by Sarah Dalton
“Oh yeah? How long?” He maintains a safe distance between us. A respectful distance. Or maybe he isn’t interested.
“I was eleven, with my dad. It was in Newquay, and I saw the sea and the cliffs from the top of the wheel.”
“I bet that was nice.” His eyes darken, which contrasts with the soft curls of his eyelashes.
“It was a bit scary,” I admit. “It was pretty windy that day. The seat wobbled to and fro and beneath us the waves lashed the shore. Dad had to hold my hand the entire way around. But even still, the view was kinda spectacular.”
There’s one thing I notice right away about Seth, he listens and he watches. He has a still calm about him, a quiet observation. Despite my initial nerves, I begin to relax.
“So what’s your last name?” he asks.
“Hades,” I reply. “You?”
“Lockwood. Hades is unusual. I don’t think I’ve ever heard that one before. Like the God of the underworld. Spooky.”
He has no idea. “Yeah, that’s the one. Although it’s more Scottish than Greek, according to Dad’s rambles about family history, anyway.”
He laughs politely and we settle into our seats. The silence between us is a comfortable one. The wheel rises slowly, arcing in ascent, revealing more and more of the world below us, and the sky above us. The fairground lights blink off as the rides shut down. Yet the rainbow colours of the Ferris wheel continue to flash as we remain. All around the world, lights are being extinguished. Nights end. Lives end. Yet I feel as though this is a beginning for me.
“I don’t usually go on the rides after work,” he says. “But you took me by surprise.”
“I did?”
“Yeah, I didn’t expect someone who looks like you to ask someone like me to go on a ride with them.”
I blush, grateful for the bright lights on my skin, hiding its natural colour. “You were nice to me, getting rid of those guys like that.”
He laughs without humour. “Those tossers. They’re here every night, causing trouble. I have their parents’ numbers on speed dial.”
My laugh turns into a girlish giggle and a wave of embarrassment ripples through me. He lets out a relieved laugh, one that is shaking the events of the day.
“Man, this job… I’ve seen some shit.”
“I bet,” I reply, the smile on my face growing as I become more and more at ease, letting myself go. “Have you worked here long?”
“Longer than I’d like.” He frowns. “I’m saving up. Working two jobs, right now. I’m a mechanic three days a week.”
“What are you saving up for?”
His face tightens. His jaw sets.
“I’m sorry,” I say, realising I’d asked a personal question. “I didn’t mean to pry.”
“S’all right,” he replies. He smiles, but it isn’t the same impish grin as before. He takes a small flask out from his pocket and swigs. “Want some? Don’t worry, I only drink this stuff off duty, not when I’m working the rides.”
I eye the flask warily. It’s been a while since I had any alcohol, and last time it ended with a frightening conversation with a green-eyed ghost. It could be the events of the day, or it could be the warm night air, or it could be Seth’s eyes, but damn it, I want a drink. Sometimes you have to take a risk to end up with something wonderful. I reach for the flask.
The liquid burns my throat and I almost cough it straight back up. “What is it?”
He chuckles. “You’re not a whiskey drinker, then?”
I flash him what I hope is a devilish grin. “Not yet.” The second swig still burns, but the warmth spreading through my extremities more than makes up for it.
“Easy now,” he says, prising the flask from my hand with a gentle touch. “I’m not trying to get you drunk. Oh hell, I just realised how skeevy that could’ve been. You’re too trusting, you know that? It’s a good job I’m a decent guy.”
The whiskey, and Seth’s company, has elicited whatever happy hormones needed to help me slip into a state of relaxation. I lean back in my seat and tilt my head to the sky. On any other night I hate to look up at the stars. I hate to be reminded that we’re in this huge universe that we don’t understand, and we’re a speck of insignificance on a great big piece of rock circling around a ginormous lump of fire. Tonight, I could get lost in space. I could stare up at the moon all night.
“Shooting star?” Seth asks.
“No, an aeroplane,” I reply.
“Somewhere you want to go?” he asks.
