by Bec Botefuhr
He stands and lays me on the bed, then comes back with some lotion.
“Roll over.”
“No.” I whisper.
“Jade roll over.”
I roll and grunt a curse at him. He sits beside me and pulls back my underwear, then puts some lotion into his hand and rubs it on my very, very sore backside. He strokes his hand so gently over my skin I want to melt, but I am far too mad.
“Who was that?” I snap.
“Kumar, a girl from the tribe that lives here.”
“You kissed her?”
“I pecked her, seriously, I kiss Lilly more.”
“Why?”
“She asked what a kiss was. I am not interested in her, not even slightly.”
“Oh.”
“So stop your jealous shit. It's another thing that needs to go.”
“Whatever, I am tired. Can we go to sleep please?”
“Yeah.”
I huff and climb into the bed, rolling to face the bathroom. He slides in beside me, and neither of us say anything until we fall asleep. Stubborn, both of us are far too stubborn. I bolt up during the night after having one hell of an erotic dream about Jax. I wake up sweating, moaning and panting. God. It’s dark, I can’t see a thing, but I can feel movement beside me. I reach over and feel Jax’s arm moving slowly up and down. Oh my, he is…
“Jax what are you doing?”
“You ought to have heard that dream you just had, fuck I can’t take the pressure anymore.”
“Then let me help you.”
“I am not sleeping with you!” He hisses, through panting breaths.
“Then, I won't sleep with you. I can help you without sleeping with you.”
He stills. “How?”
“I want to try something, do you trust me?”
“Uh huh. I think.”
I climb onto him, backwards. I have heard of this being done, but I have never done it. Oh God, what if he is disgusted and turns me away? My bottom is up around his chest, and my head lowers to his very hard erection. I take it in my mouth, and he growls. Then, he clicks as to what I am doing and grasps my hips and lowers my sensitive flesh to his mouth. I cry out, oh yes, this is hot.
“I like how you think. I haven't done this for a good ten years.”
I stiffen.
“Sorry.” He mutters, and then drives a deep lick inside me, making me forget everything.
I groan and take him into my mouth again. It’s so hard to think and do this at the same time. I can feel the pleasure building inside of me, yet I am trying to concentrate on his pleasure. It’s hot. He is growling against me, and every time he does the vibrations send me higher. I suck him harder and he hisses, his breath cooling my flesh. Oh God, I can’t hold on.
“JAX!” I cry, taking him deep.
He drives a finger inside me, and I explode around him. As I do, he does too. I feel him release into my mouth as I tighten around his fingers. Our groans mix together, and I slump down onto him.
“I hate that my ass is in your face right now.” I mumble, sliding forward.
“I can’t see it, but I wouldn’t mind even if I could. You have a lovely ass.”
“Hmm.”
I roll off him, and we lay beside each other in the darkness.
“You said you wouldn’t touch me.” I mutter.
“You didn’t give me much choice.”
“Self-control Mr Watts.”
“Goodnight, missy.”
“Night.”
I fall into a deep, peaceful sleep. When I wake in the morning, I am on my side with a very hot, very hard body pressed against my back and a tattooed arm thrown across my chest. I glance down at his arm and realize his is still wearing his wedding ring. I hadn't noticed that. I run my finger around it and his hand moves, sliding up to grip my breast, he cups it in his big hand.
“Dirty perve.” I mumble, and he barks a laugh into my hair.
“Yeah, mostly. You smell divine in the morning.”
I smile. Charmer. “What happened to your master plan of nothing touching me? You’re failing Mr Watts. The method to your madness is gone.”
He laughs again. “MMMMM.”
“Did you have a nice sleep or something?”
“Or something.” He murmurs.
“I suppose it feels good to get…shall we say, a load off?”
He chuckles. “I guess you could say that.”
“What are you doing?”
He reaches down and takes my leg, sliding it over his hip, so we are still chest to back. My legs are wide now, and I can’t see him, but his hand moves down and touches me very softly.
“You have a very pretty pus…”
“Do not even say pussy or I will smack you so hard.”
He chuckles. “What will you have me call it?”
“I don’t know…a flower.”
He roars with laughter, his chest rumbling against my back.
“Ok, you have a very pretty flower.”
I giggle. “Ok, that sounds bad. We will just leave it unnamed shall we?”
“MMMMMM.”
He strokes again and I stiffen.
“You’re playing with fire, Mr Watts.”
“I like fire, fire burns.” He whispers, and I grin. I used that line on him once; it flatters me that he remembers it.
“Very charming.”
“I know, right?”
He strokes again, and I moan.
“Stop it; you are going to get yourself into a spot of bother.”
“I am not getting myself anywhere, I am getting you somewhere.”
“We discussed this.” I say in a breathy voice.
“Did we?”
“Jax!”
“Shhh.”
“No.”
He slides his hand up and clamps it over my mouth. I groan. God he drives me crazy! I bite down on his finger, and he laughs.
“You’re in a cheerful mood this morning.”
“I had a pretty ass in my face last night, why wouldn’t I be?”
“Ok, time to get up.”
I roll out of bed and turn to look down at him. He grins up at me.
