Big O's

by M. S. Parker

  The doors to the train car slid open, and I moved with the flow, exiting out and heading up the stairs into the chilly night air. It was a block to get to Raye’s work from where I was, and I shoved my hands into my coat pockets, walking fast.

  Outside the store, I paused, staring inside for a brief moment as I took everything in.

  It was the kind of store I didn’t normally frequent and not just because all it sold was women’s underwear.

  It had classy all but written across the plate glass window.

  Classy. One thing I was not.

  I could see my reflection in that window, just barely, but I didn’t need the reminder to know what I looked like. At least I’d changed clothes and wasn’t covered in car grease, although I doubted it would make much of a difference to the ladies inside the shop. I could see one of them now, dressed in sleek black, her hair pulled away from her face, moving around the pretty store as she did whatever it was shop clerks did when they weren’t waiting on people.

  I had no doubt none of them would want to wait on me.

  This might have been a mistake, I realized.

  Don’t be a chickenshit, I told myself. Go on inside.

  In the end, my desire to see Raye won out, and I pulled the door open, slipping inside and hoping that maybe I could go unnoticed by the staff.

  Fat chance of that.

  It wasn’t busy in the store, just a few customers here and there, and the moment I pulled on the door, a bell-like tone sounded in the air.

  A woman’s voice called out, almost songlike, “Good evening, sir! We’ll be with you momentarily!”

  I fought the urge to hunch my shoulders and retreat inside the heavy work coat I’d pulled on against the chill of the day.

  I tried to get lost among the racks of silk and lace, but a guy as big as me, a guy as rough looking as me tended to stand out when surrounded by pretty pastels and rich red silk. Finally, I stopped trying and ended up standing by a table with a display of silvery blue lingerie. I found myself thinking how Raye would look in some of the pieces on the table and was about to check the price when I sensed a pair of eyes on me.

  Glancing up, I saw one of the store clerks watching me with a disdainful look scrawled across her expression.

  Blood rushed to my face. The look was a reminder that I was out of place here.

  Screw the bitch, I told myself.

  Part of me wanted to leave, but the other part was determined to find Raye.

  Would she be embarrassed to find me here?

  That idea pissed me off, and I snatched the pair of panties off the table to distract myself. The price tag on them sure as hell proved to be a distraction. That much for a scrap of silk?

  What the hell?

  “Sir. Can I help you?”

  Please don’t be the snooty bitch, I thought.

  I looked up and found a woman who was beyond pregnant standing in front of me. She gave me a polite smile, then glanced at the panties I was clutching in my hand.

  I must have looked like an idiot.

  “I…um…”

  She waited patiently, like guys came in here and stuttered in front of her all the time.

  A door opened, and a familiar voice called out, saving me. “I’ll see you later…” There was a little gasp. “Kane?”

  “Raye,” I said, tearing my gaze away from the sales clerk.

  Raye was already halfway across the store to me by the time I’d made my way around two of the delicate looking tables, and we met in the middle, me catching her up in a hug.

  Somebody whistled.

  I pulled back, not letting myself kiss her because that probably wasn’t the thing to do in the middle of her place of employment. I wanted to, though, and the sight of her eyes shining up at me made the impulse that much stronger.

  “I was going to see if I could take you out to dinner.”

  She rose up on her toes and tugged my head down to meet hers.

  Well, okay. If she was going to kiss me while she was here at work, who was I to argue with her?

  We ended up at a chain restaurant on the square, one I’d only eaten at once or twice. Raye had commented that she loved the food there and that was all it had taken.

  She’d grinned at me when I took her hand and pulled her inside, but now that we were sitting down at a table, she looked…pale. Strained, really.

  “Everything okay?” I asked.

  “I’m just stressed about school.” She hitched up a shoulder. “I’ve got a heavy class load this semester, and between that and work, I’ve probably taken on more than I can handle.”

  “Should we have skipped coming here?” I asked.

  “No!” She shot me a smile. It was faint, but real. “I need some food. I never eat much more than a salad or canned soup when I’m working, and I’m starving. Besides, I love eating here. I can’t do it too often because I’m always strapped for cash, but I love this place.”

  Her answer made me relax a little, and when the server appeared, she ordered a cocktail while I stuck with beer.

  After we’d finished studying the menus, we placed our orders, and once more, an odd, strained sort of silence fell.

  “You sure everything is okay?” I asked again when I noticed she was folding the napkin up into a small triangle.

  She gave me a wan smile. “I’m fine.”

  “You don’t look fine. You look stressed out. If me showing up at your work was a problem–”

  “No!” She shook her head. “It wasn’t that.”

  “So, there is something.”

  Raye bit her lip, then slowly nodded. “Yes. There was something.” She huffed out a breath, and I realized how tense she was, as if one wrong move might make her shatter.

  “Want to talk about it?” I prodded.

  She slumped back against the seat and closed her eyes. When she finally opened them, the expression I saw there filled me with conflicting urges – I wanted to hug her up close to me. I wanted to pummel something.

  She looked scared and upset.

  Leaning forward, I took her hand. “What’s wrong, Raye?”

  She looked uncertain for a moment, then a heavy sigh escaped her, and she started to talk.

