G O D D E S S
R I S I N G
Prequel
in the
COMPLICATED CREATURES SERIES
A Novel
ALEXI LAWLESS
Copyright © 2015 by Alexi Lawless
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The following story contains mature themes, strong language, and sexual situations.
It is intended for adult readers.
This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, organizations, places, events, and incidents are either products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.
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Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright Page
The Prequel
Prologue
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Epilogue
About Alexi Lawless
Thank You
Book Recommendations
Notes
The Prequel
“I fell in love with her courage, her sincerity, and her flaming self respect. And it’s these things I’d believe in, even if the whole world indulged in wild suspicions that she wasn’t all she should be. I love her and it is the beginning of everything.”
—F. Scott Fitzgerald
Prologue
Samantha – Six years old
She held her granddaddy’s rough and gnarled hand tightly as she watched the coffin lower into the earth. Some man Sammy had never met was reading a psalm from the Bible, and she listened because she didn’t want to look at the heavy black box covered in small, fragrant white flowers. The scent teased Sammy’s nose and reminded her of her mama. And even though her granddaddy had explained her mama was in that box and that she’d gone to Galvladi—the Cherokee word for heaven—Sammy just didn’t believe it. How could that be? Mama had been here at the ranch just days ago, braiding Sammy’s hair, her fingers as soft and gentle as her voice.
A sudden squall startled Sammy from her reverie. Her eyes darted up, and she watched her father squeeze the swaddle of fine blue fabric resting against his shoulder, his expression stony as he stared out into the distance—his ranchlands stretching out as far as the eye could see. Her daddy didn’t seem to want to look at the coffin either. When the baby continued to cry, he handed him over to her Aunt Hannah, also heavily pregnant, like her mother had been just a few days earlier.
Sammy didn’t understand it—how her new baby brother, Ryland, had arrived at the same time her mother had departed. She worried briefly if the same thing would happen to Aunt Hannah when her baby arrived.
She watched silently as her father stuffed his hands into his suit trouser pockets, his head bent, shoulders hunched. She’d never seen her daddy like this. He was always so big and strong—and now he looked…so broken. And sad.
Sammy let go of her granddaddy’s hand and stepped toward her father, her black patent shoes making no sound on the dewy morning grass. She came to a standstill next to him. He didn’t acknowledge her, but she slipped her hand into his pocket, her little palm sliding against his as she gripped his hand tightly. He squeezed her hand back—a small comfort.
“I don’t want to watch either,” she whispered over the man speaking at her mother’s grave. “Mama’s not in there.”
Her father lowered slowly to his haunches, pulled their hands out of his pocket and entwined their fingers carefully. His long, lean fingers were so much darker and rougher than hers—infinitely stronger. He pressed his lips to the back of her hand, and Sam felt the sudden moisture there. She looked up, shocked to see her father weeping—big, fat tears rolling down the strong bones of his face.
“No, baby—she’s not.” His voice choked. “Your mama’s not here anymore.”
Sam watched her father closely, fear riding the edges of her little mind.
“Where is she, Daddy?”
He opened his eyes, red-rimmed and pained, dark as night. She didn’t understand what she saw in them—couldn’t fathom the agony.
“I don’t know, Sammy,” he whispered. “I just don’t know.”
Samantha – Nine years old
Sam was bathing Ryland when she heard a crash downstairs. Worried, she pulled Ry from the bath, toweling him down quickly before she carried him to his bed.
“Can you remember how to put on your PJs?” she asked, holding out his flannel jammies.
Ry smiled and clapped, and Sam dropped a hasty kiss onto his fine, damp hair.
“I’ll be right back,” she told him hurriedly. “You pick which stories you want us to read tonight. Stay in your room, okay?”
He nodded dutifully, his little tongue poking out as he struggled to stick his feet into his pajama bottoms. Sam shut the door to his room firmly, briefly wondering if she should lock him in there when she heard the voices downstairs.
Daddy.
Sam rushed toward the stairwell.
“You can’t see the kids like this, Rob—”
“They’re my damn kids, Dad—I can see ’em however I please—”
“Son, you’re a goddamn mess. You’re bleeding all over the place—”
Sam halted just as she reached the bottom, listening to her father’s slurred words as he argued with her granddaddy.
“—I want to see my kids!!—You’re not gonna stop me—”
“The hell I’m letting you see them drunk out of your damn head and bleeding like a stuck pig—”
Sam flew down the stairs. Her father struggled on the floor while her granddaddy tried to help him up from where he’d fallen just outside his study door.