I turn my eyes back to him. We hold gaze. “No.”
No smiles. No impish grin. Instead—his eyes on mine. His eyes coming closer, until I feel as though his eyelashes might graze my cheek. His lips near mine. The scent of musk, whiskey and smoke. Sweet. Sweet scent. Him.
Jolt.
Groan.
The wheel stops. We break apart and laugh.
“Looks like Damo’s giving us a little sightseeing time,” Seth says. He pushes his fingers into his lush hair. There’s a ring on his right hand. The silver of it catches one of the flashing lights, so that it turns green, and then yellow. “You haven’t told me why you’re here? You local?”
“I’m on holiday,” I say.
He raises an eyebrow. “And you came to Nettleby?”
What I don’t tell him is that I’m with my parents. That would be even more embarrassing.
“Are you local?” I ask.
“Yeah,” he says with a sigh.
“Maybe you could show me around?” Mary, what on Earth are you doing?
He grins. “Sure.
He moves a little closer and wraps his arm around my shoulder, pausing not once but twice, as though almost changing his mind. There’s a slight flush of pink on his cheeks. It could be nerves, or it could be the whiskey. Lacey would be proud of me. For the first time ever, I’m on a normal date with a great guy, and it’s going well. There aren’t any Things, or ghosts, or people with psychiatric issues. There is me and Seth—alone.
Warm, fuzzy feelings spread through my arms as I lean into him. We stay silent for a while, watching the lights from the campsite. Beyond the fairground I know there’s a forest, but it’s now a black fade in the night. The fairground is dark, with the occasional torch light and one or two flood lights to help the men as they lock up for the night.
“Damo’s taking his time,” Seth says. His eyes narrow with concern.
“Something the matter?” I ask. We do seem to have been still for a while.
“I dunno,” Seth says. He turns in his seat so that he’s leaning over the ledge, and pulls his arm out from under me. Cupping his hands around his mouth he yells, “Damo! Hey, Damo. What’s going on, mate? You gonna get this thing started or what?”
A chill runs through me. Am I such bad company? Does he want to get rid of me? To get this date over and done with?
“Sorry,” he says, turning back to me. “I get a little nervous with these rides. When you know how they work, you know how much can go wrong.”
“Oh, okay.” I think back to his safety conscious worrying over the safety bar. Wow, a carnie who cares about welfare, that’s a first.
I glance at my watch. 11:30pm, time flies. I should try to get home before midnight so that the ‘rents don’t have simultaneous coronaries. When I realise that this is going to end soon, heavy weights pull at my stomach. I like being with Seth.
The wheel lurches forward with a groan.
“There, it’s—” My blood runs cold. The Ferris wheel jerks forward, no longer running smoothly like it did on the way up, but worse than that, worse than the possible failure of the ride, I see a dark shadow, and then I see it.
“No,” I mutter without meaning to.
“What’s wrong?” Seth says.
I shake my head. This can’t be happening now, not on the first date that has made me feel normal.
It crawls up the ride.
Bony fingers cling to the metal framework.
An x-ray of bones shi
ne through its skin. I lean forward and grip the safety bar with my fingers, gripping so hard that the whites of my knuckles protrude through my skin, like the bones of the Thing climbing up to me.
“What do you want?” I whisper.
“What did you say?” Seth asks.
“Nothing,” I reply.
“Are you all right? You look a little pale? It’s the ride, isn’t it? Don’t worry, it gets a bit stiff sometimes, when it’s been inactive for a few minutes. Did I frighten you with what I said? Honestly, it’s fine. Damo knows how to—”
Screeeeeech.
The ride stops so abruptly that I’m thrust forward against the safety bar. My head snaps forward, painfully. One of the bears slips from my grasp and hurtles down towards the black ground below.
“Shit.” Seth grabs hold of my shoulders and pulls me back against the seat. “That’s never happened before. Are you all right?”
The Thing is gone. It has passed on the warning, showing me its hideous face. Now I have to wait for whatever horrible event is about to happen.