  The bastard who’d hurt her was named Chad.

  Apparently, he’d shown up at her work that day and had gotten in her face. Plus, it wasn’t the only time he’d been around. It was the first time he’d gotten confrontational, though.

  As she told me about how she’d handled it, I wanted to hug her tight. One, because she’d handled the piece of shit like a pro. But for another reason, she shouldn’t have had to handle the asshole.

  “Want me to dig him up and tear him apart?” I offered once she finished talking. “The two of us can…have a chat. He won’t ever touch you again by the time our conversation is finished.”

  Raye laughed, the sound light, almost easy. “No. I’m good.” She turned her hand over in mind and squeezed my fingers. “Thank you. Talking about it helped.”

  Me beating the piece of shit up so he never bothered her again would help more.

  It was an idea that held way too much appeal for me.

  “Stop,” Raye said, her voice gentle but firm.

  Flicking my eyes at her, I cocked my head.

  She gave me a knowing look, her hand tightening on mine. “I know what that look on your face means. But I don’t need you to tear him apart for me. I just…hell. I want to just forget about it.”

  “I can help you with that.” I lifted her hand to my lips.

  Heat softened her dark blue eyes.

  “I like the sound of that.”

  “I like the sound of that,” Raye said, her voice breathy as I kissed my way down her torso, straight on a path down.

  I’d just told her I had a goal in mind to kiss every last inch of her.

  It was just one of the fantasies I had involving her.

  She keened out my name as I thrust my tongue into her cunt, loving the way she rocke
d up, both her knees and her hands coming up to urge me on. Her knees squeezed at the sides of my head, her heels digging into my back while her fingers tangled and twisted in my hair, pulling me closer. Not that I could get much closer.

  I had my mouth sealed to the heart of her, and I didn’t ever want to stop.

  My cock pulsed, and I amended that. Eventually, my dick would get its way and be seated inside her, but for now, I was happy to just eat her sweet pussy and listen to her moan.

  Moans that turned more frantic and urgent as I lingered here, tugged there, sucked and nuzzled. She became demanding, something that hadn’t happened before, and the sound of her begging me, “Right there…just…there, Kane…don’t you dare stop…” was about the hottest damn thing I’d ever heard.

  She came hard and fast, but even as the climax worked through her, she didn’t let go of my hair, demanding I give her more.

  I climbed my way up her body and slanted my mouth over hers, feeding her the taste I’d stolen from her.

  “Open for me,” I muttered against her lips, using my knee to spread her legs wider.

  She wrapped them around me, and I felt the hot, wet kiss of her pussy. Without thinking, I arched my hips and pushed inside her.

  That was when I realized the error – no condom.

  She felt it, too, arching under me and bracing her hands against my chest. “Kane?”

  “I need a condom,” I said, panting against her lips. “Tell me you have one.”

  She shook her head, eyes wide.

  “Fuck!”

  But when I went to pull out, she locked her ankles just under my ass. “Do we have to stop? I’m on the pill. I started after…” Her eyes clouded, and I bent my head, kissing her hard and fast.

  “Don’t think about that. Don’t think about him,” I ordered her. “Not here with me. Not ever, if I can help it.”

  “No. Not here,” she agreed. “But…” She arched against me once more, her nipples stabbing against my chest, another wicked temptation in a sea of them. “But…do we have to stop?”

  I stared down at her beautiful face. Common sense warred with want. “We should. It’s the smart thing to do.”

  “I’ve tried to be smart my entire life,” she said, a smile playing on her lips. “It’s overrated.”

  When she undulated under me, I was lost. “Fuck smart,” I said hoarsely.

  With a groan, I sank all the way inside her, experiencing the bliss of being skin to skin for the first time. She was hot, wet silk around my dick, and it was the sweetest ecstasy I’d ever known.

  “You feel so good,” I muttered against her ear.

  “You, too.” She shivered under me.

  I withdrew and thrust back inside, keeping it slow, wanting to savor every moment.

  But nothing that good ever lasted.

  She tightened around me, the muscles in her pussy milking my cock until I squeezed my eyes shut against the sensation. I almost saw stars the next time she did it, and I slammed into her harder than before.

  She cried out.

  “Raye?”

  “Do it again,” she pleaded.

  Who was I to reject a lady’s request.

  I did as she asked, and what had been slow, almost sweet turned dirty and frantic, bordering on rough. Her nails dug into my shoulders, her mouth biting into mine as she sank her teeth into my lower lip. I thrust my tongue into her mouth, and she responded by sucking on my tongue the same way I’d like to have her sucking on my prick.

  It drove me crazy, and I had to fight not to let go of my baser instincts.

  Warning tingles raced up and down my spine, and I clenched a hand in the sheets beneath her, trying to ride it out.

  But she came around me, her silken tissues starting to spasm and grip me tighter than a fist.

  Her climax triggered my own, and those chills racing down my spine turned into something with all the force of a neutron bomb. It hit low and fast, and I exploded.

  I groaned into her mouth as the orgasm slammed into me. She spasmed around me, milking…squeezing…draining me dry.

  36

  Raye

  It seemed impossible that only a week had passed.

