by Susan Wiggs
“You’ll only make a mess of things if you try to tell Butler you wrote that letter by mistake.”
“Things are already a mess, thanks to you.”
“Abby.” He descended two steps so his face was even with hers. In the shadowy hallway, he looked mysterious, corrupt, sensual…fascinating. “Let events unfold as they were meant to do. What you said in that letter—your honesty, your passion—it’s a rare thing. You probably don’t even realize how rare. I’ll tell you what Butler is feeling right now, having read what you wrote.”
He brushed his thumb over her wrist, his touch so bold that she didn’t think quickly enough to pull away. “He’s feeling ten feet tall, Abby.”
“I don’t know what you mean.”
“To be the object of a love like that…It’s a gift beyond price. Believe that, Abby. Believe in your own heart. God knows, Butler does. Don’t take it away from him.”
“How do you know what he’s feeling?”
He leaned forward, and she noted with a shock that he was closer to her than any man had ever been. If she tilted her head the least little bit, they would be kissing, she thought wildly.
“Because, Abby,” he said, “I felt that way myself, once, long ago.”
Eight
Someone had taken a ball-peen hammer to his head. Lying in the dark in the middle of the night, Jamie could only conclude that some manner of assassin had broken into the house and stood over him, pounding at his unprotected head with a deadly rhythm.
He dragged his eyes open, blinking at darkness. His mouth felt like the bottom of a cave. A cave filled with bat guano.
God. What had he done?
He lurched to his feet and staggered across the room, banging his shin on something. Swearing, he groped his way to the washstand and found the basin filled with water. He bathed his face and rinsed his mouth and slowly began to feel human again.
He used to find entertainment in a glass or two of whiskey. During his lost years overseas, he’d found that and more in a taste of absinthe, heated by a match under a tiny glass spoon. But as time went on, he learned the limits of drinking. No amount of liquor could make him forget the things he yearned to erase from his mind—Layla’s betrayal and the nightmare of his imprisonment. The botched escape and the sacrifice Noah had made for him.
Bracing the heels of his hands on the edge of the stand, he cast off his bitter regrets and glared into the darkness. Tonight’s intemperance had been brought on by something quite different. He should not have done what he did. It was underhanded, dishonorable, manipulative.
Of course, he thought ruefully, that was why the people of Virginia had elected him to Congress.
He thought about Noah again and the reason he’d run for office in the first place, and renewed his conviction. Noah was gone, and now the home he had built for his family was in jeopardy. Jamie had to safeguard Noah’s legacy. To do that, he needed Cabot’s support. Cabot had two daughters. They were fair game when the stakes were this high. If Jamie took a hand in getting one of them married off to young Butler, he’d surely win the sponsorship of the two most powerful men in Congress.
The pounding in his head subsided to a dull thud. Finding his watch on the windowsill, he brushed aside the curtain and held it to the light to check the time. It was two forty-five in the morning.
Moonlight cast a milky translucence over the rooftops of Georgetown. The night was empty and still, giving him the impression he was the only person astir in the world.
Then a movement caught his eye. A flicker, no more. The wind blowing a shadow across his field of vision.
But no.
Fully alert now, he dropped the watch and pulled open the door to the balcony. Cold air struck his bare chest, arms, feet. He hadn’t bothered removing his trousers before collapsing in bed. From the iron rail of the balcony, he located the source of the movement.
An intruder lurked on the roof of Senator Cabot’s house.
Jamie acted before he thought. He hoisted himself up and over the rail, ignoring the cold. Edging to the corner of the town houses, he balanced himself on a brick corbel projecting from the building. He knew better than to look down. Reaching out, he leaped across the narrow gap between the houses, landing with a metallic bong on the iron fire stair that slanted along the side of the building. He paused, not letting himself breathe, to make sure the burglar hadn’t heard.
When he was halfway to the top, it occurred to him that he had no weapon but his bare hands.
That had never stopped him before, and it didn’t now.
The intruder moved across the roof. Jamie could hear but couldn’t see him. He had a labored, lumbering gait as though he carried a burden of some sort. Senator Cabot’s silver service or jewelry, perhaps.
Jamie boosted himself to the roof, knowing he’d have to work fast to maintain the element of surprise. He was running as soon as his feet touched the tarred and pebbled surface, and in three strides, he tackled the burglar.
They hit the surface of the roof in a pile of grappling limbs. Air rushed out of his quarry’s lungs. A pair of fists beat at him, and a strangled scream tore through the night. He wrestled his opponent flat. A knee came up sharply, but he twisted to one side, avoiding the blow.
“Get off me, you great oaf. I can hardly breathe.”
He rolled away and sat up, gape-mouthed with amazement. “Abby?”
She brushed herself off, tucking a long robe carefully over her legs and feet. “Are you still drunk?”
“After this?” He picked himself up, offered a hand. “I think not. Are you still angry at me?”
“Oh, anger doesn’t begin to describe it.”
“Everything will be fine, I promise you.”
She hesitated, her gaze focusing on his bare chest. Her wide-eyed curiosity drew an unexpected reaction from him. Impatient, he grabbed her hand. As he pulled her up, she stumbled and lurched. He caught her against him, and for a long moment savored the closeness, the smell of her hair, her skin.
