'Can I take some food for the walk?' he asked. 'I don't have much left.'
'As much as you like,' said Mulholland. 'We've got a stack-load.'
And, still in some state of shock, Barney set about loading up his rucksack, a sack which contained a torch, some firelighters, some matches, a compass, a change of clothes, and his scissors and a comb. Everything a man needed when he was on the run.
Suitably laden with food, his heart lighter than it had been in many weeks – and if he was honest with himself, possibly lighter than it had been in years – he looked down at Mulholland and Proudfoot for the last time.
'Thanks,' he said.
'You saved our lives, Barney,' said Mulholland. 'Thank you.'
'Aye, right. Whatever.'
'Where'll you go?' asked Proudfoot.
Barney drew a deep breath. He took a quick look over his shoulder at the snowscape which awaited him.
'Not sure,' he said. 'Just somewhere I can cut hair, I suppose. Some place where they need a barber. Wherever there are men in search of a steady pair of scissors; wherever there is injustice against the noble art of barbery; wherever there is evil being perpetrated in the name of hirsutology; wherever men are forced to grovel in the pit of abomination in order to receive what every man deserves, you will...'
'Barney?'
'What?'
'If you don't shut up I'm going to arrest you for talking pish. Now bugger off and get going. I've heard enough people talking mince in the last week. So you've got twenty minutes and then we're moving, so you'd better get a shift on 'cause I never want to see you again.'
'Oh. Right then.'
And so, with a wave of the hand, the world's last remaining barber surgeon took his leave of the police officers who had been sent to bring him to justice. Rucksack over his shoulder, boots sinking deep into the snow, Barney Thomson set off on his way. The world ahead was clean and white and untouched and, as long as he did not look back, there was no one else within sight. He was free.
They watched him go for a few minutes without a word, until finally he was lost in the snow and the grey gloom. They turned and looked at one another, but no words were said on the matter. Barney Thomson was gone. Proudfoot wanted to tell Mulholland that he had done the right thing, but the words didn't come out. They saw the tiredness in each other; they both felt it in their bones. But there was nothing that would stop them getting back to civilisation, although who knew what awaited them there. An entire colony of monks had been wiped out before their eyes.
'Right,' said Mulholland, beginning to move. 'It's over. We should get our stuff together and get going. We might still be able to make it back tonight, if not before it gets dark. Then, who knows, we can have a fun-filled few days doing paperwork and talking to pissed-off chief superintendents.'
Proudfoot stood up, realising that her legs were weak. She had faced death; she was exhausted. But she would make it back to the town, no question. There were things to be taken care of.
'When we get back to the hotel, before we announce our return or complete any paperwork...' she said, starting to move necessary items from Edward's rucksack to her own.
'What?' he asked.
'Fancy a shag?'
Mulholland stared at her across a ham sandwich, which he had been contemplating taking a last bite out of before storing it away. Their eyes disappeared into one another, and he bit erotically into the stale bread and dry ham.
'Aye, all right then,' he said.
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Murderers Anonymous
Published by Blasted Heath, 2011
copyright © 2001, 2003, 2011 Douglas Lindsay
A version of this book was published by Piatkus in 2001 and by Long Midnight Publishing in 2003 under the title A Prayer for Barney Thomson
It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas
Silver bells, grey clouds, Christmas-time in the city. Sleigh rides on snow. Santa Claus and bright-eyed children. Mulled wine and mince pies. Tinsel on pine trees, snow falling on oaks. Mistletoe and indiscretions. Peace on Earth, goodwill to men. The baby Jesus, shepherds, the Three Wise Men, Bing Crosby and Perry Como. Ding dong merrily on high, hark! the herald angels sing, good Christian men rejoice. Turkey, sage & onion stuffing and roast tatties. Cold and frosty mornings, sledging on hills of thick snow. School's out, work's closed, cold feet roasting by an open fire. In the air there's the feeling of Christmas.
Of course, it was still only October.
