The Marquess took his foot down, and sighed.
‘Really, I’m very much obliged to you. I’m delighted to think it will go to a good home.’
‘If you care to come and see it at any time –’ Soames checked himself. An old fellow with one foot in the House of Lords and one in the grave, and no difference between them, to speak of – as if he’d want to come!
‘That would be delightful,’ said the Marquess, with his eyes wandering, as Soames had suspected they would. ‘Have you your own electric plant there?’
‘Yes,’ and Soames took out his cheque-book. ‘May I have a taxi called? If you hang the still-lifes a little closer together, this won’t be missed.’
With that doubtful phrase in their ears, they exchanged’ goods, and Soames, with the Morland, returned to Green Street in a cab. He wondered a little on the way whether or not the Marquess had done him, by talking about a transaction between gentlemen. Agreeable old chap in his way, but as quick as a bird, looking through his thumb and finger like that!…
And now, in his daughter’s ‘parlour’ he said :
‘What’s this about Michael electrifying slum kitchens?’
Fleur smiled, and Soames did not approve of its irony.
‘Michael’s over head and ears.’
‘In debt?’
‘Oh, no! Committed himself to a slum scheme, just as he did to Foggartism. I hardly see him.’
Soames made a sound within himself. Young Jon Forsyte lurked now behind all his thoughts of her. Did she really resent Michael’s absorption in public life, or was it pretence – an excuse for having a private life of her own?
‘The slums want attending to, no doubt,’ he said. ‘He must have something to do.’
Fleur shrugged.
‘Michael’s too good to live.’
‘I don’t know about that,’ said Soames; ‘but he’s – er – rather trustful.’
‘That’s not your failing, is it, Dad? You don’t trust me a bit.’
‘Not trust you!’ floundered Soames. ‘Why not?’
‘Exactly!’
Soames sought refuge in the Fragonard. Sharp! She had seen into him!
‘I suppose June wants me to buy a picture,’ he said.
‘She wants you to have me painted.’
‘Does she? What’s the name of her lame duck?’
‘Blade, I think.’
‘Never heard of him!’
‘Well, I expect you will.’
‘Yes,’ muttered Soames; ‘she’s like a limpet. It’s in the blood.’
‘The Forsyte blood? You and I, then, too, dear.’
Soames turned from the Fragonard and looked her straight in the eyes.
‘Yes; you and I, too.’
‘Isn’t that nice?’ said Fleur.
Chapter Eight
THE JOLLY ACCIDENT
IN doubting Fleur’s show of resentment at Michael’s new ‘stunt’, Soames was near the mark. She did not resent it at all. It kept his attention off herself, it kept him from taking up birth control, for which she felt the country was not yet quite prepared, and it had a popular appeal denied to Foggartism. The slums were under one’s nose, and what was under the nose could be brought to the attention even of party politics. Being a town proposition, slums would concern six-sevenths of the vote. Foggartism, based on the country life necessary to national stamina and the growth of food within and overseas, concerned the whole population, but only appealed to one-seventh of the vote. And Fleur, nothing if not a realist, had long grasped the fact that the main business of politicians was to be, and to remain, elected. The vote was a magnet of the first order, and unconsciously swayed every political judgement and aspiration; or, if not, it ought to, for was it not the touchstone of democracy? In the committee, too, which Michael was forming, she saw, incidentally, the best social step within her reach.
‘If they want a meeting-place,’ she had said, ‘why not here?’
‘Splendid!’ answered Michael. ‘Handy for the House and clubs. Thank you, old thing!’
Fleur had added honestly:
‘Oh, I shall be quite glad. As soon as I take Kit to the sea, you can start. Norah Curfew’s letting me her cottage at Loring for three weeks.’ She did not add: ‘And it’s only five miles from Wansdon.’
On the Friday, after lunch, she telephoned to June:
‘I’m going to the sea on Monday – I could come this afternoon, but I think you said Jon was coming. Is he? Because if so –’
‘He’s coming at four-thirty, but he’s got to catch a train back at six-twenty.’
‘His wife, too?’
‘No. He’s just coming to see Harold’s work.’