“You’re nearly as graceful as I am,” he commented.
Planting her hands against his chest, she pushed back and moved toward a dark, rounded hole in the middle of the roof.
“Abby, you’re limping,” he said. “Did I hurt you?”
She froze. The moonlight outlined her silhouette as she turned toward him. “You didn’t hurt me. Not just now, anyway. What on earth were you thinking?”
“I was going to save the day by capturing a burglar on the roof.”
Her shoulders trembled and he could tell she was holding in laughter. “You must be freezing, you great fool.”
“I think I’ve gone numb by now.”
“Here.” She stooped, then handed him a long, fringed shawl. “Put this on.”
Under other circumstances, he might have balked at donning a woman’s angora shawl, but he was grateful for it at the moment. He wrapped it around his chest, but it kept sliding down.
“Here, let me.” She stepped forward and draped the thing over his shoulders, then tied it loosely in front. “That’s better. I suppose you’re wondering why you found me on the roof in the middle of the night.”
“I am.”
She said no more but led the way to the far edge of the roof. When Jamie recognized the domed structure, he let out a short, incredulous laugh. “You have an observatory.”
“Indeed I do.”
“Your sister mentioned your interest in astronomy, but I had no idea you would be this…well equipped.”
“You expected me to be a dabbler, then. A dilettante. Switching from embroidery to chinoiserie to painting on glass, and oh, when I have a moment or two, I might take a peek at the stars.”
“I can tell by your hostility you’ve been asked that before. Don’t lump me in with your critics, Abby. I don’t belong there.”
“Why not?”
He had a peculiar urge to touch her, but held his fists clenched into the shawl. “Because I know you.”
“Yo
u’ve only just met me.”
“You’re easy to know.”
“For those who have read my private correspondence, yes, I suppose I am.”
That again. He’d done the right thing with the letter. She simply didn’t understand that yet. “Let’s not revisit that argument now.”
“Afraid you’ll lose?”
“Afraid we’ll both die of boredom. And now you’ve intrigued me. I must see what has you wide awake and skulking around at three in the morning.”
“Sweet heaven, is it that late?” She ducked into the opening of the observatory dome. He followed her, slamming his forehead against the top of the door.
At the curse that came out of him, she turned in the gloom. “What is that word you just said? I’ve not heard it before.”
“It’s Catalan,” he lied, though it was actually low German. “If I translated it, I could be arrested for indecency.”
“Oh. Never mind, then. Keep your head low and come over here.”
The light inside the dome was bluish, as though they were under clear water. A telescope was positioned atop an iron pedestal that swiveled by means of a foot pedal. With a lens a good eight inches across, the base sprouting calibrated attachments, it was an impressive instrument, its size dwarfing the busy woman in front of it.
She motioned him over to a low stool. “Sit here. Have you ever looked through a telescope before?”
“No. A ship’s glass, though.”
“I think you’ll like this.” She bent her head and positioned herself at the eyepiece, making a slight adjustment with her hand on a small brass knob. “You mustn’t touch anything. Take a look.”
Bending low, he closed one eye as though he were sighting down a rifle barrel and looked into the round lens.
Blackness.
He lifted his head. “What is it I’m supposed to see?”
“If you were viewing it correctly you wouldn’t have to ask.”
“Do you practice at being annoying or does it just come to you naturally?”
“Try again. Your head is at the wrong angle.” She startled him by taking his head between her hands. With her palms over his ears, she held his gaze in position.
“This is very strange, Abby. I’ve had women grab me before, but never like this.”
“Keep looking.”
He tried again, this time making a subtle adjustment of the angle of his gaze. The blackness resolved to a field of stars. They seemed to leap to life the moment he focused on them. He held in the sharpness of his indrawn breath, afraid to move.
“You see?” she whispered. “That’s the Hyades cluster, between the moon and Aldebaran.”
He was able to discern a V-shaped constellation. “Yes, yes, I see it.”
She guided him through several other viewings, and he was surprised to find himself enjoying the experience. He’d looked at the stars from the deck of a ship, the ramparts of a fortress and even from between the bars of a prison cell, but this was the first time he’d made order from the chaotic splendor of the night sky.
After a while, she led him away from the telescope, out onto the roof. “How keen is your vision, Mr. Calhoun?” she asked.
“Keen enough, I suppose. Why?”
“There’s a special event tonight, one that can best be appreciated with the naked eye. Look, it’s starting.” She turned him toward the northwest. He saw a peculiar hazy glow, and a distant movement, stars exploding in a rain of fire.
Amazed, he turned to her. “What is that?”
Even in the silvery blue darkness, he could sense her smile.
“It’s a meteor shower. Fairly rare in October, but it seems we’re lucky this year. We’re seeing a meteor storm.” She spoke with the hushed reverence most women reserved for prayer.
“It’s incredible. Like magic.”
“Not really. Earth is passing through a condensed stream of particles from a comet, and as the dust flies through the atmosphere, the particles heat up, creating the glow we’re seeing. All those bright meteors and meteoroids are from the parent comet.”