Santa Claus rang a mournful bell outside the St Enoch's centre on Argyll Street. Passers-by gave him barely a glance, though none were surprised to see him. The adverts had already been on television for a month, the decorations already adorned the shops, Cliff Richard had just released some gawping syrupy mince about love and understanding. And so they came and went and some of them dipped into their pockets to toss a desultory coin into the green-tinsel-rimmed red bucket; but most passed on by. It would be many weeks before the majority felt the guilt associated with the time of revelry, and began to hand over wads of dosh to the army of charities. The mournful bell was this scene incarnate. Weary shoppers trudged the precinct, dodging the Big Issue, heads down against the wind. A mild day, but bleak and drab. A hint of rain in the air, the low cloud oppressive. Not a Scottish team left in Europe, the Premier League already decided after the first Old Firm fixture; draws with Latvia, Scotland playing ten men at the back; the parliament going down the toilet, ignoring Glasgow as it went; prices going up, buildings coming down, the summer gone, and all with nothing to look forward to. Except Christmas.
This particular Santa Claus, as it happened, Wee Magnus McCorkindale from Bishopbriggs – Corky Nae Nuts to his pals – was representing no other charity than himself. But who was to know? The occasional passer-by who tossed a dejected coin into his bucket assumed what anyone would.
'Save the Children!' shouted Corky Nae Nuts every few seconds. On the assumption that no one was listening, he occasionally shouted 'Save the Whale!' or 'Save the Rainforest!' or 'Save the Thistle!'
Bleak but mild went the day. Still some in shirtsleeves despite the threat of rain, still women in summer skirts and men in T-shirts. Corky, the poor bastard, was boiling in his thick red jacket and horse-hair beard. Another couple of hours, went his plan, and he would have enough for a weekend at the boozer, a good trip to William Hill's, and maybe even sufficient remaining to tempt Sandra Dougan, a lady of available reputation, into a rampant ten-to-fifteen-minutes.
None of the pedestrians knew what went through this uncomfortable-looking Santa's head; and nor did he know what they were thinking. Which was good. Best not to know the secrets of others. Definitely best not to know.
This year's serial killer emerged from the shopping mall empty-handed and headed off up Argyll Street. Not thinking of Christmas. Hadn't done so in a long, long time. Wearing a jacket and too warm with it. He looked at the women on this grey day, wondered at the clothes and the shoes that some of them wore, but appreciated the acres of skin and cleavage still bared to the warm, dull day. Heard the bell of Corky Nae Nuts, but it penetrated no further than his subconscious at first, for he did not see the dingy red of his last year's Santa outfit. Thinking of nothing much but vague musings on the disintegration of the ozone layer and of moral standards and of the values of the current generation; the rules that now applied that didn't used to, and the rules that applied no longer; the in-your-face generation; the age of marketing, with limited-edition chocolate bars and bags of crisps.
But Corky's bell was loud and eventually, as our killer was already ten yards beyond, the sound penetrated and he turned and looked through the crowd. The bell rang, a pound coin clinked into the bucket and nestled beside a brace of tens. And he did not see Corky Nae Nuts. He saw red.
He saw Santa Claus.
My Name Is Billy
'My name's Billy, and I'm a murderer.'
A ripple of applause circled the room. Ten people clapping slowly, but appreciatively.
'Goo
d lad, Billy,' said a voice, and he was not sure who said it, but it was good to hear. Might have been the blond guy, might have been one of his mates, might have been the Fernhill Flutist, might even have been one of the women, for the voice was lost in his relief.
The applause died away. Billy Hamilton looked around the room, engaging the eyes of a few. A good turnout on this mild evening in mid-December. No football on the TV. The small moustache that had plagued his top lip since he was fourteen was sucked briefly under the confines of his thin bottom lip. His right thumb vigorously rubbed the palm of his left hand. He let go of the moustache then bit his lips. Eventually his eyes settled upon a woman at the back of the small group. Blue jeans, blue jumper, blue shoes, blonde hair and a face that had seen the inside of the occasional women's prison. Katie Dillinger, the leader of the band.
'Well done, Billy. Now, what have you got to tell us all this week?'
The moustache shrugged along with the shoulders.
'Not sure, really, I've not got that much to say,' he said. 'Youse have all heard my story and ...'
