He crossed the room in few strides and lifted her from the tufted stool so that she stood before him. “Shh, not so loud. You’d think this place would have thicker walls, but I could hear every word you and your maid spoke.”
“You were eavesdropping again?”
“I thought you were ill. I came to check on you.”
She blinked up at him. “Why?”
Damien couldn’t help but laugh at that. “I don’t know,” he said, shaking his head. “But somehow…” He took a deep breath. “Somehow I’ve grown to care about your well-being, Lady Isabel.”
“You have?”
He nodded.
“Well, then you’ll be glad to know that I faked the entire thing.”
“Yes, I am glad to know that. I would hate for you to be feeling poorly.”
The silence between them seemed to crackle. Heat built in Damien’s gut and naturally spread to other more obvious parts of his anatomy. He had never wanted anything or anyone so badly in all his life. Unable to control himself, he grabbed Isabel around the waist and dragged her into his arms. She wore so little clothing—the material so thin that he could feel her, every part of her, as he lowered his head to claim her lips.
~ 13 ~
Lockwell’s kiss was more than welcome tonight. After all the inner turmoil that had consumed her for the last two days, she realized this was the one thing that felt right. Never mind that love was ridiculous and people in love were even more ridiculous. Perhaps she was the ridiculous one for raging so heartily against it when it felt so wonderful. Much to her amazement, she realized that she loved Lockwell. Not only that, she didn’t mind that she loved him. She wanted to love him, and she wanted him to love her back. Oh, heavens! What if he didn’t love her back?
She pulled away from his kiss with a great deal of reluctance. “Lockwell, if we are discovered—”
He shushed her and put his lips to hers again. She allowed it for a moment, then pulled away again. “Lockwell, really, if we are discovered, there will be no escaping—”
He cut her off with yet another kiss. But this time, Isabel would not be deterred. “Lockwell!” she hissed at him, pushing him back with all her might. “Are you listening to me?”
“Yes, of course, darling.”
Darling? “Well. What will you say for yourself if we are discovered?”
A smile came to his lips—that same sly smile he’d given her in the library the day before. “I will say, ‘To hell with all of you! I can kiss my bride whenever I so choose!’”
Isabel’s jaw dropped and she stared aghast at Lockwell. “Your what?”
He moved closer to her again, then dropped to his knees before her. “I know that I am a wastrel and a scoundrel and lots of other unsavory terms, but I am also a man in love…with you,” he added when she didn’t respond. “In case there was any question.”
This tickled Isabel and brought her from her stupor. She laughed wholeheartedly as she collapsed to her knees and fell into Lockwell’s arms. At which point a thought occurred to her…
“Lockwell,” she said, sitting back on her haunches. “I don’t even know your given name. I can’t marry you without knowing your name, can I?”
“Damien,” he said.
Isabel tried it on for size. “Mrs. Damien Lockwell.” She smiled wide at him. “I love it.”
He pulled her into his arms again. “And I love you.”
~*~
“You look magnificent, my child.” Grandpapa held out his arms to Isabel as she descended the staircase to the grand foyer. “I think married life suits you.”
There was a glimmer in his eyes—a glimmer she knew Grandpapa reserved just for her.
“Well,” Isabel said with a tilt of her nose, “it turns out Mr. Lockwell isn’t nearly as much a waste of space as I originally thought.”
“Thank you for that, my dear,” Damien said from beside her. “I’m glad to know your opinion of me is slightly elevated from a few days ago.”
She turned to him, a mischievous smile on her face. “Yes, but only slightly. You still have much to prove.”
“I will endeavor to impress you the rest of my days.”
Isabel giggled, marveling inwardly at how things had changed so drastically in such a short amount of time. If someone had told her on Sunday that she would be married by Wednesday—to a man she’d never even met, no less—she would have locked them in a carriage bound for Bedlam.
She turned back to Grandpapa, who watched them both with a wide smile and watery eyes. “If the two of you are even half as happy as your grandmother and I were, then yours will be a very happy union.”