‘Oh! – well – I think I’d better come on Sunday, then.’
‘Yes, Sunday will be all right; then Harold will see you. He never goes out on Sunday. He hates the look of it so.’
Putting down the receiver, Fleur took up the time-table. Yes, there was the train! What a coincidence if she happened to take it to make a preliminary inspection of Norah Curfew’s cottage! Not even June, surely, would mention their talk on the phone.
At lunch she did not tell Michael she was going – he might want to come, too, or at least to see her off. She knew he would be at ‘the House’ in the afternoon, she would just leave a note to say that she had gone to make sure the cottage would be in order for Monday. And after lunch she bent over and kissed him between the eyes, without any sense of betrayal. A sight of Jon was due to her after these dreary weeks I Any sight of Jon was always due to her who had been defrauded of him. And, as the afternoon drew on, and she put her night things into her dressing-case, a red spot became fixed in each cheek, and she wandered swiftly, her hands restive, her spirit homeless. Having had tea, and left the note giving her address – an hotel at Nettlefold – she went early to Victoria Station. There, having tipped the guard to secure emptiness, she left her bag in a corner seat and took up her stand by the bookstall, where Jon must pass with his ticket. And while she stood there, examining the fiction of the day, all her faculties were busy with reality. Among the shows and shadows of existence, an hour and a half of real life lay before her. Who could blame her for filching it back from a filching Providence? And if anybody could, she didn’t care! The hands of the station clock moved on, and Fleur gazed at this novel after that, all of them full of young women in awkward situations, and vaguely wondered whether they were more awkward than her own. Three minutes to the time! Wasn’t he coming after all? Had that wretched June kept him for the night? At last in despair she caught up a tome called Violin Obbligato, which at least would be modern, and paid for it. And then, as she was receiving her change, she saw him hastening. Turning, she passed through the wicket, walking quickly, knowing that he was walking more quickly. She let him see her first.
‘Fleur!’
‘Jon! Where are you going?’
‘To Wansdon.’
‘Oh! And I’m going to Nettlefold, to see a cottage at Loving for my baby. Here’s my bag, in here – quick! We’re off!’
The door was banged to, and she held out both her hands.
‘Isn’t this queer, and jolly?’
Jon held the hands, and dropped them rather suddenly.
‘I’ve just been to see June. She’s just the same – bless her!’
‘Yes, she came round to me the other day; wants me to be painted by her present pet.’
‘You might do worse. I said he should paint Anne.’
‘Really? Is he good enough for her?’
And she was sorry; she hadn’t meant to begin like that ! Still – must begin somehow – must employ lips which might otherwise go lighting on his eyes, his hair, his lips! And she rushed into words: Kit’s measles, Michael’s committee, Violin Obbligato, and the Proustian School; Val’s horses, Jon’s poetry, the smell of England – so important to a poet – anything, everything, in a sort of madcap medley.
‘You see, Jon, I must talk; I’ve been in prison for a
month.’ And all the time she felt that she was wasting minutes that might have been spent with lips silent and heart against his, if the heart, as they said, really extended to the centre of the body. And all the time, too, the proboscis of her spirit was scenting, searching for the honey and the saffron of his spirit. Was there any for her, or was it all kept for that wretched American girl he had left behind him, and to whom – alas! – he was returning? But Jon gave her no sign. Unlike the old impulsive Jon, he had learned secrecy. By a whim of memory, whose ways are so inscrutable, she remembered being taken, as a very little girl, to Timothy’s on the Bayswater Road to her great-aunt Hester – an old still figure, in black Victorian lace and jet and a Victorian chair, saying in a stilly languid voice to her father: ‘Oh, yes, my dear: your Uncle Jolyon, before he married, was very much in love with our great friend Alice Read; but she was consumptive, you know, and of course he felt he couldn’t marry her – it wouldn’t have been prudent, he felt, because of children. And then she died, and he married Edith Moor.’ Funny how that had stuck in her ten-year-old mind! And she stared at Jon. Old Jolyon – as they called him in the family – had been his grandfather. She had seen his photograph in Holly’s album – a domed head, a white moustache, eyes deep-set under the brows, like Jon’s. ‘It wouldn’t have been prudent!’ How Victorian! Was Jon, too, Victorian? She felt as if she would never know what Jon was. And she became suddenly cautious. A single step too far, or too soon, and he might be gone from her again for good! He was not – no, he was not modern! For all she knew, there might be something absolute, not relative, in his ‘makeup’, and to Fleur the absolute was strange, almost terrifying. But she had not spent six years in social servitude without learning to adjust herself swiftly to the playing of a new part. She spoke in a calmer tone, almost a drawl; her eyes became cool and quizzical. What did Jon think about the education of boys – before he knew where he was, of course, he would be having one himself? It hurt her to say that, and, while saying it, she searched his face; but it told her nothing.
