by Maia Starr
The meal was laid out before me on the table when I arrived, with no sign of Jaize anywhere. I had to wonder what he was doing, and couldn’t help but feel agitated by the lack of his presence. As much as I wanted to avoid him, it stung to think that he might want to do the same. Couldn’t I just take it for the lucky break that it was and move on with my life?
But apparently, I couldn’t because I spent the rest of my meal glowering over my food and wondering what I was going to do to avoid Jaize’s wife. We certainly hadn’t been quiet the night before, and although their relationship was basically over, wasn’t there some sense of propriety to be had? A sense of propriety we had most certainly broken.
A sudden wave of nausea hit me, more powerful than anything I had experienced before, and I ran back to the bathroom, my hand over my mouth. I barely made it in safely when I expelled all of the contents of my breakfast and gasped for breath. What was going on? Had Malnia had my breakfast poisoned because I had slept with her husband?
No, if she was going to do that, I had a feeling she would have made her plan known, both to myself and to Jaize. I was a human after all, and as far as I knew, that made me dispensable. If her father was the second in command of the planet, then it was likely she would be able to get away with getting rid of one human who apparently threatened her marriage.
It was possible that whatever I ate wasn’t agreeing with me. But with neither Jaize nor Malnia anywhere near me, there was nobody to consult about this. I would just have to retreat back to my room and hope that whatever it was, it would pass quickly.
***
I didn’t see much of Jaize for the next few days and simply went about my day as I had the day after we’d slept together. I would wake up ravenous, eat my fill, and then vomit up most of my stomach’s contents not long after. It was starting to get old.
Finally, I heard the sound of Jaize’s deep voice down the hallway one morning, speaking cheerfully with the Pelin cook, and my heart thudded despite itself. I wanted to strangle him for shunning me so long after we’d been intimate together, regardless of the fact that I wanted nothing to do with him after the fact.
“Human!”
The deep rumble of his call immediately made me furious, and I pushed through the doorway of my chambers and glared at him. His already milky white skin seemed to pale instantly, and he gazed down at my body as if in shock.
“What’s the matter?” I exclaimed. “Did you forget what I looked like? You were gone long enough.”
I was confused, and mildly uncomfortable when he stepped toward me, his hand outstretched. His face broke out into a shockingly handsome smile, and I backed away from him.
“What’s the matter with you?” I asked, my voice wavering.
“The human,” Jaize said down to the Pelin man beside him. “She looks different, does she not?”
The Pelin man tilted his head. “I’ve only seen her the first time just a few days ago.”
“How has she been eating?”
“Fine, but I am concerned about some digestive issues.”
I stomped my foot at Jaize, furious that he could carry on a whole conversation about me without consulting me directly.
“Stop speaking about me as if I weren’t here!” I demanded. “What is going on with you?”
“Are you feeling unwell, Yula?” Jaize asked, finally acknowledging me and meeting my eye.
“Actually, I’ve been sick. For days now. And if you had been here to see me at all, you would know that!”
“I’m sorry, Yula, but I have to attend to my duties. That means I can’t be home all the time. I am at the mercy of the Doyan Vera.”
“I remember her,” I muttered. “She’s pleasant.”
Jaize scoffed. “Hardly. There are rumors of her overthrow. I believe that Malnia’s father is hoping to be next in line to lead the planet to glory. But for that to happen, we need to have people to lead.”
“Yeah,” I sighed. “The population crisis. I know.”
Jaize’s eyes sparkled at me, and he flicked his wrist at the Pelin, who scurried away as if he had been abruptly dismissed. Apparently, he had.
“What if I told you that you are going to help us to make up for that disparity?” Jaize asked, taking a cautious step toward me as if I were some kind of feral animal. I didn’t like the way he was looking at me and backed away from him a little bit more.
“I would ask you what makes you think such a ridiculous notion.”
“Well, I think you had better get ready to accept that notion, Yula. In case you haven’t noticed, you’re pregnant.”
***
The news had hit me like a ton of bricks, and everything that happened after that commenced in a blur. I don’t know if I fainted or nearly lost the strength in my legs, but Jaize ended up rushing toward me and carrying me to the bedroom. I cried the whole time he was standing over my bed with the doctor from the laboratory, the unsettling man I could scarcely stand, and we were told that yes, there was no mistaking the fact that I was carrying a Verian hybrid inside of me.
“She must come to the lab for observations,” Karan insisted. “It is for the good of the scientific community. It could be a marvelous opportunity to study the human form as they go through pregnancy.”
But Jaize was firm. “No. I want her to stay here. You have plenty of females you can observe from the prison. What more could you learn from my human?”
I knew I should speak up and object to the way Jaize was speaking as if he owned me or something, but the claim actually warmed my heart. He wasn’t trying to be a possessive asshole. He was just making it clear that he was going to take care of me. I was his to care for. For the first time since he’d come back to the house, I almost felt happy that he was there.
“But, Jaize!”
