No one groomed the field they played on. The park department mowed it once a week, but that was all. Sometimes somebody on one of the teams would bring down a rake and try to smooth things out a little, but there were too many games, and everyone had jobs, and there was just time to come home and change and get to the park. There wasn’t much time for groundskeeping. The right-hand batter’s box had holes worn in it by an endless series of right-handed hitters digging in. Whatever your natural batting stance, you were forced to set your feet in the holes.
Jesse didn’t like it. When he’d played he’d hit with a slightly open stance. The holes in the batter’s box forced him to close it up. On the other hand the ball was fat, and it came a lot slower than it had in the minor leagues. And why did he care anyway? Jesse smiled to himself. Pride. The fact of having been good carried with it its own responsibility. He was supposed to be the best player in the league. It mattered.
The pitcher wasn’t good. Some of the guys in the league could bring it, and the pitcher’s mound was much closer in softball. But this guy couldn’t throw hard. He was getting by with slow and slower, trying to move the ball around. Each time at bat, the pitcher had worked Jesse high and low. He worked everyone high and low. The first pitch was high. The second pitch was low. With a one-one count, Jesse shifted his hands slightly so he could uppercut the ball. When the pitch arrived, shoulder high, he hit it over the left fielder’s head. There were no fences. You had to run out the home runs. Jesse could still run. Between short and third he saw the left fielder give up on the ball. Jesse slowed to a jog as he rounded third. He got an assortment of low and high fives when he crossed home plate. Just as if it mattered.
21
He met Emily Bishop in a coffee shop in a small shopping center near the town common. She wore the gray tee shirt she had promised to wear. It was too big for her. PROPERTY OF SWAMPSCOTT ATHLETIC DEPARTMENT was printed across the front. Below the tee shirt were baggy blue jeans held up by wide blue suspenders. Her feet were up on the chair next to her. She was wearing lace-up black boots with thick soles. Her hair was very short. Her face was without makeup. The hint of a good figure showed through the jeans and tee shirt. A pack of Marlboros lay on the table in front of her. She was smoking and drinking coffee. He wondered if Billie looked like her. Jesse stopped at the counter and got a large coffee with cream and sugar and brought it over to the table where Emily was sitting. She’d already decided who he was.
“I’m Jesse Stone,” he said.
“Show me your badge,” Emily said.
She had a flat, unpleasant voice. Jesse showed her his badge.
“Christ,” she said. “The fucking chief.”
“It’s nothing,” Jesse said.
“So what happened to my sister?” Emily said.
There was no way to soften it. Jesse had long since learned to just say it.
“We think she was shot in the head and dumped in a lake in Paradise.”
“You think?”
“Body is hard to identify.”
“So why do you think it’s my sister?”
Jesse told her. Emily smoked her cigarette and drank some coffee and listened with no expression.
“Billie, Billie,” she said when Jesse finished.
Jesse took a sip of his coffee. He waited. Emily dropped her cigarette into the half inch of coffee in the bottom of her cup.
“Christ, didn’t they fuck her up,” Emily said.
“Parents?”
“Of course, parents. Probably fucked me up, too. Except I got out in time, maybe.”
How and why they had fucked up their daughters was interesting, but it didn’t lead Jesse anywhere he wanted to go at the moment.
“Do you have a picture of your sister?” Jesse said.
“Not her alone,” Emily said. “But I got a picture in the dorm of her and me and Carla.”
“I’d like to borrow it,” Jesse said. “I promise I’ll get it back to you.”
Emily nodded.
“When they kicked Billie out,” Jesse said, “do you know where she went?”
“Someplace in Boston.”
“You know where?”
“No. Some nun runs it.”
“A shelter?”
“I guess.”
“She get along okay with Hooker?” Jesse said.
“Hooker was nice to her,” Emily said.
“Anybody that might have harmed her?”
“Half the guys in the high school were bopping her. Probably some older guys, too.”
“Any names?”
“No. I don’t know. She thought it made her popular. I didn’t want to hear about it.”
“Anything else you can tell me that might help?”
Emily lit another cigarette and inhaled deeply and let it out slowly though her nose. There was something practiced about it, Jesse thought, as if it were a trick recently learned.
“I got a letter from her back in my room,” she said. “I think she said the nun’s name in it.”
“Can we get that? When I pick up the picture?”
“Yeah, sure.”
They were silent. Jesse watched her smoke. He could see her eyes well up, but she didn’t cry.
“You okay?” he said.
“Yeah, sure.”
“Can we get the picture and the letter?”
“Yeah, sure.”
They left the coffee shop and walked to the campus. Jesse thought how different it would feel to go there and graduate. Old stone, old trees, wide paths, white houses with dark shutters, green grass in spring, new snow glistening in winter. Different from being a desert high school grad with a sore arm.
In Emily’s room there were clothes on the floor in a pile. The bed was unmade. On her desk, books and papers were jumbled with no pattern. Amidst the jumble was a framed picture of the Bishop girls. In color, all smiling at the camera.
“How old is the picture?” Jesse said.
“Last summer.”