  It seemed impossible that a week really had passed.

  I hadn’t seen or heard from Chad.

  Kane had told me he hadn’t seen or heard from Calie…and neither had Austen.

  Maybe things were going to actually settle down, and I could enjoy this new time with my…boyfriend.

  Wow.

  I was still having a hard time believing it. Kane and I had what we considered was a talk. A big one. Neither of us had ever been in a serious relationship before, a fact that baffled me when it came to Kane, but he’d told me that he’d never really considered himself relationship material.

  You changed all of that, Raye, he’d said.

  I still found myself grinning whenever I thought about it.

  But Kane had gone and changed everything for me, too.

  That was the amazing thing. We’d gone and changed things for each other. And today, he wanted me to meet his family.

  He’d already told me that his dad died when he was a kid, but he wanted me to meet his mom, brothers, and sisters – well, one of his sisters. The other was back at school at M.I.T., a fact I found a little intimidating, although I wasn’t going to tell him. Not yet anyway.

  But his other sister and the rest of his brothers, their families, he wanted me to meet them and his mother.

  Which explained why I was standing in front of the mirror at ten a.m. on a Sunday morning, fussing with my hair and getting ready. I normally didn’t even crawl out of bed before ten on a Sunday, and here I was with my makeup already on and debating between a gray sweater that made my eyes look bluer and a blue sweater that made my eyes look lighter.

  I went with the blue sweater. It featured a V-neck that I thought would appeal to Kane, although it wasn’t at all revealing.

  I decided I’d picked right not even five minutes later when I answered the door, and he looked at me with a gleam in his eyes and a smile on his face.

  “You look gorgeous,” Kane said, a low growl in his voice as he stepped inside. He pulled me up against him, and I giggled as he rubbed his face against my exposed neck. “Way too good for me to waste on taking over to meet my family. Let’s get naked instead.”

  “That means I’m wasting it on you too, goofy,” I said, pulling away before he messed up my lipstick.

  His lids drooped low as he stared at me. “It’s not a waste. I’d appreciate it more than they would.”

  “Stay,” I said, holding a hand up as he advanced on me.

  He did, but not without a surly look…and a sexy one that ended up sending pangs right square to the core of me.

  Huffing, I turned on my heel. “You wait here,” I told him over my shoulder as I headed to grab my boots.

  If he ended up following me, we’d be late getting over to his mother’s, something I didn’t want to do the first time I met her.

  I’m not going to have a panic attack.

  I’m not going to have a panic attack.

  “Will you relax?” Kane murmured, leaning in to whisper the words in my ear as we trudged up the final flight of stairs. “You’re so nervous, you’re making me nervous.”

  “I’m sorry,” I squeaked out. “I just…what if they don’t like me?”

  “The only person you need to worry about is Dinah, and half the time she doesn’t like me,” he said, as brutally honest as he always was. He pulled me to a stop once we reached the top of the stairs, tugging me over to the wall.

  I leaned up against it, and he partially caged me in, leaning over me with one arm barring me in.

  I didn’t feel trapped with him doing this. I felt…protected.

  He cupped my face with his free hand and rubbed his thumb over my lower lip.

  “Why doesn’t Dinah like you?” I asked, irritated by that idea. I knew who Dinah was – the oldest girl, just a
little younger than him. She’d made far different choices than he had, and he’d never made any attempt to hide how proud he was of her – or any of his siblings.

  He’d made mistakes. I’d never deny that. But he’d overcome them and was trying to do better. That should count for something.

  “Because I fucked up. She won’t ever forget that.”

  I huffed out a breath, already deciding that maybe I wouldn’t like Dinah.

  I wasn’t very good at hiding how I felt because Kane’s face lit with a grin. “You’ll like her just fine,” he told me.

  I raised my chin. “Not if she doesn’t like you.”

  “It’s not that she doesn’t like me,” he said, hedging. “She just…I think she worries about the kind of example I might set for the younger kids in the family. I mean, hell. Look at Austen.”

  “Austen is old enough to make his own choices,” I said tartly.

  Kane opened his mouth, maybe to argue, but in the end, he just closed it and shook his head. “It’s going to be fine,” he muttered. But I don’t know if he was saying it to me…or to himself.

  I fell in love.

  Several times over.

  The first time was with his brother, Eddie, who kissed my hand and told me I better be careful and not break his brother’s heart.

  The second time was with Kane’s brother-in-law, Justin – Dinah’s husband. “I knew somebody would get him, sooner or later,” he said with a huge grin. “It was just a matter of time.”

  The third time was with two twin little girls, Rose and Zoe, who took one look at me and instantly held up their arms, demanding to be hugged.

  But the fourth and most important time happened when Kane led me to the kitchen and said, “Mom?”

  A slim woman with graying brown hair turned away from the stove.

  She looked at him, then her gaze fell on me.

  Her eyes widened slightly, then to my horror, they filled with tears.

  I wanted to hide, but even as I was considering the option, she rushed toward me and caught me up in a hug. “You’re Raye,” she said simply. “Kane’s told me so much about you.”

  It was the first time I’d ever felt such simple, non-demanding warmth.