“Thank you, Grandpapa.” She wrapped her arms about his neck and squeezed hard. “Happy Christmas.”
“Happy Christmas, my child.”
That evening, at the famed Danby Yule Ball, with all her cousins and aunts and uncles in attendance, Isabel danced with her new husband. She tripped once or twice, but she didn’t care, for she knew that Damien Lockwell would always be there to catch her should she fall.
Dedication
For Hoot.
~ Lilia
~ 1 ~
December, 1812
Great Yarmouth, England
Philip Whitton shook off the fog that still clung to his brain, wrinkling his nose at the stench of herring that wafted up from Yarmouth's banks. 'Twas too much for any man to bear, that was for certain. The sooner he was in the Danby traveling Berlin, with its ducal crest and luxurious appointments, the better. He could sleep until they reached the first stop of their journey home. The passage from Den Haag had been rough, but Philip was not one to suffer any pain or discomfort. Fortunately, Captain Baines had been most forthcoming with the beer and ale on board, as one would expect for the second son of a marquess. And when the ale or the wine wasn't enough to dull his sensibilities, there was always the poppy. Laudanum always fed Philip's art, fueled his desires, and dampened reality to a dull roar. Between the liquor and the tinctures, the sailing from Den Haag to Yarmouth was really not as bad as one might expect.
"Well, sir?" Giles' boots thudded down the gangplank, each footstep a hammer to Philip's temples. "We'd best be on our way. The duke's summons was most urgent."
Phillip slanted his gaze at his manservant. "The old fellow's not really dying, you know."
Giles nodded. "I know, but without his support, you can't continue your studies in Rome. He as good as said he would cut you off if you didn't return."
Philip shook his head. "No. He didn't hint around, Giles. That threat of poverty was all too real. I'd have to sing for my supper then, wouldn't I?"
The cacophony of seagulls was suddenly pierced by the sweet trill of a nightingale. Philip turned towards the sound, his senses coming back to life. What a fluid sound. He could replicate it if only his harpsichord or even his violin was with him, but the violin was still in the ship's hold. And the nearest harpsichord was a week-long journey away. He rubbed his hands together to stop their sudden tingling—a sensation that could only be dulled by playing or by his vices.
"Come, let us go." Philip jerked his head towards the carriage, and Giles nodded. There was no register of surprise on Giles's face, no confusion at his master's sudden change of topic or his abrupt need to begin the journey. Giles had been with him during the most tumultuous years of his life, and knew him well. A little too well. It was damned embarrassing to have anyone know the extent of your suffering, or the depths you were capable of plumbing.
He climbed into the carriage, thankful for the thick curtains blotting out the daylight. Giles, with infinite tact, climbed onto the box with the coachman. Philip rapped on the window once, blinking at the sound, and the carriage rolled into motion. He rested his aching head against the plush velvet seat and tugged a silver flask from his coat pocket. A little hair of the dog was just the thing right now, but he'd have to ration it. Unless—Philip fumbled under the window, seeking the little pocket that hugged the wall of the coach. It was e
mpty. Of course. No doubt his grandfather had seen to that. Oh well, he'd just have to ration what he had left most carefully.
He allowed himself one long, burning draught of the flask's contents and settled back into the cushions. This was a deuced sight different from the way he'd left England two years ago. Philip touched his neck gingerly, but of course the rope burns were no longer there. The marks of his suicide attempt had faded long ago, though the memory was as fresh as yesterday. The days following his attempted hanging were chaotic, jumbled together not by the passage of time but his own befuddled mind. His sister Emma had found him, just in the nick of time. Her screams had echoed through Danby Castle, bringing Giles running. Through the haze of his own misery, he could still recall his mother's tearful pleading, his father's face settling into lines of despair. And then the visit from grandfather, his lectures on fortitude and courage, his elderly voice questioning in detached horror, "All of this nonsense? Over the Ware gel?"
