"And what of those killed and maimed?"
Harald shrugged. "All men are hurt, one way or another. I'd liefer get a spear rammed through me than lie puffed and stinking with plague."
"Indeed this world is one of pain," said Elizabeth. Her mouth drooped.
"No," said Harald. "It is a fair and joyous place."
High above them a lark was singing, drunk on sun and sky.
Elizabeth bowed her head. "This is God's will."
"And mine," said Harald. He threw back his long hair. "The undying power and glory of my house, my blood in the kings of earth to come; there's a goal to work for."
A calm came over the woman. "Go, then," she spoke. "I shall say no more, only pray that your St. Olaf ward you from harm."
He looked at her, wonderingly. Her cowl had fallen back, and the sun washed over the rich tints of her hair. The face was turned forward, and his eyes followed it: down the brow and the delicate tilt of nose, to finely chiseled lips and curve of chin and throat. Her body was not full, but he remembered the feel of it.
There was a strength in Ellisif which he was only beginning to find out. Not for naught was she the child of Jaroslav the wise and mighty, and of Ingigerdh whom St. Olaf had loved. He murmured something to himself.
"What did you say?" asked his wife, facing back to him. He marked how beautiful her eyes were.
"It was a story I heard in Russia," he answered. "A man who had gone there with St. Olaf told it to me. The king was standing on a hill outside Novgorod one day when your mother rode by; her form was bowed and her face was faded. He looked on her and made a verse:
" 'From my hill I followed
the faring, when on horseback
lightly did the lovely
let herself be out-borne.
And her shining eyes
did all my joy bereave me:
known it is, to no one
naught of sorrow happens.
" 'Formerly in fairness,
filled with golden blossoms,
trees stood green and trembling,
tall above the jarldom.
Soon their leaves grew sallow
silently, in Russia-gold
alone now garlands
Ingigerdh's sweet forehead.' "
They rode for a while without speaking. Then Elizabeth shook herself, as if waking from a heavy dream.
"Luckier am I than my mother," she said. "I got the man I cared for."
Harold drew a long breath. "We've kept too high a wall between us," he said. "Let it come down. Would you like to fare with me to England?"
Red and white ran across her. "Yes," she whispered. "Oh yes, my beloved."
He smiled crookedly. "You are not fond of the sea," he warned.
"That shall not hold me back." She stared
elsewhere. "I looked not for this. ... I never dared hope"
"I can give you naught else," he said. "Strange to have wealth and men, and still be a beggar." "It is enough," she answered.
2
The next day rain scudded out of the north, and folk stayed indoors. The world drew close, gray and horizonless; there was only the beat of rain on the roofs and its drip from the eaves; now and then lightning forked in heaven and thunder banged down endless stairs. The wind piped and whined.
Harald sought Thora's dwelling. She must be told what he had decided, though he liked not the outlook of so doing. He found her sewing in her main room with several maidservants. The shutter in the loft window was closed, but many candles burned; the damp air made them smoke, the flames guttered in black and orange tiger stripes.
The king paused in the doorway. Odd that he should think of tigers. He had seen a few down in Miklagardh, and remembered them bearing the hot colors of his youth. Well . . .
Stepping inside, he said curtly: "Let the women go hence." They fluttered and cooed, a dovecote into which a lynx had strolled, and gathered their needles and scissors and cloths.
Thora remained seated. A tomcat sprang to her lap as she laid down the sewing, one yellow-eyed streak of midnight. She stroked it absently.
Harald watched her, and liked still less the thought of the hurt he must give. Tall and fair she was, with heavy copper coils about the handsome head, and she had stood by him as bravely as any man. Her redes had not always been good—now and then he still dreamed of Einar Thambaskelfir, after all these years—but each had been for the best as she saw it; and she had given him Magnus and Olaf, without whom his striving had been empty.
Yes, he thought, most men love not at all, once past their youth; the rest give their hearts to one; but mine was sundered long ago, and its halves lie in two pairs of hands.
He tried to call up the image of Maria Skleraina, but somehow it was blurred; she wore the face now of Ellisif and now of Thora.
His leman smiled, with the warmth that was hers alone, and pointed to the cloth laid beside her. "See, we are making you new garments," she said. "You must be well clad when they hail you king of England."
He drew up a chair and sat down before her.
"We could make you a new banner too," she said. "The old one is faded."
"Landwaster has ever brought me luck," he answered.
Strange that the grim blood-red raven flag should have been woven by Ellisif.
"If these northerly winds hold till Michaelmas, we shall have a swift passage," said Thora.
"Though then we're like to land before the Normans, and must fight them after the English," he replied.
"So much the more glory," she said.
Thunder bawled in the sky.
Harald looked at the floor; he tugged at his beard. "Thora," he said slowly, "I've somewhat to tell you."
