his shoulder.
He’s a natural at this. I guess he would have to be with the four kids he lives with and his niece and nephew. I wish this was second nature to me and I know I’m on a learning curve, but it’s hard. I want to give these kids everything, but at the same time, I don’t want to spoil them to the point that they expect something all the time.
Walking into the house, an echoing ‘surprise’ vibrates my ear drums as I look around my full living room of Chaotic’s and their kids. Dani, Ryker, their four kids, Lily, Chase, their two kids, Rudy and Queenie along with Greer, Spook, their two kids, Beanie and some of the Florida Chaotic’s.
My knees buckle as I realize they made the eight hour trip to Florida to support the kids and us. The tears are unstoppable with the love and support the club has given me and continues to give me. This is what true family is. They don’t have to be blood. Family shows up without you asking. They come because they want to. They have a sixth sense of when you need them. This is my family. This has always been my family, but I never felt as connected to them as I do right now.
Strong arms lift me up and pull me into a hug.
Rudy whispers in my ear. “We got you, Razz. You’re never alone regardless of whether you’re with Trigger or not. Queenie and I have watched you grow up into a beautiful young woman who would make Otis very happy.”
I wipe my eyes off on his shirt. “I love ya’ll so much and when I’ve need you, you’ve always been there for me.”
“No doubt, but you’ve been there for us too. Don’t ever forget that you have people at your back. Don’t ever forget that you’re wanted and needed by the Chaotic’s and their families.”
I nod because at the moment I can’t speak past the lump in my throat. A squeeze around my waist has me looking down to see Xander. I’ve realized that Xander doesn’t like to see me upset. He’s the same way with Emerson and Isabella. One day, he’s going to be a fine man. His mom instilled in him that girls are to be protected and respected. I will continue to infuse in him the morals and values that every great man should know. The support of the MC will ensure Xander will learn to value loyalty, love and brotherhood.
“Hands off old man.” Trigger states as he lightly shoves Rudy away from me. “Razz needs to eat, drink and relax in a hot tub. Not be groped by a dirty old man.”
I slap him on his chest. “He’s not dirty or old. Rudy’s stoic and attractive for a man his age. I envy Queenie.”
“Damn right you do.” Queenie yells from the kitchen. “My ol’ man is hot. Damn shame Rudy didn’t pass those sexy genes on to his son. I’m sorry Razz.”
“Hey now!” Trigger bellows. “I’m sexy. Right darlin’.” He looks to me for confirmation.
“Meh. You could use a little work.” The perplexed expression on Trigger’s face makes him look more constipated than confused, but I can only hold in my giggle for a few seconds.
Busting out laughing and triggering the rest of the crew to join in, Trigger hauls me over his shoulder and smacks my ass hard. Walking toward
s to kitchen, he begs me to take it back. With each denial, I get another whack.
“Okay, okay. You are the hottest man this side of the U.S.A.”
“What about the other side?”
“I wouldn’t know. I haven’t seen all the men on the other side, but there were some mighty fine ones in Arizona.” Whack. “What the hell, Trigger. Stop smacking my ass.”
“Nope.” Whack.
“Fine. There’s no other man for me than you. You have all the swagger and hotness I can handle. Better?”
He sets me down on my feet. “It will do, but I think later you need to show me how my hotness affects you.”
“I can handle that.” I whisper.
The rest of the evening is spent surrounded by family eating, drinking and reminiscing.
Chapter 27
Trigger
This will be the first night the kids have slept in a room other than ours. We turned the basement into mattress central. Three mattresses with seven rambunctious kids equal crashing at midnight.
I’m not complaining at all since Beanie decided to be on-duty slumber party babysitter, which means time with my girl alone.
She exhausted, but her spirits are high. Between lack of sleep and constantly worry about if she’s enough for the kids, she’s on an emotional and physical overload.
The bath tub is filled with bubbles and lavender aromatherapy. She’s needs to relax and decompress. Hopefully, this is exactly what she needs. Stepping into the tub first, I hold out my hands to help her step in.
“Come on, darlin’. Let’s sit, soak and talk.”
She takes my hand and we both slowly ease into the water. Her moan as the warm water hits each inch of skin has my already hard cock twitching.
Sitting with her back plastered to my front, she sighs. “Thanks for this, Trigger. I thought I was going to have a mental breakdown in the mall with Emerson.”
“It couldn’t have been that bad. She’s an angel.” I chuckle because I know exactly how bad it can be because I had to deal with quiet Xander getting anxious when Razz was gone longer than he wanted.
“At first, it was awesome having someone to go shopping with and then I realized the only thing we had in common were flashy shoes. I had to hide jeans for her because all she wanted were dresses. Then she was cranky because she didn’t get to take a nap.” I rub my hands up and down her stomach. “But I learned a valuable lesson.”
“What’s that?”
“Nap time is the most important time of the day. If I ever have to go somewhere again, it’ll be before or after the alloted nap time.”
I chuckle. “Got it. Now how about we get back to this relaxation?”
I move my hand lower brushing her clit with my middle finger as it trails down her slit to her center. I watch the water ripple with each buck of her hips. Her head falls to my shoulder as I ease two fingers inside her pussy. I curl my fingers upward and slowly stroke. With each motion, her nails dig into my thigh and bicep. Applying pressure to her clit and increasing the rhythm of my strokes, her pussy ripples and tightens around my fingers. A final press of her clit sends her into ecstasy as she bites the inside of my bicep to muffle her moans of pleasure.
As the spasms subside, I remove my fingers and turn her to face me. “Straddle me.” She does as told. Not allowing her to sit on my thighs, I grip my cock and align it. “Sit.” We both moan with each inch that disappears into her honey hole. She sits motionless for a few seconds with her eyes trained on me and begins to move. Her movements are sensual and slow, but within a couple of minutes, she slams her pussy down on me splashing water over the side of the tub. “That’s it darling’. Ride me hard. Take what you need.”