Jesse stared at it while Emily looked in her desk drawer and in a moment came out with a letter. It was postmarked July 3. Emily handed it to him and Jesse took it. She picked up the picture and handed it to Jesse.
“The happy family,” Emily said.
Jesse took the picture.
“I hope Carla gets out before they get her, too.”
Jesse didn’t comment. There wasn’t any comment to make.
“They aren’t going to get me,” Emily said. “I’m outta there. I’m on my own and I’m never going back.”
“Your father still pay your tuition?”
“Of course he does. You think he wants to have his daughter drop out of a seven-fucking-sisters school?”
“Good to be able to count on something,” Jesse said.
“Fuck him,” Emily said. “He owes it to me. I’ll take him for everything he’s got if I can.”
Quite suddenly she began to cry. Jesse put an arm on her shoulder. She shrugged it off and stepped away from him. He stood quietly in the room without touching her until she stopped crying.
“You got someone to talk to?” Jesse said.
She nodded.
“Shrink?”
She nodded again. Jesse took out a card.
“You think of anything . . . or you need anything.”
He handed her the card. She looked at it as if it meant more than it did.
“You’ll do that?” Jesse said.
“Yes.”
“Might be good if you called your shrink,” Jesse said.
She didn’t speak or move. Jesse stood for another moment and then he left.
22
Jesse stood in the open slider of his condo, looking out over his balcony toward Paradise Neck. Below the balc
ony the black water of the harbor moved with aimless purpose against the rust-colored rocks. Jesse liked the sound. He would like it even more with a drink. He knew the girl was Billie Bishop. He couldn’t exactly prove it yet, but he knew. He knew there was something wrong in the Bishop house. Were the girls being molested? They seemed angry. Especially Emily. He thought about how pleasant it would be to sit on his balcony with a tall scotch and soda and look at the harbor and listen to the gentle sway of the Atlantic Ocean and not think about molestation. He wondered if Emily was a lesbian. As the evening lengthened it grew dark enough for the lights of the big houses on the neck to show across the harbor. He wished Jenn were here. He wished they could sit together and look at the ocean and the far lights.
He got up and walked into his kitchen. He took a glass down from the cupboard, sixteen ounces, the kind you got when you ordered a pint of Guinness. He filled the glass with ice cubes, poured two inches of Dewar’s into the glass, and opened a can of club soda and filled the rest of the glass with it. He took a spoon from the drawer and stirred the glass until the colorless soda diluted the amber scotch evenly. He took a sip. Perfect. He brought the glass out onto the balcony and sat down with his feet on the railing. He drank another sip. There was no hurry to get it in. There was a half gallon in there on the kitchen counter. There were twelve cans of soda in the cupboard. The ice maker in the refrigerator was perpetual. He was only going to have a couple. But it was comforting to know that there was enough.
There was enough moonlight for Jesse to see the boats waiting at their moorings. Toward the outer harbor a single boat with bow lights cut across the harbor toward the town wharf. Jesse had another sip. Probably the harbormaster. It was Friday night. He wasn’t scheduled to see Jenn until Wednesday. From the deck Jesse could smell the hint of clams frying at the Gray Gull, two blocks away. The smell was comforting. He thought about Billie Bishop’s picture. It was better to think of her in the picture. In the picture she was smiling. Probably doing what she was told to do. Cops see kids like Billie too often. Town pump. Kids so desperate for affection or connection or whatever it was that sex became their handshake. They were joyless encounters as far as he knew. For certain, it was not pleasure that drove girls like Billie to flop for anybody.
His drink was gone. One more. He got up and went to the kitchen and made another one and brought it back to the deck. The scotch made him feel integrated, complete. Not a wild drunk, Jesse thought. Mostly quiet. Mostly the booze enriched him. Jenn wasn’t nasty about his drinking. She had too much psychotherapy not to understand the struggle. But she didn’t know the feeling that when you were feeling it made it one you wouldn’t want to miss. Why would somebody shoot a kid like Billie? She could have been simply wrong place/wrong time. But that theory led him nowhere. Better to think about promiscuity. He took a swallow of scotch and soda. Sex was the only thing he knew about her that could have gotten her killed.
From the parking lot, out of sight of his balcony, Jesse heard a car door slam and the sound of brisk high heels. The front hall door of Jesse’s building opened and closed. Jesse took another swallow. Sometimes on Wednesdays when Jenn came, they would have sex. Often they would not. It depended mostly, he guessed, on what was going on in her therapy. He also was pretty sure that if she were having sex with someone else, she wouldn’t have sex with him, and vice versa. It was an odd standard, Jesse thought. But it was a standard. He had no such standard. He would sleep with Lilly Summers on a Tuesday and Jenn on a Wednesday and be pleased about both. Though he knew that if his relationship with Jenn hinged on it, he would develop such a standard on the spot. He smiled a little that he was having sex with a school principal. He drank some scotch. He wondered about Marcy Campbell. Maybe it was time to have sex with her again, also. Jesse Stone at stud. And he was going to find the sonovabitch who killed that kid, too. His drink was gone. He looked at the glass for a long moment. He didn’t want to give up the sense of wholeness. He took in some air and let it out slowly.