"Yes?" Her fingers tightened on the cat's fur; it glanced up as a jarl might at some churl who defied him.
"The venture will be a mighty one," said Harald, still without meeting her eyes. "All I have ever gained will be set at stake. It may be that I will not return."
"Surely you will," she cried. Then, after a nervous little laugh: "Unless you find the English maidens too fair. But I'll see that you don't."
"That's what I was thinking of," he plowed forward. "The realm cannot be left headless. I mean to have Magnus made under-king ere I leave; he must stay behind to ward Norway."
"You must fight another battle of the Niss to make him do so," she smiled. "But you have right, and I'll help you in this."
"You must help me in more than that," he said, and now he looked squarely at her. "Magnus is too young and hot-headed. He'll have counselors, the older court-men, but is likely to override them. You can bend him toward wisdom."
Thora sat quiet for a long time. The rain spilled on the roof, and the oaks in the yard mourned with wind.
"Hard is it to let you go into such danger alone," she said at last.
"It must be done," he replied. "I could not give you a greater trust."
"Well, then ..." Tears blurred the long gold-green eyes. She caught herself with the sternness of forefathers who had been kings. "Aye."
"There's one other thing," he said. "Ellisif goes with me."
Thora sat as if lamed.
"I promised her," he said, almost pleading. "And English usage ..."
"You need not lie to me," she answered softly.
He looked for a spitting, swearing fury; this bewildered him.
"You must understand . . ." he began.
"I do," she said. "Much too well. Faithless were you born and faithless will you die."
He spurred his anger. "How often have I told you . .."
"Peace!" She lifted a hand and laughed harshly. "I know the story. And I am but your mistress. Your mind is not to be altered, so I must learn to live with it, like all Norway."
"It was never my thought to give either of you less honor than the other," he said.
"Or less hurts."
He looked away. "It's a thing beyond my understanding," he said. "I've broken Norway to my will, which even St. Olaf coul
d not do. Yet the lowliest crofter can keep two women under one roof and rule them so he has peace at home. I cannot."
She put the cat gently on the floor and got up to come behind his chair and lean over his shoulder. One hand stroked his head. "The reason for that," she said in a very soft tone, "is this: you are not any other man, but Harald Hardrede. What woman would be content to share you?"
She laid her cheek on his. "No, I've not the heart to blame you. You are as you are, and were you another my life would have been the poorer. Yet one
thing would I ask of you."
"What is that?"
"Abide with me till you sail. Let it be us two alone, as once it was." He could not refuse her.
* * *
In September Nidharos began to fill with armed men—the Throndish and northern levies. By day the town roared and brawled, even by night it was a storm of swaggering warriors, beer and brags and then fists or swords till the guardsmen came and judgment was passed! Yet a foreigner would have been surprised to know that a woman could walk safely in the wildest midnight. There would be raffish words said, but naught else unless she agreed. The violation of a woman of one's country was not unknown, but he who did it was counted the worst of men, to be slain out of hand by the rest and left unburied.
Harald called a Thing to crown Magnus. Before they went to it, the youth protested once more: "What sort of king is it you give the folk, who'll not be on this trip?"
"You'll have battles aplenty in your lifetime," said Harald. "Now let me hear no more of this."
"But Olaf goes! Even Maria and Ingigerdh are going!"
"The hardest part is to wait and watch."
"They why don't you do it?"
"Be still!" rapped Harald. "I'm yet man enough to turn a puppy like you over my knee."
Olaf stood silently by, dressed in his finery, letting them have it out. He had grown tall and strong limbed, his yellow hair fell sleekly past a broad handsome face, but he remained the quiet one. Among friends he could be merry, toward the rest of the world he turned blankness. It puzzled Harald that even the lustiest youths respected his judgment, seemed to stand a little in awe of him who would liefer think a matter out than draw a sword. Between Olaf and his father was a coolness, and the boy had shown neither happiness nor misery when told he was to come along. It was plain he thought the expedition a crazy risk, but he accepted it as he did most things.
What could be done about him? There was nothing to catch at, no insolence, not even sullenness; but God be praised that Magnus was there. Harald was leaving his oldest son behind less to have a king than to guard him.
They went to the meeting place, where Harald made known his wish, and the royal name was given Magnus. He took it glumly, but the warriors cheered. To a man, they liked him.
The day of departure drew nigh. On the last day ere sailing to meet the rest of his levy, Harald heard a Mass said for victory. He felt a thick heartbeat; when they brought forth the Host, it seemed him that Olaf the Holy hovered close. King and saint, you know me well, he thought; you know my cruelty and greed and haughtiness, you know I have been ungodly all too often. Yet what is it but the heritage we share, the Yngling race which hammered out a kingdom in blood and sweat? Warriors were we ever, and warriors will we remain. Not for the glory of God—I cannot pretend that before you, Olaf—but for the strength and fame of our house, bless us and ward us and lead us to victory.