And then, the hurried passage to Italy to study music. "A fresh start," his family declared. As though a new beginning really mattered at that moment. He took another fortifying draught. He'd tried to forget Emily Ware—had done everything he could to forget her. Wine, women, and song. Rome was nothing if not ripe with amusements and amusing people. A different soubrette every night, sometimes more than one in a night. His lips curved downwards at the memory. A return to England meant a return to the land of Emily Ware—no, now she was Emily Barlow, nee Ware. Of course, she wouldn't be anywhere near Danby. She was likely to be settled near Sheffield with her portly little prick of a husband.
Damn them both.
All of this nonsense. Over the Ware gel.
~ * ~
"I don't understand." Emily Barlow leaned forwards in her chair, eyeing the solicitor with growing unease. "My husband was a wealthy man. He assured me that his business affairs were in order. Why do you make it sound as though everything is on the verge of collapse?"
"Mrs. Barlow, let me assure you that everything has collapsed. We have long gone past the verge." The solicitor pronounced the words with a flourish and removed his spectacles. Holding them up to the ceiling, he squinted and then rubbed them with his handkerchief.
Emily watched this performance in frozen horror, her breath coming faster. Surely the man was joking. Charles had given every indication that they had plenty of money to live on forever. "What happened?" she managed to gasp, clasping her hands together to still their shaking.
"Mr. Barlow invested in a mine—a chancy practice, you know. This was a mine in the West Indies, supposedly filled with diamonds. Needless to say, the mine came up empty. Not a stone in it worth a penny. Yet your husband sank everything he had in it. He mortgaged your home and everything he owned. I'm very sorry to say it, Mrs. Barlow, but you are close to being a pauper."
"Surely there is something left, Mr. Brown."
"Nothing except the clothes you and your daughter own and any jewels you managed to hide away."
Jewels? She hardly had any precious stones at all. Only the brooch her former beau, Lord Philip Whitton, had given her, the one she had hidden from Charles to keep from provoking any jealousy. She shook her head, her eyes downcast.
"Well, then. You will need to move back in with your family, Mrs. Barlow. Or…find some means of occupation." He flicked an insolent glance over her widow's weeds, stopping pointedly at her bosom.
Emily stood up abruptly, sending her chair scraping back across the wooden floor. "I shall go home to my uncle this week. How much longer do we have the use of the house? After all, it may take some time to gather our things."
"You and your daughter may stay there one last week, Mrs. Barlow. That should give you time to go home and gather what is left to you. After that, I shall put everything up for sale to cover your husband's debts." He gave her an icy smile and shuffled the sheets of foolscap littering his desk into an untidy pile.
"Thank you," she snapped, turning on her heel. Outside his office, she leaned against the wall, panting and fanning herself. She was no better than a pauper—no better than she had been when she went to live with Uncle Arthur and Aunt Millie as a young girl. The only child of penniless parents, taken in as a charity case. Her marriage was supposed to secure her place in society, not simply rent that place to her only to snatch it away with Charles's death.
She wept when her husband died, for while she didn't love him she was grateful to him for all he had given her. But now, if he was here and standing beside her, she'd give his eyes a jolly good scratching. She'd trusted him with everything, and how was that trust repaid?
Gathering her skirts with her courage, she headed down the steps and back to the Bridge Inn. How far away home was—and little Rose. Her heart gave a flip-flop and she calculated how quickly she could reach Sheffield. From here in Norwich, she'd take the public post tomorrow morning and be home within four days. If only there was a way to send word home and beg Anna to pack and ready baby Rose for the journey. Well, she'd just have to pack quickly once they arrived. And then she'd have to decide what she was going to do with the rest of her life.
She plodded along the High Street, briefly noting the sun's icy bright glare. Really, it was quite cheeky of the sun to look so cheerful on such a miserable day. Her options were limited, her future bleak. She could go back to Uncle Arthur and Aunt Millie, but that surely would mean a return to that charitable style of living she'd grown up with. Did she really want Rose to grow up thinking she was only a second-class citizen? Enduring her cousins' smirks and raised eyebrows? Or could she find some occupation?