Jaize shook his head firmly, and Karan stalked out of the room, clearly unhappy not to have gotten his way in the matter. Something about that man really made me nervous, and I was sure Jaize could sense it. It was bad enough having to share the lab with him on the occasion when Jaize had hoped I would be able to cure his disease, but having him right in my bedroom had been nearly unbearable. If Jaize hadn’t been there, I don’t know what I would have done.
“Please don’t ever leave me alone with him,” I whispered once Karan had left the house. Jaize chuckled deeply.
“Of course not,” he said. “There are many rumors about his sadistic streak. He treats everything with scientific curiosity. You would be more like a toy to him than a living thing.”
I had forgotten how nice it could feel to be so near to Jaize, his strong, protective body capable and willing to fight for me even though he was fighting through one of the direst diseases that humanity had ever concocted. He was incredibly brave, although it could be difficult to remember that sometimes.
“Where were you?” I finally asked, allowing my pain to leak into my voice for the first time. It had really made me feel unwanted for him to just leave without warning like that. It hadn’t done much for my self-esteem. Especially being so sick. It felt like I had nobody to care for me at all.
“I had to go halfway across Helna to visit with diseased troops and train them for combat despite their limitations. We don’t get a break from war just because we are struggling. In fact, most men don’t want to admit their pain is real until it is too late. That can be dangerous, not only for them, but for their whole squad.”
“You could have told me that you were leaving, though,” I said, my hand automatically touching the soft flesh of my abdomen where, apparently, our child together was just beginning to grow. “I thought…”
Jaize’s handsome face out into a broad smile and he laughed. “Did you think I was just done with you?”
I blushed and looked down at my hands. It wouldn’t be the first time a man had simply used me for what he wanted and left. Still, the way Jaize said it made it sound like the silliest notion in the world.
“Yula, I’ve wanted you from the moment we
met. Although, frankly, Malnia does make it somewhat difficult.”
“Does she know about this?” I asked, suddenly horrified. If a woman like Malnia had suffered multiple miscarriages, what would she think of me for carrying her husband’s child?
“Yes,” Jaize said quietly. “As you can imagine, she is not pleased. No matter how often I tell her it is simply my duty as a Verian male to provide hybrids for the army, she still refuses to even look at me. I fear when I do…”
“Wait,” I interrupted, anger curdling in my breast. “Are you trying to tell me that the only reason you’re with me is because you want our child to fight in a war that seems will last until every last person standing, whether on Earth or on Helna, is dead?”
“No! I simply—”
“That isn’t going to happen! I’m not going to let you just use me for breeding! I’m not some kind of farm animal!”
“You don’t understand, Yula. This is strictly—”
“No, I don’t think you understand, Jaize. You may have abducted me from my planet, but don’t you dare think that puts you in charge of any aspect of my body. And that includes our child!”
“Christina, wait!”
But I was already standing up from the bed. No matter how wobbly my legs might have been, I couldn’t stand to be near Jaize. Not for one more second. How could he have been so insensitive? And what hurt just as deeply as his willingness to sacrifice a child to a disaster of a war was his view that simply because I was under his roof, I was his for the taking. Did he only view me as an object? That made him no better than Karan!
But what had I expected? It wasn’t like he was the most sensitive of men on the planet. It was stupid to think that he and I might have shared something special, even if just for a brief moment. Nothing that we had experienced together would mean the same thing to him as it did to me. We were a different species after all. What did he know about love?
And wasn’t I getting ahead of myself there? It wasn’t love. Not when the two of us were simply getting to know one another. It had been a moment of weakness on my end, and a moment of victory, of pure animal lust on his end. Pure and simple. There was nothing keeping him attached to me, and it would be stupid of me to hope for that to be a possibility. As soon as I had Lucas, I was going to take my brother and my child off of this planet, no matter what it would take. They were what mattered now, and I would raise them both and make sure they were safe, no matter what Jaize had to say about it.
Chapter 7
Commander Jaize Lorna
“I hope you’re happy,” Malnia said, her eyes shooting daggers into mine. “One of us is going to be a parent.”
I was happy, of course. Ecstatic, really. Out of the two of us, I had always been the one who wanted children the most. But now that I was going to have one, with a human no less, my wife was clearly furious at me.
“You know I wanted you to be the yula to bear my children,” I said as gently as I could. It was a sensitive subject to both of us, and Malnia was prone to bouts of temper. It had been a peaceful few days for me to escape the house for a while and train without having to worry about the feelings of the females I was bound to, but now that I was back, I remembered why it had felt so good to let go of all my marital strife and bed Christina.
What I hadn’t counted on was not being able to get the human out of my head. Everywhere I went, all I could think about was her. It had never been like this with Malnia. Of course, I enjoyed the pleasures of the flesh with her quite thoroughly, but as for keeping my mind occupied, the only thing that had ever done that had been the promise of advancing my career.
“It didn’t work out that way though, did it?” Malnia spat. “If I would have married Volnos, this wouldn’t have happened. His wife already bore him three children! Why did I ever settle for you?”
Her words not only stung, but they made me angry. It had been for her sake that I’d taken on the extra shift with Squad 22, where I had been stricken down with the disease in the first place. Most of the Verians I was working with at the time couldn’t even speak at this point. They were weak and bedridden, their wives not even considering the tragedy of being unable to bear children because they were so terrified that their husbands were going to perish right before their eyes.
