by Tia Wylder
“And I always will.”
Pulling away from Gianna was incredibly hard, but I managed to free myself from her grip and put the wine glasses on a tray before handing it to Gianna.
“So,” I said, winking at Gianna. “Should we go listen to what your batshit crazy parents have to say?”
Gianna flushed. “I think that’s our only choice,” she replied softly. “After you.”
And with a deep breath, I led Gianna back to the living room where Anne and Carter awaited us like appointed sentinels.
Chapter 15
Gianna
“Here,” I said, unceremoniously handing my mother and father a glass of wine each. “Now tell me why you’re here.”
My mom looked at my dad with her eyebrow raised. “Oh, Gianna, the particulars don’t matter,” she replied, waving her hand in the air. The rings on her fingers glittered under the bright light of the chandelier. “We’re just happy to see you!”
“Bullshit,” I said, shaking my head. “If you were happy to see me, you wouldn’t have hired that bitch of a private investigator to kidnap me and tie me up in a hotel room!”
Mom looked shocked, but Dad took a sip of his wine and leaned against the back of the couch.
“Gianna, don’t exaggerate,” Dad said. He narrowed his eyes. “I’m sure it wasn’t nearly that bad.”
I glared at him. “It was,” I affirmed. “It was really awful. We were in a car crash, and when I woke up, I could barely feel my hands! And my feet were tied, too,” I added, glaring at my parents. “And you’re trying to tell me this is nothing to worry about?”
Mom frowned. “Well, honey, I didn’t tell them to hurt you,” she said. She looked troubled.
“But she’s not hurt, is she?” My father interjected. “She looks just fine to me.”
“Well, now I do,” I shot back angrily. “But you should’ve seen me! That bitch was threatening to ruin my life unless I went back to Boston to live with you and marry that old asshole!”
To my surprise, my father laughed. “Well, that’s completely unnecessary now.”
I blinked. “Why?” I asked unsteadily. “What changed? I can’t imagine you had a change of heart,” I added bitterly. “You never cared about me anyway, I was just a stupid pawn for you!”
“Gianna, that’s out of line,” my father thundered. “I did everything for you and Diane! It’s not my fault if you’re too stupid or too selfish to see it!”
“Fuck you,” I muttered under my breath.
My mother got to her feet, glaring at me and then turning to my father. “Carter, this is out of line,” she said. “Gianna is an adult, and she’s fulfilled exactly what you wanted for her. Sure, it didn’t happen on our terms…but I don’t think that’s a reason to be upset.”
“What?” I blinked. “What are you even talking about? I didn’t do what you wanted,” I clarified. “I ran away and met someone I actually love!”
Dad smirked at me. “Yes,” he said. “I can see that.”
Throughout the conversation, Barnes had been noticeably silent. I thought his leg was bothering him and I reached out to hold his hand. But when I looked up at his face, I saw that he was obviously troubled.
“What’s wrong?” I asked Barnes. “Are you okay?”
My parents were silent as they watched us.
“Gianna,” my father said slowly. “The trick is up. You can be honest with us now – but cut the bullshit, okay? No more of your self-pity.”
I frowned. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
My father frowned. “You’ve married Barnaby,” he said. “So, although we would prefer it if you returned to Boston and quit your rather sordid life of acting…well, I’m sure you’ll be fine.
Barnaby will take good care of you.”
I blinked. “I don’t understand,” I said slowly. “What are you talking about? This is Barnes – Barnes Harrington, he’s a director and a writer for the soap opera.”
My father chuckled indulgently as if I were a little kid waiting for his praise. “Right,” he said. “Barnes, tell me – why did you lie to my daughter?”
“Come on, tell the truth,” I said, turning to Barnes. “Tell him you have no idea what he’s talking about! I mean, you don’t, do you?”
Silence hung heavily in the air, and my heart slowed to a dull stop in my chest. For a moment, I couldn’t hear anything but the blood pounding in my ears.
“Barnes, tell him,” I said again, taking Barnes’s hand and squeezing it. “Tell him you don’t know what he’s talking about.”
Barnes took a deep breath and shifted, wincing slightly as his injured leg moved on the couch. “Gianna, I—“
“Gianna, he lied to you about his name,” my father said in an infuriatingly even voice. “His real name is Barnaby, and he’s the son of a dear friend of mine. Of course, we’d always hoped that the two of you would marry. That’s why your mother and I were so insistent on it!”
“It’s true,” Barnes said after a long silence.
“What?” My jaw dropped. “How…how could you? How could you lie to me like that?” Tears sprang to my eyes, and I blinked them back, desperate not to cry in front of my parents. “How could you, Barnes?”
“I’ve always hated my name,” Barnes said. “And I’ve gone by Barnes since I was a little kid – that didn’t feel like lying!”
“But you knew,” I insisted hotly, leaping up from the couch and spilling my wine on the carpet.
“You knew!”
