by Leah Adams
When my eyes did go back to Jay I saw that he had a smirk on his lips. He didn’t look upset, but he didn’t look happy either.
“I didn’t know you had a boyfriend.” Jay told me as if it didn’t even matter.
“I don’t have a boyfriend.” I said then tried to move around him so I could go to my friends. He blocked my way. I glared at him. “Get out of my way.”
“I got you some of that pizza from that place you told Leon about.” He smiled. “Eat it with me.”
I stared widely at him. Did these guys tell each other everything?
“No thank you.”
“Oh come on. Leon likes it; he’s going to eat it all.” Jay put a small smile on his lips and wrapped his hands around my waist. He pulled me close to him. I saw that his eyes started to turn gold. They were no longer there blue, but fully gold. I stared into them not able to look away from them. “Eat with me.”
I felt something coming over me, something that was telling me to say yes. It was over powering. I had felt this before; it was when we were at the club and then again when he had tried to get me to skip school with him.
This was the same feeling, I could almost feel myself tell him ok, but I pushed back that feeling with everything in me.
“No.” I whispered out. I watched as his eyes turned blue again quickly. He then looked angry. “Your eyes they turn from blue to gold.”
“Really, how noticeable of you.” He said looking away from me. He was clearly upset by something, but I just shook off his attitude. “Girls tend not to notice.”
“I don’t know how they don’t.” I told him still watching him closely.
“They tend to be busy with other things.” His eyes looked back at me and I frowned.
Right, I beat you love that. I thought letting my eyes move from him.
I let my eyes look back over at his brothers. Nate eyes where now on us. He smiled at me and looked like he was about to laugh. Leon on the other hand wasn’t paying any attention to us; I guessed the food was more important.
“Well maybe you should go back over there, before you are stuck with nothing to eat.” I told him and then tried to move away from him.
His hands where still wrapped around my waist but he started to pull me closer to him. I could feel he perfect chest against mine and felt slightly weak. “Or maybe I can have some of you.” He whispered in my ear then he let me go.
I didn’t know what he meant by that, but I honestly didn’t want to know what he meant. I watched him walk away from me. He walked back over to his brothers leaving me standing by the café door.
My legs took me over to my friends and I sat down. All of their eyes were on me. Keith had this weird look in his eyes as I sat there saying nothing.
“So.” Madison said with a grin. “Are you Jay newest fling?”
“No.” I and Keith said at the same time.
I stared at Keith and he looked away. Madison dark eyes looked angrily at me. Beth shook her head and placed a hand on Jonathan arm.
“Yeah maybe you can be different.” Jonathan stated with a warm smile.
“Right, it’s ok if you like him?” Reed said his hazel eyes glowing. “I mean the guy was over here like two seconds ago, asking all about you.”
“He was?” I said
Beth shook her head. “Yeah they just told me. It seems like he is really interested in you Bonnie and if you like him you should give him a shot.”
I shook my head trying hard to not pay any mind to Keith eyes.
My eyes then looked over to where Angelica was with Damon. They were outside under a tree. He was kissing her lightly on the lips every few seconds or so. She seemed to really like him, but I just didn’t feel like everything was right with him or his brothers for that matter.
Damon didn’t’ seem like the kind of guy a girl would want for a boyfriend. Yeah he was very good looking, but didn’t she want more than just looks? He didn’t really like her so why was he still acting like he did?
I then looked over at Jay and saw he was laughing at whatever Nate had just said. He then looked at the pizza that Leon was eating only to look over at me. His eyes stared into mine briefly making me shift slightly in my chair, but I kept my eyes on him wondering just what he could be hiding.
The rest of lunch I just kept my eyes going to Ang then to Jay. I was keeping a close watch on both of them. I wasn’t sure why I kept looking at Jay but my eyes just seemed like they were always taking me to him.
I tried to also pretend that I was listening to Keith and the rest of my friends. I was happy that Madison tried to keep Keith attention on her, but I wasn’t too happy that she kept glaring at me when he didn’t listen to her.
Beth had ever so often looked up to look at Ang and then me. Her eyes would give off this knowing look of understanding. Jonathan ever so often would mess around with Beth blonde hair and get her to laugh. He must have seen the way she would frown when she looked at me. Reed tried to keep the mood light by making stupid jokes about anything at all.
None of these things made me feel better about having to watch my friend with Damon. I knew he was using her and yet in still could do nothing. Something told me if I told her what I thought she wouldn’t believe me. It was like she was under some kind of spell when it came to Damon.
When lunch was almost over a girl that I didn’t know had walked up to Jay. Her longish dark brown hair bounced all around her shoulders. She smiled at Jay and said something. Jay smiled at her and they both started to talk.
I saw out of the corner of my eyes that my friends where looking at me. I even saw that Leon grey eyes were staring at me briefly. I didn’t know why all of their eyes were on me. It wasn’t like I cared, so much.
The rest of my day passed by quickly just the way I liked it and I didn’t even realize it was over until the last bell rung. Leon hadn’t come to class again and I wondered why he hadn’t come, when he and his brother had been in school the whole morning.