“You think you understand everything that is happening, but in reality, you’ve always resented me. Even before.”
“Before what?” Malnia asked, throwing her hands in the air. “Before I realized just how weak you were?”
I wanted so badly to throw it in her face that what she considered a weakness was actually a testament to my strength. The fact that I wasn’t bedridden with this disease, what the human referred to as Project V, was proof that I was made of stronger stuff than most of the men on my entire planet. That I had earned my position of leadership through the merit of my hardiness and the incredible amount of work I put into leading my squad.
But I couldn’t tell her any of this. If she didn’t already see it and understand it enough for herself, then it was clear she would never be happy with me. Still, it would make Malnia and her family look bad if the marriage was dissolved entirely. It was against the law to divorce your mate on Helna. Now only would it dishonor our names, but it would make Malnia ineligible to seek out a new husband. The only way around these laws was for me to either die or go missing, in which case it would be the honorable thing for a man to step up to take care of her.
“I am sorry that you feel that way. I still believe we can make this marriage work,” I said.
It was what I was supposed to say. There was a lot to lose for both of us if we couldn’t stand to live with one another. It would show that we were stubborn, foolish Verians who were not suited to having a life mate. If we couldn’t compromise and find constructive solutions to problems at home, then how were we supposed to be expected to be able to do the same thing but with another Verian? It was a sort of cultural safeguard against toxic relationships.
“It doesn’t matter what happens anymore,” Malnia said. “The males are all off to war or dying in an effort to liberate our people. I have half a mind to go to Earth to start over.”
“Perhaps the laws governing the Verians on Earth will change and we can both benefit from an agreeable separation,” I said with a sigh. “But for now, perhaps it is best if we try to avoid one another.”
“Agreed,” Malnia said, though judging by the look on her face, I had a feeling that she was far from a state of leaving well enough alone. She wanted vengeance, and I could only shudder to guess what she might do to seek it. Her father wouldn’t find it a punishable offense for me to breed with a human; after all, it had been a direct order from the doyan, but what else might Malnia accuse me of so that I lost favor with her father?
I left the room with these concerns on my mind and almost turned to the refuge of the guest bedroom. However, another female was in there. This time, an impregnated, moody human who was furious at the simple fact that I even existed.
The worst part about it was that I truly cared for her. I just had no idea what to do. If I wanted to prove it to her, I could try to rescue her young brother from the prison, but then I would no longer have the leverage I needed for her to cure me of the horrific disease that had been plaguing me for far too long. Not only that, but it would make me appear weak to Malnia and her father, and I would likely lose rank among my people.
I sighed. It seemed there was no winning when it came to developing feelings for this human. It felt worse having her angry at me than it ever had feeling the wrath of Malnia’s temper. At least with Malnia, I knew that most of her reasons for anger were self-centered and unwarranted. But with the human, all I could do was feel terrible for my misdeeds and wish in vain for some way to make it up to her.
Somehow, she had the real power over me. Malnia was right to feel threatened. Christina was the one who occupied my thoughts and motivated my actions. I would just have to choose those actions more carefully from now on. E
specially if I was ever going to find a way to regain her trust.
***
“Jaize, you are needed at the training grounds,” Commander Karhal said. I sighed. It was the third time this week that he had sent me to deal with the most problematic, self-righteous men on the entire force. He knew just how much I loathed going there. None of the Verians there had any respect for authority of any type.
“Right away,” I said, sighing heavily. I walked to the doorway and began pulling on my uniform when a dark form in the hallway caused me to pause.
“Going out again, I see,” Malnia said, a self-satisfied grin on her face. Of course, I knew who was to blame for this. Whenever we had a fight of any kind, she told her father everything from her own perspective. The man took joy in giving me the horrible jobs that nobody else in their right mind would ever want to do. Seeing me struggle to keep my composure with the men in this particular squad seemed to give him great pleasure. He was waiting for the day when my patience would be fully tried, and I would lose my temper in full. Then he would be free to reprimand me in any way that he saw fit.
I was determined not to let it happen, and if I showed even the slightest bit of displeasure to Malnia, it would give my boss a sick satisfaction that made my blood boil. And so I smiled as brightly as I possibly could.
“You know how troublesome many of the troops can be. Particularly those who have been out on the field for a long time, only to be brought home with nothing to do. We will keep their hands busy for a while until it is their turn to be deployed again; don’t you worry about that.”
Malnia’s smile faltered slightly, and I left, an unmistakable sense of satisfaction coursing through me. Still, it didn’t last long. I mounted my thuse, taking a look at the window of the guest room where Christina was laying, her abdomen swollen slightly with child. She was being left alone with my malicious wife, and I had no way of making sure that she was safe. All I could really do was ask the Pelin chef to keep an eye on her, and since we were on friendly terms, or so I liked to believe, I could trust that he would do his best. But the small, hairy man was no match for the power of a Verian’s temper, especially Malnia’s, and it seemed reckless to put them both in harm’s way by leaving.