“I didn’t,” Barnes shot back hotly. “I had no idea you were Anne and Carter’s daughter – I can barely even remember meeting them for Christ’s sake! I haven’t seen them since I was a teenager!”
I felt stunned and shocked and hurt. It was like someone had reached inside my chest and ripped my heart out – the pain was so intense that I could hardly stand it.
“Barnes…” I trailed off as the tears finally began to fall down my cheeks. “Why? Why would you do this to me?”
Barnes’s face was contorted into a mask of pain and grief. “I didn’t know,” he said quietly. “I swear if I had known…”
I couldn’t believe it – I’d done the very thing that I’d sworn against. Suddenly, I hated myself. I was no better than the spoiled, silly little Gianna DiFaba who had run away from Boston with naïve hopes of becoming a famous actress. I was such an idiot: I thought that I’d moved past my own shortcomings and into my own. But instead, I’d only followed the path that my parents had narrowly set for me since the very day I’d been born.
I felt sick and disgusted as I stormed out of the room and locked myself in the master bedroom. Behind me was a loud torrent of voices, quickly escalating into an argument, but I could barely hear them over the sound of my tears. I grabbed a small suitcase from the closet and started throwing all of my clothes inside, packing it as tightly as I could. I wasn’t even paying attention to what I grabbed, so random pairs of underwear and socks flew through the air. Soon, the bedroom was a complete mess.
When I heard a familiar knock at the door, I froze.
“Gianna, let me in,” Barnes said. His voice was pleading and kind. “Please, I need to talk to you.”
I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down. But it was useless now. My belly was a hot dragon of anger, and all I wanted to do was run away. I never wanted to see Barnes or my parents again – how could I possibly face them when they’d all set me up so exquisitely?
“Gianna, please,” Barnes growled. “This wasn’t my fault – I never intended to deceive you!”
At this point, I didn’t even care whether his remarks were true or not. All I cared about was getting the hell out of there.
“Go away!” I yelled. “I don’t want to talk to you!”
“Gianna, be an adult,” Barnes snapped. “Don’t do this. You’re making a huge mistake.”
I stomped over to the door and yanked it open, seething angry. “I can’t talk to you right now. I’m too ang
ry,” I replied hotly.
Barnes put his hands on my shoulders. “Gianna, I love you,” he said. “And who cares if your parents wanted us to get married? That’s not why we did,” he added. “We got married because we love each other. And if this gets your parents off your back, then good – that’s what I want.”
I swallowed hard. When I was staring him in the face like this, it was hard to think rationally. I knew that I loved him – of course, I did. But I felt so hurt and betrayed and angry that I couldn’t even think straight.
Turning away from Barnes, I grabbed my suitcase from the bed and stormed out of the room. I pushed past him and into the hallway, then stalked into the living room where my parents were still sitting, sipping their wine and looking perfectly content if a bit confused.
“Gianna, don’t do anything you’re going to regret,” my mother said. “Please – think about this.”
Her words filled me with a hot, new fury that made my previous anger look almost innocent.
“Great,” I snapped hotly. “So, because I married the man I want you’re going to treat me like a decent person now? But when you didn’t know it was him, you were more than willing to have someone kidnap me and blackmail me, just to get me to come home!”
My mother looked as if I’d slapped her in the face, and for a moment I wondered if I’d gone too far. But when my father spoke, any trace of doubt or regret disappeared instantly.
“Gianna, you're a spoiled brat,” he said. “I always knew Barnaby was perfect for you, and if you’d had an ounce of good grace or sense, you would have listened to me like a good daughter. Look at your sister! She never demands anything, and she does everything we tell her. Don’t you think you would be happier if you were more like her?”
Dropping my suitcase, I stalked across the room and slapped my father in the face. I didn’t even have to think about it – it was completely involuntary. The sound rang out like a gunshot, and for a moment, my father went totally white in the face. He stared at me in shock, then narrowed his eyes and glared at me angrily.
“This isn’t even about your marriage, is it,” my father hissed. “This is about your pride! Your stupid, selfish, pride!”
I didn’t want to agree with him or give him the satisfaction of knowing that he was right, so I simply stood there and glared.
“Tell me I’m right!” My father thundered loudly. “Tell me!”
“Carter, stop it,” my mother said, taking my father by the arm and attempting to force him back onto the couch. “Stop yelling at her!”
“She deserves it! For her entire life, she’s been nothing but a spoiled, silly, stupid brat! And now she’s angry because she realized that we finally know better for her than anyone on this planet!”
My father’s angry words cut me to the bone, and for an instant, I felt that I was capable of murder. I imagined how it would feel to kill the man who had always tried so hard to control me, to show him that he wasn’t the ultimate powerful force in my life. But then that urge died away, and with its loss came a feeling of grief so profound that I could hardly breathe.
“She knows it’s true,” my father continued. He gave my mother a smug smile. “She’ll get over it in time. They always do.”