Out loud he said, “Fuck it,” his voice intrusive in the pale darkness. Then he stood and went to the kitchen and made another drink.
23
It took Molly a day on the phone to find the shelters in Boston run by nuns. There were three. Jesse found the right nun on his first try. Her name was Sister Mary John and she ran a shelter in the basement of a church in Jamaica Plain. When Jesse came in, Sister was sitting on the corner of a plywood banquet table with folding metal legs that obviously served as her desk. She was red-haired, wearing a black sweat suit with a white stripe on the sleeves. The only sign of her calling was a small gold cross on a thin gold chain that hung around her neck.
“Are you sure you’re a nun?” Jesse said.
“Pretty sure,” Sister said.
Jesse smiled.
“You talked with Molly Crane on the phone about a missing girl.”
“Yes.”
Jesse took out a blowup of Billie, processed from the family picture, and held it out for Sister Mary John to look at. Sister nodded her head slowly.
“When was she here?” Jesse said.
“Beginning of the summer,” Sister said.
“She’s not here now?”
“No.”
“Would you tell me if she were?” Jesse said.
“It would depend on who you were and why you wanted to know.”
“You know who I am,” Jesse said. “We think Billie was murdered.”
Sister’s face softened for a moment.
“Think?”
“Know, but can’t prove. Condition of the body makes it hard.”
Sister nodded.
A young black woman with a ring through one nostril came into the room and saw Jesse and, without changing her pace, turned and left.
“Am I that obvious?” Jesse said.
“A cop is a cop is a cop,” Sister said. “My girls have learned to be alert.”
“Do you know where Billie went when she left here?”
“I have a phone number. We’d agreed I would only give it to her older sister or somebody named Hooker.”
“Did you give it to either?”
“Neither of them asked.”
“May I have the phone number?” Jesse said.
Sister looked at him for a time.
“She’s dead,” Jesse said. “I’m trying to find who killed her.”
Sister nodded. She reached under the desk and pulled a yellow plastic milk crate toward her. It was full of file folders. She riffled through them, pulled one out, and took from it a single sheet of paper. She looked at the sheet and copied the number onto a little pad of stickum notes.
“Ever call the number?” Jesse said.
“No.”
“When the girls are at the shelter they don’t stay here, do they?”
“No. We are what the name implies, a shelter. They come, they go. They know they have a place to sleep if they need it. They know we will feed them.”
“How long was Billie here?”
Sister looked at her sheet of paper.
“Two weeks,” she said.
“Did she tell you why she was leaving?”
“She said she had a job.”
“She say where?”
“No.”
“How about the rest of the staff?” Jesse said.
Sister smiled. Jesse liked her smile.
“It’s pretty much a one-nun show,” she said.
24
Jenn was doing a stand-up outside a junior high school. It was part of a station promotion campaign designed to prove once again that Channel 3 was an integral part of the community. Jesse parked on the street and walked to the shoot. He stood outside the shot while Jenn did a cute weather quiz and wrapped the segment. She saw him while she was wrapping, and as soon as it was over, she
came to Jesse and kissed him lightly on the lips.
“Did you know the answers to my weather quiz?” she said.
“Do you?”
“I will when the time comes,” she said.
“Does anyone care what the answers are?” Jesse said.
“Not that I know of,” Jenn answered.
She turned to the crew.
“This is my starter husband,” she said.
The crew smiled. Jesse smiled, too.
“Kerry Roberts with the camera; Dolly Edwards, makeup; and Tracy Mayo, my producer.”
They all said hello.
“You guys pack up and take off,” Jenn told the crew. “I’ll go with Jesse.”
“How about you pack up,” Dolly said. “And I go with Jesse.”
Everybody laughed, and Jenn put her arm through Jesse’s and they walked to his car.
“What about that girl?”
“Billie?”
“You sound like she’s someone you know.”
“Yeah, sometimes you get that way. You spend so much time thinking about a victim that you’re surprised when you remember you’ve never met them.”
“So you know who she is now,” Jenn said.
“I know. I’m not sure I can prove it yet. But I know it’s Billie.”
As he drove, Jesse took a manila envelope down from the car visor and took out a picture of Billie.
“It’s blown up from a small picture of the family.”
“She’s cute,” Jenn said.
“I guess so.”
“Smile looks awfully forced though.”
“Everybody’s smile looks forced in a posed picture,” Jesse said, “except you professionals.”
“That would be me,” Jenn said. “A big-time professional doing weather quizzes in front of a junior high school.”
“Show biz isn’t for sissies,” Jesse said.
They had dinner in Cambridge, at a new restaurant called Oleanna, which Jenn was frantic to try. The restaurant was good, but Jesse knew it meant they probably weren’t going to sleep together. When Jenn was prepared to have sex she always came to Paradise and spent the night with Jesse. He rarely spent the night at her place. Someday, when the balance between them wasn’t so delicate, maybe he’d ask her why. For now he knew it was an evening that would end when he drove her home.
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