Her father had a bloody fist and blood smeared on his face. She looked past him and into the study. The large glass display case holding her father’s and granddaddy’s Navy medals lay overturned on the floor, a disaster of glass and once-gleaming mahogany. In the middle, a broken silver frame, the picture missing.
Sam rushed to her father’s side, grabbing his arm, trying to help him up.
But he was too heavy and too drunk, the sear of whisky on his breath, his body too uncoordinated and lax to be moved. She looked down at the photo he gripped—a picture of him in his Navy uniform, young and proud and tall, standing next to her mother in her marriage kimono, her smile small and shy. Okinawa, 1976 had been written in the corner, now smeared with blood.
“Hey, Saaammy girl,” her daddy slurred, head lolling forward, his eyes closing.
She stared up at her granddaddy in horror. “Is he okay?”
“No, Sugar Bean.” Her granddaddy grunted with exertion as he tried to prop his drunken son up. “Call your Uncle Grant. Get him over here.”
She ran into the kitchen, dialing her Uncle Grant’s number frantically.
“Hello?”
“Uncle Grant—it’s dad. He’s hurt.”
“Where?” he asked, immediately alert.
“Here at the house.”
“I’ll be right there.”
Uncle Grant lived on the ranch, just a mile or so away.
By the time her Uncle Grant arrived, Sam and her granddaddy managed to get her father’s big body pushed up against the hallway wall. Sam had a cold, wet cloth pressed to her daddy’s bloody fist, but she was scared Ry would come down and see him like this. Her granddaddy urged her to go back upstairs, but she wouldn’t leave. She couldn’t leave her father in a mess like this, broken down and passed out drunk.
Her Uncle Grant stepped into the hallway, looked at her father with his head lolling against the wall.
“He have a fight?” he asked.
“With the display cabinet.” Her granddaddy sighed heavily. “He lost.”
“Clearly.” Uncle Grant eased his big frame down by Sam and smiled gently, though his blue eyes were sad. “You did good, Sammy,” he assured her, his big hand gentle on her shoulder. “Now why don’t you run upstairs and let me take care of him now?”
“No.” Sam shook her head, resolute. “I’m not leaving him.”
What she didn’t say was she was scared out of her mind she’d lose him too. And she didn’t think she could bear that.
Her Uncle Grant seemed to understand, so he just lifted her father’s chin and slapped him on the cheek a couple times until he started to come to.
“Time to wake up, Rob,” Uncle Grant muttered as her father blinked his eyes open blearily. “Let’s get you upstairs.”
“I’m here to see my children,” he mumbled, closing his eyes. “Never see ’em anymore.”
Sam’s mouth pressed into a hard, straight line. A wave of anger, as sharp and painful as the jagged glass on the ground, cut right through her. Her daddy never saw them because he never came home. And the few times he had, he’d been drunk out of his mind.
She’d begged him each time to stay with her, to stay with them, but he’d always disappear the next day, unseen for weeks, sometimes months. For years it had been like this, every time a variation of the same disappearing act.
Sam let go of her father’s hand and straightened, shoulders stiff with anger.
Uncle Grant shifted his big shoulder under her dad’s arm, hefting him up like a sack of feed. Her granddaddy took ahold of his other arm and they led him up the wide staircase, leaving her behind.
Sam stood, staring mutely at the mess of glass and broken wood—her father’s blood all over the floor. He’d dropped the photo. Sam leaned down to pick it up, her brow knitting as she tried to wipe off the blood with her thumb.
I can’t let Ry see this, she thought, strain and fear weighing heavily as she gripped the picture.
And so, as before, Sam began to clean up the mess her father left behind, anger and bitterness welling inside of her, her heart feeling hard and hurt all at once.
She stopped at her father’s room before she went to bed that evening, long after she and her granddaddy put Ry down for the night. Her Uncle Grant had insisted on cleaning up the parts of the case she couldn’t lift, shooing her off to bed with a gentle hug and a quick kiss to the forehead. But she kept the photo, hid it in her shirt pocket, unsure what she should do with it.
Sam stood outside her father’s door for a long time, her heart in her throat.
She knew he’d be gone in the morning.
He always was.
It didn’t matter how much she cried and begged and pleaded. It didn’t matter how good she was or how hard she worked at school or on the ranch. It didn’t matter how she took care of Ryland and her granddaddy.
None of it mattered.
He would always leave.
Sam pulled out the photo, stared hard at it, trying to recall her mother more clearly, trying to remember how her voice sounded, how soft her fingers were, and how she smelled.
But she couldn’t. It was getting harder and harder. Every month, every year, the memory of her mother faded faster. And now all Sammy could really recall was that she’d loved her once.
But her mama wasn’t coming back either. Not for her, not for Ryland, and not for her daddy.