“I’m leaving,” I yelled loudly. I grabbed my suitcase and clutched it with a white-knuckled grip. “And with any luck, I’m never coming back here for the rest of my life!”
And with those final words, I stormed out of the house I had once considered paradise.
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The next week was harder I ever could have possibly imagined. Since I didn’t know where else to go, I checked back into the Crown Jewel hotel. I felt so stupid, going back there, but it wasn’t like I had a choice. Barnes and my parents had thoroughly humiliated me, and I wasn’t sure that I could ever face them again.
I even thought about quitting Heaven Cove. I would’ve done it, too, had my personal supply of money not been dwindling. I’d spent a ton of money redecorating the condo that I’d shared with Barnes, and I was down to practically nothing – I even had to put my Crown Jewel suite on one of my new credit cards.
But deep down, I knew I couldn’t quit the soap. When Monday morning rolled around, I got up early and took a long shower before making sure I looked like a total bombshell before leaving the hotel. I wanted Barnes to see me and realize what a giant mistake he’d made. I wanted him to look at me and want me more than he’d ever wanted another woman.
And most of all?
I just wanted to see Barnes. I missed him desperately. The first night I stayed in the Crown Jewel, I cried myself to sleep. It wasn’t the same without him – I kept reaching out and snuggling against a pillow for comfort. And in the morning, I’d woken up so sure that Barnes was snoring beside me. The sight of the sun streaming in through the hotel windows was enough to break my heart all over again.
I knew that logically, I shouldn’t be angry with Barnes. After all, he hadn’t schemed his way into my life…I was the one who had first picked him up! But whenever I thought of the smug look on my father’s face, not to mention his venomous words, I was filled with an incredible hot anger that left me sick to my stomach. I was worried that now, Barnes would be forever tainted for me. What if I could never look at him again without thinking of my parents?
It was a horrible thought – and one that I didn’t feel like revisiting, even if it kept popping up in my head.
When I got to the set, I walked in wearing a scarf tied around my neck and a big pair of sunglasses that hid my eyes. I went straight to the dressing room and allowed the costume and make-up people to fawn over me all morning. There was no sight of Barnes, and every time the door opened, my palms got sweaty, and my heartbeat sped up. I realized that as much as I wanted to stay angry with him, it just wasn’t possible. Well, I’ll just have to do a damn good job of pretending, I thought. Because what the fuck else can I do?
Eric called the cast together for a short meeting before we began shooting. He cleared his throat and pulled out a sheaf of papers.
“I wanted you all to know that Heaven Cove has been nominated for a screenwriting award,” Eric said. When he glanced to the right, I followed his gaze. My heart sank when I saw Barnes leaning against the wall with his arms crossed over his muscular chest. The inside of the studio was lit poorly, but Barnes was still wearing his sunglasses. He looked terrible. His tanned skin was pale and sallow, and his hair was greasy. When we locked eyes, he tossed his head and focused all of his attention on Eric’s words. To my dismay, I saw that the other women of the Heaven Cove cast were staring at Barnes with newfound admiration in their eyes.
“To Barnes Harrington,” Eric said, smirking as he held up the paperwork. “Without him, we’d still be a dinky little soap that no one gives a fuck about.”
Barnes smiled and stepped forward to accept Eric’ praise, but I could tell he was faking. He kept his eyes low to the ground as Eric passed over the papers.
“Thanks,” Barnes said. He smirked. “This means a lot. And to think -- there were people who said I’d never amount to anything other than a divorce lawyer.” When Barnes spoke, he glanced at me over the tops of his sunglasses. I shivered at the intense look in his eyes.
The cast and crew clapped and whistled for Barnes. I glared at the other women with envy, feeling suddenly possessive of my estranged husband. This is my fault, I thought as I stared at my cast mates’ eyes dripping over Barnes’s good looks. If only I hadn’t been so stupid! But my moment of self-pity didn’t last long. When I saw a smug smile spread itself over Barnes’s face, I felt a flicker of anger ignite in my heart. But he lied to me, I remembered. And if he hadn’t lied, we wouldn’t be in this mess in the first place!
It was crazy. We were newlyweds – we should’ve been happier than anyone else in the room. For god’s sake, we’d just gotten back from our honeymoon! And yet whenever I looked at Barnes, I felt my stomach twist into anxious cramps. And somehow, even though I knew he wasn’t about to te
ll anyone, I had a feeling that he felt the very same way.
Thankfully, I was only in a few scenes that day. I spent most of my time in the green room, staring down at my script even though I already had it memorized. When it was time for me to go home, I changed into my street clothes as quickly as possible. I ran a brush through my hair and pulled it into a low knot at the back of my neck before grabbing my purse and leaving the green room.
“Gianna.”
The sound of my name made me stop cold. When I turned around, I saw Barnes standing there in the hallway. Up close, he looked even more miserable than he’d looked before.
“I have to go,” I lied. “I’m meeting someone.”