by Thomas Hardy
The wind blew through Tess’s white muslin to her very skin, and her washed hair flew out behind. She was determined to show no open fear, but she clutched d‘Urberville’s rein-arm.
“Don’t touch my arm! We shall be thrown out if you do! Hold on round my waist!”
She grasped his waist, and so they reached the bottom.
“Safe, thank God, in spite of your fooling!” said she, her face on fire.
“Tess—fie! That’s temper!” said d‘Urberville.
“ ‘Tis truth.”
“Well, you need not let go your hold of me so thanklessly the moment you feel yourself out of danger.”
She had not considered what she had been doing; whether he were man or woman, stick or stone, in her involuntary hold on him. Recovering her reserve, she sat without replying, and thus they reached the summit of another declivity.
“Now then, again!” said d‘Urberville.
“No, no!” said Tess. “Show more sense, do, please.”
“But when people find themselves on one of the highest points in the county, they must get down again,” he retorted.
He loosened rein, and away they went a second time. D‘Urber ville turned his face to her as they rocked, and said in playful raillery: “Now then, put your arms round my waist again, as you did before, my beauty.”
“Never!” said Tess independently, holding on as well as she could without touching him.
“Let me put one little kiss on those holmberry lips, Tess, or even on that warmed cheek, and I’ll stop—on my honour, I will!”
Tess, surprised beyond measure, slid farther back still on her seat, at which he urged the horse anew and rocked her the more.
“Will nothing else do?” she cried at length in desperation, her large eyes staring at him like those of a wild animal. This dressing her up so prettily by her mother had apparently been to lamentable purpose.
“Nothing, dear Tess,” he replied.
“Oh, I don’t know—very well; I don’t mind!” she panted miserably.
He drew rein, and as they slowed he was on the point of imprinting the desired salute when, as if hardly yet aware of her own modesty, she dodged aside. His arms being occupied with the reins there was left him no power to prevent her manoeuvre.
“Now, damn it—I’ll break both our necks!” swore her capriciously passionate companion. “So you can go from your word like that, you young witch, can you?”
“Very well,” said Tess, “I’ll not move since you be so determined! But I—thought you would be kind to me and protect me, as my kinsman!”
“Kinsman be hanged! Now!”
“But I don’t want anybody to kiss me, sir!” she implored, a big tear beginning to roll down her face and the corners of her mouth trembling in her attempts not to cry. “And I wouldn’t ha’ come if I had known!”
He was inexorable, and she sat still, and d‘Urberville gave her the kiss of mastery. No sooner had he done so than she flushed with shame, took out her handkerchief, and wiped the spot on her cheek that had been touched by his lips. His ardour was nettled at the sight, for the act on her part had been unconsciously done.
“You are mighty sensitive for a cottage-girl!” said the young man.
Tess made no reply to this remark, of which, indeed, she did not quite comprehend the drift, unheeding the snub she had administered by her instinctive rub upon her cheek. She had, in fact, undone the kiss, as far as such a thing was physically possible. With a dim sense that he was vexed she looked steadily ahead as they trotted on near Melbury Down and Wingreen, till she saw, to her consternation, that there was yet another descent to be undergone.
“You shall be made sorry for that!” he resumed, his injured tone still remaining as he flourished the whip anew. “Unless, that is, you agree willingly to let me do it again, and no handkerchief.”
She sighed. “Very well, sir!” she said. “Oh—let me get my hat!”
At the moment of speaking her hat had blown off into the road, their present speed on the upland being by no means slow. D‘Urberville pulled up and said he would get it for her, but Tess was down on the other side.
She turned back and picked up the article.
“You look prettier with it off, upon my soul, if that’s possible,” he said, contemplating her over the back of the vehicle. “Now then, up again! What’s the matter?”
The hat was in place and tied, but Tess had not stepped forward.
“No, sir,” she said, revealing the red and ivory of her mouth as her eye lit in defiant triumph; “not again, if I know it!”