“You are just a charmer aren't you?” I laugh, tossing my pillow at him.
He catches it and throws it behind his head. “Yeah, I am. God love me.”
I snort and pick up my phone; I realize the date and gasp.
“What?” He asks.
“It’s…my birthday tomorrow.”
“Why didn’t you tell me?” He says, jumping out of bed.
“I didn’t really…I didn’t really notice.”
“Good God, you are a painful woman.”
I turn and smile. “I am.”
“Come on, let’s go.”
“Where?”
“Breakfast, swimming, whatever you want.”
“You are going to hang with me today?”
He grins. “If you behave.”
“Well lucky me.” I snort.
“You will think so when I organize your birthday.”
“Right, can we forget about that please?”
“Hell no. We are having a party.”
“JAX!”
“JADE!”
I laugh and slide into his shower; I enjoy the warm water flowing over me. Then, I get out and pull his shirt back on. I walk out, and he is finishing up a phone call. He turns and grins at me.
“You need to wear something else other than my shirt, baby girl.”
“Yeah yeah.”
I lean down and slowly pull on my underwear, making sure to give him a little glimpse as I do. He hisses and then leans down to press a soft kiss to my belly.
“Your mommy is a nasty dick tease little man.”
“Hey!” I shove him. “Nice words to my baby.”
“Our baby.”
“Could be the milk mans.”
He snorts and throws me onto the bed, tickling me until I am gasping for air.
“Stop, I am fat now and can’t la
ugh that much.”
“Fat,” He huffs. “I doubt it.”
“I totally am.”
“You are round, not fat. There is a difference.”
I shove him, and he chuckles. “That’s just mean.”
“You look gorgeous.”
“Better.” I grin.
Jax takes me around the island all day; we swim and climb, check out the beach and the lake. He feeds me fresh food and juice. He has organized to go away for the night, saying it is a secret, and I can’t know what he is doing. When the afternoon comes, he leaves for the night, and I spend the rest of the day with the crew, laughing and chatting.
“How are you enjoying the island?” Maddox asks, sitting beside me.
“I love it; he has done wonderful things with it.”
“Yeah, it is a nice distraction.”
“How has he really been Mad?”
“Ok, sulks a lot. We have missed you a lot; I met you then boom…gone.”
“Yeah, sorry about that.”
“I am sorry too, it’s my fault for opening my big mouth.”
“No, I did the wrong thing not you. We are ok now, and that is the main thing.”
“Yeah, now to find Ben.”
“Jax will get him.”
He smiles at me. “Yeah I know he will. Anyone tell you that you look great pregnant?”
I laugh. “Thanks, I don’t feel great.”
“Well you look it.”
“How are you feeling after everything? Are you really ok going against Ben?”
“He is a scum bag, so yeah.”
“And you and Jax are getting along well?”
“Yeah, we truly are. I am glad we found each other and sorted it out. What he did to Mark all those years ago wasn’t his fault. I should have killed my brother for what he did to his wife, but Jax got to him first. I can’t hate him for that.”
“He is glad you are in his life, I know he is.”
“Yeah, I know.”
“Well, I think it’s time for another punch.” I say, rolling my eyes.
“Let down,” He grins. “Must suck!”
“It does, but it is worth it in the end.” I smile, patting my belly.
When I finally fall into bed that evening, I am exhausted. The crew are draining, but as always, a barrel of laughs and fun. I check my phone to see a message from Jax.
I hope you’re behaving?
Jax, hasn’t anyone told you being a stalker is NOT cool these days?
You know it. Are you behaving?
No, I am having wild sex with Maddox right now.
Not funny.
Well, don’t ask stupid questions. I missed you tonight.
Did you now?
Yes, in fact I did. Even though I am mad at you, leaving me all alone.
Don’t hate me darlin.
I might just hate you a little.
I am way too good looking to hate.
Tickets Watts.
I am going to bed now, these hotels suck.
Hotel? Where are you?
Secret.
Having a saucy affair?
Why would I have an affair when I have plenty enough trouble with the one I have?
Ha ha. I love how kind you are to me.
MMMMM. Night pretty girl.
Good night Mr Watts. Sleep tight…don’t let the bed bugs bite.
Or the Jade bugs.
I don’t bite, I suck. Hard.
Go to bed, you’re distracting me. I am getting a hard on.
I am laughing so hard right now. Do you really have a hard on?
Do you want a picture?
He is teasing me, but I play back. My reply will shock him.
Yes please.
I wait ten minutes, oh God I have scared him off? Then, I get a picture and oh….he took me seriously and oh. OH.
Oh wow. You know I could broadcast that all over you tube?
Ha ha. Do you like?
What do you think?
I don’t know, tell me.
You’re dirty. You know we are sexting right now?
Sexting?
Sex over text.
It’s kind of hot. Now tell me, what do you think?
It’s hard, I like it.
That it?
Ok, I am desperately clenching my legs together because it’s turning me on.
There we go. Send me a picture.
Of what?
Your pretty flower.
I laugh but my heart is thudding. He can’t be serious?
Really?
Please….