'I haven't Billy,' said a young woman, not two chairs away from Hamilton's place in the circle.
'That's right,' said Dillinger. 'It's been a while since you spoke, Billy, and Annie's only been here two weeks. Why don't you tell your story again, then when you've done that, just tell us what you've been up to recently.'
Hamilton looked at Annie Webster and nodded. Not too keen on having to repeat his story for the fifth time since he joined the group – he was counting – but some women were impressed by it, and Annie Webster looked like the kind of woman he might like to impress. Young, blonde, breasts for Britain.
'Sure I won't bore the rest of you with it?' he said, casting his eyes around the room at the people who had become his friends.
'Don't be daft, Billy,' said Arnie Medlock. 'We're all here for you, you know that.'
Hamilton smiled. A new set of friends he'd found at the age of thirty-three. Not many people could say that. And these were real friends, not some fair-weather collection for the good times down the pub on a Friday night. These were people who would put out on your behalf, and Arnie Medlock more than the rest.
He gave Arnie another quick nod of acknowledgement, then prepared to go into his past one more time; albeit not for the last. He rooted his eyes to the floor, licked his lips, rubbed his hands together and took a deep breath.
'It was about six year ago,' he began, and tried to divorce himself from the words as he said them. 'I was working in an accountant's in Hope Street, just up from the station. I'd been there a few year, so I was getting paid well enough to be doing OK with myself. Had a wee place up Great Western Road. My motor was all right. Used to go out on Friday with my mates. Shagged some birds, you know how it is ...' – he cast his first glance at Annie Webster, with an attempted roguish smile, but roguishness was out given the nature of his moustache – '... did a bit of this, a bit of that. Had my season ticket for the Rangers ...'
'We'll cure you of that, if nothing else,' said Medlock, and Hamilton smiled again.
'I had it made, you know. Couldn't have wanted anything else. It'd have been nice if Rangers had been able to get past third-division Maltese sides in Europe, but that aside, life was a bag of doughnuts. But that's the thing, isn't it? You start thinking like that, and you're asking to be shagged. The trouble was, I started having a few problems at work, you know. There was one of those high-fliers there. Graduated a couple of years after me, but the minute he arrived he was angling to be made a partner. In his first year, getting paid buttons, and this bastard was acting like he owned the joint. Course, he got away with it because he was good, I'll give him that, but there were a few of us who would just've loved the chance to knife him in the back.'
He glanced apologetically at Annie Webster, who gave him a reassuring look in return, then he hurried back to the narrative, his voice picking up pace so that it was soon blazing a trail through his tale of jealousy, blackmail, revenge and breakfast cereal.
'So, I think I could still have put up with that, or maybe moved to another company, which I probably could've done because I'm no mug with a ledger, but there was a problem. Got into a wee bit of debt, you know. A few too many trips to the bookies; went to see Scotland in a couple of World Cup qualifiers overseas; doing a bit too much smack at the weekends, you know the score. Got myself into a bit of bother with a money-lender called Sammy the Buddhist out Blantyre way. One of the boys in the boozer put me on to him. Seemed like a decent enough chap at the time, but of course the minute I fell behind with the payments he developed serious designs on my gonads. So, being in a bit of a quandary, I did what any self-respecting accountant would do. I fiddled the books. Did a good job too, mind. Got myself enough cash to pay off Sammy the Buddhist and had enough left over to go to the Juventus game in Italy.'
He looked up, glanced around the room for the first time, received a few nods of encouragement.
'Not bad, you know. I thought I'd got away with it. Course, I couldn't have been more wrong. You see, I'd counted without Mr Garden Rake Up His Arse. The bastard digs the ugly out the books, and next thing you know, I'm sat with him in Smokey Joe's All Night Bar for the Criminally Secretive discussing the terms of his blackmail. 'Cause, you see, for all his whiter than white, arse-sucking, holier than thou bollocks, he was just as much a petty criminal as the rest of us. So he gets down to it, starts taking money off me, and before you know it I'm paying this eejit even more than I'd owed Big Sammy.'