“Oh…oh…my…Trigger!” She screams my name as I grip her hips as I thrust into her and release inside of her.
Wrapping her in my arms, I smooth my hands up and down her back as she rests her forehead on my shoulder. She lifts her head and meets my lips with hers in a delicate kiss as I deepen it by grabbing the nape of her neck and tugging her hair as she gasps.
“I love you, darlin’”
“I love you too.”
Exiting the tub, I dry her off and carry her bridal style to the bed. Placing her down and sliding in behind her, I enfold her in my embrace. Her breathing evens out as she sleeps and lulls me along with her.
***
I wake to an empty bed, the aroma of bacon and giggling. Feeling a puff of air on my nose, I open one eye to see Emerson up close and personal.
She starts whispering. “Razz said to let you sleep, but I missed you.”
Touching my nose to hers giving her an Eskimo kiss starts her giggles again. “I missed you too. Have you eaten breakfast?” She nods bumping her nose with mine. “Can you go down and make sure there’s still food left for me?” She nods again and hops off the bed running out of the room.
Turning onto my back with a smile on my face, I realize I could spend the rest of my life with my nights filled with Razz, mornings waken up to Eskimo kisses and my days filled by Razz and the kids.
Hustling to get clothes on before Emerson comes busting through the door, I put on a wife-beater and sweats. I go into the bathroom, take care of my business and brush my teeth. Coming out of the room, a small body collides with mines.
Xander’s panting and sweating. “Dude, what’s the rush?”
“We’re playing hide and seek. Beanie is seeking and I don’t know where to hide? Everywhere I go he finds me.”
“Alright, bud. Hide and seek is my favorite game. You know in your room in the closet there are all those extra blankets on the floor.” He nods. “Well we are going in there and I’m going to cover you up with the blankets.” He nods again. “You cannot make a sound.”
He takes off towards his room and I proceed to cover him with blankets before I make my way downstairs.
Downstairs you’d think it was Christmas morning with the number of people roaming around in pajamas and kids dodging adults, and not the morning we bury the kids’ family.
The women are in the kitchen chatting while they finish breakfast and set it on the table. The men are either in the living room or out on the back porch enjoying the brisk morning with a cup of coffee.
I snag Razz around the waist on her way back to the kitchen island and bury my nose in her hair. “Good mornin’, darlin’”
“Mornin’, hun. Did you sleep well?” She whispers.
“Yes and my wakeup call was even better.” She looks at me perplexed and then shakes her head. “Emerson decided I needed to get up so I didn’t miss breakfast and Xander needed a hiding spot.”
She giggles. “Sounds about how I woke up, except I didn’t get Eskimo kisses. I’m kind of jealous. I got Xander’s stinky breath letting me know he was up and Emerson’s cold feet on my stomach.”
“You should have woken me up.”
“No, you needed your sleep and I had everything under control other than explaining to Emerson why I didn’t have any undies on.”
“How’d that go?” I chuckle.
“Well, I told her sometimes our girly bits needed to air out, so I didn’t wear any underwear to bed.” She looks up at me seriously.” So for now on my girly bits will have to be suffocated in panties to make sure I don’t have that conversation and other ones with Xander.”
“Yeah, but I like it when your girly bits need to be aired out.” She smacks my arm. “Easy access.”
Dani gags from beside us. “Perv. Get a cup of coffee and join the men. This is woman territory and we don’t need the likes of you.”
“Whatever Dani. You probably need to let your tootie air out with as many babies that have come out of that thing. You probably have a bra made just for your junk to hold it all up in there.” Dani grunts. “If you aired it out you wouldn’t have BFI.”
“What the hell is BFI?” Dani questions.
“Booty Funk Infection. Gosh, don’t you know anything.”
A slap on the back of my head has me wh
ipping around to face my mom. “Boy, get your ass out of this kitchen before I put you over my knee.” The women laugh. “You're gonna have the kids talking about booty infections if you’re not careful.” She whips me with a dish towel. “Get your coffee and get out of here.”
“Fine.” I kiss Razz’s cheek. “But Dani, they make creams for that stuff.” I get my coffee and hightail it to the porch where it’s safe from the womenfolk.
Stepping out my dad and Ryker are gazing out at the backyard. “Mornin’, son.” My dad greets.
“Mornin’.”
Ryker turns to me. “You ready for today.”
“Not at all. I can only hope it goes better than I’m expecting.”
My dad nods. “That’s all you can ask for. Emerson and Xander are blessed to have you and Razz as well as the club. Their situation could’ve been a lot worse.”
“Yeah. I just want to be enough for them. Razz included.”
My dad pats my shoulder. “You are and you will continue to be.”
“The more I learn about Razz, the more doubt I have. She’s independent and doesn’t exactly need me and that terrifies me.”
Ryker clears his throat. “That’s how I felt when I found out about Dani and the kids. She didn’t need me, but she wanted me to be a part of her life just like Razz has always wanted you to be a part of hers.”
“You’ve always been enough for her.” My dad states confidently. “You were just too stupid to see it. There were so many times I wanted to smack some sense into you when it came to Sadie, but your mom wouldn’t let me. She told me that everyone has their time and we learn from our mistakes.” I nod. “It wasn’t your time with Razz and Sadie was just a road bump that showed you what you didn’t want in your life.”
“Noted.” I watch Razz in the kitchen laughing with my family. “I love that girl more than I ever thought I could love one person. She’s extraordinary.” They both agree. “I’m gonna marry her one day soon. I won’t be a fool and put it off longer than necessary.”