“What—you won’t get up beside me?”
“No; I shall walk.”
“ ‘Tis five or six miles yet to Trantridge.”
“I don’t care if ‘tis dozens. Besides, the cart is behind.”
“You artful hussy! Now, tell me—didn’t you make that hat blow off on purpose? I’ll swear you did!”
Her strategic silence confirmed his suspicion.
Then d‘Urberville cursed and swore at her and called her everything he could think of for the trick. Turning the horse suddenly, he tried to drive back upon her and so hem her in between the gig and the hedge. But he could not do this short of injuring her.
“You ought to be ashamed of yourself for using such wicked words!” cried Tess with spirit from the top of the hedge into which she had scrambled. “I don’t like ‘ee at all! I hate and detest you! I’ll go back to Mother, I will!”
D‘Urberville’s bad temper cleared up at sight of hers, and he laughed heartily.
“Well, I like you all the better,” he said. “Come, let there be peace. I’ll never do it any more against your will. My life upon it now!”
Still Tess could not be induced to remount. She did not, however, object to his keeping his gig alongside her; and in this manner, at a slow pace, they advanced towards the village of Trantridge. From time to time d‘Urberville exhibited a sort of fierce distress at the sight of the tramping he had driven her to undertake by his misdemeanour. She might in truth have safely trusted him now; but he had forfeited her confidence for the time, and she kept on the ground, progressing thoughtfully, as if wondering whether it would be wiser to return home. Her resolve, however, had been taken, and it seemed vacillating even to childishness to abandon it now, unless for graver reasons. How could she face her parents, get back her box, and disconcert the whole scheme for the rehabilitation of her family on such sentimental grounds?
A few minutes later the chimneys of The Slopes appeared in view, and in a snug nook to the right the poultry-farm and cottage of Tess’s destination.
9
THE COMMUNITY of fowls to which Tess had been appointed as supervisor, purveyor, nurse, surgeon, and friend made its head-quarters in an old thatched cottage standing in an enclosure that had once been a garden, but was now a trampled and sanded square. The house was overrun with ivy, its chimney being enlarged by the boughs of the parasite to the aspect of a ruined tower. The lower rooms were entirely given over to the birds, who walked about them with a proprietary air, as though the place had been built by themselves and not by certain dusty copyholders who now lay east and west in the churchyard. The descendants of these bygone owners felt it almost as a slight to their family when the house which had so much of their affection, had cost so much of their forefathers’ money, and had been in their possession for several generations before the d‘Urbervilles came and built here was indifferently turned into a fowl-house by Mrs. Stoke-d’Urberville as soon as the property fell into hand according to law. “ ‘Twas good enough for Christians in Grandfather’s time,” they said.
The rooms wherein dozens of infants had wailed at their nursing now resounded with the tapping of nascent chicks. Distracted hens in coops occupied spots where formerly stood chairs supporting sedate agriculturists. The chimney-corner and once-blazing hearth was now filled with inverted beehives, in which the hens laid their eggs; while out-of-doors the plots that each succeeding householder had
carefully shaped with his spade were torn by the cocks in wildest fashion.
The garden in which the cottage stood was surrounded by a wall and could only be entered through a door.
When Tess had occupied herself about an hour the next morning in altering and improving the arrangements, according to her skilled ideas as the daughter of a professed poulterer, the door in the wall opened and a servant in white cap and apron entered. She had come from the manor-house.
“Mrs. d‘Urberville wants the fowls as usual,” she said; but perceiving that Tess did not quite understand, she explained, “Mis’ess is a old lady, and blind.”
“Blind!” said Tess.
Almost before her misgivings at the news could find time to shape itself she took, under her companion’s direction, two of the most beautiful of the Hamburghs in her arms and followed the maid-servant, who had likewise taken two, to the adjacent mansion, which though ornate and imposing showed traces everywhere on this side that some occupant of its chambers could bend to the love of dumb creatures—feathers floating within view of the front and hen-coops standing on the grass.