I left my class in a rush and didn’t even stop at my locker. I just hurried to my car. When I got to the parking lot, I saw that the forbidden four cars were all gone all but Jay’s. I frowned looking all around me trying to see if I saw him anywhere.
“Bonnie can I talk to you?”
I turned and saw Keith standing right by me with wide eyes. He looked like he was thinking really hard about something and this worried me.
“Sure.” I said looking at my car wishing I hadn’t stopped and just hurried to my car.
“Well I was wondering, if you were doing anything this weekend?” He asked suddenly and I looked back at him not knowing what to say. “I know we are friends and everything, but maybe we could see if-well you know….”
He started to mumble and I wasn’t able to understand him. I thought about it. Keith was good looking in a way I guessed. But I hadn’t ever looked at him that way. He was like my brother and I felt weird even talking to him about something like this.
“I have to see if my parents will be ok with me going out. You know how they are.” I told him with a smile. That wasn’t a no or a yes, really. It was the safest thing I could think of until I knew what I wanted to do.
Keith seemed to take it as a yes because a huge smile went across his face. “Great, if I have to meet them again or anything I will.”
I shook my head. “Ok.”
“Ok, I’ll call you later.”
“Ok.” I said to him growing uncomfortable for some reason.
“Bye.” He walked off.
When he was gone I went off to my car and got in. I didn’t know what I was going to do about this. I didn’t really want to go out with him, but I guessed I could give it a try, at least for him.
I tried to start my car and saw that it wouldn’t start. I tried again, whispering to the car telling it how much I loved it, but still got nothing.
Today just wasn’t going to be my day. I thought as I got out of my car.
I pulled out my phone and dialed my father
number. It rang countless times. I whispered please answer. I didn’t want to have to call my mom.
“Hello, what’s wrong Bonnie?” I heard my dad ask.
“My car won’t start.” I said wanting to laugh at the fact he knew something was wrong.
“Okay, I can get someone out there. Are you going to be ok out there by yourself?” He asked.
“Dad I can just walk home.” I told him not wanting him to worry.
“Are you sure?”
“Yes, I’m not a little girl dad.” I laughed. “And it if I get too tried from walking I have a few dollars on me to catch a bus.”
“Ok just call me when you get home ok.” He sounded like he didn’t like this but wasn’t going to fight me if it was what I wanted to do.
“Ok, bye.”
“Bye.”
We both hung up.
I looked at my car and sighed. After I got my book bag from the car I began to walk out of the parking lot and off to the sidewalk that would take me home. I looked at the open forest that was right by the sidewalk.
If I walk in there I can get home faster. I thought. There weren’t any big animal in this part of the forest, so I should be ok.
I began to walk into the forest trying not to fall on some of the uneven ground, but I wasn’t that careful on a few steps. I was just happy that I didn’t twist my ankle again.
After I had gotten halfway though some of the forest I heard someone laughing. I turned my head and saw nothing, but kept hearing the laughing. I decided to follow it.
My mind kept telling me I was being stupid for following the laughter, but I didn’t listen to it.
When I got close to the laughing I saw that it was the same girl that had been talking to Jay earlier at lunch. She was laughing as Jay kissed her down her neck.
I wanted to scream. This was the second time I had caught him making out with a girl. He was such a playboy. He had a lot of nerve to act like he liked me. Just when I was about to walk away I noticed something weird.
Her skin was slowly becoming so pale that it looked like it was lifeless. I saw his lips go on hers and that seemed to make it worst. Her eyes were closed but I could see rings began to form around her eyes. I bit back a scream.
Jay body began to look different. His skin began to glow brightly and I watched as the leaves that where on the ground began to lift all around them. I couldn’t help but stare in fear at what I was seeing.
This can’t be real. I told myself. This can’t be real. Stuff like this doesn’t happen.
I moved back from my spot and fell. The leaves under my feet made a bit of noise and Jay lips went from the girls’ now lifeless body.
Jay eyes turned to look at me. They were glowing gold and staring hardly at me. His eyes looked like they were shooting fire right at me and I found myself frozen in the spot that I had fallen at.
He let go of the girl’s body and it hit the ground softly. I stared at the girl’s body and watched as all of the leaves that were floating in the air fell to the ground.
In a blink of an eye he was standing right before me. My eyes stared widely up at him. I couldn’t understand what was going on. Everything in my body was screaming this was a dream this was a dream.
“You saw.” Jay said with a frozen smile on his face. His hand reached out for me and that’s when I got up quickly then ran for my life.
I kept running hoping that he wouldn’t kill me. I wasn’t running that fast. I felt it was because I was too scared to even think straight to make my legs move faster. Then as if my feet were telling me that I wasn’t a runner, I fell hard on the ground.
My arms tried to push my body up, but I kept falling down. I turned my head around and saw nothing. I began to think maybe I had just thought I had seen Jay and that girl. Maybe I didn’t see anything at all. Maybe my mind was playing tricks on me.
When I turned my head back around I saw him standing there looking down at me with golden eyes. He reached out for me and I allowed my fear to let me fall into darkness.