Are we going to die?
The Ferris wheel bench rocks back and forth, suspended halfway down the 80 foot full height of the wheel, as boasted on the sign by the ticket booth. Seth holds me tight, his anxious face turned down towards the control booth below.
“Damo?” he shouts. “Damo, what’s happening down there, pal?”
There’s the scrape of a door opening and a small voice calls up. “Summats up, mate. The controls have gone funny. I keep trying to get you down, but then it… it’s like it has a life of its bloody own.”
Seth rubs his chin. The wheel lurches forward again, this time making me cry out and grip onto Seth’s arm tighter.
“I’ve got you,” he murmurs. “It’s gonna be all right.”
I shake my head. No it isn’t. When the Things show up, it’s because someone is going to get hurt. It’s not usually me, it’s someone else. Death follows me.
“This is my fault,” I whisper.
“What?” he says.
“Bad things happen… you… you should get away from me.”
Our seat rocks forward, forcing us both up against the safety bar. “This isn’t your fault—”
The bench drops an inch to the left, but my heart drops to my knees. We slide together, hitting the edge. In a moment of utter panic I realise that the chain has come loose at the top. There’s a good chance it will break altogether and we’ll fall…
Chapter Six
“Mary?” Lacey flickers on, balancing on the edge of our bench. I’ve never been so relieved to see her. I don’t know what she can do, but the sight of her familiar face begins to calm my nerves.
Seth has his fingers around my arms, pinning me to the seat, trying to stop us from slipping over the edge. My heart pounds like a piston against my ribs, so hard I’m afraid they’ll break.
“What the hell?” Lacey says. Her eyes flash when she sees the broken chain and the drop below us. Her expression darkens with terror before she whispers, “We’re not alone,” with a distant voice. I’m trying to concentrate on holding on with Seth, but Lacey’s expression, and the way she stares down at the framework of the Ferris wheel, fills me with dread. “I can feel her. She’s angry, so angry. She wants justice. She wants…”
Death, she wants death. There’s no need for her to finish that sentence. I already know it. Death follows me.
“Mary,” Seth says. “I think this chain is going to snap.” His forehead is covered in a slick of sweat. “I have to climb up to the next carriage and pull you up. You’re going to have to hold on to the safety bar until I’m up there.”
“He’s right, Mares,” Lacey says. “That thing is going to snap. There’s some bad mojo here. Listen to the guy. Trust him.”
“Be careful,” I whisper.
He nods, releases my arm, and gently wraps my hands around the safety bar. The bear lies uselessly in my lap. He takes a deep breath and wipes the sweat from his forehead with the sleeve of his shirt. “Hold on tight. I won’t be long.”
A primal sort of fear takes over me. The kind that you feel in your gut, or even deeper, right down in your bones. My muscles clench as he lifts himself from the seat, grabbing on to the metal framework of the Ferris wheel. The bench rights itself as his weight leaves the car, tipping me back to the left. I slide slightly, dislodging the bear. My throat is thick and dry as I watch it plummet towards the field below. I blink and turn away.
Seth is strong. He lifts his own weight with relative ease, but maintaining that weight is tough. The tension in his arms causes muscles to protrude as he swings his legs up to balance himself on the wheel. I know he told me to hold on to the safety bar, but I let go and turn around so that I position myself under him. Maybe I could grab him if he falls. Maybe I could save him because the thought of watching him plunge to his death churns at my stomach.
“Hold tight, Mares,” Lacey says. “It’s gonna be fine.”
“What’s doing this?” I whisper. “What is it?”
Her voice changes to a lower register. “It’s a spirit. I can feel her. She’s pretty scary. Um, maybe a bit on the evil side.”
A tear rolls down my nose. I watch as Seth grapples along the framework, moving closer to the seat above us. Why would anything do this to us?
But then it isn’t the first time I’ve faced evil. The difference being that last time the evil was human.