“Is that the comet you’re looking for?”
“Heavens, no. That was discovered and named by a Vatican astronomer named Giacomo half a century ago. When I spot my comet, I will be the first to see it.”
“How do you know where to look?”
She laughed. “It’s complicated. Just call it magic.”
He forgot the chill of the night and the fact that he was wearing a lady’s shawl as he relaxed and watched the display. The heavens had caught fire and were falling to earth. And yet to most people it seemed like an ordinary night, made for sleeping with the drapes drawn tight. As he watched, a certain feeling clutched at him. He was reminded of the way he felt the first time he’d seen the Matterhorn or the Great Pyramids or the Mona Lisa. He was looking at something so much larger than himself, so much more profound, that he felt like a different person.
“I’m amazed, Abby,” he said at last. “Truly amazed. You are a wonder.”
“Not in the least. It’s the universe that inspires wonder.”
“But it took you coming out here in the middle of the night to see it. Who could have imagined that this was all going on?”
“Trust me, it’s not that rare. The Leonids and Geminids will soon be on display. All things are visible if you know where and when to look. But you have to be patient and you have to look deep. Most people lack that patience.”
“And a powerful telescope,” he added. He was awash with the need to enfold her in his arms, to press his lips to her hair. But he didn’t. She had a fragile heart, he reminded himself, and she had entrusted it to another.
The moments slipped by. Unaware of his rampant thoughts, Abigail made copious notes and calculations using an array of instruments, most of which he did not recognize. By the time a rose-colored thread of dawn spun across the horizon, she had created pages of notes and tables.
In a house across the way, lights blazed to life as the servants started their day. Abigail scowled at the glowing windows.
“What’s the matter?” Jamie asked.
“It’s frustrating. The lights of the city impede the view.”
He thought for a moment. “What if I were to take you to a place that is completely dark?”
“Then I’d show you things you never dreamed of,” she said.
Her comment sparked an erotic thought of showing her a thing or two.
Jamie knew she’d like to go to the coast country, where the landscape of his boyhood was still as wild and dark as a primeval forest. Her sense of wonder pleased him, and inspiring wonder in a woman was usually not so simple. He caught himself staring at her as she bent over a leather-bound book, filling it with mysterious symbols. Most would deem her a plain woman, small and pale and earnest, but Jamie recognized delicacy in the lines of her face, in the smoothness of her skin. Everything he discovered about her was fresh and new, unexpected. She must have sensed his gaze, for she looked up.
“I think we are going to be very good friends, Abigail,” he whispered, touching her arm with blatant suggestion just to get a rise out of her.
She slapped his hand away. “To what end, Mr. Calhoun? What in the world would it serve? And why would I want that? You’ve already humiliated me beyond endurance by posting that letter.”
He didn’t reply to the accusation. He was supposed to befriend Cabot’s daughter, not insult her. He needed to become a friend of the family, a trusted ally. Quickly, he changed the subject. “Does your father approve of these nighttime adventures of yours?”
Her shoulders stiffened. “He thinks my interest is eccentric but harmless.”
“I would assume he’d be proud of a daughter who was a gifted scientist.”
“Then clearly you don’t know my father.”
The bitterness in her voice startled him. “Are you saying he disapproves?”
“I’m saying he’s a man with high expectations. And thus far, both my sister and I have
fallen short of those expectations.”
“Does that bother you?”
She hesitated, staring down at the pebbled rooftop. “Every day.”
The melancholy in her voice touched him. “Why?” he asked, shoving aside the tender sentiment. “Why does his approval matter so much?”
“I often wonder the same thing. I suppose it has to do with my mother.”
“I don’t understand.”
She turned her face up to the sky. “She died the day I was born, so I don’t have any idea what it would be like to have a mother. I know only that a piece of my heart is gone.”
Her candor struck at him with velvet blows. He didn’t want to think of Abigail Cabot as a person with feelings, but as a means to an end. Yet each moment he spent with her drew him, made him want to know her better.
She focused her gaze on a distant star and said, “All that one feels for a mother is, in my case, given to my father. Do you have a mother, Mr. Calhoun?”
“A rather lovely mother,” he admitted, kicking himself for having turned the conversation to this.
“And do you love her?”
“Of course.”
She touched her chest. “I have that love in me, too. But with my mother gone, it belongs entirely to my father. It’s in his safekeeping.”
Jamie did not know the senator well, but he had a sneaking suspicion that Franklin Cabot had no idea what to do with the love of a brilliant, passionate, troubled daughter like Abigail.
“I’m sure he feels blessed by your devotion.”
“He’d feel more blessed if Helena or I were to settle on a husband of his choosing.” She glowered at him. “After what you did, that’s not likely.”
Taking a soft polishing cloth, she wiped the telescope that extended outside the dome with the attention of a groom tending a prize racehorse. Closing the panel of the dome, she went to the low door at the top of the stairs. She gave a little grimace as she walked.
“Are you hurt?” he asked, grabbing her arm. “Should I help you down?”
She jerked away from him. “I don’t need any help.”
He backed off, holding his palms out in mock surrender.