Chapter 9
Searching
This feeling I was having felt good. Even in all of this darkness, I felt like there was a light that was around me. It was a light that had me wrapped around in its arms and wasn’t going to let me go.
I could feel this light over powering me. I wanted it to devour me and never let go. It made me feel so good, even with my head feeling as if I had been shook over and over again. Even with my head hurting all I could think was, I didn’t want this light to leave me.
The light was holding me like I was the most special person in the world. I didn’t deserve this. I shouldn’t be held like this. I wasn’t special.
I had to be dying. I had to be living this world. I thought. It was the only way I could be feeling this way.
“I’m dying.” I whispered out loud. I had to be dying.
I felt a hand go across my face and I shivered. This made me jump up. My surroundings began to come into the picture. I saw I was in my room.
It was dark and this made me wonder if I had been dreaming. I got up from my bed then looked at the window that was in my room. The night sky was coming into my room and it made me put my arms around myself.
Jay flowed to my mind and I closed my eyes. Had I really seen what I thought I saw? Had he really sucked the life out of that girl or moved the way he had?
Was he human?
No, I don’t believe in that kind of stuff. He is human, but he had blue eyes that turned a golden color-a kind of golden that wasn’t natural for a human. Then there were the girls that after going out with him or his brothers that would come back so lifeless. With the missing people, like Brenda, to how everyone had seemed like they listened to their every word.
I remembered what Angelica had told me, about how even her mother had seemed so easy going when Damon had talked to her about coming into her house alone with Ang, then how Ang acted like she was obsessed with Damon.
Yeah, she had crushes on the forbidden four. I thought. And that was just it. She had crushes on all of the brothers, but she wasn’t obsessed. Through now it seemed she was and with just one, Damon. In fact she had said she liked Jay more, so what had changed her mind. What had made her become so obsessed with him, that she didn’t even care about what happened to me in that club?
Even more so, she would have never done anything like that to me. I began to think and then another thought came to my mind. What about how she saw herself in the mirror when she was with Damon? Why in the world was she still so ready to still be with Damon?
Something wasn’t right with the picture.
There were too many answers to those questions and I needed to know. I wanted to see how this could be true, needed to know the truth behind the tales that the forbidden four was telling everyone.
I was scared. I thought at that very moment. I could feel my body shaking from the fear that I was feeling. Bumps crawled up my skin at the worst possible thoughts enter my mind.
What if the truth wasn’t going to set me free? What if the truth was only going to take me to a place that I wasn’t ready to go?
”You saw.” The words played over and over in my head like an endless chain of a horrible emotion. I didn’t want to think about this. I didn’t need to know this, but I wanted to know this.
I could remember the way Jay eyes looked at me. His eyes were so different, then I could ever remember them looking. They were so soulless.
If I had seen what he had did to that girl, why hadn’t he killed me?
”You saw.”
I had seen, so why was I still alive.
Maybe it had been a dream. Maybe it had been something I had created in my head because of everything I had thought they had done.
”You saw.”
There was no way it had been real. These kinds of things don’t happen. I lived in the real world, not a fantasy world.
”You saw.”
His voice, his words, was so real to me. Could it all have b
een a dream or was I just trying to lie to myself so I wouldn’t have to face the truth?
“Bonnie.” I heard my father voice asked outside of the door. I then heard him gave the door a light knock. I stared at the door not knowing how to speak.
I watched him as he walked into my room. His eyes stared into mine and he looked confused, like he didn’t know why I was looking at him like I was: afraid.
“Are you ok?” My father asked as if he didn’t know what else he could have asked. He walked over to me and touched my shoulder. “Bonnie.”
I shook my head yes and looked over at my desk. “How long have you been home?” I asked, trying to keep my voice even.
“I came right home earlier when you didn’t call me back.” He said quickly. “And you didn’t even answer your phone, so I came to see if you were ok and I found you in your room sleep. Bonnie you could have at least called before you took a nap, you had me worried sick.”
“I’m sorry dad.” I said, now realizing that this wasn’t a dream at all.
My car had broken down and I had walked because of that. That was when I saw Jay. It hadn’t been some nightmare that I had wanted to make it be.
I wasn’t a believer of these things. This wasn’t at all what I had thought it could be. It was so much worst. I had to be over reacting. There was no way I had seen what I thought I saw.
“Bonnie are you listening to me?” My dad voice broke my thoughts. I turned to look at him. I stared blankly at him not fully aware that he was there. “Are you still kind of asleep?”
“No, I’m sorry.” I said trying to regain my focus. “Just thinking about homework, is all. I have a test coming up.”
“Oh, well your junior year is one of the most important. Speaking of which do you know what college you are going to apply for this summer. You should start applying this summer. Better chances.” He told me and I heard his every word, but I wasn’t really listening. My mind was on the forbidden four.
For a moment I wondered, what if they weren’t human. What if they were something else? What if I did believe in that sort of thing? What if they were the ones that did these bad things to the girls? What if they were the reason why all those people were missing? What happens now? Was I going to tell someone I had this idea or was I going to keep it to myself and forget such a crazy idea?