‘We’ve put Kit down for Winchester. Do you believe in the Public Schools, Jon? Or do you think they’re out of date?’
‘Yes; and a good thing, too.’
‘How?’
‘I mean I should send him there.’
‘I see,’ said Fleur. ‘Do you know, Jon, you really have changed. You wouldn’t have said that, I believe, six years ago.’
‘Perhaps not. Being out of England makes you believe in dams. Ideas can’t be left to swop around in the blue. In England they’re not, and that’s the beauty of it.’
‘I don’t care what happens to ideas,’ said Fleur, ‘but I don’t like stupidity. The Public Schools –’
‘Oh, no; not really. Certain things get cut and dried there, of course, but then, they ought to.’
Fleur leaned forward, and with faint malice said: ‘Have you become a moralist, my dear?’
Jon answered glumly:
‘Why, no – no more than reason!’
‘Do you remember our walk by the river?’
‘I told you before – I remember everything.’
Fleur restrained her hand from a heart which had given a jump.
‘We nearly quarrelled because I said I hated people for their stupid cruelties, and wanted them to stew in their own juice.’
‘Yes; and I said I pitied them. Well?’
‘Repression is stupid, you know, Jon.’ And, by instinct, added: ‘That’s why I doubt the Public Schools. They teach it.’
‘They’re useful socially, Fleur,’ and his eyes twinkled.
Fleur pursed her lips. She did not mind. But she would make him sorry for that; because his compunction would be a trump card in her hand.
‘I know perfectly well,’ she said, ‘that I’m a snob – I was called so publicly.’
‘What!’
‘Oh, yes; there was a case about it.’
‘Who dared?’
‘Oh! my dear, that’s ancient history. But of course you knew – Francis Wilmot must have – ’
Jon made a horrified gesture.
‘Fleur, you never thought I – ’
‘Oh, but of course! Why not?’ A trump, indeed! Jon seized her hand.
‘Fleur, say you knew I didn’t –’
Fleur shrugged her shoulders. ‘My dear, you have lived too long among the primitives. Over here we stab each other daily, and no harm is done.’
He dropped her hand, and she looked at him from beneath her lids.
‘I was only teasing, Jon. It’s good for primitives to have their legs pulled. Parlons d’autre chose. Have you found your place, to grow things, yet?’
‘Practically.’
‘Where?’
‘About four miles from Wansdon, on the south side of the downs – Green Hill Farm. Fruit – a lot of grass; and some arable.’
‘Why, it must be close to where I’m going with Kit. That’s on the sea and only five miles from Wansdon. No, Jon; don’t be alarmed. We shall only be there three weeks at most.’
‘Alarmed! It’s very jolly. We shall see you there. Perhaps we shall meet at Goodwood anyway.’
‘I’ve been thinking –’ Fleur paused, and again she stole a look. ‘We can be steady friends, Jon, can’t we?’
Jon answered, without looking up. ‘I hope so.’
If his face had cleared, and his voice had been hearty, how different – how much slower – would have been the beating of her heart!
‘Then that’s all right,’ she murmured. ‘I’ve been wanting to say that to you ever since Ascot. Here we are, and here we shall be – and anything else would be silly, wouldn’t it? This is not the romantic age.’
‘H’m!’
‘What do you mean by that unpleasant noise?’
‘I always think it’s rot to talk about ages being this or that. Human feelings remain the same.’
