by Kim Wilkins
Copyright © 2006 by Kim Wilkins
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Contents
Copyright
Acknowledgments
I
Prologue
One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Nine
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
Thirteen
Fourteen
Fifteen
Sixteen
Seventeen
Eighteen
II
Nineteen
Twenty
Twenty-One
Twenty-Two
Twenty-Three
Twenty-Four
Twenty-Five
Twenty-Six
Twenty-Seven
III
Twenty-Eight
Twenty-Nine
Thirty
Thirty-One
Thirty-Two
Thirty-Three
Thirty-Four
Thirty-Five
Thirty-Six
Epilogue
About the Author
A Preview of The Autumn Castle
SUCCUBUS ARISING
The door slid open. I heard the rain and wind outside. I woke but couldn’t move. My body was stiff, and I felt totally awake within it. I could hear breathing, shallow and creaking.
At that moment she appeared, on all fours, crawling across the floor to lean over me. Her foul stench reached me first: mold and decay and female smells mixed together. She was dressed in rags, her hair like dirty straw, her limbs sturdy and muscular. I tried to scream but no sound emerged.
The hag smiled at me. She climbed on top of me and sat on my chest. She leaned over, her lips close to mine, and I knew she intended to steal my breath. I struggled with my paralysis.
“Get off the island,” she hissed.
PRAISE FOR KIM WILKINS AND THE AUTUMN CASTLE
“Strikes a tantalizing balance between pastoral and grotesque.”
—Publishers Weekly
“Kim Wilkins is delightful and talented . . . Draws the reader into a world of welcome magic and dark imaginings.”
—CHARLES DE LINT, author of The Onion Girl
“Exotic, vivid and believable . . . the perfect blend of sharp-edged realism and lyrically rendered folklore.”
—LYNN FLEWELLING, author of Hidden Warrior and the Nightrunner series
BOOKS BY KIM WILKINS
The Autumn Castle
Ian
Bróthir minn gerthi mér eyju.
Ek fyldi hana sögum.
Acknowledgments
This book provided some of the toughest research challenges I’ve yet had to face. I claim all errors, intentional and unintentional, as my own. However, I’d like to offer my sincerest thanks to the following people for their patience and expertise.
For assistance regarding climatology and meteorology, boreal forest flora and fauna, and general scientific information and logic, thanks to Hamish McGowan and Gerd Dowidheit from the University of Queensland, John Volder of Jan Mayen Station, Fiona Gray and Rob Thompson of the Bureau of Meteorology, Katherine Howell, Lynne Green and David Wilson.
For assistance with Old Norse language and literature and modern Norway and Norwegian language, thanks to Martin Duwell, Kári Gíslason, Stefanie Würth, Vidar Skrindo and Hanne Grønsund.
For island design, office space, and all assistance with boats and nautical knowledge, thanks to my brother Ian Wilkins.
For virtual horse-wrangling, thanks to Janine Haig.
For writerly support, thanks to Kate Morton, Louise Cusack, Traci Harding, Kate Forsyth, Paul Brandon, Drew Whitehead, Selwa Anthony, Faye Booth, Stephanie Smith and Jo Fletcher.
Thanks, too, to my family for the practical stuff, and for the not-so-quantifiable stuff: Mirko, Mum, Luka.
I
Almighty love takes the sons of men,
and makes of wise men fools.
—Hávamál
Prologue
[Asgard]
She had returned, and Vidar knew this before he opened his eyes. Sleep swam away and the morning cold sucked at his nose and cheeks. His senses prickled. Halldisa was nearby. Twice-born. Most mortals came upon the earth, spent their lives, and ceased to exist forever after. But Vidar had been made a promise: Halla would be twice-born. All he had to do was wait.
Centuries of waiting.
And then this morning.
He rose and pulled on his cloak, cracked open the door and peered out. The deep slope of Gammaldal to the northeast hid the expanse of Sjáfjord. Mist hung low in the valley and the grass was jewelled with frost. Nobody in sight. No watching eyes to report back to his father, no waiting tongues to say, “I saw Vidar drawing runes in the seeing-water.” The fjord would be cold, but the thought of Halla warmed his blood.
He stripped to the waist, waded into the shallows and waited—the water icy around his ribs—for the surface to still. He crossed his hands over his chest. Not a movement now, not a breath. He feared that the excited beat of his heart would make the water pulse and jump in harmony. But soon the surface became motionless.
Vidar lifted his hand. With a graceful movement, he traced a circle in the water. Steam rose where he drew. He waited, glancing all around him for watchful eyes, then focused and drew four runes in the circle. His breath crystallized on the morning air as he said her name: “Halldisa.”
At first he could only see his own reflection, dark hair and dark eyes and the pale morning sky behind him. But then another face formed in the water and he recognized her instantly. Storm-eyed, snow-haired. Seeing her face robbed him of his breath. He drew another rune, and whispered, “Where are you?”
Danger, extreme danger. His heart chilled colder than the fjord. Odin’s Island. He glanced to the east, toward the silver roof of his father’s hall, which was hidden behind the miles of misty hills and wooded valleys Vidar had put between him and his family. Memories streamed through him: blood and fire and the helpless shrieks of mortal suffering. “There is no love, Vidar,” his father had said. “There is only fate.”