Billy Hamilton leaned forward so that his elbows rested on his knees. Now he was giving Annie Webster his undivided attention. He looked her square in the eye; she accepted his gaze. The air fizzed with tension. He breathed deeply and decided it was cigarette time. Top pocket and his hands were shaking as he took out the smoke and lit up.
'Just take your time, Billy,' said Katie Dillinger.
He inhaled deeply, letting the smoke out slowly.
'Aye, aye, I know,' he said. 'So, I don't know when it happened, or why it happened when it did, but finally I snapped. I just thought, well, fuck you, Batman. Followed him home one night after the pub, when I knew he'd had a few drinks and the edge would be off, then waited until the lights were out, broke in at the back, picked the first implement I could find in the kitchen, went upstairs and killed the bastard. Loved every second of it 'n' all, I have to admit that. I have to admit that,' he said again, his eyes drifting more thoughtfully back to the floor.
'What did you kill him with?' asked Webster, thrilled by the story, her fingers twitching.
'A box of Sugar Puffs,' he said.
'Wow!'
They engaged looks for a while, then he turned away and stared at Katie Dillinger, having misinterpreted the look from Webster. Who was going to be impressed by that, he thought.
'Very good, Billy,' said Dillinger. 'And how do you feel after that? Does it bring it all back? If you were in the same situation today, what would you do?'
He rubbed his hands. He felt the rest of the group staring at him. This was what it was all about. This was why he was here. It was a relaxed setting, they were all friends, but there was still pressure. The pressure to come to terms with what you'd done in the past, and every time he talked about it he betrayed himself; the fact that he was a long, long way from coming to terms with that past. And it was obvious to the whole room that he still felt anger at Lawrence Burr. The sarcastic, condescending bastard.
Would he still have done the same? Bloody right he would.
He sucked on the cigarette again, almost biting the filter off with his lips. He ran the back of his hand across his mouth. He struggled.
'My name's Billy, and I'm a murderer,' he said after a while, his eyes once again rooted to the floor. There were a few nods in sympathy around the room. No one clapped.
The man next to him, Paul Galbraith, Paul 'The Hammer' Galbraith, gripped his arm briefly in encouragement. 'You're a good lad, Billy,' he said.
'And
what about now, Billy?' said Dillinger, knowing she had to get him talking. 'What have you been up to recently? Do you feel there are any stresses on you at the moment?'
Hamilton breathed deeply and stared at the floor. Back to the present. A brief flirtation with the age-old 'Why am I here?' Would he still think about Lawrence Burr if he didn't come to these damned meetings?
'Nothing much. You know I moved to that mob up in Byres Road. Bit of a small concern, but it's all right. At least you don't get arseholes like Burr there, you know. So, all right, I suppose.'
'And what about your new colleague?' said Dillinger. 'You expressed some concerns about him the last time, didn't you?'
Bugger it, he thought, you remember everything. The last time he'd just made some chance remark, nothing more. A chance remark about that odious little cretin, Eason, and now she was giving him the POW camp treatment.
He breathed deeply once more. Count to ten, Billy, he thought. Count to ten. Smoke; deep inhalation.
One ... she's right, all the same. Two ... this is why you're here. Three ... it's not just about coming to terms with the past. Four ... it's about the present, and even more about the future. Five ... you're here to make sure you don't do again what you did to Burr. Six ... there's no way you're going to be so lucky the next time. Seven ... so be honest with yourself as much as with them. Eight ... get it off your chest. Nine ... exorcise your demons, Billy, when you have the support to do it. Ten ... then sever the guy's testicles first chance you get.
'You're right,' he said, looking up at Dillinger. 'You're right. It's the same thing. I mean, the guy's not some prepubescent genius or anything. He ain't the Mozart of accounting, don't get me wrong.'
'So what is it, then?'
'I don't know. He's got the panache of Homer Simpson, he's uglier than some bird showing her wares in Bonkers on a Tuesday night, his hair's a mess, he got his dress sense from eastern Europe, and he thinks just because Abba are in these days, it's cool to like the Brotherhood of Man. I mean, the guy could not be less of a threat. And I realise that that was the problem with Burr. Even before the blackmail started, I felt my position threatened by him. But this guy. I don't know. He's a total Muppet.'
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