Sam leaned down and slipped the photo under her father’s door.
This isn’t fair! She wanted to cry out—none of it was!
But in that moment, Sam realized she’d lost her daddy too on that awful day. And no matter how hard she tried, she’d never get him back.
And so, she straightened…and stepped away.
Chapter 1
August 1997
Texas A&M University, College Station, Texas
W E S L E Y
Wes adjusted the aperture on the camera, his heart beating a little faster as the air whipped around him. The storm was closing in. He could hear the resonant staccato of thunderclaps roiling across the darkening sky. The air felt pregnant with electricity and ozone.
He smiled as he fiddled with the lens. He’d been waiting for a day like this to practice his time-lapse technique. Thunderstorms were a rarity in this part of Texas, but when they happened—Man, oh man, there was nothing like ’em. He set the exposure time on his Leica and watched as the spiraling torsion of blackening rain clouds undulated toward him like an upside-down tsunami.
A sudden movement at the edge of the viewfinder snagged his attention.
Wes glanced up and caught a glimpse of a girl in the distance as she passed the University’s Corp Arches, her stride purposeful and quick. At the last second, Wes adjusted the camera down on the tripod to include her in the shot.
As the girl crossed his path, their eyes clashed. Something in her gaze made his breath catch. He triggered the shutter before he’d even fully anticipated the action, watching as a rough gust of wind made her hair furl and ripple like wild ebony ribbons. The girl picked up her gait, her clothes snapping behind her like a sail.
She was passing him too quickly, and Wes realized that in another couple seconds she would disappear from view—
He called out to her, but the sound was lost in the squall. And in the blink of an eye—she was gone.
Wes stopped the exposure, looking up again, trying to catch her, but she’d disappeared around a corner. The storm released the first heavy raindrop, the rataplan of thunder in the distance. He broke down the tripod, stowing his gear and running for cover before the inevitable rain doused the dry, sun-scorched plains surrounding the university.
Hours later, in the darkroom of the university’s Viz Lab, Wes developed the shot. He saw the girl, her transit across the Arches captured in a way that made the movement both ethereal and mesmerizing. The fact that Wes had captured her at all felt like a prize, as if he might have merely dreamed her, only to wake and find that it really did happen.
Wes went back to the Arches every day that week, looking for her, waiting for another sign, unsure why he felt the need to chase her down, to prove to himself she’d actually been real. The strange attraction was baffling to him. And each time he looked at the photo, there was the sense of something indistinct and tantalizing hovering just outside his reach.
He eventually hid the picture behind his other pieces in the studio, u
nsure what he should do with it, yet unwilling to allow others to see her, to share the moment with him. He wanted her all to himself—because she’d become his own, private muse.
*
August 1997
Office of the Commandant Headquarters, Texas A&M University Corp of Cadets
S A M A N T H A
Sam dodged the rain as fast as she could, but she still managed to get drenched on her way to the university’s Corp of Cadets offices. She was early for her meeting with Colonel Sasser, but only just. She might have been earlier had she not been distracted by the photographer at the Arches. She’d seen him before, noticed him around campus. Impossible not to, the way he looked.
Her cheeks colored as she pushed her wet hair from her eyes. The photographer was a head-turner, certainly, but she’d dated some good-looking guys over the past few years and none of them had sent her heart racing quite like that one. Sam was still distracted thinking about it when she stepped past the lobby of the Military Sciences Building toward the ROTC Commandant’s office.
“Well, look who’s here.”
Her head snapped up at the sound of Alejandro de Soto’s voice. He stood in front of her, blocking the doorway to the office, a smirk on his face. He was dressed in his Class Alpha uniform, a khaki long sleeve shirt, black tie, and khaki pants. He actually looked like an officer rather than the senior cadet he was, standing there all tall and starched and handsome. But Sam would rather get raked over hot coals than admit that to anyone, least of all that rat bastard. Alejandro had become her own private tormentor in the brief year she’d been at A&M. The guy who’d single-mindedly dedicated himself to wearing her down her freshman year.
Sam wondered briefly why Alejandro was back on campus early, and then she realized he must be working to help prep the incoming freshman cadet class.
Those poor kids, she thought. A whole new set of fresh, baby-faced cadets for him to abuse.
“De Soto,” Sam said flatly, chin jutting up in unspoken defiance.
His eyes narrowed. “That’s ‘sir’ to you, pisshead,” he said, his voice low and silky—for only her to hear. Just the sound of it gave her goose bumps. There was a lot of bad blood built up between them from nine months of accumulated abuse, but she’d be damned if she ever let him see her sweat.
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