Seth’s fingers miss on his first reach towards the upper carriage. I gasp, hoping, praying he can make it. He swings on one arm, the tension visible on his strained face.
“Hold on,” I shout, somehow hoping it will help. “A few inches to your right, grab the bar.”
Seth swings one more time. He does it! His fingers loop over the bench, gripping the carriage above us. My heart leaps into my mouth. Lacey lets out a “Wooohooo!” He’s going to be all right.
The next arm reaches out as he clings on with his legs and one hand. First time, miss. Second time, gets it. Now all he needs to do is pull the rest of his body onto the bench. I grip the back of my seat, tingling nerves swimming in my stomach, the whiskey churning, burning, turning.
Please.
Seth begins to pull himself up.
The wheel lurches forward. The chain on my seat breaks and time seems to freeze.
The first time in my life that I faced death, I rejected it. I decided that I wouldn’t die in the fire at my school. I made the decision right then and there that I would get myself out alive, and I did. The second time I faced death, I accepted it. I realised that I had lived with the shadow of it hanging over my existence, stopping me from truly living. At that moment, I let it go.
Lacey died instead of me.
This time, I want to live, and I don’t want to lose anyone else, even the fairground guy who stepped into my life less than five hours ago. But, unlike the first time, I’m not afraid, not even of the pain. I think that’s how I manage to jump.
And grasp the side of the Ferris wheel.
Seth hangs from the bench above, his face pure purple with effort, his arms strained.
“Hold on, Mary. I can… get… myself… up,” he says, lifting his dangling legs with his forearms.
The wheel is stuck… for now… and I use the stillness to my advantage, climbing up the framework so I can meet Seth in the upper carriage.
Lacey crawls up the wheel, showing me where I can take a handhold, where I can avoid hot lights, and where I can shove the toe of my trainers to gain purchase.
I’m not strong, and I’m forced to reach inside myself for the extra strength to keep me going, to stop my muscles from giving up. The next time I glance across at Seth, he’s in the bench, leaning back in the seat, his chest rising and falling, a glazed look of shock on his face. I know the feeling.
His eyes snap to mine and in an instant he’s out of his trance and working to help me. On his belly, he reaches forwards, underneath the safety bar, so I can take hold of his hands.
My calves burn with the effort. My arms ache. My heart thumps against my ribcage. I don’t care. We’re making it. We’re doing this. I won’t be like that boy in the car park. I push myself forwards. Then I grip with my knees and lean my body weight against the metal as I reach out towards Seth.
His fingers flex towards me. “You can do this.”
It’s that moment again; that life or death moment when thoughts rush through your brain like a speeding train. I can’t do this. Yes, you can. Remember when you were little and you fell off your bike and broke your arm? Yeah? Well this is gonna hurt a hundred times more than that.
Acceptance.
“Mary, reach for him.” It’s Lacey’s voice, soothing and believing. She always believed. Always.
I reach out for him, our fingers touch but they don’t connect.
Then again, Lacey died believing.
I’m not Lacey.
My fingers curl over his. He wiggles forward, getting a better hold of me.
“She’s here,” Lacey whispers. “I can… I’ll find her. I’ll stop her.”
“Yeah, you do that,” I say, struggling to keep hold of Seth.
“Let go, Mary, I’ve got you,” Seth says.
Let go.
Are there two words in the English language more laden with meaning?
I do. And in doing it, I soar. No, I don’t fall, I dangle, struggling to pull myself onto the seat above, but there’s something about the feeling of putting all your trust in one person; it fills your heart with this freeing sensation that tells you life will never be the same again. I’ve opened myself now. Maybe it will never close.
By some miracle, I end up squirming under the safety bar and into Seth’s arms. He’s sticky with sweat, his heart hammers against his chest, thrumming beneath my ear. He holds me fiercely.
“I can’t believe we did it,” he says.
“Now we just need to get down.”
We break into manic giggles, the stress and the enormity of our achievement hitting us both at the same time. Below us, a crowd has gathered. One of the fairground workers shouts up.