In a sitting-room on the ground-floor, ensconced in an armchair with her back to the light, was the owner and mistress of the estate, a white-haired woman of not more than sixty, or even less, wearing a large cap. She had the mobile face frequent in those whose sight has decayed by stages, has been laboriously striven after, and reluctantly let go, rather than the stagnant mien apparent in persons long sightless or born blind. Tess walked up to this lady with her feathered charges—one sitting on each arm.
“Ah, you are the young woman come to look after my birds?” said Mrs. d‘Urberville, recognizing a new footstep. “I hope you will be kind to them. My bailiff tells me you are quite the proper person. Well, where are they? Ah, this is Strut! But he is hardly so lively to-day, is he? He is alarmed at being handled by a stranger, I suppose. And Phena too—yes, they are a little frightened. Aren’t you, dears? But they will soon get used to you.”
While the old lady had been speaking Tess and the other maid, in obedience to her gestures, had placed the fowls severally in her lap, and she had felt them over from head to tail, examining their beaks, their combs, the manes of the cocks, their wings, and their claws. Her touch enabled her to recognize them in a moment and to discover if a single feather were crippled or draggled. She handled their crops, and knew what they had eaten, and if too little or too much; her face enacting a vivid pantomime of the criticisms passing in her mind.
The birds that the two girls had brought in were duly returned to the yard, and the process was repeated till all the pet cocks and hens had been submitted to the old woman—Hamburghs, Bantams, Cochins, Brahmas, Dorkings, and such other sorts as were in fashion just then—her perception of each visitor being seldom at fault as she received the bird upon her knees.
It reminded Tess of a confirmation, in which Mrs. d‘Urber- ville was the bishop, the fowls the young people presented, and herself and the maid-servant the parson and curate of the parish bringing them up. At the end of the ceremony Mrs. d’Urber ville abruptly asked Tess, wrinkling and twitching her face into undulations, “Can you whistle?”
“Whistle, ma‘am?”
“Yes, whistle tunes.”
Tess could whistle like most other country-girls, though the accomplishment was one which she did not care to profess in genteel company. However, she blandly admitted that such was the fact.
“Then you will have to practise it every day. I had a lad who did it very well, but he has left. I want you to whistle to my bullfinches; as I cannot see them, I like to hear them, and we teach ‘em airs that way. Tell her where the cages are, Elizabeth. You must begin to-morrow, or they will go back in their piping. They have been neglected these several days.”
“Mr. d‘Urberville whistled to ’em this morning, ma‘am,” said Elizabeth.
“He! Pooh!”
The old lady’s face creased into furrows of repugnance, and she made no further reply.
Thus the reception of Tess by her fancied kinswoman terminated, and the birds were taken back to their quarters. The girl’s surprise at Mrs. d‘Urberville’s manner was not great; for since seeing the size of the house she had expected no more. But she was far from being aware that the old lady had never heard a word of the so-called kinship. She gathered that no great affection flowed between the blind woman and her son. But in that, too, she was mistaken. Mrs. d’Urberville was not the first mother compelled to love her offspring resentfully and to be bitterly fond.
In spite of the unpleasant initiation of the day before, Tess inclined to the freedom and novelty of her new position in the morning when the sun shone, now that she was once installed there; and she was curious to test her powers in the unexpected direction asked of her, so as to ascertain her chance of retaining her post. As soon as she was alone within the walled garden, she sat herself down on a coop and seriously screwed up her mouth for the long-neglected practise. She found her former ability to have degenerated to the production of a hollow rush of wind through the lips, and no clear note at all.
She remained fruitlessly blowing and blowing, wondering how she could have so grown out of the art which had come by nature, till she became aware of a movement among the ivy-boughs which cloaked the garden-wall no less than the cottage. Looking that way, she beheld a form springing from the coping to the plot. It was Alec d‘Urberville, whom she had not set eyes on since he had conducted her the day before to the door of the gardener’s cottage, where she had lodgings.