She ran nervous fingers over her figure. She couldn't bring herself to do what the solicitor had implied. She never let any man touch her except her husband. And, well, if one were to be honest, Philip Whitton. In fact, she had allowed herself to get too swept away by Philip, and his single-minded, dashing ways. So swept away that she had nearly allowed herself to be compromised. And would the second son of a Marquess stoop to marry a penniless commoner? Of course not. So, marriage to Charles seemed infinitely better and more secure. She suppressed an urge to snort in derision. So much for security.
~ 2 ~
Emily snuggled deeper into her corner of the public coach, trying desperately to rid herself of the weight of the peasant woman who had fallen asleep on her arm. The woman yawned and snorted, giving off a vapor of boiled onions. Emily pressed her head against the window and swallowed. There was nothing to do about it but make the best of matters. No use retching now. Why, they probably wouldn't even stop the coach.
She turned her thoughts back to the well-worn path of what-to-do-next. Uncle Arthur and Aunt Millie would certainly be in for a surprise this Christmas. Two extra guests…for an indefinite stay? Well, perhaps if Emily got right to work, helping to prepare the Christmas dinner, shepherding the children about, scrubbing the house until it gleamed, perhaps then Aunt Millie would spare them her thinly veiled barbs about poor relations. Yes, she was poor, but she was industrious. She would make herself useful until she decided on a course of action.
She gave her sleeping coach mate another shove, but the dead weight on her arm remained fixed. Emily sighed. She could be a governess or servant of some kind—she wasn't above hard work. Unfortunately, there were few people she knew who would take her on, since they knew and respected Charles. Hiring his widow would seem like a dreadful comedown. And little Rose, what would she do about Rose? She could send Rose to live with her aunt and uncle while she found work, but the mere thought of it took her breath away. No, they would stay together. No matter what happened, her daughter would stay by her side.
If only there was someone rich enough, powerful enough. Someone who would help her no matter what had happened with Charles.
The answer hit her like a bolt of lightning. The Duke of Danby, of course. When Philip was her beau, she met the old autocratic duke on several occasions. Under his crusty façade, she detected a true affection and kinship with the elderly peer. Of course, b
y now Philip was likely married and knee-deep in children, so no one would give their former courtship a second thought. The duke would have no objection, surely, to helping her find a position somewhere. And Danby was far enough away from Sheffield that no one would particularly care that she was Charles Barlow's widow. Anonymity. How delightful!
She breathed deeply, caring not a whit that all the breath she took was redolent of stale tobacco and boiled onions. She'd go home, then journey to Aunt Millie and Uncle Arthur's, and from there she would contact the duke. Everything would be all right.
The coach heaved violently, throwing Emily against the window. She gasped and rubbed her throbbing temple, which had received a smart crack. A sound of splintering wood rent the air, and the lumbering pace of the carriage ground to a halt. The peasant woman beside her finally wakened, mumbling "Love a duck! What's happened?"
"I don't know," Emily replied. "Sounds like an accident."
The coachman opened the door to the carriage, motioning everyone out. "Broke an axle, we did. It's going to take some mending, too. Pretty bad break."
Emily alit from the carriage, spying the splintered shards of wood as they poked out of the muddy road. It certainly did look like a nasty break. She rubbed her temple again. "Excuse me, sir, but what do we do now?" Surely there was some sort of emergency plan, a relief coach, anything to keep the travelers going.
He grinned, showing a row of gapped teeth. "Nothin' to do but wait, ma'am. I'll see what I can do to fix it, but there ain't much to be done. There's a village up ahead, Kings Lynn. We might have to get help from there." The coachman unloaded their parcels and luggage, setting all the bags beside the road. The other passengers milled around, some claiming their baggage, while others simply squatted in the mud. A few men offered to help the coachman begin the repairs, and they set about trying to remove what was left of the wheel from the carriage.
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