When the service was over, he sought out Bishop Alfgeir in the minster's treasury. "We leave at dawn tomorrow, if the wind turn not against us," he said.
"God go with you, my son," said the biship unctuously.
"There is one thing. It was the custom of my forerunner King Magnus to care for the saint, clipping his hair and nails and showing him all honor. In this I have been remiss; I have only seen him once, many years ago. Give me the key to his shrine, and tomorrow I will go alone to do it."
Alfgeir started. Fear ran over the smooth-shaven face. "It is not needful, my son," he stammered. "It ... it was done only a short time ago."
"Nevertheless I will. Give me the key."
"No . . . no, my lord, I tell you it isn't needful; the saint likes not to be . . ."
Harald stood up, tall and threatening. "The key," he said.
Alfgeir tottered to his feet and got it with shaking hands from a chest. Harald smiled ironically. "Thank you, lord bishop," he said. "Pray for our success."
"I ... I will. ..." Alfgeir shuddered.
Harald wondered what ailed the man, but had so much to do on this last day that he soon forgot. In the evening he held a mighty feast, but went early to bed, telling his footboy to call him two hours before daybreak.
Thora shivered in the raw damp cold of the hall's bedchamber. She had been fierce and tender with him of late; tonight there was grief in her.
"What if you never come back?" she asked wildly.
"No, now, such words are unlucky," he said. "Indeed I'll return. Fifty battles have I won. It may well take a year or so to subdue England, but if it's that long I'll send for you."
She crept into his arms. The unbound hair streamed down her back as she buried her face against his breast. "I am afraid," she whimpered.
"This is unlike you," he said. "Ever you gave me a glad good-bye."
"I was younger then," she said. "It seemed as if we had all time before us, that we were deathless gods. But now I know how much is to lose . . . and how little to gain."
"Never was more to be had."
"What is it measured with having you?" He felt a stiffening in her, and she lifted her face in the darkness and kissed him. "Only God knows how much I love you, Harald. But go you must, and wait I must, so go with victory."
He drew her more tightly to him.
"Come," she murmured. "Let us not sleep tonight. There will be too much sleeping later."
He lost himself with her, and wondered why he had ever promised to take another woman along, and then forgot the wondering.
Nevertheless he drowsed off toward morning. Half awake, he had an evil dream. It seemed that Olaf came to him shining in the cold light of his holiness, and that the saint looked on him with wrath and warned him that God did not stand behind this faring. He jerked fully awake and shuddered toward the dear realness which lay beside him.
A knock boomed on the door, and the footboy's voice called: "It is two hours before matins, my lord."
"Aye . . . aye, so." Harald sat up. He felt empty with weariness.
Thora stirred, the pallet rustled beneath her. "So soon?" she asked.
"I go to tend the saint," he answered. A chill struck through him as he remembered the dream. But surely it was a false one; belike they brewed magic against him in England. "Thereafter I must to the ships and get all embarked."
"Then this is farewell," she said.
"Why, will you not come see me off?" He tried to laugh; it rattled in his throat.
"Oh, yes. But that's not the same. . . . Come to me." Her mouth sought his with hunger.
"Go, then," she said at length. "And whatever happens, I will always love you."
Once another woman had said that, on another shore.
He struck light to a candle and pulled on his clothes. Thora knelt to bind his cross-gaiters. When she was through, she looked at him wordlessly. He smiled to her and left.
The streets were dark, stars gleamed from the sky, and frost lay in the earth. Many men were abroad, torches bobbed and flared, echoes boomed between shadowy walls. The footsteps and clatter, the talk and barking laughter, seemed to come from very far away. Harald led his several guards to where the Lady Church loomed.
There he stopped and turned to them. The bearded faces sprang in and out of night as the torches flickered. Somewhere a dog howled. "Wait you here," said the king. "I go in alone."
The floor gave his footfalls back to him in a cold clashing. This minster was small and humble beside the cathedrals of Miklagardh, but it seemed vast now when only a few candles lit it. H
e thought of demons crouched in the hidden corners, dark wings beating up in the arch of the roof . . . and the graveyard that lay behind; the sun had not yet risen to drive the unquiet dead back into the earth. Harald shivered.
Before Ulf Uspaksson's tomb he stopped and gave prayers for the soul's repose. "I would you were beside me," he said. "It's been lonely since you died. Sleep in peace, my wolf."
Olaf's shrine glittered ahead, cloth of gold and candles burning. Harald offered his own, and knelt for an Ave and a Paternoster.
Olaf, watch over us. You who were the finest flower of the old North, remember us who follow.
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