‘Do you really think they do? The sort of life we live affects them. Nothing’s worth more than a tear or two, Jon. I found that out. But I forgot – you hate cynicism. Tell me about Anne. Is she still liking England?’
‘Loving it. You see, she’s pure Southern, and the South’s old still, too, in a way – or some of it is. What she likes here is the grass, the birds, and the villages. She doesn’t feel homesick. And, of course, she loves the riding.’
‘I suppose she’s picking up English fast?’
And to his stare she made her face quite candid.
‘I should like you to like her,’ he said, wistfully.
‘Oh! of course I shall, when I know her.’
But a fierce little wave of contempt passed up from her heart. What did he think she was made of? Like her! A girl who lay in his arms, who would be the mother of his children. Like her I And she began to talk about the preservation of Box Hill. And all the rest of the way till Jon got out at Pulborough, she was more wary than a cat – casual and friendly, with clear candid eyes, and a little tremble up at him when she said:
‘Au revoir, then, at Goodwood, if not before! This has been a jolly accident!’
But on the way to her hotel, driving in a station fly through air that smelled of oysters, she folded her lips between her teeth, and her eyes were damp beneath her frowning brows.
Chapter Nine
BUT-JONI
BUT Jon, who had over five miles to walk, started with the words of the Old English song beating a silent tattoo within him:
‘How happy could I be with either,
Were t’other dear charmer away!’
To such confusion had he come, contrary to intention, but in accordance with the impulses of a loyal disposition. Fleur had been his first love, Anne his second. But Anne was his wife, and Fleur the wife of another. A man could not be in love with two women at once, so he was tempted to conclude that he was not in love with either. Why, then, the queer sensations of his circulatory system? Was popular belief in error? A French, or Old-English way of looking at his situation, did not occur to him. He had marrie
d Anne, he loved Anne – she was a darling! There it ended! Why, then, walking along a grassy strip beside the road, did he think almost exclusively of Fleur? However cynical, or casual, or just friendly she might seem, she no more deceived him than she at heart wished to. He knew she had her old feeling for him, just as he knew he had it, or some of it, for her. But then he had feeling for another, too. Jon was not more of a fool than other men, nor was he more self-deceiving. Like other men before him, he intended to face what was, and to do what he believed to be right; or, rather, not to do what he believed to be wrong. Nor had he any doubt as to what was wrong. His trouble was more simple. It consisted in not having control of his thoughts and feelings greater than that with which any than has hitherto been endowed. After all, it had not been his fault that he had once been wholly in love with Fleur, nor that she had been wholly in love with him; not his fault that he had met her again, nor that she was still in love with him. Nor again was it his fault that he was in love with his native land and tired of being out of it.
It was not his fault that he had fallen in love a second time or married the object of his affections. Nor, so far as he could see, was it his fault that the sight and the sound and the scent and the touch of Fleur had revived some of his former feelings. He was none the less disgusted at his double-heartedness; and he walked now fast, now slow, while the sun shifted over and struck on a neck always sensitive since his touch of the sun in Granada. Presently, he stopped and leaned over a gate. He had not been long enough back in England to have got over its beauty on a fine day. He was always stopping and leaning over gates, or in other ways, as Val called it, mooning!
Though it was already the first day of the Eton and Harrow Match, which his father had been wont to attend so religiously, hay harvest was barely over, and the scent of stacked hay still in the air. The downs lay before him to the south, lighted along their northern slopes. Red Sussex cattle were standing under some trees close to the gate, dribbling, and slowly swishing their tails. And away over there he could see others lingering along the hill-side. Peace lay thick on the land. The corn in that next field had an unearthly tinge, neither green nor gold, under the slanting sunlight. And in the restful beauty of the evening Jon could well perceive the destructiveness of love – an emotion so sweet, restless, and thrilling, that it drained Nature of its colour and peace, made those who suffered from it bores to their fellows and useless to the life of everyday. To work – and behold Nature in her moods! Why couldn’t he get away to that, away from women? why – like Holly’s story of the holiday slum girl, whose family came to see her off by train – why couldn’t he just get away and say: ‘Thank Gawd! I’m shut o’ that lot!’
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