“Vidar!”
A woman’s voice. His young bondmaid, Aud, had woken and found him missing. With a skilled hand he banished his seeing magic and turned to her, deliberately relaxed. “Good morning, Aud.”
“What are you doing?” she asked, coming to the edge of the water.
“Catching fish.”
Her smile said she didn’t believe him.
He waded from the fjord, dripping and cold. “Come, Aud. You may draw me a hot bath and forget you saw me catching fish in Sjáfjord.”
“I won’t forget,” she said, “but neither will I tell.” She clearly relished being part of his secret.
He spoke no further and she walked beside him in her usual besotted silence. His mind turned the image of Halla over and over; desire warmed his veins, filled his fingers and swell
ed his heart. This time he would make her his.
This time he would protect her from the brutal rage of his father.
One
[Midgard]
This is my story and it’s a love story. Mad, really, as I’m a woman who at the slightest provocation has always cursed lovers for fools. I remember one evening, drunk out of my skull after splitting up with Adam, declaring loudly to all assembled at Embankment station that “Victoria Scott does not believe in love.” And yet, not long after this declaration, not long after the messiest broken engagement in the history of messy broken engagements, this story commences.
This is my story. It’s a love story and it goes like this.
I found myself on the supply boat Jonsok out of Ålesund, heading for Othinsey, an island at zero degrees forty minutes east, sixty-three degrees ten minutes north, or about two hundred nautical miles off the Norwegian coast. I was sick, sick, sick. The crew kept telling me to get up on deck for fresh air, but the fresh air was awash with rain and salt spray. Instead, I lay down, feeling nauseous, on a threadbare sofa in the aft cabin, listening to the hissing of a radio that baffled my every attempt to turn it off.
The ten-hour journey was made worse by the deep pit of misgivings that I mined while I should have been sleeping. Had I done the right thing breaking up with Adam? Should I have accepted so readily this traineeship at an isolated meteorological research station? Was it good sense to continue with my doctorate when academia had long since become dreary and stale for me? My mother had squawked a horrified “No!” on each count. But my mother, bless her heart, was still waiting on the big lottery win she insisted would solve all our problems. In the meantime, I had to try out some solutions of my own.
Eventually the waves gentled, the boat slowed and I knew we must be entering coastal waters. I ventured up the narrow metal stairs to the cold deck for my first glimpse of Othinsey.
We cruised through a passage between two enormous cliff faces into the still waters of Hvítahofud Fjord. I saw grey water and grey rock, dark green grass and trees, and painted red buildings with white windowsills. Those buildings made up Kirkja Station. Here, at the age of twenty-seven, I was about to commence my first job that didn’t involve burning my fingers on a temperamental coffee machine. I was excited and terrified all at once, and felt a strong sense of . . . “destiny” is probably too loaded a word. Perhaps what I felt was a strong sense of being in the right place at the right time.
A tall, neat man with a close grey beard greeted me off the boat. “Good afternoon,” he said, hand extended to help me onto the jetty. “I’m Magnus Olsen, the station commander. We spoke on the phone.”
“Victoria Scott,” I said. “Nice to meet you.” I picked up my suitcase and turned, nearly running into a young man hurrying down the jetty. Magnus steadied me with his arm around my waist.
“Sorry,” the young man said, indicating the Jonsok. “I’m eager to have something from the boat.” He was about my age, rangy and sandy-haired, and attractive in a boyish way, and he spoke in the same faintly accented English as Magnus.
Magnus presented me for inspection. “Gunnar Holm, meet Victoria Scott. Gunnar’s our IT man, and he’s also in charge of your induction. He’ll show you around the station tomorrow.”
“Remind me to tell you about the ghosts,” Gunnar said with a mischievous grin, hurrying onto the boat.
I smiled politely, supposing this was some kind of frighten-the-new-girl joke and wondering why Magnus still had his hand resting in the small of my back. We approached the assembled buildings of Kirkja Station, which all sat on a concrete slab abutting a dense pine forest on two sides. The fjord curved around the other two. The impression was one of civilization vainly making a stand against the deep waters and the ancient trees.
“Come on, Victoria. I’ll introduce you to the others,” Magnus said. “They’re all at the mess hall having Wednesday afternoon drinks. It’s one of our traditions.”
I met all eight people at Kirkja that afternoon, and—sleep-deprived, bewildered—forgot their names as soon as they were spoken. I know them all now, of course, and it was Frida Blegen who made the biggest impression on me. Like me and Gunnar, she was in her twenties (everyone else was well past forty), and she had spiky hair, a swarthy complexion and eel-like lips. As Magnus stood there pointing out faces and assigning them names, I determined to try out some of my beginner’s Norwegian. I said, “Hyggelig å treffe deg,” which means something like “Nice to meet you.” Frida snorted with laughter and I never spoke another word of Norwegian in my whole time on the island.