I take a deep breath and do it. I wait for about five minutes, and then I get a reply.
Fuck, you just un-manned me. I didn’t think you would do it.
Oh, that’s kind of hot.
Right? Touch yourself.
No.
Yes.
What for?
I want you to.
I don’t want to. I am saving myself.
For what?
You.
Ohhhhhh. In that case go to sleep, I will see you first light.
I wish you were in my bed right now.
MMMM, Ditto.
Good night pirate.
Night, princess xx
CHAPTER 3
I roll about, unable to sleep. When I finally drift, I see Jax with another woman, his lips on her body. I wake up, and my heart is clenching, it hurts so badly. I want to just forget, but it is so hard. I clamp down my tears; I am being stupid. I miss him. I am nervous. I can’t help the tiny part of me that wonders what he is doing. I glance at the time; it is midnight. Should I call? After a great debate, I do.
“Jax?” I whisper when he answers.
“Hey baby, what’s up?” His voice is sleepy.
I begin to cry, Damn, that was not the plan.
“Hey, what is going on?”
“I saw it, in my dream…you…with someone else.”
“Oh mate, I knew you weren’t over it.”
“I can just see you touching a woman, it hurts so bad. Jax, why?”
“I wish I could take it away, I don’t know how. I don’t remember a bloody thing, no matter how hard I try but what am I to think? I was naked in the room with another woman.”
“I…I just…”
“I wish I could make you feel just a bit better.”
“It is all my fault, I know that.”
“No, it wouldn’t have mattered what you did to me, there was no excuse for that.”
“I broke your heart, I lied and cheated.”
“Mate, we talked about this. You know I love you; you know I wouldn’t ever hurt you. I need you to believe that.”
“I…can’t, God, I need to go.”
“Baby…”
I hang up and rush outside; I can’t breathe. I drop to my knees, and pant. I can’t bloody breathe. Rusty is coming past and rushes over. He grips my shoulders and lifts me slightly.
“Hey, hey lass, breathe come on.”
I can’t, I am dying, my heart is throbbing. What is happening? Why can’t I think? Why can’t I speak? I am panting so heavily, sweat trickles down my face.
“Breathe, Jade, breathe.”
“I c-c-c-can’t!” I wail.
“With me lass, with me, in…out…”
I follow his breathing, in and out, in and out, until I can make sense of things.
“Now, come on, hush. What is happening?”
“He cheated on me, he said he doesn’t remember, but he said he did it.” I sob.
“Is that what you think?”
“He told me?”
Rusty curses. “Fool.”
“You didn’t want him to tell me?”
“God, I didn’t realize he thought he cheated on you.”
“Rusty, you aren’t making sense.”
He sighs. “Sit.”
He helps me to the seat beside the hut, and we sit.
“I thought Jax knew he didn’t sleep with her, I didn’t realize he told you he did.
I knew you were having problems, but he was hush hush, letting us believe it was from the betrayal.”
“He didn’t sleep with her?” It is all I heard.
“No, he met her in a bar, and they laughed and joked. He was drunk, so drunk, so was she. They went upstairs, and I followed, ready to rip his head clean off. I walked in, to find him passed out on the bed butt naked; she was pulling his shoes off in a fit of giggles. Then, the stupid girl hurled her guts up and passed out beside him. I left them there, figuring one would certainly leave when they came to; I wasn’t carrying either one out covered in spew. He came down in the morning, and I figured he had left as he didn’t say anything. I checked Jade, once or twice during the night, and they remained passed out cold. He didn’t touch her.”
I am sobbing heavily. “I…he said he didn’t remember, it should have clicked then.”
“He was rotten drunk, rotten; it really doesn’t surprise me that he doesn’t remember.”
I hug my knees. “God, all that pain…”
“If I knew he told you, I would have cut in. He wouldn’t do that to you lass; he was taking her to her room to put her to bed out of the kindness of his heart, not because he wanted her. He was just too drunk to do so. You should know not one of us members would ever let him hurt you like that.”
I meet Rusty’s gaze. “I should have known that, yes.”
“I’d never let anyone hurt you lass, you are like my daughter.”
“Rusty, you have relieved so much in me, thank you.”
“Do you want me to give him a call?”
“No, I’ll do it. Thanks Rust.”
He kisses my head and stands. “Always lass.”
When he is gone, I plod back into the hut and call Jax. He answers first ring.
“God baby, don’t scare me…”
“You didn’t sleep with her.”
“What?”
“Rusty, he told me you didn’t.”
“Rusty knew…I didn’t?”
“Yes, he saw me crying, and when I told him why, he said you didn’t. He didn’t know you had told me, or he would have told you. He thought you knew you didn’t. He said he followed you up, and you were out cold, and the girl was stripping you. Then she threw up and passed out, and so he left you there. Checked on you through the night and said you didn’t move.”
“Fuck,” Jax growls. “Fucking hell…”
“You didn’t sleep with her.” I whisper.
“He couldn’t have fucking moved me, God what is wrong with him?”
“You are a big man Jax, and he is old, he made sure nothing went on. He did a good thing.”
“Fuck, I thought…all this time.”