“Upon my honour!” cried he. “There was never before such a beautiful thing in Nature or Art as you look, ‘Cousin’ Tess [’Cousin’ had a faint ring of mockery]. I have been watching you from over the wall—sitting like Im-patience on a monument, and pouting up that pretty red mouth to whistling shape, and whooing and whooing, and privately swearing, and never being able to produce a note. Why, you are quite cross because you can’t do it.”
“I may be cross, but I didn’t swear.”
“Ah! I understand why you are trying—those bullies! My mother wants you to carry on their musical education. How selfish of her! As if attending to these curst cocks and hens here were not enough work for any girl. I would flatly refuse if I were you.”
“But she wants me particularly to do it and to be ready by to morrow morning.”
“Does she? Well then—I’ll give you a lesson or two.”
“Oh no, you won‘t!” said Tess, withdrawing towards the door.
“Nonsense; I don’t want to touch you. See—I’ll stand on this side of the wire-netting and you can keep on the other; so you may feel quite safe. Now, look here; you screw up your lips too harshly. There ‘tis—so.”
He suited the action to the word and whistled a line of “Take, O Take Those Lips Away.” But the allusion was lost upon Tess.
“Now try,” said d‘Urberville.
She attempted to look reserved; her face put on a sculptural severity. But he persisted in his demand, and at last, to get rid of him, she did put up her lips as directed for producing a clear note; laughing distressfully, however, and then blushing with vexation that she had laughed.
He encouraged her with “Try again!”
Tess was quite serious, painfully serious by this time; and she tried—ultimately and unexpectedly emitting a real round sound. The momentary pleasure of success got the better of her; her eyes enlarged and she involuntarily smiled in his face.
“That’s it! Now I have started you—you’ll go on beautifully. There—I said I would not come near you; and in spite of such temptation as never before fell to mortal man, I’ll keep my word... Tess, do you think my mother a queer old soul?”
“I don’t know much of her yet, sir.”
“You’ll find her so; she must be, to make you learn to whistle to her bullfinches. I am rather out of her books just now, but you will be quite in favour if you treat her live-stock well. Good morning. If you meet with any difficulties and want
help here, don’t go to the bailiff, come to me.”
It was in the economy of this régime that Tess Durbeyfield had undertaken to fill a place. Her first day’s experiences were fairly typical of those which followed through many succeeding days. A familiarity with Alec d‘Urberville’s presence—which that young man carefully cultivated in her by playful dialogue and by jestingly calling her his cousin when they were alone—removed much of her original shyness of him, without, however, implanting any feeling which could engender shyness of a new and tenderer kind. But she was more pliable under his hands than a mere companionship would have made her, owing to her unavoidable dependence upon his mother and, through that lady’s comparative helplessness, upon him.
She soon found that whistling to the bullfinches in Mrs. d‘Urberville’s room was no such onerous business when she had regained the art, for she had caught from her musical mother numerous airs that suited those songsters admirably. Afar more satisfactory time than when she practised in the garden was this whistling by the cages each morning. Unrestrained by the young man’s presence, she threw up her mouth, put her lips near the bars, and piped away in easeful grace to the attentive listeners.
Mrs. d‘Urberville slept in a large four-post bedstead hung with heavy damask curtains, and the bullfinches occupied the same apartment, where they flitted about freely at certain hours and made little white spots on the furniture and upholstery. Once while Tess was at the window where the cages were ranged, giving her lesson as usual, she thought she heard a rustling behind the bed. The old lady was not present, and, turning round, the girl had an impression that the toes of a pair of boots were visible below the fringe of curtains. Thereupon her whistling became so disjointed that the listener, if such there were, must have discovered her suspicion of his presence. She searched the curtains every morning after that, but never found anybody within them. Alec d’Urberville had evidently thought better of his freak to terrify her by an ambush of that kind.