Finally, Magnus showed me to my cabin, one of nine laid out three-by-three behind the station. Mine was in the farthest corner to the northeast, crowded on two sides by the dark forest. I put down my suitcase at the front door.
“I assigned you this cabin as it’s quieter here,” Magnus explained, extracting the key from his pocket and unlocking the door. “In light of the sleeping problem you mentioned on your employee information form.”
“Oh. Thanks for that.” I’d had to fill out a four-page document about myself and had listed my chronic insomnia in the box headed “psychological disorders for which you have received treatment.”
“The rec hall can get very rowdy at night.” He opened the door and stood back to let me through, giving me six inches of distance from him for the first time since I’d arrived. “I’ll leave you to it. You probably want to unpack and settle in.”
I peered into the cabin. The words “chilly” and “dingy” sprang to mind. “Um . . . yes.”
“I’ll see you in the office at 8:00 A.M. sharp. It’s downstairs in the admin building.” He gave me a charming smile along with the key to the cabin. “I hope you’ll like it here at Kirkja. Sleep well.” With a wave of his hand, he left me alone.
The cabin had clearly been designed with scientists, not artists, in mind. Four perfectly square rooms, all of precisely equal size, stood left and right off a narrow hallway. Left, kitchen; right, lounge; left, bathroom; right, bedroom. There was a pleasing regularity about it. At least I wouldn’t be awake at night shaving off imaginary percentages to make it even in my head. I dropped my suitcase on the dusty gingham bedspread.
The back door stood directly in line with the front door at the end of the hall. Outside, two moldy deck chairs sat on the slab.
Then the forest.
Spring rain fell lightly. I still wore my anorak, so I pulled up the hood and headed a little way into the trees. The smell was wonderful after the diesel and fish smells on the boat (just thinking of that brought back an echo of the nausea). I was about a hundred feet in when I realized I was counting footsteps. I stopped myself, took a breath and banished sums from my head. There was something familiar about this place and I wondered why. Had I been somewhere similar? In my head, I tracked back over places I’d visited and couldn’t recall. The sense of familiarity was very deep, very strong, like a memory from childhood that won’t be pinned down. Mum would know. Had we been on holiday near a forest? Given we were so poor we hardly ever left Lewisham, I couldn’t imagine we had.
Two hundred and forty-eight, two hundred and forty-nine . . .
Damn it, I was still counting. I turned and made my way back to the cabin, subtracting a footstep each time from my total. I used fewer footsteps going back, probably because I was more confident about where I was going. I had eight left over.
Evening shadows crowded in and by the time I had unpacked and eaten the plastic-wrapped sandwich I had bought at Ålesund, I was exhausted: the result of four days of sleep troubled by new-life trepidation. I showered and snuggled under the tie-dyed bedspread.
It was nine o’clock. If I wanted to be at work at 8:00 A.M., I would have to wake up at seven, so I set the alarm on my watch. But maybe I needed to rise earlier, as I had to find the galley. Why hadn’t I asked Magnus what time breakfast was available? Was there food in the cupboards in the kitchen here? Would I have to make my own breakfast? I obsessed
about this for a while, realized it was now eleven o’clock and if I wanted eight hours’ sleep I’d have to nod off precisely then, and of course that chased sleep away. So I calculated some more: most people really only needed seven hours’ sleep so I had an hour to nod off, unless I decided to get up earlier. No, I wouldn’t get up earlier, the galley couldn’t be hard to find. And now it was after midnight, and I was still doing sums and trying to convince myself that six hours’ sleep is all one really needs to feel refreshed and finally I gave up and got out of bed.
I set up my laptop on the coffee table in the lounge room and worked on writing up my thesis. Inside, the light was yellow and the bar heater warmed my toes. Outside, the forest waited, peaceful and cold in the rain; dense and dark and vaguely, vaguely familiar.
Any insomniac will tell you that they can nearly always sleep between 5:00 and 7:00 A.M., which is a pity as this is when most alarm clocks in the world go off. I’d been sleeping for just over an hour when a knock at the door of my cabin woke me. I resisted coming up; I willed the knock to go away. But my visitor knocked again and, with a groan, I pulled myself all the way to wakefulness. Checked my watch. Five minutes to seven.
Gunnar waited on the other side of the door. “Sorry,” he said, when he saw how bleary I looked. “Magnus sent me. He forgot to tell you about breakfast.”
It occurred to me that both my exchanges with Gunnar had commenced with him apologizing to me. “I had some trouble sleeping last night,” I explained.
“Ah. Magnus told us you have insomnia.”
“Not every night. Just when I’m tense. Would you like to come in?”
He slouched in, eyes averted from my blue-hippo pajamas. “Take your time. Get dressed and I’ll show you around the station this morning.”
I had a quick wash, threw on a skivvy and a pinafore, and applied some mascara and some lipstick. I had a phobia about my very pale hair, skin and eyes making me look washed-out. Silly, really, as Gunnar was by far the most eligible man on the island and he had already seen me in my pajamas after a bad night. My mother’s fault: I’d have been far lower maintenance if her most-uttered phrase hadn’t been, “Dress up nice in case there are boys there.”